bay had her baby! a little boy named hays! isnt that just awesome!
i look down at my little baby boy. my mini zetan. he sleeps silently on the pillow beside my head, his back rising and falling slowly. i cant believe im a mother now. i just had a baby. my little baby boy. and he is the most precious thing i have ever seen. how could i have EVER wanted to abort him.
i lean in a kiss my baby's face, then stroke his cheek. he sucks his bottom lip in then back out. i smile and stick my finger into his little hand and he holds on tight.
i stare at my son in awe. i am a mother, i have my own baby. this isnt processing...
a form slides into bed behind me and weighs the bed down. his arms warp around me and his lips kiss my cheek. "this is a really comfortable bed" he jokes and i smile then turn my head to face him. he kisses my lips and then reaches over and gently rubs hays's back. "he is the best thing thats ever happened to us" zetan whispers to me. i agree. zetan holds my hand tightly and i squeeze it, "he is. arent you glad we had him" i ask. "more than glad" he replies then snuggles his face into my hair. "i cant believe we're parents. that was he longest nine months ever" he says quietly. "i know". i gently pull the pillow that our baby is sleeping on closer to my chest and gently place my arm around his tiny form.
i feel a drop of liquid on my shoulder and hear and sniffle. zetan is crying. i look back at him and caress his face. i wipe his tears and he says, "i cant believe we had a baby. bay you have no idea how long ive wanted to have a baby with you. when i first met you i could just imagine the future and what could happen. now it's finally come true."
i reach up and hug him, tears rushing down my own face. he kisses me forcefully and holds me to him tightly.
eventually he sits up and looks at our baby. he gently picks hays up and holds him in his arms. "hey there baby" he whispers. i lay back and watch. i cant really sit up or walk around, my legs are sore and im still bleeding and cramping from my delivery.
zetan kisses and hugs our baby. it warms my heart to see that he loves our son. just nine months ago he was persuading me to take birth control and get an abortion, now he's crying at the sight of our baby.
when he can finally manage to put hays down he climbs back into the covers behind me and holds my hand. "i love you bay" he whispers. "i love you too" i say and stare down at my baby. our baby. what were we thinking saying we werent ready for him, wanting to get rid of him. this is all i could ever ask for out of life and i think that goes for both of us. soon zetan and i will get married and live as husband and wife. we get to watch our baby grow up under our protection and care, and maybe we could bring a few more babies into this world along the way.
zetan and i cuddle closer to each other and our baby and soon, sleep overwhelms me.
the next morning i wake up to a light wail by my head. i open my eyes and see my little hays crying his eyes out. i strain my stomach and thighs trying to sit up. when i finally do i gently pick up my little baby. i wipe his tears away and hold him to my neck to hug him as gently as possible. i dont want to hurt him, he's so fragile. he only weighs about six pounds.
there is a knock and nana walks in. "hey" she says shutting the door back. "hi" i smile and she sits beside me on the bed. "he's hungry" she points out stroking my baby's hair. "how can you tell" i ask. "look at his mouth, he looks as if he's sucking on something. that's what levi used to do when she was hungry." she explains.
i gently hand my baby to nana then pull my shirt down. she gives him back and i feed him. he stops crying immediately and i smile. " my little baby" i whisper and look up at nana. she smiles and gently pats my cheek. "acton and zetan ran out to the market to pick up things for hays" she says. i nod and then give all my attention to the baby in my arms.
after about ten minutes hays falls back asleep and i lay him on his pillow. i cover my chest then lay down and stare at hays. i cant take my eyes off of him. nana rubs my shoulder gently and says, "i can call acton and ask if he can pick up a serum to help your cramps" she offers. "yeah. that would really help" i reply and pick up hays's hand with my finger.
i feel her get off of the bed and head out and im left alone with my baby. "i love you hays" i whisper to the baby.
about an hour later there is a rucus downstairs and zetan comes walking in. "hey there's my little guy" he says quietly and kneels by the bed to kiss hays's head. he smiles up a me and reaches over to kiss me. "im going to bring tea for your cramps" he whispers stroking my hair. i thank him and lay back down.
about fifteen minutes later a cup of tea is brought up to me and i drink it slowly. it does seem to help. while i drink, acton and zetan set up a crib, dresser and rocking chair as silently as they can. they place it in my room then decorate it with blue and green blankets, pillows and stuffed animals. picture frames are placed on the shelves and walls, they are empty for now. then the boys drag in bags. "oh my God guys you didnt have to buy all of this stuff" i whisper as i gently get myself to sit up. "we need to make sure hays has everything he'll need for the next five years" acton jokes.
i giggle and watch as they unpack all of the baby's things. they load the dresser with clothes then place supplies on the top; wipes, powder, lotion, soap, shampoo, brushes, nail clippers, and a bib. on the floor are two bags of diapers and beside them is a blue diaper bag with a teddy bear on it and a yellow towel sticking out of it.
a little blue blanket is placed on the bar of the crib. baby moniters are placed beside the bed, a lullaby box is placed on the dresser and books are stacked in my shelf. teething rings, blocks and balls are in a plastic box under the crib.
i watch as they finish and then zetan smiles up at me and hands me a bag. "for you baby" he says and sits by my feet. i smile and say, "what did you do" i ask and open the bag. i reach in and pull out a white dress, simple and elegant (saja wedding dress.-look it up-). "oh, zetan. it's beautiful" i sigh. he smiles, "there's more". i reach in a pull out a small box and open it.
its my engagement ring.
i look up at zetan and he takes my hand, "bay. will you marry me" he asks quietly. i nod and he reaches over to hug me. he kisses me softly then slips the ring back onto my finger.
we can finally get married. after all of these years of stolen kisses and secret sexual moments we can finally be outward with our love. we can live together as a family, me zetan and our baby boy.
"next week" he whispers then smiles brightly at me. i blush and then he lays me down, "get more rest babe. acton and i are here if you need something" he whispers then takes my empty tea cup and leaves out. acton walks over and sits on the bed, "congrats bay" he says. "thanks" i reply. he looks at my baby and says, "...can i hold him". i nod and gently pick up my baby and place him in actons awaiting arms. he smiles and says, "i cant wait to get married and have my own baby" i hear him say. i smile at that, "you would probably have such an adorable baby" i say. "thanks. now what about hays. he is so cute" he says holding my baby's hand. "thank you". "hey there hays, it's uncle acton" he coos to the sleeping baby. i smile at the sight and then look at acton, "thanks for helping me with my pregnancy. i dont think i would be able to have done this on my own, with the nine months and the birth". acton smiles, "your welcome".
acton whispers to my baby and strokes his chubby cheeks. once again, i think he would make an awesome father. "i can see the mix of zetan and you in him, i mean like his complection and eyelashes, and his nose" he laughs and then gently sets him back down on his pillow. "what do you want for breakfast" he asks me. "the usual" i reply. 'my usual' consists of two slices of french toast, an egg scrambled with salt and ketchup, four sausages and a bowl of strawberries and blueberries. "coming right up" he says and leaves.
after a few minutes levi comes skipping in. he curls are up in a ponytail and she's still in her nightgown. "goodmorning bay" she whispers and tiptoes over to the bed. "hey" i say and lift her up into bed with me. she lays on my torso and then looks at my baby. "he's so teeny" she whispers and holds the baby's hand. she's never touched him yet. after i delivered she was sent to bed.
i let levi hold hays and then jodi appears and just quietly watches. i let him hold his nephew and we talk for a minute, about the baby and the wedding. jodi seems so broken now, what have the games done to him!?
1 week later
"hey!" brooke squeals opening the door to my bedroom. i hug her tightly, i havent seen her since jodi got back from the games. "congrats bay! oh my god you're so thin, you had the baby!" i quiet her politely and nod. "yes i did, a little boy" i say leading her to the crib that holds my baby. "aww, what did you name him? she asks. "hays" i say and gently lift my baby into my arms. nana is in the doorway with levi and a bag. she shuts the door and says, "alright lets get bay ready, we dont want to keep the poor boy waiting" she jokes.
im getting married today! i smile brightly and lay my baby on his pillow on the bed. i rushed into the shower and when i come out towels are thrown around me. "sit, sit!" im instructed and im placed in a chair . nana gets started on combing my hair, it's been in the same bun all week and brooke files my nails. "we're going to make you look so beautiful" she says smiling at me. "thanks" i reply and nana instructs levi to help. "levi get bay's rag and put hot water on it" she says and my sister obeys.
acton has done a great job with her. he taught her to read and write, she can spell her name first and last, not to mention she's potty trained. i cant thank acton enough, he brought this family together in ways that i cant explain. he helped us, and i am so grateful.
when my nails are done nana helps me into my dress. it suits me well and it is very beautiful, white slippers are put infront of me and i step into them. "levi why dont you go with brooke to your rooma and get dressed" nana suggests. "ok nana" levi replies. brooke picks up the bag nana brought in, takes levi's hand and they head out, shutting the door behind them.
nana starts on my makeup. "im so happy, and so proud of you bay" she says softly to me applying eye shadow to my eyelids. "you've been so behaved and such a big help. all of these years you've taken care of levi and jodi, and me. you are so mature and grown up" she draws along my eyes with a black pencil. "of course i wouldnt have to be so mature if my dad had stayed instead of leaving us" i say slightly annoyed. nana stops what she's doing and i open my eyes. "i know you're upset. but you need to forget about your father, he left because he didnt care. so dont think about him, he's dead to us. you understand" i nod and then a tear drips off of my chin. "but i miss him" i cry and bow my head. nana raises my chin and wipes my eyes, "i know...i know bay, jodi tells me that all the time, but i dont think he's ever coming back. it's about time you let him go". i wipe my cheeks and nod, "your right" i admit and then sigh and sit back, closing my eyes and letting nana finish my makeup.
when she's done i open my eyes and she wipes away some parts she may have messed up. "you look so much like your mother" she smiles. i smile back, "now she is someone you should love, remember her and make sure you tell hays about her when he gets older.". "im sure she would've loved to meet her grandson" i whisper. nana nods at that and then brings a chair up behind me to get started on my hair. "im grateful im still alive and i got to meet her kids, and now yours" nana kisses my head. "i hope hays grows up with you still around" i reply. nana laughs, "i'm not that old!" she jokes and i laugh.
she curls my hair into a bun and clips it with bobby pins then pushes a small crown into my hair with a veil attached to it. "all done" she says and has me look into the mirror. i look amazing, "you look like a real bride" nana smiles then picks up hays and puts him in my arms. i smile down at my baby, "and now you look like a real mother" she says and pats my shoulder.
there is a knock on the door and brooke and levi enter wearing beautiful yellow dresses and their hair up in buns. "here bay" levi says holding up a bouquet of camomiles. i smile and take them with one hand, "thank you" i say. she smiles and then spins around, "do i look pretty" she asks. "you look gorgeous" i reply.
brooke wipes her red eyes, "im so happy for you bay, i cant believe your getting married!", i smile, "me either. this all happened so fast" i smile, "i know. one minute your just finding out your pregnant, the next your a mother and a bride!" she begins to sob. nana gives her tissues and she fixes her makeup. next nana gets dressed and puts her long white hair up in a bun.
hays is put in a blue onsie with white socks and gloves. he tends to scratch himself. a cute little hat is put on his head and then he's wrapped in a blanket and placed back into my arms. there is a knock on the door and acton steps in dressed in an elegant black suit. "are you four ready" he asks. we all nod and he steps in. "here," acton starts handing a basket of flower petals to levi. "go downstairs" he says and she skips out.
levi is my flower girl and she brooke and nana are my brides maids. acton is zetans best man , jodi holds our rings and zander will stand behind acton. we have the judge as the justice of the peace. the only people in the crowd will be zetans parents, and a few friends from school.
it's small but what does it matter.
nana and brooke head out leaving acton and i alone with hays. "excited" he asks flipping the veil infront of my face. "more" i reply smiling. he hooks his arm into mine, "good. lets go" he says and takes me downstairs. i hand the baby to nana and she and brooke head out back. thats where the wedding is taking place. i take a deep breath and peer out the window. there are a few benches for the few guests,and at the end of the row, waiting patiently is zetan, looking extremely formal in his suit. nana and brooke make their way down the aisle and stand on the wooden platform.
"go ahead levi, throw the petals as you go okay" acton says opening the door for levi. she giggles and leaves out, skipping down the aisle, tossing the petals around. "here we go" acton says and widens the door so we can step out. everyone stands and acton walks me to the platform.
to my future.
zetan smiles at me and takes my hand when i reach him. i step up and stare up into his eyes. the judge is talking but my mind is lost. im too busy staring at the man before me. my future husband. his blue eyes look at me and they seem to be brighter than the sky. this makes me smile wider.
judge asks me the question ive been longing for and before i can even think i say, "i do". he asks the same to zetan and he chuckles, "i do".
jodi present our rings and zetan puts my new wedding ring onto my left finger, and i slip the other onto his
"you may kiss the bride" is the next thing i hear. my veil is lifted and zetans lips crash into mine. the crowd applauses. zetan takes my hand and leads me back down the aisle and into the house.
the next couple of hours is spent eating, opening presents, and taking pictures. zetan kisses me over a hundred times and insists on carrying hays the entire time. there is music and dancing, cake, and baloons. ive never been to a party like this.
by the time the party is over everyone is ready to sleep. levi, nana, jodi and hays are alseep and acton helps them all to bed, then says goodnight and heads to his room.
zetan and i sit downstairs in the kitchen whispering, gigling and kissing.
"everyone is all tuckered out" zetan winks and wraps his arms around my waist. i smile and say, "im surprised the judge let us get married, my birthday isnt for another three months" i whisper. zetan kisses my face, "oh well, there's no going back now. you are offiially mrs. rindmey" he says and kisses my neck. i giggle and wrap my arms around his neck. he kisses my lips and says, "so where are we honeymooning, we need to get at least a week to ourselves" he asks. i laugh, "i dont know there is no where better to go in this district, plus we have hays, we cant leave him here" i say. zetan smiles, "he's coming" he replies. "where are we going to put a week old baby while we have sex" i ask. zetan blushes, "who says that we have to have sex on our honeymoon". i smile, "zetan i can feel you right now" i say lowering my voice. "if you want this all you have to do is ask" i say seductively pulling away from my husband.
he laughs and wraps his arms around me from behind. he presses me up against the counter and then whispers, "can i have it now". i whirl around and nod. he smiles and his hands slide up my little nightgown and then he picks me up. he smiles, "where's your underwear bay" he asks. i bite my lip and he sets me on the counter. up here im his height.
he leans in and kisses me roughly. his hand occupied between my legs. i moan into his mouth and he does it harder. i've forgotten how he does this, its so good! i spread my legs for him and he licks and fingers me. i hold my nightgown up for him and rock my hips as the pleasure gets better and getter. i start to moan outloud and i have to cover my mouth.
zetan stand up and undoes his jeans. i watch impatiently and when he pulls it out i cant help but smile at it. it's been so long. zetan takes me down from the counter and has be lean over it while he sticks himself inside. i gasp. it feel so new, yet so familiar at the same time. i really hope he's careful or else i'll end up pregnant again. i really really need to get on birth control, or else zetan will have to wear a condom.
i keep my mouth covered as i scream quietly. zetan rocks me back and forth , my waist keeps hitting the edge of the counter. i hear that familiar grunt which means zetan is about to come. i personally dont want to stop, the climax is the best part...but i cant get pregnant again, not yet. i push away from zetan and he lets it all go onto the counter. i pant and sink to the floor, my nightgown still pushed up.
i stand up and say, "again". he smiles and stick back up inside of me. he starts to pund me again but just then acton walks in, yawning. all three of us freeze. acton stares quietly then looks at the stained counter and his neck tenses.
there is a knock on the door, saving us from the awkard moment. acton walks away to answer the door and zetan and i over ourselves and wipe off the counter.
"is this the lockwood household" a deep voice pants. "who wants to know" acton replies. zetan and i walk out to see whose at the door. it's a man with dark brown hair and eyes. some lost stranger maybe..no..he looks familiar...too familiar..how could i forget!? i see that face every single day in my little brother..it cant be! "bay!" he says when he sees me.
"Dad?"
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