AN drinking frozen hot chocolate as I type this one :)

Today is the day. The games are starting. One week for me to prove to Katniss that I can survive. But then what? What if she doesn't want me? What if she does not survive? Then what do I do? Is there any way we could both survive?

No. These are the Hunger games. Only one survives. Katniss.

What if I go crazy? What if I forget how I feel and I kill her?

She trusts me I cannot tab her in the back. What if it is unintentional? I need to talk to her. I need to see her. I tore out of my room and up to the roof. She has to be here. She must be here.

I burst through the doors and I almost ran over her sitting there.

"Katniss I uh shit I'm sorry. I don't want to bother you. I will go sorry." Wait no I can't go. I came here to see her.

"No Cato I will go I've already been here for a while. People must be wondering where I am anyway."

"Katniss wait" I said grabbing her arm. "I need to talk to you." I have never sounded so desperate in my life. "Please."

"I know. It will be ok Cato." How could she say that?

"You don't get it. What if I go crazy? What if…"

That is when it happened. She kissed me. Katniss Everdeen kissed me. It was deep. I felt every contour of her body against mine. At first I was just shocked but then the realization of what was happening really hit me. My hand went around her lower back and she reached around my neck. I mean I have kissed girls but never like this. Never that deep and passionate. Her other hand was on my chest far too soon, I couldn't tell if she wanted me to stop or keep going.

"Katniss I" I couldn't stop kissing her. It felt amazing. "I just. We need to"

God Dammit why did this have to be so hard. She finally got what I was trying to do. So she stopped to let me talk. Her head rested on my chest while she listened to me.

"I care about you. A lot. What happens if I go crazy and don't remember how I feel? What happens if my alliance goes after you? I need you to live. Ok? So just. Live."

I could tell my shirt was wet with her tears. She did not seem like much of a crier to me but I was not stopping her. I slid down so we were sitting and I was cradling her in my arms.

"Shhh it will be ok. I will protect you Katniss. I swear." I lifted her chin up so she was looking at me through her wet eyes. "I swear on my life I will protect you until I cannot anymore."

That is when the roof door flew open. In stormed Katniss' stylist.

"What the hell did you do to her?"

"I, I I didn't do anything. We were just talking. Back off." I didn't want to piss this guy off I mean he could report us. Katniss got herself together.

"CInna please don't tell anyone about this. I care about him."

He understood all of the sudden. Why I pushed Peeta. Why I was holding her that way. Pity filled his eyes. He knew only one of us could live.

"Oh honey. Everyone is looking for you. I was so worried. I will tell them you will be down in a minute." With that he nodded to me and walked out. Was that him giving me his approval? What does any of this mean?

"Cato" she looked so sad. I wanted to sweep her up and take away all of the pain that she has ever felt by this world. "I am going to trust you with all my heart. We cannot be together from the start. People will gang against us. That is why I said a week. But I need you to do something for me."

"Anything" I tell her.

"There will be a bow and arrow at the cornucopia, I need it. I cannot kill without it. If you get it and save it I will be able to get us to the end."

"That's it?" I mean that is not a big favor

"Yes I will take care of myself Cato. I need you to do the same."

I could only answer her one way. So I kissed her again. This time it was not the same as the last. This time I needed her I needed to never leave this roof. I needed to know all about her life. I wanted to protect her forever.

"We need to go" she whispered

"I know" I kissed her on the forehead and held her hand as we walked to the door. When I opened it for her Cinna was standing there. Waiting to take her from me.

"Bye" she whispered. She might have gotten mad at me if it were a different situation. I had to though I gently kissed her. Momentarily taking away the pain I was feeling.

I began the long flight down the stairs. Each step getting further and further from the place I could have stayed forever.

3 I miss this so so so much haha cant you tell I am not the type to stay single for long. What did you think? I love him 3 haha wow ok REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW! I hope to update again soon but I have an UBER busy week this week SOOO IDK!

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