Author's Notes: College makes me busy, so does working two jobs, and really, my only escape right now is writing. I promise to be more active on and every other online community that I am apart of.
Disclaimer: I do not own CCS or any of the characters, yeah you know. I am in possession of Yumi, Reiko, Shiro, Hiroyuki, and all my own original characters.
Ai Da Ne? (Isn't It Love?)
Chapter 10 – Her Breakdown
By, azngurL
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Syaoran's POV
… What the hell just happened?
I listened to what Sakura had to say.
And then I see Tzuki kissing Sakura …
What the hell … just happened?
All of it was a lie?
Sakura … still feels that way about me …?
I felt like,
in that moment where I was standing,
the rain heavily pouring down on the pavement,
just for that moment,
I felt happy.
••
All
Tears rolled down her face.
"Mama, we have to do something," and she buried her head in her hands.
Sonomi Daidouji sat in disbelief, with her hand covering her mouth. She cringed and said softly, "Sakura-chan …,"
"Mama, we have to do something," Tomoyo said once more, a little louder. This time, she was crying harder. "I need to save Sakura-chan."
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Sakura ran and ran in the rain. She ran as fast as she could until her legs gave out. She didn't know where she was running to, and what exactly she was running from. Covering her mouth, tears pouring down her face, and the heavy rain beating down upon her, she felt like everything had suddenly become all too much.
She clenched her chest, her heart pounding immensely.
Then she screamed, "What the hell do I do ?!!?" Sakura was at the park. She dropped down to her knees and held herself in her own arms. "… Syaoran-kun …," she closed her eyes, "… I want to die," and she cried harder.
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Hours later, she returned back to her home, where Yumi was impatiently waiting for her. She was drenched from head to toe, her eyes blank, not saying a word. Yumi approached her, "And where the hell have you been?"
Sakura just blankly looked at her, saying nothing.
"Where were you," Yumi asked, louder.
Sakura could feel her heart pounding faster and faster against her chest that she suddenly found it hard to breathe. Especially with a fever, her emotional distress had begun to take a toll on her body. All of a sudden, tears formed around her eyes and fell down her face.
Yumi just stared at her. "Hah, you're crying?"
Sakura looked up at her, with tears falling down her face. Then Yumi slapped her. Sakura fell to the ground. She felt like her heart was about to explode.
Reiko ran down their stairs upon hearing all the noise, "OKASAN, YAMETE (STOP)!" she exclaimed.
"Reiko, YOU STAY OUT OF THIS, you understand me?!" Yumi screamed. "Proper punishment needs to be issued,"
"Oneechan!" Reiko exclaimed, looking at her distraught sister.
Sakura stood up slowly. She tried to speak. But the words wouldn't come out of her mouth.
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Sakura
Something's happening to me,
I can feel it.
If Okaasan keeps up what she's doing,
Maybe I'll pass out, and end up in hospital.
Just so I wouldn't have to come home anymore.
Shiro-kun… Tomoyo-chan … Kero-chan … Reiko-chan …
… Syaoran-kun …
Maybe one day, like the old days,
We can all be happy again?
Syaoran-kun, maybe one day,
I'll be married with you instead.
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All
She fell to the ground. Sakura stopped breathing.
"ONEECHAN !!" Reiko screamed.
Yumi just stared down at her and walked away.
"How can you just leave her like this, she's going to die, okaasan, SHE'S GOING TO DIE,"
Yumi reached for the phone and dialed the emergency phone number, "I need an ambulance right now. Yes. Yes. My daughter just suddenly stopped breathing. I don't know, I don't know!" Yumi started to fake her sadness and distress over the phone. "Please come quickly, my daughter isn't breathing!" and she hung up the phone.
"I can never forgive you for the things you've done to her …" Reiko whispered.
Yumi walked out of the room, leaving Reiko with Sakura, who was lifeless.
"Oneechan, please hang on!" Reiko tried to revive Sakura until the ambulance came.
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On three different phone lines, Syaoran, Shiro, and Tomoyo all heard, "SAKURA'S IN THE HOSPITAL!" and they all hurried to where she was.
Tomoyo arrived there first, and then Shiro, then Syaoran, all in a panic, all out of breath.
Upon entering the room, Tomoyo looked at Yumi with disgust.
"Kinomoto-san, what happened to Sakura?!" Shiro asked Yumi.
Yumi, who was faking her sadness looked at Shiro and lied, "I don't know, Shiro-kun! We were just talking and she collapsed in front of me! I didn't know what to do," and she buried her head beside Sakura who was sleeping.
Tomoyo walked up to Sakura who was stable and sleeping. She knelt down beside her and held her hands, starting to cry. "Sakura-chan…"
Syaoran was in disbelief over what was happening to Sakura. So many things happening at once, and Sakura was in the hospital. "Kinomoto-san … why hasn't Sakura been eating properly?" Syaoran asked.
Yumi looked at him and blatantly lied, "She's been rather busy lately. With practice and all … you know? I've tried to get her to eat, but she'd rather go to sleep,"
Syaoran remained silent.
Tomoyo and Shiro both cringed. "Liar…" they both thought.
Yumi stood up and looked at the three of them. She cleared her throat. "In any case, you three must leave. The nurse needs to take care of Sakura."
••
They were all sitting outside in the hospital's garden.
"Sakura …" Syaoran whispered.
"Sakura-chan looks so weak," Tomoyo said.
"I know …"
"Tzuki-kun … if you knew, why didn't you ever do ANYTHING about it?" Tomoyo asked, frustrated.
"Know what?" Syaoran intervened.
Shiro remained silent, in a contemplative position. He had much concern on his face. "I'm so stupid…"
"That much we can agree upon," Syaoran said as he confronted Shiro face-to-face. "… Tell me, please. What exactly is going on with Sakura,"
"Honestly man, it's not my position to tell you. As much as I really want to, this is something that Sakura herself will and needs to tell you. And I'm just surprised, more at you for not being more understanding of all the changes that have been happening in her life since YOU left," Shiro answered.
"Tzuki-kun, what if Sakura-chan never tells Li-kun?" Tomoyo asked. "Sakura-chan, she'll end up in the hospital again sooner or later,"
"… What the hell? What the hell's going on?" Syaoran asked, getting angry. He then grabbed Shiro by the collar. "Goddammit, tell me what's going on, Tzuki. What's going on with you, what's going on between you and Sakura, what the HELL is going on,"
"Let go of me,"
"TELL ME."
"Yelling at me won't get you answers, Li,"
Syaoran let go. "Answer me,"
Shiro remained silent, not knowing exactly what to say.
"I SAW YOU KISS SAKURA."
••
Shiro
"I SAW YOU KISS SAKURA,"
What do you say to someone like Syaoran …
I kissed the love of his life, and he saw.
"I …"
To be honest with you, I'm scared.
Syaoran keeps on looking at me with those eyes. I can't help but have guilt build up inside of me.
"I love Sakura," I admitted.
I really do … you have no idea.
And I could tell, at that moment, Syaoran just seemed so taken aback. But I know, I would be just as angry if someone felt that way towards someone I loved, too.
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All
"Minna! Oneechan's awake! She's awake!" Reiko exclaimed, running out to the garden.
"Sakura-chan!" Tomoyo started to run into the hospital, following Reiko.
Syaoran and Shiro were left, both left in nothing but each other's silences.
"Li … I really wished that you would stop being such a hard-ass and just be real with everything going on,"
"And what the hell is that supposed to mean?"
"Sakura loves you. She always has, and she always will. I don't think you need someone to tell you twice. It's obvious in everything she does. I'm… I'm not match for you,"
"… I know Sakura loves me … But am I really that good enough for her?" Syaoran thought.
"We should go inside and see Sakura," Shiro said as he started walking in.
Syaoran followed him, to Sakura's room. "Where's Sakura?" he asked, looking around to find her not there.
"She went to the bathroom for a minute…" Tomoyo answered.
"Okaasan … you honestly can't do this to Sakura," Reiko broke out.
"What're you talking about?" Shiro asked.
Yumi shot Reiko a glance of disappointment that Reiko even mentioned it. But she played it out smoothly. "This environment is becoming rather unhealthy for my Sakura. She's going to be away from a while to get better,"
"What?" Syaoran asked.
"What's the meaning of this…" Shiro asked
Sakura walked back in the room, overhearing the conversation. "What's going on?" she asked, weakly.
"Darling, you'll be living elsewhere for a while to get better," Yumi said fakely.
"W-What? Why?"
"You can't just do that!" Tomoyo exclaimed.
All present in the same room, Shiro, Syaoran, Tomoyo, Reiko, Yumi, and then Sakura … they had all heard the same news that went through their ears. Sakura broke down to the floor crying, holding her mouth. Syaoran knelt down beside her.
"Sou (Yes). She will be leaving for America. Where she will attend a boarding school," Yumi stated.
In that moment, everything broke.
"This … this is uncalled for," Shiro said. "She doesn't need to go to America to feel better," and he looked straight at her. "Admit it, you're just trying to get rid of her!"
"Shiro-kun, I'm deeply hurt. Where on earth would you get a notion like that?" Yumi asked.
"What…" Syaoran whispered, holding Sakura.
"I want to die,"
Everyone looked at Sakura.
"What did you say, Sakura?" Syaoran asked, with great concern in his voice.
"I want to die," Sakura said again, choking up on her tears.
"Don't say that, Sakura-chan!!" Tomoyo said, with tears forming around her eyes.
Sakura started screaming.
She was broken.
After all … for the longest time, she has been waiting for someone to save her.
She blacked out.
"BRING HER TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM!"
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A: Please R&R! I will greatly appreciate it ). I'll get the next chapter up soon. Thank you for reading!
Love, azngurL