For all of you who were concerned for Nick's balls – fear no more, major smut warning in this chapter.
"I fell in love with you the moment I saw you"
The words kept on swirling in Amanda's brain, in her whole body, like goosebumps on her skin. She felt them surround her, embrace her.
He said he loved her. But she hated him.
She hated what he just said, hated that she couldn't forget him, hated that she talked about him in her sleep, had dreams about him, missed him. She hated that she could still feel his lips on her skin, hated how she was drowning in his eyes.
But he said he loved her.
Why wasn't she sure if she was breathing?
She hoped she was, she wanted to breathe. She wanted to breathe so she could spend at least one more second with him, to feel the tingle in her heart, to feel him again, to hear him say it again.
Nick said he loved her and it made everything else almost disappear.
He loved her and now she finally knew why being away from him hurt her so much.
Amanda close the gap, her voice was barely a whisper "I love you too"
Nick heard her and did what he's been dreaming of for so much time, he caught her mouth with his lips, his arms wrapped around her. Amanda let his tongue taste hers. He pushed her into him, as close as he could, but even that was too far, even that wasn't enough, he was still afraid something or someone will pull them apart, he wasn't going to let that happen.
Amanda's hands tried to push his jacket down, not wanting any layers between them. She struggled and failed at the task, he was holding her so tight it was hard for her to move the fabric. Nick forced himself to move back a little and without taking his eyes off of her he started getting rid of his clothes. Amanda did the same, pulling her shirt off, her pants down. Nick was hypnotized by her but he still managed to get himself naked and once they were both free from the attire he kissed her with everything he got, gluing her to him and pushing her to the bed.
Nick got on top of her, he looked into her eyes and felt her spread her legs wide for him. He wasn't thinking, allowed the desire to control his movements and he pushed himself into her in one swift motion, not letting anything interrupt them.
Amanda let out a loud gasp as he filled her completely, they were looking into each other's eyes as he kept on thrusting into her, the bed was moving with them but all Nick could feel was her. The way she was wrapped around him, the way she looked, her lips spread a bit, moaning and gasping every time his body slummed into hers. He realized he was grunting too.
Her nails dug into his back and he was grateful she didn't keep them long, but it wouldn't matter if she had knifes instead of nails, her touch could never hurt.
The sensation was too good to last much longer, he was so deep inside her, he felt like every fiber, every nerve was going to be consumed by her and he wanted her to do that. Nick wanted her to have him, to take everything he had.
He felt her convulse underneath his body and a second later she arched her back and closed her eyes, digging her fingers into his back with more force. The sound she made drove him over the edge and he kept on moving inside of her until he was completely empty.
Nick's body collapsed on top of her, not being able to move. Amanda's hands were still on his back, caressing him. Finally he rolled on the bed, still breathing heavily.
"Amanda" he whispered, his voice was rugged. He had to call her name to make sure she was there.
She smiled at him, the small gesture lit up her entire face and he couldn't help but smile too. It left him speechless and he just moved closer, wanting to touch her, feel her against him again. Amanda kissed his lips, she kept it mellow, calm.
They were both tired and he caressed her hair when she pulled away, still with that wide grin on her lips.
"Stay here tonight" she asked him and he nodded, how could he leave? She turned around and pressed her back to his chest. Nick wrapped his arms around her, embracing her, and they both fell asleep.
When Nick woke up he wasn't sure what time it was, the room was lit because they didn't turn off the lights, but through the curtains he noticed it was still dark outside.
Amanda felt him stir and she opened her eyes "what's going on?" she asked quietly.
"Nothing" Nick kissed the back of her head "I was just wondering what time it was"
"My phone's by the bed" she let him know and he let go of her for a moment, it was four am.
Nick's arms were around her body a second later, he didn't want to waste any more time not touching her "you want to go back to sleep?" he caressed her stomach.
"Not really" she smiled and moved her butt against his groin, she didn't feel a need for sleep, only for him.
Nick laughed, loving her idea, loving her. He moved his left hand to his lips, wetting his index finger a bit and letting it travel down her body to her clit. Amanda sighed when she felt his touch, he was circling it slowly, feeling her stir against him. Nick wanted to go slow this time, to make the experience last longer.
Amanda thought she'd melt, she thought it wasn't real, like last night was a dream. But Nick was next to her, touching her, and he loved her, she loved him.
Amanda reached to his thigh and Nick decided to give her what they both wanted, he let go of her clit and slowly entered her, eliciting a moan from her mouth. His right hand kept her in place as his left moved to her breast, pinched one of her nipples and cupped the other, putting some pressure. Amanda moaned again, they moved against one another, slowly and gently.
She turned her head to him and he kissed her again, they rhythm of their tongues matched to the one of their bodies and they kept on taking it slow.
Amanda loved how he fondled her breasts, but she felt like she needed more so she moved her right hand in between her legs. This sight, with her hand between her thighs, was so erotic Nick wasn't sure he could take it. They were completely wrapped in one another and both could stay like that forever.
"I love you" he whispered when their lips were apart for a few seconds, he felt like he won't be able to say that enough.
Nick could feel himself getting closer, being inside her, kissing her, seeing her. It was taking over him. He let her mouth go and started thrusting harder. Amanda sighed and Nick pounded into her with even more force, his finger was back between her thighs, he wanted to make her climax, wanted to feel her come.
"Nick…" she called, her voice was overflowing with desire and a moment later she called it again with abandon as the orgasm took over her. Nick exploded inside of her, pushing himself as deep into her as he could.
When they were both breathing evenly Amanda turned around and rested her head on his chest as he played with her hair.
"Amanda" he whispered but when her eyes were focused on him Nick had no idea what he wanted to say to her. The past and future didn't matter, how could anything but them matter?
"Come to my place tonight" Nick said, they were out of the shower and he watched her getting dressed.
"Ok" Amanda smiled and threw his shirt at him "you better put your clothes on too, don't you have to work today?"
Nick walked to her and kissed her lips "wish I didn't"
Amanda's smile widened "and I thought you're a serious guy"
"I am" his lips were on hers again, not wanting to let go "but I want to spend as much time with you as I can" he hated the thought of her returning to Atlanta.
"I'd like that" she caressed his back, she didn't really want to be away from Nick, but she was here to work and she had to prove herself.
So many people raised their eyebrows when she was placed in homicide, she was the youngest one there and she just made detective. Amanda knew she was good enough, but others didn't seem to care.
"Call me when you're done and I'll pick you up" Nick kept on kissing her face, lips, neck. Hoping that every kiss would make the clock slow down.
"I will" Amanda gave him one more kiss and moved to the door "just leave when you're ready" her phone buzzed, it was Bates, he was waiting for her at the lobby.
She smiled and gave him a quick wave before walking out of the door.
Nick couldn't wipe the smile off his face, he couldn't go to work like that, people would think he's gone crazy. But he didn't care, the night they'd spent together was incredible, what he felt, what she felt. They still had to talk about things, it's not like everything was fixed, they both knew it. But Nick also knew that it will work out, they loved each other. It was real and that was why it hurt him so much, he hurt the one he loved.
But they were in love, so everything will be alright.
"Welcome" Nick opened the door and let Amanda into his apartment. He was lucky to find it, after the divorce all he wanted to do was move away as fast as possible and this was the first place he saw. It was a decent size and was in a good enough shape.
Nick didn't really bother with interior design but now that Amanda was here he hoped she won't mind. He kept it organized and clean, at least he didn't have to worry about that.
But Amanda didn't seem to care about the apartment, the moment the door closed she turned to him and pulled him towards her for a kiss. They declared their love for each other just the previous night but it felt so natural, she could see herself doing this everyday, walking into the living room and kissing him. But Amanda didn't stop at kissing, she jumped on him, wrapping her legs around his body so he'd take her to the bedroom.
Nick thought she'd want to have dinner but he didn't care if she wanted to do something else first. He carefully walked to the dark bedroom and had trouble finding the light switch, Amanda was nibbling on his neck and he was ready to pin her against the wall and forget about the bed. But finally he remembered where to find the damn switch and the room lit up. She moved to the bed and leaned on her forearms, smiling at him.
Nick got down on his knees and placed his palms on hers, he enjoyed staring into her eyes, seeing her daring look, Nick rewarded her with one of his own and moved his hands to her shoes, slowly taking them off, still staring at her.
Once her feet were bare he caressed them a bit, moving higher. He smiled as he reached to her fly. Nick raised a brow, she smiled at him and he took it as an approval to keep going. He started working on the zipper, his pace excruciatingly slow, Amanda felt like it's been hours until it was open.
Nick pulled her closer to the edge of the bed, kissed her lips again. There were so many things he wanted to say, but looking into her eyes it felt like she already knew.
Taking off the pants proved to be an easy task and Nick decided not to torture her much longer, but he wanted to go slower so he could explore her body. He was busy nibbling on her thigh when his fingers got inside of her underwear.
"Nick…" she moaned softly and Nick smiled against her skin. He lowered the cotton down her legs, rubbing the smooth skin once in a while.
Amanda was trying to control herself, Nick kneeling between her legs was an extremely arousing sight and she was trying very hard not to beg, she needed him to touch her, taste her. Just the thought made her a little dizzy and she thought she'd fall down.
Nick spread her legs and looked at her again, wanting her to see the lust in his eyes, how much he wanted her.
He was still looking at her when his fingers reached her opening, she let out a gasp and he caressed her again, slowly and softly. Nick let go of her and without a warning pulled her closer, she let out a surprised groan and couldn't breathe when Nick's mouth was on her, his tongue pushing into her.
"Oh damn" she muttered and closed her eyes, she had to hold on to the bed as Nick kept on going, he stopped only to move up and tease her clit, flickering it while his fingers entered her, caressing her wetness.
Amanda was trying to keep her eyes on him, he was moving enthusiastically, his tongue and fingers must have had magic in them.
"I'm so close Nick…" she muttered, out of breath.
He liked the sound of that and was going to get her there. His tongue moved faster, Amanda wasn't even sure what he was doing, she was struggling to stay upright and when Nick plunged his fingers into her and curved them again she wasn't sure of anything at all. She called his name as the climax took over her entire body and her head hit the mattress.
Nick still didn't let go of her body, couldn't get enough of her taste, her juices, her heat.
Finally he crawled on top of her, smiling at her blissful expression. He started taking his clothes off, throwing each garment on the floor. Amanda watched him getting undressed, her lips curved into a slight smile. She enjoyed looking as he slowly exposed his skin, his body was toned and she allowed her eyes to run up and down his chest, wanting so badly to touch it. But Nick was now busy with his pants and had to get off the bed to free himself of the fabric's confinement.
"You're still half dressed" he noted when he lay down next to her "want me to help you out?"
Amanda chuckled and let him pull her shirt off, he kissed her lips as he unclasped her bra but she took over when he let it fall on the bed. Amanda pushed him on the bed and let her lips travel all over his chest, her hands joined in as she wanted to feel and not just see him.
She could feel his erection against her and rubbed herself against it once in a while. She was back to his lips and let her hand rub him slowly as their tongues danced. She let go of his mouth just to playfully bite his lower lip, her hand was moving faster now and Nick had to catch her and turn them around.
"Amanda" he looked into her eyes "I have protection" he said, they weren't thinking about it the previous night, but they weren't really thinking then.
"I'm on the pill" she shook her head and raised her head to his lips "please get inside of me"
He looked into her eyes as he entered her body, feeling her heat surround him. It felt familiar but brand new. Nick had no doubt it will always be this way.
Eventually they had to eat and she put on one of his t shirts and followed him to the kitchen "I got us some Chinese food" he opened the fridge and took out a couple of containers.
"Sounds good" Amanda looked around as Nick placed the food in the microwave, wrapping his arms around her while they waited.
"You smell good" he mumbled, kissing her neck.
"I'm sweaty" she giggled when he sucked on a sensitive spot.
"My bad" his hands sneaked under the shirt but he had to let go, they had to eat first.
"Can I ask you something?" Amanda's eyes followed him as he walked to take the food out.
"Sure"
"Did you live here with her?"
Nick was taken aback by the question, he was almost upset that she asked, not because he didn't want to tell her, because he felt bad it happened.
"No" he turned to her.
"You've been married for long?"
"Too long, it was a mistake" he shrugged "we only did that because of the ba…"
"It's ok" Amanda knew what he was about to say, she didn't want to bring up the child he lost "let's talk about something else" she walked over to him.
"What about your friend, Alice? Are you two still in touch?" he happily changed the subject.
"Yeah" Amanda nodded "she's living in Alaska with Ben, you met him"
Nick nodded, he remembered the guy. He was glad they still talked, Alice mentioned Amanda had issues with long distance relationships, and Alaska was far.
But it's not like New York and Atlanta were close, she'll have to go back there soon and Nick wasn't thrilled about that.
"What about that cop? From Loganville" Nick thought he seemed to care about her.
"Oliver? He retired, bought a trailer and now he's traveling with his wife" she shrugged "I laughed at him, but maybe that's a good plan"
"How's the case going?" he poured the food into bowls and handed her the chopsticks.
"We have a few good leads" she let him know.
Nick smiled, he was hoping for a different reply, something like – it's gonna take a long time and I'll stay here with you until it's over.
They ate at the desk and Amanda insisted on helping him with the dishes "I see how tidy this place is, wouldn't want leave a mess"
"Worth it" he decided to accept her help and while she washed the bowls he took out the fortune cookies from the bag.
"Choose first" he handed her both once her hands were dry.
Amanda took one of them and they took out the small paper at the same time "what does yours say?" Amanda gave him a curious look.
"Love is right by your side" he smiled, thinking it was true.
Amanda chuckled and showed him hers "love is right by your side"
"Smart cookie" he took the paper from her and hanged both of them on his fridge.
"Amanda" Nick called, she got off the bed and was about to go to the kitchen to get a drink.
"Mmm?" she turned her head and smiled, loving the way he looked at her.
"Stay here" he said.
"I'm not gonna go back to the hotel in the middle of the night"
"I mean" he got up and moved closer "stay here, with me"
She gave him a puzzled look, where would she go?
"I mean in New York" he noticed she was still confused "or just say the word and I will move to Atlanta" he shrugged as if it wasn't a big deal.
"You want to move to Atlanta?" she asked.
"I want to be with you" Nick took her hands in his "if you feel like it, we can just quit our jobs and spend all of our time making love"
"That sounds good" she wanted to kiss him but he moved, not allowing her to do that.
"I mean it Amanda, I love you so much, I can't just go back to how it used to be, all those years I missed you, I know what you must think, but…"
Amanda placed her palm over his mouth "We'll talk about it at some point, right now I'm going to have a glass of water and have sex with you again, is that alright?" Amanda kept her hand on his mouth and he nodded.
She put on one of his shirts and walked to the kitchen. She was thirsty but now that she was out of the bedroom she almost forgot why she was there. Nick's words, wanting them to be together, it was what she wanted too. Amanda wasn't going to leave and act like nothing had happened.
But she had her career to think about, leaving wasn't that easy, even if Nick would be the one to leave.
Why couldn't things ever be simple for them?
Amanda took a deep breath and her eyes fell on the two pieces of paper attached to the fridge.
Love is right by your side.
If that's the fortune cookie's prediction, it has to be true, right?
right?