Why'd You Only Call Me When You're High
Chapter 10
"Sometimes you do something, and you get screwed. Sometimes it's the things you don't do, and you get screwed."
I woke up, the blanket covering my naked body. Austin's arm was draped around my waist. I smiled, though there was something in the back if my head that wanted him out of my bed. I don't exactly know what the urge was but it compelled me.
"Austin." I repeated his name and shook him until he woke up. He opened his eyes, looking around to see where he was.
"Get up." I spoke harshly. He looked at me confused.
"What's wrong?" He asked sitting up. I shook my head, thought after thought running through it.
"I really don't know but just get out." I said, tears streaming down my face. He nodded, gathering his clothes and leaving the room. I walked to my closet, putting my bra and panties on. I pulled a sweatshirt over my head and a pair of jeans up my legs. I slipped a pair of black ballet flats on before walking down the stairs.
"I love you" he said as he walked to the door.
"Yeah." Is all I said as I closed it. I really didn't know why I was doing this. Not the whole regret thing but why I forgave him. He broke me and I still caved. I walked forward, my head hitting the wall.
"So stupid!" I yelled at myself. I walked to the kitchen, broken glass everywhere. I sighed as I grabbed a dustpan and began sweeping up the glass. A piece of glass embedded itself into my finger, blood dripping. I walked to the bathroom, letting the blood drip into the sink. The ruby red swirled down the drain, kind of hypnotizing me. I grabbed the razor out of the medicine cabinet and swiped across my wrist, ruby bead flowing into the sink, the same patter repeating. What was wrong with me? Why did I let him in. After years if being he biggest bitch to him, he says one thing and I'm lusting for him? No. There's something wrong with me. There has to be...
I brushed my hair and grabbed my backpack, walking to school. I walked in, people staring at me. I looked at my feet, not letting anyone see my face.
"You look terrible." Trish said when I walked to my locker. Her eyes darted around nervously, which confused me.
"Thanks, best fucking compliment ever." I said back, venom and anger running through my words.
"What the fuck happened to you?" Cassidy asked as she scurried over to me, her blue silk tank top tied at her hips.
"I forgave Austin and now I don't think I should of." I said coldly.
Her lips contorted to the side.
"Well tell him that, he might understand." She said rubbing my shoulder comfortingly. I shook my head.
"He doesn't exist anymore, let's just go with that." I said as I walked away from them to my classes. I wasn't bothered by any guys today. Dallas just walked past me and smiled sympathetically. I walked to bio, awaiting everything. Ryan was sat in his usual seat next to me.
"Where are they?" I asked pointing to the empty area. Ryan fidgeted in his seat and cleared his throat.
"Business?" He said questioningly. I crossed my arms over my chest.
"Bullshit. Where the fuck are they Ryan?" I said, Ryan getting scared. "Austin's at the lake with Trent's gang." Ryan said. I looked at him.
"What's Trent's gang?" I asked.
"Trent is a gang leader, he's dating Trish remember? Well they caught Austin with cocaine a couple months ago and they told him they would tell the cops if he didn't help them. So Austin is helping them." Ryan said. I sat down, fearing I would pass out if I didn't.
"What is he helping with?" I said, my teeth clenched.
"Uhm selling drugs, smuggling, making sure debts are being paid and if debts aren't being paid then getting rid of whoever owes money..." Ryan trailed off. My eyes opened wide.
"He's murdered someone!" I whisper yelled. Ryan bit his lip and nodded. I shook my head furiously. My phone rang in my pocket, Austin's number popping up.
"Hello?" I asked furiously.
"Hello 'darling'" the unknown voice said into the phone.
"Who is this?" I asked confused.
"My name is T. That is all I'll say." The voice laughed deeply at the end.
"Look whoever you are better stop using Austin." I said, my teeth gridded together. They laughed again, a female voice joining in, me recognizing it instantly.
"Oh stupid little Ally. I told you he was a player. I warned you. And you still didn't listen. 'Wah Austin's such an ass but. I love him' bullshit. But no one ever listens to their best friend." Trish said menacingly.
"If only you could save your precious little Austin, but you can't, we've got him right where we want him, and we've got you there too." T said taking the phone again.
"Wherever you are, I will fucking find you, and I will hurt you if you hurt him." I said.
"Ally, I know you're not that tough." Trish said. I cocked my eyebrow.
"Do you wanna talk to Austin? He's lying on the floor right her next to my foot?" T said. I didn't speak.
"Ally, I don't know what happened this morning by know that I love you. Do one thing for me though." His voice was strained.
"What?" I asked my voice cracking.
"Ask Ryan for my locker combination. Look in there and you'll know everything babe. Remember I love you." He said, his body straining to breath. I let a tear fall. I can't believe I did what I did this morning and now he's gonna die.
"Remember me when you can sleep at night, so you can dream of me and remember the times we had and the way we looked at each other. Bye darling." He said before the line went dead. I plopped back into my chair, tears falling from my eyes.
"What's Austin's locker combo?" I asked Ryan quickly.
"11-29-96 why?" He said. I shot my head up.
"What?" Ryan asked.
"That's my birthdate. How long had he had that locker combo?" I asked again.
"Hmm since like the middle of freshman year. But why do you need it?" Ryan asked. I didn't answer, I just motioned for him to get up. He got up and walked out of the class room with me. We walked to the classroom next door, motioning at Cassidy to come out. I walked to Austin's locker, punching in the combo. In front was a little dark blue box. Inside was a silver etched locket. On the inside it had two pieces of paper with Austin's scribbly handwriting on it.
"The bad boy loved the good girl." Is all it said. I wanted to cry but I had to help him because the good girl loved the bad boy.
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