J IS FOR JEALOUSY
Matt could feel his face burning up, his hands tightened to fists and he tautened his jaw so much so his teeth began to hurt, that imprudent blonde asshole, who the hell did he think he was?...Matt already knew the answer to his own pretentious question, Mello thought he was the fucking bee's knees, he was so conceited and full of himself he thought he was the best at EVERYTHING and if he wasn't he would push himself until he was. The truth was that no matter how much of an egomaniac bastard his blonde bombshell was he loved him irrevocably.
They had been together, romantically speaking for a seven years but there were no two people more befitting for each other, Mello was even dissimilar towards Matt then he was to everyone else which was why Matt was so pissed off that HIS boyfriend was standing there philandering like some love struck idiot with their old acquaintance Near.
Matt didn't dislike Near, he thought for someone who was too smart for his own good was actually pretty decent, not much on simplistic conversation nor emotion of any kind but the fact that the two old associates were standing there looking like a pair of idiot's from some anime with fucking hearts and sparkling stars around their heads. If Matt hadn't been so livid he probably would have snickered at the image he had in his head.
He had to calm down; he couldn't let Mello see him like that. Matt was known for his nonchalant, peaceful, mentally strong, laid back personality and this was from cool and calm. He got up and made his way to the bathroom to splash some water on his face and maybe have a cigarette. If he couldn't see his boyfriend more or less drooling over that white haired know-it-all then he had nothing to get mad about. He took a deep breath and looked in the mirror; his face was nearly as bright vermillion as the locks on his head. He turned on the cold tap and let the water run over his boyishly handsome face, the moment the chilly water touched his cheeks he instantly calmed down. He let the water drip from his face and as he looked up into the mirror he observed the contours on his forehead
"Fuck…I'm getting old, either that or it's stress…nope it's undoubtedly age creeping up on me, It won't be long 'til the big thirty…maybe I'm just getting too old for him" Matt said to himself admiring his face.
Mello was actually a year older then Matt but Mello seemed to be suspended in time he aged wonderfully but then he wasn't smoking a packet of cigarettes every two days and living solely off of junk food.
"Maybe if I took better care of myself and exercised then he wouldn't have the need to flirt…WHAT? WHAT THE HELL AM I SAYING? I'm twice the size of Near so it's got nothing to do with the fact I'm scrawny looking… I wonder what the hell is wrong with me, what is undesirable about me? I'm next to perfect for Mello maybe I fucked him off and haven't realized it yet" He continued
Being jealous of Mello associating with "acquaintances" was nothing unusual for Matt but understandably he had his reasons. Mello wasn't exactly the average thirty year old, he had a bad boy background, he was intelligent, good looking, he didn't take any shit from anyone, he was strong, determined, brave and what made it even worse was the blonde was an absolute tiger in the sack, Matt had hoped he was one of the only few that knew that, as far as Matt was concerned his blonde boyfriend was top grade and he knew he wasn't the only one who thought so. Of course that didn't mean that Matt was unfortunate he was bright, comical, domesticated he was rather boyishly handsome and he was so cocky, at least most of the time, that he let very little get to him, the only thing that ever did was envy and what a bitch envy was to him.
He pulled out the packet of cigarettes from his front pocket of his jeans and searched for the lighter. Once he found it he lit up the cancer stick and breathed in the smoke like it was fresh air. He left the bathroom and made his way through the house that he shared with Mello and found his way out the backyard, pretending he didn't see his boyfriend still talking to that weird albino.
"What the hell is he here for anyway? nobody ever visits, I suppose he will want Mello to vanish off somewhere to do something for him…I hate feeling like this, I feel like I'm a child that has had something taken away from them…I guess sooner or later the day will come that I will lose him" Matt said quietly to himself.
He didn't even seem to notice Mello standing behind the curtain listening to Matt talk to himself.
"He's everything to me and I'm trying not to be that annoying jealous boyfriend but it's hard when he is just so damn fucking perfect…I do love him, more than I could even explain but he has the patience of a starving wolf…what if I do fuck it up because this is the only thing I can't keep a cool head about…I can't lose him…not now, I love him too damn much" The red head continued
It wasn't out of the ordinary for Matt to have full conversations with himself, he didn't want Mello knowing that jealousy was the one thing that got under Matt's skin, he never let anything worry him and yet one simple emotion was making his heart and head hurt.
"I wish I just had the nerve to just ask him to marry me, maybe if we were married I wouldn't be so envious all the damn time, at least it wouldn't be so easy for him to…leave me" Matt said, the words made his heart feel like it was being twisted and pulled
He really loathed envy, he had wished it was a person so he could kill it but alas, it was just an emotion that Matt let rule over him without a single sign of escape in light.
Mello stepped out from behind the curtain, quickly smiled then became straight faced. He approached his red head boyfriend and sat behind him and wrapped his arms around Matt's slender chest
"Aww is my Matty jealous?" Mello said in a child-like sarcastic tone
"Don't patronize me, I'm not a child" Matt barked back quickly
Mello smiled again, Matt's attempts at sounding scary were pretty piss weak, despite his pathetic bark Matt did have a nasty bite, he had seen that in the past when they were hunting down Kira. Matt was just as ruthless especially when it came to safety of Mello. They had been together for seven years and had been friends before then since they were children growing up in Wammy's House, an orphanage for gifted children, which was where they had also met Near. The Kira case was something that fucked with all of their heads, none of them had been the same after that especially since they had lost Lawliet, someone all three admired and looked up to. It was hard on them all and it had taken years to get over it but all three in their own way were responsible for the demise of Kira and they had been more than lucky that they hadn't died but the scar down Mello's left side of his face and shoulder was a constant reminder to the couple of the shit they had been through together, Mello would have never even dream of leaving Matt, no matter how jealous he got. Even though the red head didn't know it he was the only one Mello would risk his life for and he was the only person he really loved and cared about.
"You don't have to marry me for me to stay put you know? That's the most fucked up thought you've ever had" Mello said and he pressed his chest into Matt's back
The red head finished off his cigarette and tossed it out onto the concrete pavement
"It's not my fault ya know it's not like I want to be jealous every time a guy speaks to you" Matt replied
Mello pursed his lips and connected it was the back of Matt's neck giving him a soft quick kiss.
"Why are you jealous huh? You know that it's always been me and you; you've always been by my side. For fuck sakes I would have never imagined being gay but I wanted to be with you, I don't mind being a fairy if it means I get to be with you, surely you must be able to see that" Mello replied
Matt remained quiet for a moment, it made sense to him. He would have never thought of having a homosexual relationship either but once the Kira Case was over, not long after Mello received his burns the blonde had gone through an emotional breakdown, he had become intensely angry and depressed at the same time and he was causing harm to strangers who looked at him funny, he was crying himself to sleep every night he had even gone as far as hitting Matt, but the red head didn't care about being punched in the face he knew Mello was in distress and it was why he stayed by his side the whole time and even though it was hard on the blonde that emotional breakdown was what had bought them closer a few years after when Matt finally helped heal Mello inside and out, Mello had gone over to Matt's apartment. He had thanked the red head for everything he had done and after Matt had told his friend that he didn't have to thank him that he would do anything for him, they had hugged and as they pulled away, Matt had kissed Mello and since the blonde didn't pull away they had spent their first night together and even though it was strange for them both to begin with they settled into being together quickly. That day seemed so long ago.
"'cause you're so damn fucking perfect I see everyone as a potential threat to my happiness, it's not my fault I love you so damn much" Matt said pouting.
Mello smiled and shook his head, after the hell he had put Matt through over the years, yelling at him for no good reason, ordering him around, the violence, the times where he was cold to him that Mello knew that it broke Matt's heart and yet the red head had still insisted that Mello was perfect.
"I am not perfect Matt, I am far from. I won't leave you, you're more stupid then I gave you credit for if you think I will just suddenly leave your jealous ass. I do love you, you know, it's not that I am in this because I feel obligated or because I have a fear of dying alone, you're my idiotic boyfriend who I admire and appreciate and after everything we had been through together you think I'm just going to toss you aside like a used tissue? Come on…seriously Matty, use your head" Mello replied
The red head turned his head and looked into the blondes aquamarine eyes. He respected that Mello was going to an effort to comfort him but the concern was still there, all it was going to take was Mello to end up talking to some hunky, brawny, buff guy who had everything and Matt would end up losing his mind, Mello was a social butterfly he had no trouble talking to people or striking up a conversation with some random and Matt was the complete opposite, he detested people and he hated socializing and going to places like the supermarket, he only did it because he loved Mello and the blonde had always said he wished Matt would be more willing to go out places.
"Why do you have to be all flirty with him for?" Matt asked
"Flirty? Huh? What the hell are you talking about I was not flirting with Near you sick bastard, YUCK! FUCK NO! We were talking and that's it…me flirting with Near?" Mello released his hold on Matt
"You really are twisted, grow up you juvenile" Mello said and he re-entered the house
"Asshole" Matt called back out
"COCKSUCKER!"
"FAGGOT!"
"JEALOUS MORON!" Mello yelled back
Matt stood up and went back inside and followed Mello into the kitchen
"Oi I'm not done with you yet" Matt said
He grabbed Mello by the wrist and pulled the blonde's body into his own, he placed his thumb and index finger under his chin and kissed the man passionately. Their lips and tongues clashed in a moist and gentle embrace. The red head wrapped his arms around Mello's waist and the blonde snaked his arms over Matt's shoulders, lacing his fingers in with the vermillion strands.
Matt gripped hold of Mello tightly and lifted him up on to the counter beside them without parting lips. Once the blonde's backside was against the hard marble counter he wrapped his legs around Matt's hips, locking him in close to him. They finally pulled away and looked at each other, both of them clearly aroused by the intense kiss.
"I maybe a jealous moron and a cocksucker but I am a green-eyed cocksucker who loves you, I just don't want to lose you, that's all" Matt said finally becoming calm after his envy rage
"You're adorable sometimes you know that"
Matt blushed and turned his head
"Why do you have to say things like for? You make me sound like a baby animal or even worse a girl" the red head mumbled
Mello placed his hand against Matt's cheek and encouraged the man to look at him again
"Would you prefer it if I said you were cute?" the blonde asked
"…No, that's worse. Can't you call me something more masculine sounding?"
Mello laughed, even though Matt was clearly male he didn't exactly scream masculine
"Alright my sexy manly stud is that more to your liking? You have never been picky why all of a sudden are so concerned with what I call you? You have responded to me even when I call you something offensive?"
Matt sighed and felt his cheeks start to cool from the embarrassment
"I dunno, what did Near want anyway?" Matt asked changing the subject
"Well if you stuck around to listen instead of being a fucking jerk and running off to the bathroom in an envy rage you have heard that Near is getting married…I bet you feel like a real dumbass now huh? So what do you have to say for yourself?" Mello asked
Matt tightened his lips, he could feel it trying to escape, it was too much for him. He burst out into hysterical laughter. He seriously couldn't believe it. He had felt like a right cock head but what was even more entertaining to him was the fact that Near, that weird white haired know-it-all was getting married. Who the hell in their right mind would want to marry him? Matt composed himself and managed to stop laughing.
"Are you finished?" Mello asked
"Ah, yeah. I've finished, your serious Near is getting married?" Matt asked
"Of course I'm serious idiot I don't just make shit up for no good reason. He wants us to be there, and before you pull that face you pull when you know we are going out in public, I already said we would go, I don't particularly like the idea myself but he has been a part of our lives for a long time. If you say this to him I WILL kill you but I kinda like the guy and he is, I suppose, a friend" Mello said
He was never the kind to admit that he had any kind of feeling towards anyone, Matt was the only one he freely expressed what he was feeling to, he trusted that red head with his life so he didn't feel the need to put up walls when they were alone.
"I don't even care that I will have to go out in public; I have to see what kind of crazy woman would willingly want to marry Near. So when is it then?" Matt asked
"This Saturday…you are actually going to go? Even though you'll have to be sociable?...are you feeling alright Matty? You're acting fucking weird" Mello said with an eyebrow cocked
Matt nodded and pressed his lips to Mello's again.
"Harder Matt, come on you can do better than that, it will fit you just have to keep trying" Mello groaned loudly
"Mel' it's too damn tight, it just doesn't fit anymore, you're not as young as you once were ya know you're body has changed since we were teenagers. Why do you want this so badly anyway?" Matt asked the blonde with heavy breaths, it had only been ten minutes but they were both completely exhausted
"Because it makes me feel good you idiot"
Trying to get Mello to squeeze into his black leather pants he hadn't worn since he was a teenager was hard work especially since he was taller and filled out a little more. He had the sudden urge to find his leather clothes that he hadn't seen it what felt like forever.
Matt pulled his hands away from the waist band that just wouldn't budge away from Mello's thighs.
"Sorry Mel' it's just not going to happen" Matt fell onto the floor breathing heavily and wiping the sweat from off his face
Mello collapsed on the bed perspiring and beat from the whole ordeal. Matt crawled over to him and dragged down on the pants and tossed them to the side. He surged his lips to Mello's left shin and started to work his way up
"Is this supposed to make me feel better?" Mello asked
Matt stopped at his thigh and smiled and whilst Mello was too busy gazing at the ceiling probably cursing because those damn pants just didn't fit anymore Matt tugged down on the waist band of the blondes black silk boxer shorts and then tossed them aside once he got them down to the blonde's ankles. He could see Mello smile as he felt himself be released.
The red head placed his hand against Mello's cock and smoothly and unhurriedly began to massage his member. Matt could feel the organ promptly swell against his hand and as soon as his lover's manhood was erect he swathed his lips around the head and began to suck frivolously.
Mello swiftly sat up and tousled his fingers in with the vermillion tresses and he looked down at his boyfriend who was tormenting the hell out of the pink silken flesh.
It hadn't taken Matt long to figure out what precisely Mello enjoyed after their first time together, given it was adequately quick and didn't last all that long but with some experimentation and many hours teasing the blonde he knew exactly how to get Mello stimulated, and reasonably hurriedly too. Matt covered his left hand around the substantial and copious shaft and began to pump it sedately as he continued to lick and suck on the tip, the sweet-salty taste of pre-cum sat on his tongue as he swept the moist, warm muscle over the head.
"You always know how to make me feel good don't you" Mello said delicately as he let out a pleasure encouraged whimper.
Matt detached his lips from around Mello's cock and gazed up at the blonde while he persisted to jerk the length that pulsated in his palm.
"I do what I can" Matt replied.
Mello unconstrained his hold on Matt's hair and positioned his hands on either of Matt's arms and with a tug, gestured for the red head to come up on the bed with him. Matt obliged and freed his hand of Mello's tepid and stiff cock and slithered up onto the bed and rested himself amid the blonde's legs. He inclined down into the man beneath him and pursed his indulgent rose pink a lips to Mello's, the kiss instantaneously becoming zealous. Matt's tongue reconnoitered the saturated caverns of Mello's mouth as their tongues brushed against one another's their saliva intertwined as they shared a adoring and ardent embrace. Mello reached out and gripped the button and zip of the red heads jeans and skillfully undid both and speedily.
Matt dragged away from their kiss so they could both get some air. He crooked Mello's head to the side and started to kiss down his right cheek making his way down until he accessed the nape of his neck. He tenderly nipped at the susceptible flesh before taking some of it in between his lips and softly sucked.
Mello gasped and then whined loudly as he could feel Matt's lips attack the sensitive skin. He pulled away once he could feel Mello's fingers carelessly sashay across his abundant length. He gripped the hem of Mello's black sleeveless shirt and drove it upward so he had effortless admittance to his lover's nipples. He grazed his fingertips up Mello's toned abdomen and began to gently excite the stiff nib of his right nipple and then moving onto the left
"Nngh..Matt…" Mello hissed at euphoria Matt had sent thorough his entire body like a stray bolt of electricity.
The red head smirked and hauled away the blonde and removed his own shirt then swiftly got rid of the one Mello wore, lobbing them both to the floor with the leather pants and boxer shorts.
Matt gazed down at the man beneath him, he was even more exquisite naked. His body was slender and toned and the muscles were easily defined, his skin was an insipid peach pink that just seemed to have a natural radiance to it which complemented the head of long undiluted blond hair that cascaded to the middle of his shoulder blades. Matt always thought Mello was quite the looker which made it even tougher for him when others evidently observed it too.
"Why are you staring at me like that?" Mello asked once he become conscious that Matt hadn't done anything more
"No reason, you're just…beautiful" Matt replied
"And you think adorable is girly, you just called me beautiful" Mello said with a tinge of laughter in his voice.
Matt inclined back into his boyfriend.
"There aren't any other words I can say…" Matt said softly
"Hot, smoldering, yummy, tempting, fucking sexy"
Matt shook his head
"They are all words to tell you that I'm horny and I want to fuck you and while I am and while I do, beautiful is letting you know that I think you're the most incredible being on the planet and you're equally mesmerizing on the inside and out and that I love you"
Mello grinned
"You're such a cheese ball, but I love you too. Now hurry up and fuck me" Mello replied
Matt didn't dispute he clutched his cock and steered to Mello's snug entrance. In the beginning it took quite a lot of time to prepare for sex but as the years rolled on they had both grown accustomed to it and were able to make love without it being unnerving or agonizing.
He drove himself inside of the heat which immediately engulfed his complete length without any disinclination. Devoid of an exchange in words Matt began to stretch his blond with force. They had never exactly had the most quixotic sex, it was usually quite intense and wild, it suited them both fine although Matt was hoping one day Mello would humor him and tolerate him making a big romantic gesture and then spend the rest of the night making love instead of fucking.
Mello hollered out in ecstasy as Matt hammered himself in and out of the secure heat. Every thrust was making Matt gasp stridently as the hold that his blonde had on him was excessively snug and felt way too good enfolded around him.
Matt wrapped his arms underneath Mello's thighs and dragged him towards him so that with every lunge he could penetrate the blonde deeper. The moment that Matt did so Mello screamed out again as he could feel the head of Matt's cock brush against his blood filled prostate.
"Ahhh Matt…don't stop" Mello cried out
Matt picked up the velocity, both men breathless and moaning in swelling hunger as they lost themselves in the deep desire that made them both shudder. Matt reached out for Mello's disregarded cock, wrapped the slab of meat in his palm and began to pump him in time with the powerful thrusts. Mello curved his back and bucked his hips powerfully into the red heads hand.
"Don't cum yet beautiful" Matt panted
Mello let out whine of want, he wanted to feel the impressive orgasm that he had building up inside of him
"Nngh…ahhh…Matt come on you have…to cum for me" Mello moan was interwoven in with dense inhalation
"Oh fuck, I love it when you say my name like that" Matt growled
He felt his body precipitously become taut, his heart was thrashing in his chest and he couldn't stop from feeling like he was going to burst. He embraced Mello's thigh and as if he had been shocked his body juddered blithely as he felt his seed shoot into Mello, the moment the hot white liquid had hit and covered his walls the blonde also released into Matt's hand and on his own stomach.
As they rode out the orgasms Matt collapsed into Mello and they both savored the quivering of one another's naked bodies.
"I forgot…to tell…you something" Mello panted into Matt's ear
"What?"
"We have to…wear suits"
Matt breathed out an exasperated breath
"Oh fuck…thanks for telling…me sooner babe…"
It didn't take long for Saturday to roll around. Mello had achieved to have a less the desirable start to the morning which was bought on being woken up by the alarm clock that he set, it was needless to say that the alarm clock had ended up on the other side of the room and putting a hole in the wall. That was why Matt never woke him up if he was up before the blonde.
Mello had been cantankerous all morning with regards to the black and white suit that he was FORCED to wear.
He came out from the bathroom and back into the bedroom to Matt. His eyes were down trying to figure out how to fasten the black tie around his neck
"FUCK! These things are so infuriating, Matt? Please tell me you know how to do this" Mello said finally looking up
Matt was sitting on the edge of the bed with a stupid dumbstruck look on his face. He had never seen his boyfriend look so…charming. He was wearing black slacks that didn't seem to have a single crinkle in them, a long white sleeved shirt that was hanging over the waist of his pants and Mello had altered by rolling the sleeves up to his elbow to create and new cuff. A black pinstriped vest that was unbuttoned and of course that horrible obsidian tie that he couldn't seem to master.
"What are staring at?" Mello barked to the red head
"You" Matt simply replied and stood up off the bed
He strolled over to the blonde and took the tie from out of his hands and initiated to tie a Windsor knot.
"How do you know how to do this?" Mello asked inquisitively
Matt smiled
"Master at bondage" He replied
"WHAT!" Mello barked
Matt began to laugh
"I'm only kidding Mel', Roger once showed me somehow it just stuck" Matt replied
"But we haven't seen Roger in over fifteen years, you really remember back from that long ago?" Mello asked
Matt nodded and finished up the tie. He upstretched his hands and positioned them on the blonde's shoulders and turned him around and started to do an intricate fish tail braid in his long hair. The red head focused on making sure that every one of the golden blades was in its place. He took his time with the blondes silky hair, he knew that Mello always sought to look his best so taking that extra time to make the golden wisps perfect always put a smile on Mello's face which in turn made Matt content. He had never imagined that every couple of days he would be doing Mello's hair, it never really troubled him as nothing much did it just meant that he had to be primed with a picky Mello and that wasn't always enjoyable but the red head accomplished to cope just fine.
"Hair tie" Matt said as he came to an end of the braid
Mello pulled the black one off from around his wrist and passed it over his shoulder. The red head took it and began to tie the braid off.
"Done" he said
Mello rotated around and faced his boyfriend
"How do I look?" The blonde asked
Matt scanned him over once again and smiled
"Well it's very surprising to see you dressed like that but you look extraordinary" Matt said
"Now it's your turn, come of Matty you have to blow me away and hurry up" Mello retorted and ambled over to the bed and handed Matt the suit that was laid out nice and precisely. The red head exhaled noisily and as much as he didn't want to he did as he was told and withdrew to the bathroom.
He drew away his clothes, there was no way in hell he was going to look as suave as Mello. He sighed and did as he was directed to do. It was easier for him to just go with the tide and do as Mello requested then it was to dispute with him. Quarrelling with Mello was not enjoyable, Matt scarcely got a word in and the perpetual flow of Mello's invectives, all though didn't bother Matt in the slightest, made it near on unfeasible for Matt to debate his opinion. He just nodded or sighed and got down to business.
Mello's officiousness was more predominant in bed, even though there was no fixed top or bottom roles when Mello decided he would be the fucker and not the fuckee he was very necessitating and liked things to be done his way without allowing Matt to have any input, it was definitely proof that Mello was King in their house hold.
Matt pulled on the white long sleeved shirt and did up the buttons; he wrapped the deep violet tie around his neck and quickly knotted it. He changed his pants to the black dress ones and adorned the fancy shirt with the black vest and buttoned it up, tucking the tie in underneath it so it wouldn't get in his way all night. He stepped back and admired himself in the mirror and became amiably astonished that he didn't look half bad.
He picked up the brush and pulled his vermillion strands backwards so they were out of his emerald colored eyes, he cocked his eyebrow and looked at himself in the mirror again, he couldn't even remember the last time that he even saw his forehead. He grabbed some of Mello's mousse and squeezed some into his hand before placing it in his hair to hold it into place. Matt left the bathroom once he was dressed and went back into his boyfriend who was enthusiastically waiting on the edge of the bed
"Mel' I dunno about this, I kinda feel like an idiot wearing this get up" Matt said entering the room
Mello remained hushed and just ogled the red head, there was no decisive sentiment on his face so Matt had no idea what the blonde was thinking.
"Mel'? Did you hear me?" Matt asked
Mello shook his head
"Huh?"
"I said I feel like an idiot wearing this crap" Matt repeated
Mello hoisted up and walked over to the red head, positioned his hands on his cheeks and situated his lips against his lovers. Matt quite literally had his breath taken away, he wasn't envisaging that nor did he have enough time to take a breath before Mello kissed him. When the blonde finally pulled away he just looked into Matt's eyes amorously
"Does that mean I don't look like an idiot even though I feel like one?" Matt asked
Mello rested his lips against Matt's ear
"You're beautiful" Mello whispered softly
Matt could feel his heart suddenly palpitate in his chest, over the years Mello had said he was cute, adorable and sexy but he had never heard him say something so softhearted, given Matt had only said it once for the first time while they fucked but Mello already knew he was attractive, Matt never really thought about how he did or didn't look but to hear the blonde say that he was beautiful was the ultimate compliment.
"That's kinda girly don't ya think?" Matt said with a smile on his face
"Girly or not, you really look amazing Matt, and I can't believe you actually have a forehead under that mop of hair. You make me want to fuck you right now" Mello said
Matt just smiled, if all else failed at least Mello always amused him.
"Well the fucking will have to wait we got what I hope will be an entertaining wedding to attend"
The men entered the lavish pricey hotel, whether Mello liked it or not Matt had devised a romantic plan, while the blonde wandered off to the bathroom to make sure he was still in pristine condition Matt had booked one of the penthouse suits for the night and asked that a bouquet of roses be sent up and laid on the bed. Mello was probably going to flip his lid at his red headed lover but if the blonde intended on living up to his statement he made before they left Matt was going to make sure that there was romance involved. He had finished making the arrangements and waited at the door for Mello to return.
The blonde returned seeming pleased with the way he looked and together they entered the function room for the reception. The wedding had gone on without a hitch despite the fact that the ceremony seemed to drag on and both the men took a not so affirmable liking to Near's bride, they couldn't even seem to get her name right, it was something Japanese or Chinese or some kind of obscure, unpronounceable Asian name.
The place was completely jam packed with people, most they had never met before and others they had recognized from their time at the orphanage.
"Do you want a drink?" Mello asked the red head
"God yes" Matt replied
Mello smiled and made his way to the bar and in his typical fashion Matt chose to incline against the wall in the least teeming section of the room. He stood there waiting and glanced over at the bar and realized Mello had struck up a conversation with the newly married friend. Matt rolled his eyes knowing it would be some time for the blonde to return and the fact the room was filled with eye-catching men that seemed to exude "handsome millionaire" it was making Matt all that more uneasy
He watched his lover like a hawk so at the first sign of someone hitting on him Matt could swoop over and make an obvious declaration that just because Mello wasn't wearing a wedding ring it didn't mean he was free for the taking.
Matt's view of the blonde was abruptly congested by a man standing right in front of him with a hospitable and large grin on his face. Matt had no idea who the man was but he had no appeal in having a conversation with the stranger.
"Hi there" The man said
Matt could feel himself become agitated, he wished there was a way he could have "don't talk to me I hate people" printed somewhere on him. He detested mingling especially with large strange men who smiled at him like he was a piece of meat.
"Hi" Matt replied
Even though socially phobic he didn't want to appear to be discourteous, he wasn't Mello after all who simply glared at people if they annoyed him.
"You here alone then?" The man asked
Matt took a deep breath and his eyes connected with the man in front of him. He was tall, at least six foot four, had short silvery colored hair and dark chocolate brown eyes. He was built like a Mac truck which was clear since his suit fitted him rather snuggly, he wasn't an unfortunate looking man but even still Matt did not want to be having a conversation with the man.
"No I'm here with someone" Matt replied
The man's smile decreased some what
"Your wife?"
"No" Matt simply replied
"Not much of a talker huh? Well that's ok I can do the talking and you can do the listening if you like or just answer questions" The man said
Matt could hear the screaming in his head, he needed Mello to come back
"I'm Rex" the man introduced himself and thrusted his hand forward
"Matt" the red head replied and gingerly shook Rex's hand
They both dropped the hold and Rex continued to stand there and blabbering on about something that Matt didn't quite catch because he was too busy trying to seek the crowd for his boyfriend who was taking his merry ass time to come back with the much needed drink
"Do you want a drink?" Rex asked Matt
"Yeah" Matt replied
Even though he was already waiting on a drink he figured it was the opportune moment to slip away so he wouldn't be forced to talk to Rex again. Matt breathed a sigh of relief when the man was gone but before he could move his blonde finally returned with two glasses of scotch and cola and handed one to Matt
"Who was that?" Mello asked
"Rex, some stock broker I think" Matt replied only recalling some of Rex's babble
"Do you know him?"
"No, never seen him before"
Matt took a good sip from the glass Mello had handed him
"What did he want?"
"I dunno, just to talk I think, he wanted to get me a drink" Matt replied
"Oh, does he know that you're not single?"
"I dunno, I said no when he asked if I had come here alone"
Matt downed the rest of the contents in the glass
"He looked like he was interested in you, why didn't you tell him to fuck off?"
Matt cocked his eyebrow, he couldn't believe that he hadn't registered; Mello was jealous of Mr. tall and handsome. Matt wanted to laugh he wanted to taunt the blonde because now he had some understanding about what he went through every time Mello spoke to someone good looking. Matt lowered his eyebrow, as much as he loved Mello he wanted to tease him a little bit, have a some fun with the blondes sudden envy problem.
"You're right Mel', he did sort of just come up to me and started talking, maybe he does really like me" Matt said without trying to sound to ridiculous so Mello wouldn't pick up that Matt had recognized the jealousy.
"Is he coming back?" Mello asked
"Probably I mean he undoubtedly thinks I'm fair game, he will want to keep trying to chat me up" Matt replied
Sure enough Rex came back with two drinks and handed one to Matt, Rex glanced at the blonde, who looked tiny compared to the silver haired man
"Who's this?" Rex asked Matt
"I am his boyfriend so back to fuck off" Mello growled
For a big man he certainly frightened easily. Matt couldn't help but laugh as the large man cowered away from the couple
"What the fuck are you laughing for? For someone anti-social you certainly lapped the attention up" Mello said sternly to Matt
"Oh sweetheart, come on I was just playing with you, I wasn't in the slightest bit interested in him I swear" Matt playfully begged
Mello furrowed his brows and glared at Matt, he took one step forward and gazed into the green eyes. Matt could tell quite thoroughly that Mello was not in the least bit impressed with the red heads little game.
"Don't call me sweetheart and don't go flaunting yourself in front of other guys… you are mine and I am not willing to share with anyone GOT IT?" Mello said aggressively
Matt still couldn't help but smile
"Awww was my baby jealous?" Matt asked mockingly
"Don't patronize me asshole, you're the one with the jealously issues not me" Mello growled again
"Come on admit it, you hated that he was hitting on me"
Mello remained silent and slightly blushed at his boyfriend's statement.
"Mel' it's ok if you were, actually I would prefer it if you were, it means you still love me after all these years and you don't want anyone else to have me" Matt said kindly and brushed his hand against Mello's free one
"Don't get all big headed about it, so what if I was jealous, people can't just assume that just because an attractive guy is standing alone doesn't mean he is single" Mello mumbled
Matt pulled Mello in close to him and held his hand; they laced their fingers in with each other's. Normally Mello hated public displays of affection by his jealously had made him very possessive and he held onto the red head's hand tightly.
"I've got a surprise for you" Matt said
"If you tell me you have a hard-on I am going to punch you so hard you won't breathe for a week"
Matt smiled and let out a small laugh.
"I took it upon myself to book one of the penthouse suites tonight so we don't have to go anywhere"
Mello just looked at him, he surprisingly seemed happy.
"You did?" the blonde asked
"Yes, beautiful I did so why don't we ditch these perverts and go up to our room and spend the night together, away from everyone and jealously?" Matt asked
"I'll tell Near we are going, stay put…and don't talk to strangers" Mello demanded
Matt smiled, and as usual, did as he was told. Mello returned a short time later and they went up to the suite.
Matt pushed open the door to the huge room that was decorated in ivory and golden hues, the floor was covered in a velvety white shag and all the furniture was intricate and appeared antique. Matt walked over to the large bed and picked up the roses and sauntered back to Mello with them. He handed them to the blonde and smiled before walking away so he didn't have a chance to reject them. Matt wandered into the bathroom and checked out the huge two person spa and the shower that had a shower head built into the roof. It was definitely worth the money he had paid for it.
"Matt?" Mello called out from the bed
"Yeah?" Matt replied as he ambled back into the bedroom.
Mello was sitting on the bed, still dressed but minus shoes. Matt slipped his off too and made his way over to the king sized bed that was adored with a fancy crimson comforter that had white and black flowers and leaf designs stitched into it. He sat down and looked at the blonde who moved so he was sitting behind the red head, his arms draped over his shoulder and his legs either side of his body.
Mello pursed his lips against Matt's neck and sent soft kisses up the skin that reacted to the gentle touch by bunching into goose bumps. Mello being all affectionate made him smile and a mellifluous low moan escaped his mouth
"Mmm what did I do to deserve this?" Matt asked
"Nothing, I just understand why you hate being jealous, it really is a bitch" Mello replied
Matt turned his head so he was facing Mello and pressed his lips to the blondes they shared a couple of indulgent and affectionate kisses.
"Why didn't you ever tell me?" Mello asked quietly
"That jealously is a cold hearted bitch?" The red head questioned
"No…why didn't you tell me that it breaks your heart every time that I speak to someone that you think is a threat? After everything we have been through together, after the many times you have picked up the pieces of my shattered soul and heart, after everything you did for me when I was in pain, why do you find it so hard to tell me when you're hurting?" Mello questioned in a soft whisper
Matt had never told Mello if or when he was brokenhearted, he favored to keep it discreet, it wasn't because he didn't trust the blonde, he was the only one he did depend on. But Matt had always put Mello first, to him his own hurt was his own problem and he didn't want Mello to have to deal with any pain the red head felt, he didn't want to open any healed wounds or make Mello think he was unhappy. He wasn't really, it did hurt him when he became jealous and the thoughts of losing his beloved to someone else was even more painful and it made him feel weak. It wasn't just a jealousy issue it was a constant fear that one day he might not be good enough for Mello anymore, that there was always going to be someone better than him, so one who could take better care of his lover, someone who wouldn't become jealous over a simple conversation or become timid over something that seemed so inconsequential.
Matt turned away and looked down to the floor, he felt discreditable for what he felt.
"…I…I didn't want you to think that I had a weakness, to be honest I have always thought that jealousy was my downfall and it would be the reason you…you would end up leaving me for someone who didn't become envious" Matt replied
Mello removed his right hand and pressed it against Matt's chest, his palm covering over his heart
"How many nights did you lay with me at night when I beat myself up and cried myself to sleep?" the blonde asked
"Every night"
"And how many days did you watch me fall apart?"
"Every day"
"How many times did you refuse to even have a cigarette outside because you didn't want to leave me alone?"
"Every day and night for three years" Matt replied
"Do you honestly believe that I would ever want something more? Do you think there is anyone out there who could love me more than you do, even before we were together, don't you think I already know how much you loved me then and how much you love me now, why the fuck would you think that I would just trade you in?"
"I just thought if you met someone bigger, tougher and smarter who wouldn't feel a rage every time you spoke to some random that you would realize that as a person I am no good…that's all" Matt replied almost somberly
"Matt? even if someone like that did come along I wouldn't be concerned with them, I'm gregarious by nature but that doesn't mean I have ever thought of anyone as a prospective lover or even a friend, you know me, I tell people to fuck off if they get too close to me, did I ever tell you to fuck off?"
Matt shook his head, after everything Mello did say in that dark time of his life he never once told Matt to go, he never told him to leave him alone and he on no occasion once told him to fuck off.
"So then wouldn't that tell you that I don't want to be without you, even if I am angry or emotional? If I have never told you to leave when I have been like that than why would you ever think such bullshit like I would leave you?"
Matt remained silent, he couldn't help but think about what a fool he had been and how ridiculous he had acted. The one thing he let bother him was the one thing he shouldn't have let get to him and the trivial matter was the only thing that made him feel hurt and like his heart was breaking. He should have known all along that Mello would never leave him, Mello needed him just as much as he needed Mello he was the only one who put up with the abuse when the blonde was unwell, he was the only one who stood by his side and took care of him when no one else would even go near him. Even though the blonde hadn't known it but after he had cried himself to sleep all those times, Matt had done the exact same thing because he was petrified he was going to lose his best friend even though they weren't together romantically back then. Mello was everything to him and that's why he endured whatever pain he had because Mello needed him.
"Matt, I love you, a part of me always knew that I did. But we have been together for seven years now and have I ever given you any reason not to trust me?"
"No of course not, I have never distrusted you" Matt instantly replied
"Then trust me when I say you're the one for me and that's all there is to it, I don't want anyone else, I desire and need you, you keep me sturdy, your my criterion, if I don't have you then I sink back into that darkness. You keep me honest and you give me a lot more then you realize. If you are hurting you can talk to me, if you feel like your heart is breaking then tell me, I will fix it just as you have always done for me"
Matt turned his head again and his watery emerald eyes connected with the aquamarine ones of the man he cherished above everything else.
"I don't care if you get covetous, tell me and I'll snap you out of it. I don't want you to ever feel like this again you hear me, never. How fucking stupid would I be to leave the only person who can put up with my bullshit? And besides if we are going to get married I won't put up with this sooky Matt, I want my Matt, the happy, cocky, confident, foul mouthed, idiot man who I fell in love with" Mello said
Matt was somewhat taken aback, was Mello actually suggesting marriage?
"You want to marry me?" Matt asked surprisingly
"Well of course I do you dumbass, why the hell do you think I dragged you to that crappy wedding? It wasn't for shits and giggles it was so I could see your face knowing you'd be thinking about us, you could light up a fucking city with the way you smiled while you let your mind wander, I knew you loved me but seeing you today made me realize that if I don't bind you to me someone else will see how incredible you are and try and take you from me and I don't deal with jealousy well Matt, I am not letting some silver haired rich bastard take away what's always been mine, fuck that, they can go find their own Matt"
Matt smiled and elevated his hand placing it against the scarred left side of Mello's face
"So just say yes ok cause I really don't want to have to kill someone because they assume you're single"
"I would love to marry you" Matt replied
They kissed again but more deeply than the last kiss. There was nothing but love right there and then; they were entangled in honest and unadulterated true love.
Mello broke the kiss and looked at Matt with serious eyes
"If you ever make me feel jealous again I won't kill you I just won't have sex with you anymore that will be more devastating to you" Mello said
"Trust me, the way you looked at me after you scared the fuck out of that guy I don't ever want to make you jealous ever again" Matt replied
Mello smiled and kissed his red head once more.