A/N: Since I wanted to get this chapter out for you today, I didn't have the time to answer questions from chapter 9 reviews and I'm going to do it in this note. If you didn't have a question you can just skip the A/N.

Rachel - Nope, Ana's hair color is permanent :-)

shalonda33 - I couldn't find you on pinterest ... I also tried the link from my profile while I wasn't logged in and it worked, so I don't know what to do :-(

MzKitty8 - You will find out in this chapter ;-)

Sally - There will be lemons, but not in the next couple of chapters. Ana has still 2 more weeks to wait until she is cleared to have sex again and I don't want to rush them, there are a lot of topics that need to be covered. But I promise, once we reach the lemons there will be a lot of them ;-)

loves4paws - From what my doctor told me, you can't use hormonal birth control as long as you're nursing. So, yes this will become a topic for them since a condom is the safest type of non-hormonal birth control and we all now Fifty doesn't like them...

To all my other reviewers and readers, thank you so much and if I've forgotten to answers a question, please send me a pm or leave a review for this chapter an I promise I will answer it.

Disclaimer: All characters belong to E.L. James. The storyline however is mine.

Ana's POV

"What the hell have you done to your hair?!"

I stare at Christian not understanding in the slightest why he is mad. "What is wrong Christian?"

"What is wrong? Look at you! That's not acceptable, I'm going to call a hair dresser to fix your hair." I look at him in utter disbelieve and judging his look, he is serious about it.

"You will do no such thing Christian. I love my new hair color." What on earth is wrong with him?

"I don't care I..." I hold one hand up to stop him from talking and he really shuts his mouth, though he continues to glare at me.

"Christian, I don't know what your problem is and actually, right now I don't care. I don't tell you how you should wear your hair and I expect the same from you. You told me you want me to give you a chance just two nights ago and with your behavior you are not helping yourself to achieve that goal.

What you fail to understand is that I'm not the girl you met anymore and I'm still trying to figure out who I am. I know this new hair color will probably take some getting use to for all of you, but ever since I saw myself in the mirror with it, I feel more like myself than I have since I woke up from that coma. If you don't like it, I'm sorry, but I'm not going to change it back just to please you. And if you love me like you told me then you shouldn't care about my hair color at all."

He looks at me for the longest time and sighs. "I still prefer brunettes and I'm not sure I will get use to it anytime soon, but fine have it your way." and with that he leaves the room.

"Don't worry Ana, he will calm down. Christian gets mad easily" Grace says apologetic and I just shrug. If he wants to pout over my new hair color so be it, I'm not going to dye my hair back just to please him.

Christian's POV

Fuck, I need to get out. I leave the house, but of course there is still the fucking media, who is now camping outside the gates. Fuck this, I feel like a caged animal and now on top of it Ana is mad at me.

Damn, seeing her with that new hair color was a shock, but what was I supposed to say? I couldn't tell her to dye her hair back because I prefer brunettes, since petite brown-haired girls remind me of my birth mother. Yeah, I guess she would have loved that answer.

And what about her whole attitude? I don't get it, yes, she lost her memory, but it's like she is a completely different person now. She is so outgoing and doesn't take crap from anyone, but still she caring and I love watching her with our daughter. That little girl is so lucky to have Ana as her mom. I just wish I could have my Ana back, but she is right, I have to come to terms with the fact that she is no longer the girl I met.

So, I guess I have to accept the chances that come with 'new' Ana. After all, she is still the same person. Fuck, I probably should go back and apologize for my outburst, but I don't want Ana to start question why I reacted the way I did. I mean, honestly, how much more shit can I possibly pile on her before she takes Mireya and leaves.

"Christian?" I turn around and see Ray. He is holding two bottles of beer in his hands and points with his head towards the small dock next to the boathouse. I follow him, we sit down on the dock and I take the bottle of beer he is offering me.

"I don't want Annie or Carla to hear our conversation, so I figured this place will do." he looks nervous, which makes me wonder what it is he wants to talk about.

"Ray, I know I acted like an ass and..."

"You think" he snorts and takes a sip of beer. "Let me tell you, the last time she came home with that awful hair color, I was the one reacting like that and I drove her to the next hair dresser to get it fixed."

"What? She did this before?" I confused, this is not like the Ana I know.

"She sure did. 9th grade. She had just turned 15 and went to a sleepover at a friend's house. What I didn't know was that the sister of her friend had just finished hair dressing school. She styled Ana and her friend and Annie came home with almost the same haircut and color. I went nuts, I mean Montesano is a small town and people would be talking about her if she would walk around like that, but she was so damn stubborn. She threw a fit at the hairdresser, but in the end I insisted on changing the color back."

"Ray, that doesn't sound like the Ana I know."

"That's because you met her after Texas." he says and I can see the pain in his eyes. "What happened in Texas?"

"I don't know, she never told me. Look, I'm going to tell you this now, you two kids have a child and need to figure out how your future will look like. Maybe this will help you understand her better." He looks out to the sound for a while and finally continues.

"I met Carla when Annie was just a little baby. I guess you could say Carla was a hot mess. She was chaotic, completely unorganized, but still a lovely person, so I married her and gave Annie my name. I can't have own children and from day one Annie was my daughter to me.

Annie was an amazing kid, every day was an adventure for her. Once she could walk there was nothing that could stop her. I took her hiking, camping and she loved it. Carla, well she is more an indoor kind of person, so Annie and I did all those trips alone. The one thing that always made me so proud of Annie was that there was nothing she was afraid of. She would face anything head on.

One day when she was 8 I was called to her school because she got into a fight. You have to know she was a petite little thing, even the kids in her grade were at least a several inches taller than her. So, I went into the principal's office and there was my girl, her dress was full of mud, her hair was dishevelled and she had the most stubborn look on her face. In another chair sat a boy at least a year older and much taller than her with a bleeding nose. She beat the crap out of that little fucker." he chuckles thinking about that memory and I'm a little shocked. I can't picture Ana as a little brawler at all.

"Turned out that boy was bullying her and her friends for weeks and that morning when they had a break he came over to them on the schoolyard, took the glasses from one of Ana's friends and smashed them. Ana tried to stop him, he pushed her and she fell, when he started laughing at her she got up, pushed him down and gave him the beating he deserved. Of course the stupid principal saw it differently and Ana wasn't allowed to return to school for the rest of the week. You know what I did? I took her on a camping trip and told her that even though hitting someone isn't right, I was very proud of her."

"But why did she change Ray?"

"Carla and I had problems in our marriage, she wanted a fancy life and move to Seattle, but I love Montesano and I couldn't afford her the lifestyle she wanted. We tried to keep our family together for Annie, but in the end it didn't work out. Annie was a teenager by that time and it was really hard on her. She was always a straight A student, but her grades went down and she got an awful attitude. I knew it was the divorce and when Carla met that new guy Ana wanted to stay with me. Carla wouldn't let her and the court finally decided that Ana had to move to Texas with her mom and her new husband."

Ray stops again and this time I'm sure I can see tears in his eyes. "I should have done more, talked to Carla again, hell, I don't know. Anyway, they moved and Annie would call me every day, begging me to come and get her. I told her there was nothing I could do, that the court ordered her to live with her mom. After three months I couldn't take it anymore, it was breaking my heart to hear her cry on the phone and there was nothing I could do. So, I decided to move to Texas. I was already looking for a job there and trying to sell my house in Montesano. I figured if I would live there too she could stay over at my place a lot and it wouldn't be so hard on her.

The move never happened. It was a sunday, I was fishing and when I came home Annie just sat on the steps to the porch. I was raining like crazy, she was soaked to the skin and shaking violently. When I reached her I noticed that she was silently crying and she looked at me like she didn't even notice me. I got her into the house and wrapped her in towels and blankets, but when I asked her what had happened she didn't answer. She had nothing with her, just what she was wearing and I got so worried that I got her to the nearest hospital. While I was waiting outside the treatment room all sorts of terrible things went through my head, but the doctors couldn't find anything, no signs of rape or other abuse. She had a few scratches and a light bruise on one of her wrists, but other than that she was fine. So, I took her home and tried to get her to talk, but she refused to talk for nearly a week."

"What did Carla say?" Hell, something must have happened to her, Ana is not the kind of girl who would just run away.

"Carla, she had no idea Ana was gone, she spent that weekend with friends and wasn't at home. She told me Ana was putting up a show, so she could stay with me, but at this point there was no way in hell I would let my daughter go back there. I told Carla she had to come to Montesano and kill me if she wanted Annie back in Texas. That did the trick and Carla allowed Annie to stay with me. But from the day she returned Annie was different. She wasn't that buoyant, feisty young girl she had been all her life. She became very insecure, she wouldn't go out or meet with friends anymore. All she did was taking care of everything in the house and learning for school.

I got so worried about her that I took a mortgage on the house to pay for therapy, but she would never talk to the shrink. The only thing that made her happy were books. I would always find her sitting in a corner reading one of her books. I tried to find out what happened to her, but she never told me. She would change the subject as soon as I mentioned Texas. She wouldn't even talk to Carla until her first year of college, so for me seeing Annie now is bittersweet. I miss the Annie of the last couple of years, but seeing her like this also reminds me of the girl she was."

"And you have no clue about what has happened?" I can't accept that, there has to be a reason for this change and I will find out what it was.

"I have, but you have to promise me not to mention this."

"I won't Ray."

"Good, so a while after Annie came back from Texas Carla divorced her husband and when I asked her what happened, she wouldn't speak about it either. It was just like Annie and in that moment I knew what ever happened it was this Morton guy. I told Annie I had to leave town for two days and went to Texas to confront him. Of course, that fucker wouldn't tell me what he did to my daughter and after a while I had enough and went back to my car, but he made one mistake"

"What?"

"I was almost in the car, when he asked me if Ana was still the hot little piece of ass he remembered. I only hit him twice, but it was with enough force to break his nose and jaw. If we wouldn't have been in his driveway I would have killed the bastard. I mean you're a smart young man. A young girl leaves her home in such a hurry she doesn't take anything with her and hitch hikes all the way from Texas back to Montesano right at a weekend where she is alone with her mothers new husband. The moment he said that about my daughter, I knew he must have tried something or did something to Annie that scared the hell out of her and traumatized her so deeply she wasn't able to talk about it."

Fuck, I'm furious, I don't even know what happened to Ana, but I'm furious that something must have happened to her, that changed her so dramatically. And suddenly I remember something.

"The eating, was she so difficult about food before?"

"No, that happened at the same time. Annie was always a good eater, but from that day on you could tell if she was having a good or bad day by the way she would eat. If something had her upset or she was over thinking something, she would eat next to nothing."

"I'm going to Texas." I need to know what that bastard did to her.

"You will do no such thing, listen to me. Annie doesn't know that guy even exists right now and to me that is a blessing. If you rattle the cage with Morton she might remember, but I have no idea what that will do to her. I want her to remember anything first, but not him and you have a lot to deal with as it is, you don't want the media haunting you even more if they see you beat Morton to a pulp."

I hate to admit it, but he is right. I can't do that. My reputation is ruined as it is, I really can't add to this anymore.

"Fine, you're right, I won't go." Ray nods and gets to his feet, but before he turns to leave he looks at me. "Christian, you are the father of my grandchild and I know you care about my daughter, but I'm a not a stupid guy and I did my research about that lifestyle of yours. If you dare to hit my daughter with whips or canes or belts, even if she asks you to do it, and I find out about it, I will make you regret it. I might not know what happened to her, but Annie has been through enough. You have a daughter yourself and from one father to another I want you to treat my daughter just like you want someone to treat your little girl someday." With that he turns around and leaves.

I continue to sit there and stare at the water. Fuck, I would kill anyone who wanted to lure Mireya into my lifestyle. If I ever allow her to date, and that won't happen before she is 30, and the guy was a dominant, I would rip his head off. I want her to be treated like a queen, not beaten for someone elses pleasure, consensual or not, this is not what I want for her.

I know I couldn't hurt Ana like that again, it's a horrible thought to me, but I'm not sure how I will cope with her new self. So far, it shocked me that she would talk so bluntly to me and lecture me about my behavior. Thinking about it now that I have calmed down, her hair wasn't that bad, actually she looked hot. I know I should go and apologize now, but I continue to sit there and contemplate what to do with my life and what I really want. All I can come up is, that I want to spent my life with Ana and Mireya, maybe even have more kids. I also want to go back to work, but not with the crazy hours I did before, I want to see my daughter grow up and not leave before she is up and come home when she is asleep.

"Christian?" I look up and see Ana standing on the dock. "Do you need something?"

"No, Grace is looking for you, it's almost dinner time and she decided to do a BBQ since the weather is so nice."

"I'll be there and Ana, I'm sorry for my reaction to your hair. You look beautiful." She gives me a big smile and surprises me when she walks over to me, kneels down and leans over to whisper into my ear.

"Apology accepted and you know, rumor has it that readheads are wild in bed" she whispers seductively and fucking bites my earlobe teasingly. The next second she gets up and saunters back to the house.

Fuck me ... what the hell ... great, now I'm sitting here like an idiot with my mouth hanging open and the biggest raging hard on I have ever had in my life. Fuck, I try to think of everything disgusting I can come up with, but it's no help. I can't walk into the house like that, fuck me I won't even be able to walk without taking my pants off, so I do the only thing I can come up with to get my dick down again. I get up, kick my shoes off and jump fully clothed into the water ... fuck!

I will try to update again tomorrow, but I can't promise as I'm also working on an update for my other story ... If you have time, please leave a review :-)

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