Hi! I apologize immensely for the wait on this chapter. I've just been crazy busy. My jobs are kicking my butt, and I'm basically waking up, working, coming home and going to bed. And then I got sick but couldn't take any time off work so all of that happy shiz went down. Then, my computer battery died so I've been sharing my sister's with her and my mom. And then I was going to update it at the beginning of this week but then I went to San Fransisco to see Lea Michele in concert and oh my word! She's so amazing. I appreciate your patience though. It helps me more than you will ever know. This chapter is going to be rated 'M' just as a warning. I need to give a lot of writing credit this chapter to my sister. I am, as she calls it, a 'smut virgin' and she had to write my sex scene for me. I'll stop rambling now and let you read. Please enjoy.
(I still own nothing though I wish I did)
"Our next guest is someone you might not know now but with the upcoming movie he's staring in, it won't be long before he's a household name. Everyone, please welcome, Blaine Anderson."
The voice of Jimmy Fallon was ringing through Blaine as he stood waiting back stage for his name to be called. After he heard it and all of the applause, the stage manager directed him to enter the set. He saw everyone in the audience applauding as he felt the butterflies ignite in his stomach. He walked up the steps and shook hands with the host and sat down.
"Hi, Blaine! How are you?"
"I'm great, Jimmy. How are you?"
"I'm pretty good. Thanks for coming." Jimmy exclaimed.
"Thank you for having me. You know, I actually laughed when they called me and told me I was going to be on the show because I thought they were kidding. But here I am."
The audience applauded. It was a weird sensation to Blaine to have everyone clapping for something simple he said but he was enjoying it nonetheless.
"So, Blaine...you start out as a college professor teaching music and now you're getting ready to release your first film. Tell me how that feels."
"It's so crazy. I'm just looking at my life and how far I've come just in these last couple of months alone. We're still filming and we're going to be finishing up in about a month but I feel like we just started at the same time. And working with Kurt Hummel has just been extraordinary. He's extremely talented and he is so funny."
Once again the audience clapped. This time, Blaine was sure they were applauding because the name 'Kurt Hummel' was huge. Even if you weren't a fan of his, you knew who he was. It was like he was Ellen or Johnny Depp.
"He's been on the show before and he's hilarious. He's also very open too. He doesn't really have a filter."
"That's true. There's never a dull day on set, I can promise you that."
Jimmy's face lit up as he asked the question that Blaine knew he had been dying to ask ever since Blaine sat down.
"You know, Blaine. I'm kind of glad you brought up Kurt. I'm sure you know of the rumors that have been going around about you two, right?"
"I may have heard a couple." Blaine laughed.
"So, can you tell us about those rumors? Can you tell us which one's are true and which one's aren't? I'm sure we're all dying to know. Is there something going on between you and him?"
For the first time since Blaine was announced, the audience was completely silent. Clearly this was something everyone wanted to know the answer to. Blaine and Kurt had talked about it the day before, knowing it was going to be asked, and they both agreed on what Blaine would say. So, Blaine took a deep breath and opened his mouth.
1 month earlier
Blaine left Kurt's house with angry tears pouring down his face. He didn't know how anyone found out about Blaine and his past, but someone had told the paparazzi and it was going to be released on the front cover of magazine's world wide the next day.
Kurt swore to God that he didn't tell anyone and Blaine believed him. He didn't know why because Kurt was the only other person who knew, aside from Rachel. There was going to be no way out of this one. There would be know why to clear up the rumors and gossip that people would get out of this. He had no idea what his parents would think.
They still didn't know about the divorce since Rachel and himself had only decided on it hours before and he didn't know how to break it to them. Kurt now knew about it and offered to let Blaine stay with him until he found somewhere else to go which Blaine graciously accepted.
It had only been a few days since Rachel and Blaine talked but they were still choosing to act like nothing was wrong until they decided when it was a good time to tell the kids. Blaine would bring boxes of his things out of the house everyday with him when he went on set and bring them to Kurt's house before heading home every evening. He was taking things small enough to not give anything away from the kids until they were told.
It was getting harder and harder to go anywhere without cameras in his face. He had been used to his picture being taken from afar or while he was eating but ever since the article about his past was released, it got worse. There was barely a day that went by when his name or Kurt's wasn't in a gossip article on Facebook. When there wasn't an article on Facebook, he was being bombarded with tweets on Twitter asking about his relationship status with Kurt. Blaine had always wanted to be an actor, and he still did, but he didn't think it was going to be this hard.
It was slowly becoming harder to remove his things from the house as his items were getting bigger and harder to remove from the house without help. Rachel would try and help him every night after the kids went to bed. It was really the only time they ever talked and it was always small talk. Blaine knew it was only going to get harder as the divorce went on. She had to stop helping him when she got sick early one morning and went running into their bathroom to throw up.
"Rachel? Are you okay?" Blaine ran in after her and knelt down beside her rubbing circles on her back. Despite the divorce, they still cared about each other.
"Yeah. I just...I think I ate some bad food or something. It might just be a bug. Worse case it's the flu. It'll pass...I'm fine."
She spoke too soon, however as she threw up again as Blaine got up to get a washcloth for her.
"Are you sure you don't want to go to the doctor?"
"Yes, Blaine, I'm fine. If it's a bug, it'll go away on it's own. I should be fine tomorrow. I'll just stay home today and have Quinn watch the kids until you get home from set."
But she wasn't fine the next day. Blaine reentered their room after getting the kids some cereal to find Rachel in their bathroom over the toilet again.
"Rach, you should go to the doctor. You look worse than you did yesterday."
"Gee, thanks, Blaine." She tried to muster up as much sarcasm as she could.
"You know what I mean. Do you have a fever?"
He didn't wait for her to answer. Instead he walked up behind her and placed his palm on her forehead.
"Nothing. Do you feel nauseous?"
"A little." She said weakly. "But I've been really stressed with...you know...the divorce and all the cameras and stories...it's just probably stress."
"Rachel, honey, stress wouldn't cause you to throw up. I really think you should go to the doctor."
"Blaine, I'm fine."
But she still wasn't fine the next day or the next. It took Blaine 5 days to finally convince Rachel that she should go to the doctor. They dropped the kids off at Quinn's and headed out. Luckily for Blaine, they weren't filming that day so he had decided to go to the doctor with Rachel.
When they finally got there and into the doctors office, they waited in silence after the nurse was finished for the doctor to enter. They both jumped a little when the silence was interrupted by a door opening.
"Good morning, Mr. and Mrs. Anderson. I'm Dr. Marley Rose and I'll be taking care of you today." She seemed to not notice the awkward glances between Rachel and Blaine after she addressed them. "So," she said as she pulled up a chair and turned her laptop on. "What seems to be the problem?"
"I wouldn't say it's an extreme problem. I feel just fine but I've been throwing up everyday this week."
"According to the nurse's results, you don't have a fever so you don't have the flu. What are your other symptoms, Rachel?"
"Well, I get a little nauseous from time to time but that's pretty much it."
"Any foods that have been bothering you?" Marley asked not looking up from her computer.
"Not really. I did feel a little sick after drinking my coffee the other day but I think I put some bad cream in it because I had a cup yesterday without the cream and I felt just fine."
"Hmm...alright." Marley finally looked up at Rachel and away from her laptop. "If you don't mind me asking, how are your periods?"
"They're regular. I'm not expecting it for another week give or take a few days."
"Okay. I'm going to get an ultra sound in here and see if there's something wrong just in the stomach region so I can see what we're dealing with here. I'll be back shortly."
She stood up and left the room.
Rachel turned to Blaine and smiled.
"Boy, I haven't had an ultra sound in almost 8 years. That brings back a lot of memories, doesn't it, Blaine?"
He returned the smile.
"Yeah, it does. I remember the day we found out you were having twins. It seems just like yesterday. They grew up so fast."
"Yeah." She let the smile fade off her face as she continued to look at Blaine. "Things were so different then."
Blaine's smiled faded as well. "Yeah they were. Rachel, I...I am so sorry. I feel like this is all my fault."
Rachel leaned forward and grabbed his hand. "Hey, it's not your fault. Like you said, things like this happen all the time. It doesn't exactly make it easier but I'm grateful you came clean instead of living with it for the rest of your life. That would have made your life miserable. I'm sad and angry and hurt, but I'm happy that you can finally be who you are." She finally let a small smile appear on her face that Blaine returned.
"I love you, Rachel. Despite everything, I love you. You're my best friend."
"And you're mine. I love you too."
They shared a short hug before the doctor retuned with the ultra sound.
"Alright, Rachel. Let's take a look."
Marley set up everything she needed to get started on the ultra sound and placed the wand on her stomach. Rachel and Blaine were staring at the screen looking back and forth from each other to the screen, unsure of what the doctor was looking for. Their jaws dropped when Marley said 4 words that would change their life forever.
"Congratulations, Rachel. You're pregnant!"
Blaine's knuckles were turning white as he gripped the steering wheel. After the initial shock wore off, Blaine's anger kicked in. Once they were given the expected due date of February 12, 2018 and the date of the next doctors appointment, they left the doctors office. They were almost home and neither of them had said anything since the minute they left the doctor.
"Please say something." Rachel whispered.
"What do you want me to say? What does one say when their soon-to-be-ex-wife is pregnant with another man's child?"
"You don't know it's Puck's."
"We haven't had sex in months! You're only a week along! It doesn't take a fucking genius to figure it out." Blaine said louder than he had anticipated but now he couldn't stop his voice from getting louder.
"Blaine, you've been cheating on me emotionally for MONTHS. I don't get why you're pissed at me for this when I wasn't for that."
"Because I have never once had sex with Kurt! I've never done anything physical with him. I'm not trying to be a hypocrite here but you had sex with another guy while we were still together. We weren't even separated yet! I was willing to overlook that fact because you were with my feelings for Kurt. But there is something about you being pregnant with someone else's child that I can't seem to forgive. How are we going to tell the kids, huh? How are we going to tell them that they are going to have a little brother or sister that isn't going to be mine?"
"How are we going to tell them that you're in love with another guy?"
"So are you! And I've never said I was in love with Kurt."
"Everyone knows it. It's not that hard to tell."
"Well, it seems there's no way to fix this. Our marriage is ending, I'm gay and you're pregnant with Puck's baby. This is turning out to be exactly the way things should be in Hollywood. Congratulations to us."
Blaine didn't say anything else until they got home. Blaine pulled into their driveway and got out of the car without even turning it off and ran inside. He grabbed as many clothes as he could, his toothbrush and his jacket from the coat hanger and went storming out the door before Rachel was even in the house. They ran into each other while Blaine was heading out to the car and Rachel saw everything he was holding.
"Blaine, where are you going?"
"I'm leaving. You can tell the kids whatever you want but I'll be back in a few days. I just need some time. I can't be around you right now."
Blaine pushed by her and ran back to the car and pulled out before Rachel could fully register what he said. She held back the tears that were forming in her eyes as she went inside. She sat on the couch and put her head in her hands and finally let the tears fall down her face. She pulled out her phone and dialed a number she had quickly memorized.
"Hello?"
"Hi, Noah, can you come over? I have something really important to talk to you about."
It had been 3 short days since Blaine had been home. Rachel and Blaine had spoken on the phone just last night after Blaine had some time to calm down. According to her, she told the kids that he was doing a lot of overnight shoots for the movie and was getting home when they were at school and leaving before they got home. They believed it and even though Blaine hated lying to them, he didn't want them to know the truth yet. After Blaine had left the house, he could only think of one place to go...and Kurt had been very kind by telling Blaine that he could stay as long as he needed. Blaine was sitting on Kurt's couch when he he was pulled out of his thoughts by Kurt's voice.
"What's on your mind?" Kurt asked Blaine as he brought a cup of coffee to him.
"Everything. Thank you." He said accepting the cup.
"What are you going to do?" Kurt asked.
"I have no idea. I don't feel like I can go back home yet...or ever. I just can't look at her knowing that...I mean, I can barely be on set with Puck. Today was so hard because all I wanted to do was punch his face in. I know that I'm not the only victim here so I don't get why I'm as mad as I am."
"May I?"
Blaine motioned for Kurt to speak.
"Blaine, I think one of the reason's this is so hard is because your kids are your whole world. You love them and you would do anything for them. And I know that it sucks to know that she's pregnant with someone else's child, but I think what's really hard for you is that you're not the father. You're not going to be the one responsible for protecting them, or taking care of them. Someone else needs to do that."
Blaine looked at the floor.
"I haven't thought about it like that. Maybe you're right." He said looking back at Kurt. "What should I do? I still can't go back home. Not with everything going on with the divorce."
"Then stay here. Maybe it's about time you told the kids about it. It would take a lot of stress off of you and I think the kids are old enough to understand."
"I don't think so, Kurt. Rachel and I have decided to wait until the kids are ready to handle it."
Kurt put his cup down on the table, turning his body towards Blaine, putting his leg on the couch.
"Do you really think anyone is ever 'ready' to handle being told that their parents are getting a divorce? Personally I think you should just tell them now. It would be a lot better than lying to them."
"Well, maybe this really isn't any of your business, Kurt." Blaine responded, putting his cup on the table.
"You're right. Maybe it's not. But you're staying here right now and I'm the one that gets to deal with all of this at the end of the night."
"I'm sorry, I didn't realize I was being such and inconvenience." Blaine said standing up.
"That's not what I said. I'm just trying to tell you what I personally think is right."
"Why do you even care? You don't understand a thing I'm going through."
"I don't have to understand. I just have to be there for you." Kurt followed Blaine's lead and stood up.
"Then be here for me! Don't try and tell me what you think is best for my kids. They are my kids, not yours."
"Oh my god, Blaine. I never said they were my kids. I care so much about them and I just don't want them to get hurt. I'm trying to-"
"STOP! Stop trying to help!" Blaine threw his hands up in the air and turned around, walking only a few steps away before turning back around. "You don't understand, Kurt. I love my kids more than anything and Rachel and I still haven't discussed what we're going to do with them when the divorce is finalized. I'm trying to still accept the fact that she's having Puck's kid and I'm so fucking in love with you that I don't know how to be around you."
Blaine started breathing heavily, having said all of that in just one breath. He looked at Kurt and noticed that his eyes were wide.
"You...you what?" Kurt whispered.
"I...I love you, Kurt. I can't lie about it anymore because that's killing me."
Blaine stared at Kurt as he walked forward and stood in front of himself.
"Look, Kurt, I'm really sorry if this made you uncomfortable but-"
Kurt placed his finger on Blaine's lips and he almost melted at the touch.
"I love you too, Blaine."
He removed his finger from his lips and stared into Blaine's glistening amber eyes. He closed his eyes as Kurt closed the distance between them, pressing his lips to Blaine's. Softly at first until they both felt comfortable. They both deepened the kiss as they were unwittingly making their way over to the wall behind Blaine. They both let out a gasp of surprise when they felt their bodies collide with the wall. They pulled away and stared into each other's eyes.
"Blaine, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that."
"No...No, Kurt. Don't apologize. I'm just nervous. I've never done this sober before and I don't want to mess this up."
Kurt put his hand on Blaine's cheek, causing the shorter man to look into his blue eyes.
"Don't worry." Kurt whispered. "I'll help you."
Blaine nodded and felt a sense of isolation when Kurt pulled away and offered his hand to Blaine, the invitation obvious. Blaine accepted as they made their way to Kurt's bedroom.
Their lips were connected once more. Blaine's mouth opened and he felt Kurt's do the same. Taking advantage of the opportunity of putting his tongue in Kurt's mouth and was thrilled when Kurt followed suit. Blaine moved his hands from Kurt's hips to his hair, tangling his fingers through Kurt's perfect waves. Kurt decided to make his hands comfortable on Blaine's ass. Blaine moaned slightly as he felt Kurt's hands traveling up his chest to the top of his shirt.
Kurt's fingers hesitated for a moment before they began to unbutton his shirt. Blaine tensed slightly, he wanted this so bad, but as Kurt undid his shirt he realized that this was actually happening. He was going to have sex, no, he was going to make love to the man of his dreams. Kurt felt him tense and pulled away.
"Blaine," he said softly, "We don't have to do this if you aren't comfortable-"
Blaine cut him off with a kiss. His own hands finding their way to Kurt's shirt, letting the pale man know in no uncertain terms that he wanted this. Kurt smiled into the kiss and let his hands resume his quest. Blaine groaned at the first press of bare skin as their chests connected. Pulling away, he pushed Kurt back until his legs hit the edge of the bed. Blaine knelt down and undid Kurt's belt. He glanced up at Kurt through his eyelashes, asking with his eyes if this was okay. Kurt bit his lip before reaching into his bedside table and pulled out a condom. Blaine took the condom from Kurt and deftly undid the other man's pants. Kurt stopped Blaine. He pulled his pants off in one graceful move while Blaine tore open the condom wrapper. The taller man sat back down and allowed Blaine to put the condom on. Blaine looked at Kurt's cock. It was the first one other than his own that he had ever seen. He had never seen Eli's...at least...not like this. He looked up at Kurt and leaned forward, taking Kurt's dick into his mouth.
Kurt's back arched and a high-pitched moan escaped his lips as Blaine's mouth enveloped the head. Blaine was obviously inexperienced, but what he lacked in technique he made up for in enthusiasm.
Kurt tangled his fingers in Blaine's hair, pushing him off. Blaine looked up at him questioningly, "I wasn't going to last much longer," Kurt explained with a blush. Blaine smirked, but stood up. He finally took his painfully tight pants off as Kurt rummaged in his bedside table once more, pulling out another condom and a small bottle of lube. He handed the condom to Blaine and popped open the cap of the lube. He poured some on his fingers and went to prepare himself but stopped when Blaine put a hand on his to stop him. Blaine took the bottle from Kurt and gently pushed him down onto his back.
With an inviting smile, Kurt opened his legs. Blaine rubbed his fingers together, warming up the chilly lube before reaching for Kurt's entrance. He carefully pushed one finger inside, watching Kurt's face for any sign of pain. Kurt winced at the initial burn. It had been a while since he last had sex, but Blaine was going slow enough that he had ample time to adjust to the intrusion. He looked down at Blaine and nodded. Blaine slowly began to push his finger in and out of Kurt's body, relishing in the soft moans the beautiful man was emitting. He gently pushed a second finger inside and began to scissor them apart. Kurt gave a breathy moan that quickly turned into a scream of pleasure when Blaine's fingers brushed against his prostate. The fingers began moving faster and before long, they were joined by a third one.
"Blaine, I'm ready!" Kurt cried, Blaine pulled his hand free and pulled the other condom onto his painfully hard cock. He gasped as Kurt grabbed his cock, fingers still covered with lube, and began to drag his hand up and down the hard length. Blaine couldn't wait anymore and pushed Kurt's hand away. He rested between the other man's legs and stared down into those beautiful blue eyes. There was nothing but love staring back at him. He pressed a gentle kiss to the soft pink lips and slowly pressed inside.
Kurt groaned softly as Blaine pushed in and wrapped his legs around his trim waist.
"Are you okay?" Blaine asked once he was fully seated inside the other man.
Kurt nodded, "Just...wait a minute."
When Kurt gave a nod that it was okay to move, Blaine slowly pulled back until he was nearly entirely out before pushing back in.
"You don't have to be careful," Kurt said with a loving smile, "I'm not going to break."
Blaine buried his head in Kurt's neck and nodded. He began to fuck into Kurt with renewed vigor. Kurt's back arched at Blaine's strong movements, and he screamed when Blaine's cock brushed against his prostate. Blaine pulled back and grabbed Kurt's long legs, moving them onto his shoulders. The new position allowed him to fuck in deeper.
Kurt screamed when Blaine wrapped his hand around his cock and began to jerk Kurt off in time with his thrusts. Blaine felt his orgasm coming and sped up his movements, trying to hit Kurt's prostate with every thrust and not letting up on his hand movements. He leaned down and buried his face in Kurt's neck once more, sucking on the pulse point.
The added sensation pushed Kurt over the edge. He screamed as his orgasm ripped through him, painting his chest, and Blaine's had with lines of cum. Seeing the pure bliss on Kurt's face was all that Blaine needed to release his own orgasm into the condom.
Blaine collapsed as much as he could while keeping his arms braced to the sides of Kurt's head. He slowly pulled out to lay next to Kurt. He nuzzled Kurt's cheek and entwined their fingers.
"Are you okay?" He asked softly.
Kurt moved his head to look into Blaine's beautiful amber eyes.
"I am amazing." He said, placing a soft kiss to Blaine's plush lips.
Blaine smiled and pulled Kurt closer to him in response. Blaine wrapped his arms around Kurt, making sure to keep their fingers interlocked.
"Blaine...that was wonderful. Thank you so much."
"I think I should be thanking you, Kurt. I was nervous and you deserve the absolute best. You know that I'm not too experienced."
"You could have fooled me." Kurt told him with a playful nudge.
"And now this will make filming next week a hell of a lot easier. Now that I know what I'm doing."
Kurt's smile vanished from his face as he removed himself from Blaine's grasp, turned to face him and sat up on his elbow.
"What?" Kurt asked.
"Well, I'm just saying that if this hadn't happened then when we film the love making scene, it would have been weird and awkward. I've never done it sober or as an adult and it would have just looked uncomfortable. Now that I have, it can be believable."
Kurt's mouth kept opening and closing for a few moments before he decided to get out of bed and start getting dressed.
"Is everything okay, Kurt?"
"Oh, of course. Why wouldn't it be? I'm so stupid. I should have known that you were only using me for sex." Kurt said as he put on his pants and shirt.
"What? No, no, no. That's not true at all."
"Really? Because that's sure as hell what it sounded like to me."
"No, I'm just saying that this will help with filming. I didn't say that's why I did it." Blaine got off the bed and started walking to Kurt who had taken his place against the doorframe.
"When you phrase it like that, that's exactly how it sounds, Blaine. 'Now that I have, it can be believable.' Does that not sound bad to you? I don't know what you were thinking but I'm not just some guy that likes to sleep around. I'm a person, Blaine. A person with feelings. I don't commit to someone unless I really and truly love and care about them. I thought you were the same way."
"I am!" Blaine grabbed Kurt's shoulders. "Look, I'm so sorry. I could have worded that better, I know. But, Kurt, you have to know that I just did this because I love you. Truly. I genuinely love you. And I did this because of that. Not for any other reason."
Blaine's hazel eyes met with Kurt's blue and the latter knew that Blaine was telling the truth.
"I believe you. I just...I'm so afraid of losing you. That everything going on in your life and the articles right now are going to mess this up."
"Nothing is going to mess this up." Blaine pulled Kurt into a hug and held him tight. "Everything will be fine."
"You don't know that for sure." Kurt responded quietly in Blaine's ear.
"You're right. But the one thing I do know for sure is that I love you and I'm not going to let anything come between us."
Kurt pulled away to look into Blaine's eyes.
"I love you too, Blaine." Placing another kiss gently on Blaine's lips. "Come on. Let's go eat dinner."
"So, can you tell us about those rumors? Can you tell us which one's are true and which one's aren't? I'm sure we're all dying to know. Is there something going on between you and him?"
For the first time since Blaine was announced, the audience was completely silent. Clearly this was something everyone wanted to know the answer to. Blaine and Kurt had talked about it the day before, knowing it was going to be asked, and they both agreed on what Blaine would say. So, Blaine took a deep breath and opened his mouth.
"Nope. We're just friends."
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