Chapter 10 : Jealousy

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When Kensi rang on the door, she felt tiredness coming through her whole body. It was only 9 am and she was already tired as fuck. Maybe it was due to the fact that she lived in two places at a time. She had her apartment and slept at Deeks' for most of the nights. Because their relationship started a few months before, none of them wanted to rush things between them. It had been so complicated for the both of them to, first, accept the feelings they felt and, finally, tell the other and make it work. They really wanted to make it work for so long but Kensi was afraid of loosing him. She was afraid of him, leaving her like everyone did in her life. Deeks, for his part, was scared about the fact that maybe, just maybe, she would tell him to fuck off. She would let him know, that the only feelings she had for him was friendly ones. And then, nothing would be like it used to be between them. It would just be awkward and he didn't want to experience this situation. That's why it took them years to let the other know that yes, they more than liked each other and yes, they wanted to try being together because life is too short to do nothing about it and remain silent. And it worked well actually. They wanted to keep it a secret because with the hardness of their jobs, they wanted to have something just for them. Somehting which was full of happiness. Just for a short moment.

When she saw the man opening his door, she stopped thinking about her life and her feelings towards Deeks and started to act professionally. She had a job to do.

"I was waiting for you." He looked everywhere in the street to be sure that she was all alone. "Come on, hurry up I don't want to end up dead !"

"So, I'm supposed to look after you and be sure that you won't be hurt. Is that okay if I sit here ? I'm going to be here until the case is solved." She started to look at everything in the room to figure him out. She was actually quite good at it. No photos on the walls or on the table, plus no wedding ring meant that he was alone. No family around him. She saw a gun at the back of his jean and believed he had a knife as well. He was a Marine and knew how to defend himself after all. She could understand this with the childhood she had.

He nodded and sit on the couch too. "One of your colleagues went and put cameras here early this morning. I don't see why you'd have to come. I can handle these men by my own."»

"Oh I know you can."

While Sam And Callen went outside the bullpen to follow a lead on the murder of the Marine's friends, Deeks stayed to help out. Eric put the camera's video on the screen to be able to keep an eye on Kensi in case she needed help.

He really did try not to look at her too much but that was hard. You know this feeling when you love someone and all you want to do is look at her during the whole day ? Well, Deeks was experiencing it. That was new but not too bad actually. But because he was surrounded by his coworkers he couldn't stare at her like he wanted to. Of course he wanted to keep it a secret for some time, but there were moments where he couldn't do it. Especially when Callen asked her if she had crappy dates again because no, she hadn't. And when they joked about her sad love life he so wanted to yell at them and say that he was here. He was her boyfriend and the jokes had to stop. But Hetty would hear and that would be weird. That was for sure ! So he tried to focus on the case and be ready to help Nell or Eric.

Kensi was on the couch, drinking a glass of water and sure as hell hoped the end of the case would come soon. Even though she was exhausted, she could notice he was flirting with her. At the beginning she didn't really care about it because it was just terrible pick up lines, smiles and jokes. Obviously, she talked about something else everytime he tried something because first, her boyfriend was watching and second, she was so not interested. But when he put his hand on her thigh she stood up and remained against the window for most of the day. She was an independent woman, everyone could agree, and she could defend herself but she was also aware that she couldn't beat him. Her job was to protect him, not to beat him up. But do not mistake yourself, she knew the difference between someone who is harassing you and someone who is lost because of the loss of his friends. She knew he was truly lost and not himself at the moment so she decided to stay up and just be sure that no one would come and try to hurt him like they did with his friends. Then, she saw him going to the kitchen, hands in pocket.

It was goingn to be a long day, right ?

His fists were clenched. Same for his jaw. That was all he could do ! He saw him touching his girlfriend, his Kens, and couldn't do anything but being completely nuts in his mind. Of course, he trusted her. He had trusted her for so many years now but when he saw and heard him with her, he couldn't handle it. That was jealousy. He could feel it in his bones. He was jealous because this man was touching her and he couldn't. He couldn't hold her hand at the office or in public. He couldn't kiss her or just hold her in his arms like he wanted to. And it was hard to live like that.

Honestly it was harder for him than for her. He knew he dind't have to be afraid about her being hurt because she was able to defend herself plus there were cops parked in front of the house. If she was in danger, all she had to do was scream and help would be on the way.

But it occured to him that maybe, one day, she would realise that he was just Marty Deeks. Nothing was fancy or incredible about him and he thought, at this moment, that it was taking her quite some time to figure it out. Maybe, she would leave him the minute she understood it. Or she would break up with him when someone better than him would come. He was a marine after all. That was brave and great. So, this man had a link with her. They knew the same environment and acted in kind of the same way. Whereas Deeks couldn't find any common points with the woman who shared his life for a certain amount of time. And even though Deeks saw her leave to go to the opposite of him, he wasn't at ease.

He mumbled something quickly and exited the room. He needed to breathe and calm himself. At this moment, he needed to be comforted. Not about Kensi and the fact that she could possibly cheat. Because deep down he knew she wouldn't do it. She wasn't a cheater at all. But more about him and the fact that yes, he was enough. He would always be.

Deeks went back inside and tried his best to look normal, like everything was okay with him.

It was going to be a long day, he could feel it.

Kensi picked up her phone and smiled for the first time of the day. The case was over. Hetty allowed her to go home and do the paperwork the day after. Two good news within three minutes.

"You're safe. My team arrested the men who killed your friends. You can try and bring closure in your life now."

For the first time since she was here, she put her hand on his shoulder. It was a way for her to let him know that everything would be okay. He would make it through this hard period. He nodded and opened his mouth to say sorry about earlier but before he had any chance, Kensi was outisde. She just couldn't wait to fall alseep on her boyfriend's bed.

When Deeks came inside his own house, he saw her on the couch eating. As usual. He sat beside her, having the idea of talking about how he had felt during the whole day but she didn't let him. She kissed him lovingly and got closer to him.

"I wanted to wait for you but I was just so hungry." She said it with this cute little face that he couldn't resist to. He nodded quietly and kissed her again.

She was here, with him. She was kissing him, not some guy outside. So yes, maybe he was enough after all.