"If you just realize what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And will never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now"

-Realize by Colbie Caillat

It absolutely amazed me how much I had changed in only one simple week.

On the train ride to Hogwarts all I could think was how much I dreaded having to deal with James Potter again. Ironically enough here I am, sitting at his sick bed with Remus Lupin. Almost immediately after he woke up James fell unconscious again. Remus and Sirius decided it would be a good idea to bring him to the hospital wing.

"Are you ok," Remus asked me. I only then realized how big of a mess I must've looked.

"To an extent," I answered honestly. Truly I was all right, just a bit shaken up. But who wouldn't be when you just got into a battle where most of your friends got injured?

"You don't look it," he mumbled in reply.

"I would be talking Mr. Lupin," I retorted, smiling lightly. Remus smiled back at me.

I always liked Remus. Even when I hated James, Sirius, and Peter I always found that I had a small soft spot for Remus. It probably stemmed from the fact that he was the only one of them that acted his age.

"Do you like him," Remus asked me suddenly. I looked up, alarmed. For one reason or another I felt the blood rush to my cheeks.

"What do you mean," I asked in return.

"Exactly what I said. Do you like James," Remus interrogated.

I found myself stammering. "Well that depends, platonically or romantically?"

Remus smiled and a bit and leaned forward in his chair. "Romantically."

At that moment I wished the world would stop. I never gave much thought to the matter. Well I knew that I certainly didn't loath James any longer. In fact I would consider him a friend- maybe even a close one.

But did I love him? No, I knew that for sure.

There was no way that I loved James Potter. I'd only been friends with him for a week- how could I love him? Well I was about ninety-nine percent sure he loved me. But he fancied me for years. I only liked him a week.

So I knew I didn't love him. But did I like him, and not in the platonic sense. To be honest I wasn't sure. It frightened me.

When I looked at all of the evidence it seemed obvious that I liked him romantically. In fact to someone who didn't know me it would seem like I loved him.

The more I thought about it the more it made sense. Why else would I react the way I did? I thought of everything; the quidditch match, the Hog's Head, the roses…

It suddenly occurred to me; I didn't have a soft spot for the roses. I had a soft spot for him. I didn't want to hate James; I never did. I wanted to like him- I really did.

I just allowed myself to this year… But could I let Remus know that?

"Lily? Are you ok," Remus asked worriedly. His voice broke me out of my thoughts. Could I trust him?

"Yes," I whispered. My hair was covering the sides of my face, hiding my intense blush.

"Good, I wasn't sure what happened to you," Remus replied with a sigh of relief.

"No, I like James," I whispered again. I tried to look anywhere but at either of them.

Unfortunately it didn't work, I saw Remus. His eyes widened and his mouth form an 'o'. I could tell he wasn't expecting me to admit it.

"You can't tell anyone," I said with urgency in each word.

"But you guys like each other," Remus said.

I got up and dragged him to the far end of the room. We were huddled together directly across from the large oak doors.

"I don't want him to know," I explained.

"Why not," Remus asked, clearly confused.

I opened my mouth to speak but found I had nothing to say. There was really no reason for James, or anyone for that matter, not to know.

"I'm not sure," I answered hesitantly, careful of how I spoke.

Remus let out an exasperated sigh and pulled a James, he ran his hand through his hair. "Fine, if you don't want me to tell anyone I won't".

"Thank you," I said with a huge smiling on my face. I reached up and pulled him into a hug that he returned.

"Lily," a hoarse voice said. I looked and saw James sitting up warily on his bed, his eyes wide.

It was then I realized what a compromising position I was in.

Sorry for the wait guys. I'm finally home and here's your prize for being so understanding! I know I basically promised some good stuff coming up and this didn't really deliver in my opinion… But here's some LilyRemus friendship fluff! I love the way they interact.

I should have lots more LilyJames drabbles up soon and possibly so Remus-centric, Sirius-centric ones. As sad as this sounds I plan on abandoning LilyJames in one drabble and writing a LilyRemus- please don't hurt me! But for now all of my LilyJames drabbles will be under James P and Lily E because Jo went and messed up the fan fiction categories!