Chapter 10: Making excuses and lies

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I own a pencil, cup, but not Inuyasha :(

'Its been about a week since I last saw Inuyasha' Kagome thought in her room. She was glad that she hasn't seen him because she didn't feel like making up anymore excuses and lies. It has also been about a week since Kagome ate. If Kagome did eat she would go straight to the bathroom and use her 'magic finger' she started calling it. Kagome was about a size two in jeans and wore extra small shirts. She had bags under her eyes and her cheeks weren't the usual full and color. They were pale and sunken in. You could see her cheek bones and her rib felt much better than last week. She was so skinny that you could count her ribs if you wanted. Kagomes spine showed as well. Her whole skeleton showed basically. Her arms, legs, hips, back, ankle, shoulder, and even her collar bone showed. She was so pale that she looked like she was a ghost. Kagome started weighing herself and she lost five pounds in two days from not eating and using her 'magic finger'. Kagomes father noticed as well, but he liked the idea of her starving herself so he took a little break of hurting her because she was hurting herself. All he did when he saw her was smirk and go back to what he was doing.

It was a Monday and Inuyasha was at his locker getting stuff for class. He didn't feel like dealing with anyone ever since what happened between him and Kikyo. 'I wouldn't even count it as a serious relationship' Inuyasha was grabbing a binder and it fell out. "Shit" Inuyasha picked it up but when he looked up, he saw something that bothered him. A little bit down the hall, Kagome was opening her locker. She was so skinny that it made Inuyasha want to make her eat all day. She was literally skin and bones. She was wearing faded skinny jeans which showed that she had a huge thigh gap and her hip bones showed so much. Her thighs didn't have any figure to them. They were literally stick straight. Kagome was wearing a long sleeve cream v-neck. It showed how skinny her arms and torso was. Before, she had an hour glass shape. Now, she looked like a toothpick. Inuyasha felt bad for her. 'Why is she so skinny? And how did she get that skinny that fast? It's only been... a week! Dang time went by!' Inuyasha thought and just turned his back to Kagome trying to get out of the halls. He didn't want to confront Kagome since last time. 'That bruise was huge. I wonder how she got it..' Inuyasha became curious of how it happened. What he saw next mad his blood boil.

Koga walked up to Kagome. When he saw her he made a disgusted face at her. Inuyasha was wondering what they were talking about so he listened as good as he could with his demon hearing. "Kagome, what happened to you?" Koga asked in a disgusted tone. Kagome was facing her locker and turned towards him. "What do you mean? Did I do something wrong?" Kagome asked. Kogas eyes bulged out of his head in shock that she didn't notice any major changes. He eyed her up and down again before saying "Look at you! Your a skeleton with a soul!" Koga exclaimed putting his hand out and waving it up and down towards Kagome. Kagome followed his hand gestures and eyed herself. 'Ew. I'm such a fat pig. Look at all this fat. Koga must be disgusted with me' Kagome thought. She looked up at him with her eyes watering. "I'm sorry Koga." She whispered putting her head down disappointed. Koga responded saying something that made Inuyasha want to choke him until he was purple. "Kagome, I'm sorry but your just to ugly. I can't be seen with an ugly girl" he said sounding disappointed with his head down and walked away. Kagome put a hand ver her mouth as tears fell down her cheeks and outlined her hand. He bell rang and Kagome didn't feel like going to class today. She felt like crawling under a rock and dying.

Inuyasha decided to skip class as well and talk to Kagome. 'I knew it! He was just trying to use Kagome!' Inuyasha breathed in through his nose and out through his mouth trying to remain calm. He saw Kagome drop her stuff and stumble until she finally ran off. Inuyasha picked her stuff for class up and followed her tracks close behind. It led him to the girls bathroom. He was about to leave thinking that she went to actually use it until he heard someone hurling. He ran in seeing if that person was okay. When he got in the bathroom it smelled of vomit. Inuyasha hated this smell so badly but dealt with it. He followed the sound to the very last stall in the bathroom. He knocked on it only to hear that person gasp and then he heard nothing else. 'They're probably just startled by me' Inuyasha thought. He knocked again only to hear a muffled voice say "What do you want?" Inuyasha gasped recognizing the voice. It was Kagomes. "Kagome? Is that you in there?" Inuyasha asked with his eyebrows furrowed together. 'She seemed fine when she came to school. Besides how skinny she looks.' Inuyasha put his ear against the stall door. "No shit Sherlock. It's the amazing Kagome" Kagome said sarcastically. Inuyasha smirked at her response. 'She still has the same attitude from before' Inuyasha thought. He was glad about that because everything else seemed different about her. Even her hair. Kagome straightened it and dyed dark blue streaks in it. Inuyasha responded back after a few moments of thinking. "Why are you vomiting? Can you open the door please?" Inuyasha asked in a begging voice with his hands together. "Um..no" Kagome answered simply. Inuyasha didn't expect Kagome to answer in that way. Inuyasha sighed and his head hung down and his ears went against his head. "Kagome, please open the door. I was listening to what happened with Koga. I'm sorry, I-" Inuyashas eyes widened when he heard what Kagome said when she interrupted.

"You what?! How could you let him do that to me?! He was so disgusted that he even said he couldn't be seen with an ugly girl!" Kagome was still leaning over the toilet and she chuckled in a depressed way. "I mean, come on, Inuyasha I'm ugly! Look at me!" Kagome stood up and looked down at herself with tears running rapidly. Inuyasha was shocked. 'Does she not see the same person in the mirror?' Inuyasha thought. "Kagome.. your not ugly" Inuyasha said in a depressed tone. He was depressed because Kagome thought she was ugly. "Yes I am! Inuyasha, Koga thought I was ugly. Kikyo thought I was a pig. Same goes for Kagura, Kanna, and Yura. Everyone in the lunch room laughed at me!" Kagome choked back the tears long enough to exclaim. When Inuyasha responded, Kagome didn't know what to say. "Who cares what they think?! Kagome.. look your not ugly and your certainly not a pig! If you were I don't think you would look like this! Your not ugly but your not perfect either! And not everyone in the lunchroom laughed at you!" Inuyasha exclaimed worried for Kagome. He did feel awkward that he was talking to a door basically in the girls room but, Kagome needed his help. 'And that's exactly what I'm going to do' Inuyasha thought. "Inuyasha, everyone laughed! Even the lunch teachers did!" Kagome sobbed. 'Oh great. No one will help me through my life. Not even my father will! He's worse than Kikyo!' Kagome thought while sobbing and shaking from not eating anything in the last two days. All Kagome wanted to do was throw up her guts and die on the bathroom floor. 'Alone' Kagome thought. Inuyasha sighed again. He didn't know what to do. He felt like kicking down the door to talk face to face with Kagome. "Kagome, you have to eventually come out. And just to let you know.. I didn't laugh at you." Inuyasha said giving up. He murmured the last part. "Inuyasha you don't have to lie about it. And I don't have to come out, not if I don't want to" Kagome replied simply. She really didn't want to come out. She did want to die under a rock with no one noticing though. Inuyasha was surprised that Kagome thought he was lying. "I'm not lying! How do you think I found you?! I followed the scent of your blood! When I saw you in that state I felt terrible and guilty! I felt like it was.. it was.. my fault. Kagome you need to eat something.. you look like you lost half of your weight in just a week!" Inuyasha exclaimed. He felt worried sick now. When Kagome heard that he wasn't lying she felt a dot of light come into the darkness of her life. Kagome felt a really little spark of hope go through her veins. She quickly shut it out though. "Can you just leave me alone?! I don't want your protection or your worries! I want to be alone! I don't want your pity! I don't want to know how much you care! I. Don't. Care!" Kagome screamed not caring about anything. She shut her emotions off in a blink of an eye. When Inuyasha heard that she wanted to be 'alone' and that she didn't want any of his 'pity, protection, and worry' he was taken back. He was mad now that he helped this wench through Kikyos bullying. Inuyasha growled before yelling at her in frustration "Fine! If you don't want my protection and I see you getting bullied I will laugh like everyone else does and watch! If you don't want my help, I wont help you! Next time you ask for help I will make sure you never ask again! If I catch Kikyo bullying you I will walk straight on with no care and I certainly wont help! If you don't want my help, and I find you in that state of help I will make sure to let you bleed out and die!" as soon as he said that he regretted it and covered his mouth. Kagome heard this and she only wanted to die even more. "Get out! If you don't care, then.. !" Kagome yelled and continued to cry. Her darkness became ten shades darker. She had no emotion, care, or hope. Inuyashas ears drooped and he shuffled slowly out of the bathroom slowly. Kagome continued to sob for ten more minutes. She then continued using her 'magic finger' and purged. Her stomach was empty and Kagome still continued using her 'magic finger' and threw up some water but that's basically it.

When Kagome got home, she went straight to her room. Her father was passed out and going to be grumpy the next day. He was going to wake up with a terrible hangover. When Kagome went in her room she instantly locked her door. After that one night, she always locked her door. She went to the piano in her room and gently ran her fingers over the keys. It was her mothers. Kagome always would remember the day her mother gave it to her. It was two weeks before the accident. After the accident, Kagome was determined to learn how to play. Kagome wanted to do lessons her father of course, said no. Kagome taught herself everyday after school and all day over the weekends. Kagome hadn't played it in a year. The last time she played it she remembered that her father hit her and said it was to loud. In reality, that wasn't the real was staring at the piano with her eyes watering. She was remembering all the memories of her sitting on her moms lap following her moms fingers with her own. That's when Kagome knew she wouldn't give up playing just because of her father. Kagome shook her head. She didn't want to think of her mother at that moment. She went on her computer. She was wondering how to get relief from depression. She went on her email account. She was expecting no email except when she heard a 'ding' sound she checked her emails. She got an actual email! She was hoping that it wasn't one from Kagura, Yura,Kanna, or Kikyo. She was used to them emailing her not to friendly things.

Kagome opened up the message only to see it was from.. "Inuyasha?" Kagome said out loud in confusion. The memories of him saying that he would let her bleed out and die came through her head. She decided to open it later. She added a new page and typed in 'how to release relief when depressed'. "That seems about right.." Kagome said saying her thoughts out loud. When the page loaded she clicked the first source. It was by another girl around her age.

"Hello. If you were wondering how to release relief of depression then here's some ways. You might be depressed by breaking up, being bullied, or just some drama." Kagome read this and kind of was freaked out that it said the main reasons why she was depressed. She continued to read. "I was bullied in school. Not just getting slapped or pinched, I mean getting kicked in the stomach, coughing up blood, or even breaking a few bones. If you are in the same problem then here's a good way to release your depression. Pain. You might be wondering what I mean by that. I mean to purposely hurt yourself. It feels like your releasing all your depression and anger all at once. What I did was use a broken piece of glass, razor blade, a knife, or something like that and cut yourself. Make sure to not let anyone find out though. If you cut yourself, cut in areas that are covered. Like your thighs, arms, wrists, stomach, or anywhere that no one will see it. If you cut your wrists or arms, wear a long sleeve shirt or sweatshirt. If you cut your legs, make sure to not wear shorts. I hope this would help you guys! It is a great way to release your depression."

When Kagome was finished reading this, she wanted to see if it actually worked. When she went to exit the page she saw the other page with Inuyashas email on it. It made her feel mad and depressed. "If you don't want my help, and I find you in that state of help I will make sure to let you bleed out and die!" his vice went through her head. 'If you will let me bleed out, then let me' Kagome thought and started looking around her room for something sharp. She found a razor blade that her father used to shave. She noticed that he had four of them so, she took one. She went back into her room and gripped it tightly. She sat on her bed on her one knee while her other leg was off of the bed. She lifted her sleeve slowly. She lined the razor blade up with her wrist. Her hand was shaking and she put the razor blade against her wrist. She put a little bit of pressure and slid the razor blade all the way across her wrist. As she was going across, she saw the blood forming around the razor blade. When she was all the way across, she lifted the razor blade back up. She saw the scratch and blood started to gush out of it and drip off of her wrist and onto her jeans. She felt the pain but, when she saw the blood, she felt like she was under a spell. She watched it fascinated by how it did help with her depression. She kept on repeating this routine until there were about five more cuts that stopped to the middle of her lower arm. The blood was all over her jeans. She just watched every drop of blood drip onto her jeans fascinated. Eventually, the blood stopped dripping and they were just scratches on her arms with dry blood all over her arm. She went into the bathroom and washed her arm. The whole entire time she was thinking of the email. When Kagome finished washing off the blood she decided she was done for the night. She went back over to her laptop and clicked on the page. She put her cursor over the email and clicked after a while debating. When she opened it, the email was about a paragraph long. Kagome read over it with no emotion. All her emotions were turned off. She was in the darkness and needed a source of light.

"-Inuyasha

Look Kagome I'm sorry for saying that stuff earlier today. I didn't mean to get mad. It just ticked me off when you said that you were ugly and everyone laughed. Well guess what? I did NOT laugh. I actually felt guilty and bad for you. When I went in the bathroom and saw you lying there, I thought that you weren't physical strong. But you were mentally. If I got bullied and tortured everyday I would go insane. But you're different. You go to school with determination in your eyes. Kagome, when you get this please say something."

Kagome was debating whether she should respond or not. She eventually hit the respond button and started to type away.

"-Kagome

Inuyasha thanks for apologizing but, I cant except it. I'm sorry but you're probably wondering why and I don't trust you enough to tell you. Theres nothing you can do to save me or help me. I don't need anyones help. I honestly don't even know you. All I know is your name and that you go to my school. Don't take it personally. I don't want anyone or anything in my life. Please respond when you get this."

Kagome slowly dragged her cursor over the send button and clicked. She lied down in her bed and rested her eyes. 'Im sorry Inuyasha. If you knew, you would get hurt. I cant let that happen again' Kagome thought until sleep took over.

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