Happy Major Crimes Monday! Here I am with chapter 10! I don't wanna spoiler you so I won't say anything, just enjoy the chapter and review!

Five months later…

After that day at the hospital Sharon and Andy haven't seen or talked to each other again. He tried to call and text her but she never answered, he knew from Provenza that she took some days off to stay at home but the team didn't know the real reason. When she came back to the office she threw herself into work but she looked different, as if something inside her changed and everybody noticed that: she was calm but cold, professional but distant and every time one of the team mentioned Lieutenant Flynn she left the room without explanations. She still hated him, she still blamed him for the miscarriage, for what she had been through before and after that, for the person she has become because of him.

Despite the urge of drinking again he had after Sharon's miscarriage, Andy kept going to meetings every single day and with the help of his friend Louie he got on track.

The day Flynn came back to work there were no balloons saying "Welcome back", of course the colleagues were glad to see him, especially Provenza but there was nothing of the fuss that accompanied Julio's return, Andy didn't even stop at his desk, he headed straight to Chief Taylor's office.

"Come in"

"Chief" he greeted

"Lieutenant Flynn welcome back, what can I do for you?"

"I'm here to ask to be transferred to another division"

Taylor looked at him puzzled "If this has something to do with your leave…"

"No," he cut him off "It has nothing to do with that"

"Then why do you want to leave your team? Your partner?"

"It's personal, do I really have to answer that question?"

"I guess not" he sighed

"This is my formal request," Andy handed him the form "I hope Robbery and Homicide can take me"

"I'll see what I can do, Lieutenant. Does Captain Raydor know about this?"

"She doesn't"

"You should talk to her"

"I'd like to keep her out of this"

"I regret to inform you that this is not possible, she'll have to sign your form before I could proceed"

Andy's jaw clenched but he didn't say anything

"I don't know what's your problem with Raydor, Flynn but I'll see that she signs the paper"

"Thank you Chief, I really appreciate it"

Andy went back to his desk, he was still on desk duty so he couldn't help the team with the case they were working on so he sat there in case he could be useful for something. The clicking of Sharon's heels sounded hurried even from afar, it didn't bode anything good if her pace was so fast indeed when she entered the Murder Room she pinned Andy with her Darth Raydor's glare and ordered him to follow into her office. The rest of the team stopped what they were doing to look at them exchanging looks, Flynn has just come back to work and there were already troubles in paradise. Sharon closed the blinds and the door and turned around to look at him…

"Could you explain me what this is, Lieutenant Flynn?" she held his request paper in her hand

She was cold, professional, almost bitchy, but above all she was furious, angry like he had seen her only few times before

"This is my formal request to be transferred to another division, Captain"

Two could play that game

"And you didn't think to inform me first? I had to know this from Taylor!"

She never raised her voice but her tone was full of disdain and rage

"I thought it was better to keep out of this but Taylor told me you had to sign the paper and offered to talk to you"

"Sure, you can't even talk to me on the job, Lieutenant" she used his rank to belittle him

"No I can't, Captain and that's why I asked for transfer. It's obvious we can't keep working together" "You're a valuable asset for this team, where should I find someone to replace you with such a short notice?"

"It shouldn't be so hard for you"

She looked daggers at him "I'm not going to sign this paper and this is my final answer"

"What? Why?" he snapped "You know it's the best thing for both of us Sharon, you don't want me here, you couldn't even stand to hear my name when I was on leave"

She looked surprised

"Provenza told me, do you think I wouldn't have used any possible way to keep an eye on you? You have never picked up that damn phone Sharon! Not once, you didn't answer any text and I didn't know how you were after…"

"Stop it!" she cut him off "This is inappropriate like everything you do or say Lieutenant. After six months of leave you still didn't learn to respect my authority?"

"This has nothing to do about that!"

"It totally has!"

"Why do you want me here? And don't use the excuse of the short notice and all those bullshits Sharon!"

"Stop saying my name!"

They stared angrily at each other, they were in the same room, her stood behind her desk and him near the door almost ready to leave, they had never been more distant. Andy wanted to tell her again that he was sorry for everything but he couldn't find the words especially when she looked at him that way, not Darth Raydor's way but Sharon's way, a look that conveyed hurt, fragility, pain and heartache.

"Put us out of this misery and sign that damn form!"

"You don't get to tell me what to do! I'm your Captain!"

"As if it still meant something…" he whispered

Sharon was about to start talking but he cut her off

"No, I don't need another 6 months or a lifetime of training, this has nothing to do with LAPD! There are Andy and Sharon in this room not Captain Raydor and Lieutenant Flynn and YOU know it! Because otherwise Captain Raydor would have signed that fucking paper after I told her my explanation without even blinking, it's you who are not being professional here now Sharon! And you know why? You wanna know why? Because…"

"Because I can't let you go!" she raised her voice to surpass his "I can't let you go"

They both stayed silent

"Five months ago I didn't want see your face ever again or hear people mention your name let alone work with you again but today when you came back to work and I looked you in the eyes… I…"

"I still love you" he finished her sentence

"I don't know how to stop, I don't know how to stop hating you for what you've done to me but I also don't know how to stop loving you"

"Sharon…"

"Please don't leave Major Crimes"

"How can you ask me that? You just told me you hate me"

"I also told you I still love you"

Andy passed a hand through his short gray hair "This is crazy, everything that happened between us is crazy. How could we reach this point?"

"I don't know"

"I'm truly sorry Sharon, I mean it"

"I wanted that baby you know, I wanted it"

"I know, I did too"

"You did?" she smiled with her eyes full of tears

"Of course I did, it was yours, ours, how could I not want it?"

She nodded trying hold back the tears

"How are you now?"

"Good physically, emotionally and psychologically… I've been better"

"I wish I could take your pain away"

She laughed bitterly "I wish there was no pain for you to take away"

"Sharon we need to talk outside of work"

"There's nothing else to say"

"There is! You can't tell me you hate then you love me, ask me not to leave Major Crimes and expect me not to do anything"

"What do you want to do?"

"I want to earn you, I want you back"

"Andy…"

"Part of you wants this too, we were on the right path when that tragedy happened"

"I'm still not over it"

"Neither am I"

"I was carrying that baby, it's different!"

"I was its father, my pain doesn't value any less than yours"

She sighed "Tonight at 7 at my condo. I don't want to go back to your place… every time we've been there something bad happened"

"Yeah, you're right"

"See you later"

"Meet you there then, Captain"

"Lieutenant"

Flynn left her office feeling a little light-hearted, maybe there was still hope for them, maybe.