Chapter 10
*Sam*
Sam is sitting near her balcony door looking out into the Port Charles skyline. It has started raining outside, not helping her mood. She didn't know what to think at the moment. A few hours ago she felt like she was getting somewhere with Silas. To the point where she thought she brought him out that shell of arrogance he has. She was in his arms and was getting ready for an eventful night until it all went wrong. And like always she was left dazed and confused. "I almost had him. It was right there Sam! What made him do an about face." Sam thought to herself. She did know one thing if she didn't know anything else, it felt good to be in his arms. The way he looked at her with that intense stare of his made her melt. Now she knew that she would live for that touch again….that kiss. The kiss that shattered the earth beneath her feet. To the point where it wasn't for him picking her up in his arms she would have fallen. All that and yet she still felt like there was something deeper inside him that turns him into the same man she met in New York. She was so deep in thought that she hadn't realized Rafe came downstairs.
"You ok Sam?" Rafe asks heading into the kitchen for a soda. "Yea…I'm good. You need anything?" Sam says as she jumps a little. "No…but what's got you so jumpy?" "Nothing…" Sam says as Rafe gives her a look. "Lie again." "Rafe…you wouldn't understand. Let it go." Sam says as she looks back outside. "Try me." Rafe says sitting down near her. "Have you ever been with somebody and it's like you almost can figure them out but every time you get close they stop you dead in your tracks?" Sam says after a moment. "No but I guess you're talking about Uncle Silas aren't you?" Rafe asks as Sam shakes her head. "Well from I have learned from being around him he's not the one to openly show his feelings." "I know that but today was different. He actually opened up to me. Only to shut me out again." Sam says putting her head on the table. "Well if you want to know I have talked to him about you…" Rafe says getting up. "You have? What you do Rafe?" Sam asks. "I wanted to know how he felt about you. Since ya'll are going on dates and stuff now which by the way I fully support." Rafe says as Sam gets up. "What he say?" "I'm bound by the guy code of silence." "Really Rafe? Did he swear you to secrecy?" "No I just think if you want know what is really going on with him, ask him. My mother always said that if you want something bad enough, you go after it. Something she learned being around my biological father unfortunately." Rafe says after a moment. "I don't think it's going to be that simple." Sam says. "Nothing is ever easy. But that just means we have to fight harder for it." Rafe smiles. "Thanks Rafe…you're the best." Sam says hugging him. "I know. It's what I do." Rafe says as Sam looks at him go up the stairs. "Ok…Clay male moment. I see he has them." Sam thinks to herself.
Later on that night Sam is laying in her bed looking at her ceiling. Mind going a mile a minute she's trying to go to sleep. But something keeps gnawing at her. She wanted to know what was up with Silas but she didn't know how to go about it. Sam turns towards her window to look outside. The rain hasn't let up in fact it was pouring now. She sighs to herself as she turns back over. All of a sudden a soft voice comes through her thoughts. "Go to him. If you want to know, go to him." Sam looks around to make sure she was the only one in the room. "Okay I'm hearing things." "Samantha…the answers are right there. Go to him…go to Silas now." Sam thinks to herself as she gets up and heads to Rafe's room. "Rafe can you watch Danny for a little bit. I'll be right back." "Go get him Sam." Rafe laughs as she heads down the stairs to grab her coat and head out the door. In the mirror of Sam's dresser Livvie appears. "Good job Sam. Good job."
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The rain is beating against the windshield as Sam drives to Silas' house. "Why couldn't have waited until morning at least Sam? At least where you can see better in the rain." Sam fusses as she pulls into driveway of his home. Noticing she forgot her umbrella at the house she hustles out of the truck and to his door. Hesitating she pauses before knocking. "Okay Sam it is no time to get cold feet. Especially being outside in the middle of a rainstorm." She says to herself. She wanted to turn back around and go home but something kept telling her to go ahead and knock. "Well here goes nothing, brace yourself." She says as she knocks. Inside Silas was asleep on his couch when he heard the knock. "Who the hell knocks on a door at 11:30 at night?" Silas says groggily as he goes to the door. "Who is it?" "Silas, it's me Sam open up." Sam says as Silas quickly opens the door. "Sam, what are doing here this time of night? Is Danny ok?" "Yes he's fine. May I come in so I can dry off?" Sam says a little annoyed. "Oh sorry please come in. I'll go get you a towel." Silas says she comes in and he goes upstairs. Coming back down he noticed how even soaking wet, Sam still radiated a beauty to him that no other could. "Here you go." "Thanks." "Please have a seat. Don't worry you won't get my couch wet its leather." Silas jokes. "Ha ha." "Is Rafe ok?" "He's fine too. I'm not here for Rafe or Danny. I'm here about us." Sam says as Silas gives her a look.
"What about us?" Silas asks. "I want to know what it is that is making you act like this." "Act like what?" "One minute we're enjoying each other's company and having what I would say a pretty damn good time. The next you look at me like I'm the plague and you can't get away from me any quicker." Sam says. "Sam …don't…" Silas begins. "No! At a moment's notice you turn back into the man I met. The silent, cold man that didn't care how anybody felt except for you. But then there is the moments where I feel like you are capable of feeling. It's like you're trying to keep me close but at a distance at the same time." Sam says standing up. Silas was speechless. He couldn't talk himself out of this one because what she was saying was true. All he could do was stand up and walk over to the window. "Really? That's all you can do is give me the silent treatment? I'm sitting here basically telling you how I feel right now and all you can do is look out a window? You left me looking and feeling like an idiot!" Sam yells. "You think I don't know what I did? You think I don't know how you felt! Samantha, it took everything in me to leave. You don't understand. No one does." Silas says looking out the window. "Then make me understand Silas. I want to know you for you." Sam says walking up to him. She goes to take his hand as he continues to look out the window. "It's complicated Samantha, I'm complicated." Silas says trying to move away from her but she holds on to his hand. "Silas please…you're not walking away from me again." Sam says.
Silas lets out a deep breath that he felt like he been holding in for hours. "I've fallen for you…" Silas whispers. "What?" Sam says in shock. "I've fallen for you Samantha Morgan. Ever since I first held you in my arms in the hospital I knew I couldn't let you get away from me." Silas says as he moves closer to Sam. "You've gotten under my skin…in my head. You're the first thing I think about every day. Wondering how you're doing, whether you happy or angry." Silas pauses as Sam rubs her hand up his chest. Silas didn't want to look into her eyes, fearing what he would do next. "Silas…" Sam begins but is interrupted when Silas takes her by her chin and kisses her. She didn't understand why but the tears that were welling up started to fall as he deepens the kiss. Sam starts to go to unbutton his shirt as pulls away. "No…Samantha…we can't" "Silas don't stop. Don't pull away from me again!" Sam begs, tears running down her face. "See this is it! I have to or I could lose everything…" Silas says as she looks at him confused. "Lose everything? What could you lose by falling for me?" Sam asks. Silas grows silent and moves to the fireplace. "Silas answer me!" "MY SANITY! OK MY SANITY!" Silas yells making Sam jump. "Samantha, you don't understand. This is what I live for. You being in my arms, looking into those beautiful eyes. And when I kiss you…it takes me to another place. And that's the problem. I can't control my feelings for you…and it scares me." Silas says as he sulks in front of the fireplace. Sam walks over and sits down beside him against the couch. She lays her head on his shoulder looking into the fireplace. Silas takes her in his arms and hold her there. They sat there in silence. Sam tired from arguing and crying eventually cried herself to sleep in his arms.