A/N: Ne, ne! Happy New Year, everyone! -smiles and waves- Sorry for the late update! Some guy (not Bakura, sadly) stole the phone wires and I couldn't use the internet! He be SO ebil. o:!!!

mandapandabug: Ne… can't make Jou faint! o:! Sowee… this chapter's important. But all I can do is make him fall asleep on Kaiba… n.n;

Warnings: Mild Cursing, Shounen Ai, OOC Tendencies

Disclaimer: Disclaiming all rights right now—aside from the promise…

Story Notes:

1) -.-.-Page Break-.-.-

"How would you know? You never looked behind you."

Find Me

Here I Am

The CEO walked to the awe-struck blond. With the bag of pastries still resting in his hands, the brunet noticed Jou's ears slightly perking up. It seemed that the sweet smelling aroma of the cupcakes has already reached him.

Kaiba smirked.

Jou really did seem like a puppy, especially when he perks up. If he could laugh, he would. But Kaiba knew it wasn't the right time to do such. Hell, it'd only worsen the situation.

With that, the brunet gave the blond teen the pastries and sat on the next swing.

Jou only blinked at the blue eyed man and shifted to opening the bag. Cupcakes? Five cupcakes? Why? The blond once again looked at Kaiba and slightly smiled as he slowly handed the plastic back to the CEO. Both men knew Jou was hungry—but the said teen had this thing… and his pride.

"No thanks." A low voice emitted from the blond's mouth. "I'm not hungry."

"As I've said before," Pause. "You look like shit. So eat it already."

"Why should I? For all I know, you put some poison there!"

"Then that proves you know nothing."

"Whatever." Jou growled. "Just take the fucking cupcakes!"

"You're hungry, Mutt. EAT IT!"
"No I'm not! Leave me alone!"

Who would've thought that they'd argue about if one was hungry or not? That was just too strange—even the littlest of things, like children, they'd fight about.

Their argument continued for a few minutes.

Just then, there was a sound of stomach growling.

The blond blushed. He was embarrassed.

"Next time, Mutt…" Kaiba hissed as he pushed back the blond's hand. "Obey your Master."

Jou only hissed underneath his breath. Barely audible, though.

"Don't be shy, Pup… those are intended for you."

Brown eyes shifted onto blue. For him? Kaiba… was looking for him?

His heart pounded. It was a loud thump and painful. Why was his heart acting this way? What the hell was up? Or maybe this was love kicking in on him.

With that, Jou shrugged, taking one cupcake and biting it. But he wasn't that selfish, he gave Kaiba one. The CEO looked at it.

"What?" He asked as he took it. "We can't share the same one?"

Jou almost choked.

"Y—you remembered?" Stammer. "No… never mind."

Silence.

"And, no!" He added. "We can't share. Cupcake… mine."

It was intentional—the blond intended to wreck the awkward moment in between them. What? Wouldn't anyone?

Kaiba chuckled right that instant.

"It suits you." Jou whispered as he bit the cupcake. "Do that always. Like you used to."

"Those times were different. You know that." The brunet replied as he, too, bit the pastry.

Both eyes hadn't met. Both were wondering onto the night sky.

"Did you know," Jou started again. "I come here everyday since you disappeared."

Blue eyes stole a glance at the teen beside him.

"…Until one day, everything went wrong. I couldn't hope that you'd come back anymore…"

"Why?"

Jou evaded the question.

"Do you know when that was?" The brunet could only shake his head. "When you said you didn't remember me anymore."

Silence took over for the two.

Time had slowly gone by, but they didn't really mind. They were contented with the seemingly eternal silence they had in between them as they ate their respective pastry. The two teens were very deep in their thoughts. Or was it because they had no idea of what to say? No one can tell. But that was alright. They didn't care. They were happy. But, for how long…? Kaiba knew he had things to settle with Jou and delaying it more was not a part of his plan—but then again, the CEO didn't have anything planned. He just jumped in head on… with things left unplanned.

So, this must be what Jou feels when in just jumps in.

Anxiety.

Suddenly, a flash of the child Katsuya, or Jou, as he'd been called, appeared before the CEO. So full of life. So happy. With him. And now, he took away all the light that had shined within the smaller teen. It was his own fault.

The wind blew, whisking away the plastic bag that once held five cupcakes.

Looks like the pastries diminished.

Was it the right time to put whatever was in his mind to plan?

Kaiba opened his mouth, obviously going to say something…

"What happened to those times?" Jou suddenly spoke, beating the brunet.

No reply.

"Why did it all go away?"

Still, no reply.

"Why did you leave me," Jou's words came to a whimper. "Seto?"

Kaiba's eyes widened. He had no idea why he was affected when Jou said his name—he wasn't happy with the way it sounded as it came out from the blond's mouth. It wasn't the same happy sound that he always heard from his voice. Now, it was fragile as if Jou was going to break anytime soon.

And Jou did.

The brunet couldn't stand it and abruptly stood up and stood in front of the sobbing blond. Automatically, he reached for hold onto Jou's arm and pulled him to stand, but somehow the smaller teen felt a tad too dizzy (from the lack of food and sleep from the past few days), he couldn't stand properly and fell into Kaiba's hold.

The CEO did not push Jou away, but instead held him tight—as if he never wanted to let the smaller one go ever again.

"Why do you hate me?" The said teen pounded on Kaiba's chest. "What the hell did I ever do to you?"

Jou was no longer sobbing, he was crying but he didn't care. He cried not because he wanted to, but because he needed to.

"WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME?" He repeated as pounded even harder.

It wasn't strong, the way Jounouchi hit Kaiba. But, the CEO felt pain… the things Jou had been through without Kaiba to hold when he was afraid… he felt the pain of those… Seto was hurt.

"I… never did hate you…" He whispered to the blond as his hold tightened. "It was the only way possible to communicate with you—I was raised to be cold." Jou stopped his pounding. "And… I never left you…"

Brown eyes widened as his head lifted to meet blue orbs.

"I was everywhere you were." Kaiba closed his eyes as he rested his head on Jou's. "You just never looked behind you."

The blond had no reply or reaction. It was as if he was frozen on the spot. He heard the words he wanted to hear and he's feeling the warmth he always wanted to feel. Don't get it wrong, Jou was happy but he doesn't know how to express or react on it. It's just a sudden rush of untimely emotion. Yet it felt great.

So Jou did the only thing he thought he could do—hug Kaiba back. Thing is, the blond had felt weak and weary and couldn't help but close his eyes as he fell asleep into the arms of Kaiba Seto. And, for once, Jounouchi Katsuya felt Heaven.

Of course, Kaiba noticed that the blond went into slumber, his weight gave in. This only made the CEO step back because of lack of balance, but still he held the sleeping boy in his hands.

He looked like an angel.

With that, Kaiba smiled.

"Silly Puppy."

To Be Continued

A/N: Huff, review please! Whether you like it or not! -smiles-