Most Wonderful Time Of The Year

The silence radiating from the kitchen was deafening. I just admitted to Draco that I was in love with Severus and have been in a relationship with him while he was in a coma. The look on Draco's face was enough to make me miserable. Hurt and anger were spilling off of him. I didn't know what else to say.

"You have got to be kidding me?" He said calmly, almost as if he really thought I was joking. "You'd rather be with Snape then me?"

"No. Draco it's not.."

"I really don't even want to listen to it. I can't even believe I wasted a year of my life with you. I don't even know how I convinced myself I could love someone like you."

"Don't say that. You don't mean it."

"YES I DO!" His calm voice quickly turned to a loud piercing one of anger. "I HATE YOU HARRY POTTER! I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE AGAIN!" Then he stormed out of the kitchen. I quickly followed him, and realized he was heading towards the front door.

"Draco! You can't go out there, it's not safe."

"It's better than spending the rest of my holiday locked up in a house with you and your new boyfriend." He ripped open the door but I grabbed his arm to pull him back in.

"Get off of me Potter!"

"What's going on here? Close that door immediately." If I thought things couldn't get any worse, it was Severus' voice behind me. Draco immediately let go of the door and strode towards the man. Then he lifted up his wand.

"Crucio!" He shouted before I had a chance to stop him, Snape was withering on the ground, obviously not expecting Draco to throw such a dangerous curse.

"Draco!" Remus came into the now very cramped hallway. "Did you just cast an unforgivable? Have you gone mad?" Severus, still on the ground, disarmed Draco from where he sat.

"Trust me I'm not the one around here that's gone mad. I'm leaving." Once again he turned towards the door, but this time it was Remus who grabbed him.

"You don't even have your wand!" I shouted, but he seemed to pretend I didn't exist.

"Before you walk to your death, would you mind explaining to me what's going on?" Remus asked leading him away from the door.

"Why don't you ask them?" He gestured at me and Severus with disgust, we were now both on the ground. I wanted to smack myself for dropping to Severus' side after the curse was thrown at him. As much as I wanted to make sure Severus was okay, my actions were only going to escalate matters.

"Draco, please just listen to me," I tried to plead, but Draco just turned his head, refusing to meet my gaze. "You have to understand."

"I understand perfectly well. You wanted to be with him," he finally met my gaze after he shot a vicious look at Severus, "while you were with me. Tell me Harry, were you glad I was in a coma so you could finally be with the man you really wanted?"

"No, of course not, don't even think that. I was devastated after what happened. I didn't think I could live with myself. Severus was there to help me through it."

"He sure helped you through it alright. I bet he didn't waste any time."

"He didn't start anything, it was me. If you wanna be angry with anyone, be angry with me."

"Keep sticking up for him, go right ahead. He can have you for all I care. I'm done with this. I'm done with you. I deserve better than this." Then he began to walk away, fortunately towards the stairs. "Professor Lupin, if you don't mind, could you show me an empty room I can stay in?"

Remus glanced a sorry look at me before going off with Draco, to empty him from my room, and from my life.

I couldn't help but think maybe it would have been better to just listen to Severus in the first place. I should of just been with Draco, and gotten married like we planned, leaving my history with Severus behind us. What was I thinking?

Did I think being honest and truthful was going to help anyone? I just felt like I needed to get it off my chest. It certainly didn't help Draco or Severus. It was incredibly selfish. I deserved everything Draco said to me, plus some.

"You're an idiot." Severus confirmed my thoughts. "You better hope he keeps this a secret." Then he was off too. I forgot I just completely jeopardized his career as well. Wow, Harry, you're really on a roll tonight.

I went to bed alone that night, but I couldn't sleep. I couldn't get Draco's words out of my head. Did he say those things just because he was upset? Was what I did really worthy of hatred? I needed to talk to someone about this, but the last thing I wanted to do was listen to Remus lecture to me, so I decided to write Ron. At about 4:00am, I sent Hedwig off with a very long and confusing letter.

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The days leading up to Christmas were very boring and lonely. Both Severus and Draco ignored me during all meals, and even Remus barely talked to me. He was sort of forced to play the mediator in the house, since no one was talking to anybody but him. He wasn't too keen on his new role, and rightfully blamed me for it.

Two days before Christmas during breakfast, Hedwig returned, finally, with a return letter from Ron.

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Harry,

Mum said we can stay there for Christmas. We'll talk more when I get there. See you soon!

Ron

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The next morning, he came through the door with Ginny and his parents. By the appearance of them, Draco seemed to get even angrier.

"You've got to be kidding me." He drawled on "If it isn't bad enough I have to spend my holiday with these," He gestured towards me and Severus, "now I have to suffer the company of Weasley's." He said loud enough for all to hear. Mrs. Weasley looked furious. I quickly pleaded with my eyes for her not to say anything. Last thing anyone needed was another argument in this house.

She reluctantly stayed quiet, but I was sure she would be asking me many questions later. A couple hours later, after everyone settled in their rooms, she ambushed me when Ron and I were playing chess in the kitchen.

"Do you mind explaining to me what that was about earlier?"

"Draco broke up with me." I said lazily, hoping it would be enough to keep her satisfied. Turns out, you can never satisfy and eager red headed mother.

"That's no reason to be rude. I think I'll have a talk with him."

"Please don't. He has every reason to be rude." I took a sip of my tea, buying time to think of what to say. "I, well, I've sort of been with someone else."

"Oh Harry dear," she said a little too happily. I was well aware that she, along with mostly everyone else, wasn't too keen on the idea of me being with Draco. "Ron never told me...unless. Oh no! You two will not be sharing a room on my watch. Ron switch with your sister right now."

"Mum.." Ron groaned. I wish he would pretend he was the one I was seeing to keep her questions at bay, but I knew that wouldn't happen. The truth would come out eventually. Mrs. Weasley seemed to ignore Ron though and went to get Ginny's attention.

"Mum!" Ron yelled, finally getting her attention."It's not me. It's..someone else."

"Well that answers why he's angry with you, but he seemed just as mad at Severus. I always thought Draco was his favorite student, that's what Ron had said."

I could tell the thought never even crossed her mind that Severus was the other person I've been seeing.

"I'm not sure," I lied to her. Ron didn't take his eyes off the chess board. She looked back and forth between the the both of us, obviously not believing me.

"Don't lie to me boys. You know very well, and you'll tell me," Then she stopped mid-sentence. "No. No. Absolutely not." She knew, and my face only confirmed it. She left the kitchen.

"Wow. She just left, I guess we got off easily, huh? Wonder where she's off to though." Ron said to me, but I stared off at the door she just vacated.

I didn't say anything. I was certain she went to go and talk to Severus.

In order to avoid all confrontations that were sure to arise, Ron, Ginny, and I hid out in my room. Ginny, who didn't know what happened the past few days, had tons of questions of her own. But unlike everyone else, she actually listened.

"Poor Draco, I mean, on Christmas. Maybe you should have waited to tell him Harry." My thoughts came out of her mouth. I knew how miserable Draco's past Christmas' have been, and I manage to ruin another one. I had to do something to make it right.

"Maybe you should talk to him Ginny. He likes you probably the most out of all my friends."

"Um, I don't think that's a good idea. I mean, if he doesn't want to be with you..."

"Not about me. Just talk to him, try to make his holiday a little better. Maybe." She bit her lip, not believing it would work, but got up nonetheless.

"I'll try." Then she was off.

It was less than ten minutes when she came storming back in.

"He called me a whore!" She came stomping in. "Told me he never wanted to see either of us ever again. Then he kicked me out!"

"He called you a what?" Ron asked furiously, standing up. "He can't talk about my sister like that! I'm going to show him.." Then he was out the door. I glanced once at Ginny before getting up and following Ron before he did anything rash.

Ron was moving quickly down the stairs, and before we caught up with him, we were interrupted by Mrs. Weasley.

"Ginny go back upstairs."

"But mum, Ron.."

"I'm serious. Now. And don't come out until we call you for dinner." Moping, she retreated in the opposite direction of Ron. "Harry, come with me." She lead me into the sitting room, where Mr. Weasley and Remus both sat. I suddenly felt very nervous.

"Harry dear, don't be worried. We only want to talk." Mrs. Weasley tried to sooth me. "Remus tells us that this, um, relationship with Severus has been going on for some time."

I looked over and Remus, and then at Mr. Weasley who both looked just as uncomfortable as I did.

"Mrs. Weasley, I mean no disrespect, but honestly, that's private." She glanced at her husband for support, and he reluctantly spoke up.

"Yes, we understand that, it's just, he's your professor." Mrs. Weasley looked happy with her husband, but I just rolled my eyes. I wasn't trying to be rude, but when you hear the same thing over and over again, it gets sort of old.

"Harry, this is serious!" She shrieked, standing up from the couch. "You could get in serious trouble."

"It's fine, really. Dumbledore set boundaries for us."

"Dumbledore knows of this? You can't be serious!" Lupin finally joined the conversation.

"He's allowing it?" Mr. Weasley asked. His wife seemed to let the men do the talking, now that they seemed to be seeing her side of things.

"It's not like he's allowing it. He set tons of rules, trust me. He just understands that I'm an adult and can make my own decisions." I stated matter-of-factly, settling both men at once. "But if it eases you at all, nothing is happening now, and I doubt it ever will again, with anyone." I said the last part under my breath. I suddenly became very aware of how much I was going to miss Draco.

I missed him when he was in a coma, of course, but that isn't the same. I didn't have to see him around with his friends, or even with a new boyfriend. I don't think I would be able to watch him be with anyone besides me. I hated myself so much. Why couldn't I wait six months? What is wrong with me?

I knew that the three of them were talking, but I wasn't really trying to listen. I really didn't feel like hearing any more lectures about my personal life. Although, I noticed they seemed to be talking more to each other than towards me.

"We should talk to Dumbledore, he must have reasons.."

"What reasons would there be to allow a teacher to take advantage of a seventeen year old boy?"

I hated when people referred to me as a boy or that Severus was taking advantage of me. I wasn't even going to argue with them, they would never listen, so instead, I just got up and left. I headed back to my room to speak with Ginny and Ron. But Ron wasn't there. Then I remembered where I was heading before Mrs. Weasley stopped me.

"Ron's still with Draco?" I asked Ginny who merely shrugged. "I think we should go check on them, make sure no ones dead."

"I'm sure they're fine."

"Gin, Draco cast an unforgivable at Severus the other day." Her eyes widened in shocked. "And considering Ron and Draco's history.."

"Let's go." We rushed down the stairs, Ginny leading the way. When she got to the door, she paused.

"Well, go on." She stepped back from the door.

"I'm sure they're fine. We should just go back upstairs." She tried to grab my arm, but I stayed put. This didn't make any sense.

"What's going on Gin?"

"I just thought, maybe it would be good if we let them get it out of their system is all. Maybe they just need to.."

"Need to what?"

"Oh Harry! This is stupid, let's just go back upstairs and wait for Ron to come back and tell us what happened." I knew she was hiding something. She stopped just before opening the door, she must have heard something. I leaned my head against the door, hoping to hear the same thing she did, but all I heard was silence. Conflicted on opening the door or heading back upstairs, I sat and listened to the silence.

Silence wasn't a good sign. It most likely meant one of them were unconscious. I had to make sure. So in my haste, I ripped open the door. The sight that met my eyes was one of my biggest fears.

Neither of them were unconscious. They weren't dueling, or even arguing for that matter. They seemed to be enjoying quite a lot of each other. Both of their eyes met mine, which were now glistening with tears. If Ginny didn't grab me out of the way, I don't think I would have ever been able to take my eyes off the scene I walked into.

This was the worst Christmas of my entire life.

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A/N: I'm not sure how I feel about this chapter..so why don't you all let me know how you feel. (and if case you don't know what that implies..I'm asking you to review)