A/N: Happy Holidays everyone! Thought you would enjoy a new chapter on christmas eve. I lost internet last month so yeah wasn't able to post.

Dallas's p.o.v.

I laid down on the couch with Johnny still in my arms being careful not to wake him. The uneasiness I felt earlier still wouldn't let up and my breath was still pretty shaky. What happened in New York would not be repeated. I didn't know how the hell I'd have a relationship with Johnny. I never really thought about being with a guy before. Johnny shifted in his sleep looking uncomfortable so I stripped him down to his briefs. Not to be perverted but day clothes can be uncomfortable when you're trying to sleep. Johnny shivered a bit and I took my jacket off and spread it over him. With Johnny between me and the jacket he should be warm enough to sleep. I relaxed a little listening to Johnny's calm breathing. It was so quiet I barely heard him. Before long my eye lids started to feel heavy and I almost fell asleep before the door swung open. I cracked open an eye lid and saw the Curtis brothers walk through the door.

"Welcome back Soda." I said groggily.

"Hey Dallas is that Johnny there?" Soda asked.

"Yeah it's the kid how 'bout one of you guys gets a blanket and a pillow?"

"I'll get it." Pony answered before going to the linen closet.

I relaxed a little more once I had the pillow and blankets. Johnny didn't wake up through the whole thing and I figured he hadn't been sleeping well for some time. He must have been tired enough to sleep through a hurricane. The Curtis brothers went to there rooms and I could feel the exhaustion of the day taking over. The couple of beers I had earlier didn't help and I soon fell asleep.

Ponyboys p.o.v

The ride back home was extremely quiet. Soda was starring into the distance the entire time. Darry and I exchanged a glance. Both of us were really worried about him. I had cried while we were in the hospital and I know that probably didn't help. Soda said it wasn't on purpose but he was so quiet that I didn't know if I should believe him or not. Darry had gotten a large envelope from the Doctor telling us exactly how Soda was going to recover the next few days. He gave us his card just in case things got really bad. The next few weeks were going to be really hard for Soda and I think everyone got that. We pulled into the drive way and I got out first to help Soda get out. Since Soda hadn't moved for three weeks his coordination skills were off and he tripped out the door but I was able to catch him. Soda said a small thanks before walking inside gloomily. I looked to Darry and he hugged me making me feel a little better.

"He needs some time okay Pony, we gotta be patient." Darry whispered before kissing my cheek and walking inside the house with me.

Dally was on the couch and I got him some bedding before heading to mine and Sodas room. Darry and I had decided that it would be best if Soda wasn't left alone on his first night back. That would just be plain mean. I stripped off my day clothes and slipped on a night shirt before lying on the bed. Soda seemed kind of hesitant before he changed into a pair of pajama bottoms. He never really liked wearing shirts to bed kind of like how he never liked shoes or socks. It was a comfort thing for him. I nuzzled into the pillow we had to share glad that he was finally home. A yawned escaped from my mouth and I relaxed, ready for sleep.

Soda's p.o.v

Ponyboy yawned cutely and I gulped. He looked incredibly adorable lying on our bed with his night shirt on. The damn thing didn't cover his legs and barely covered his rear. Pony had really nice legs from running on the track team. The muscles were clearly defined under his smooth creamy skin. He looked so tempting just lying there. I wanted to scoop him up to his arms and kiss his sweet lips but I knew I couldn't. It would scare him and I would break Darrys heart if he knew that I took advantage of his lover.

I crawled into bed beside Ponyboy and wrapped my arms around him like I always did. Pony never complained and right now I really needed to be with someone I cared for. To show that I wasn't completely alone in this house. Even though my heart felt forsaken.

"A-are you sure you didn't do it on purpose." Pony asked nervously.

I groaned loudly realizing he wasn't going to let this go for awhile. I pressed Ponys head to chest so he couldn't talk clearly. He struggled for a bit before waiting patiently.

"Pony I was drunk okay I did some stupid things that got me in hospital please under stand that it wasn't your guys fault."

"I-I'll try." Pony stuttered.

His eyes watered a bit and wiped it away letting go of his head but still hugged him close.

"It's just… when you walked in on me and Darry and ran off we knew things were going to be different around here but then you ended up in the hospital. We thought you left the house to, to… k-kill yourself, god Soda I can hardly say it; we had to wonder for three weeks if you were in the hospital because of us."

Pony started crying again and I sighed before whispering it was okay in his ear. He always got emotional when things seemed to be spinning out of control. I held him close for a long time letting him cry it all out. Pony hiccupped and I rubbed his back in circular motions with my hand. He seemed to have it under better control and I was glad for that. After several minutes I decided to ask a question I never dreamed I could ask.

"Pony what's it like being with Darry?"

"Huh, why would want to know that?"

"Could you please just answer the question?"

"Um okay well ugh I don't know where to start."

"Well what do think of Darry?"

"Oh… well I never really thought of Darry like I do now until well that night and before I really thought he was just kind of cold you know? I mean he gave up a lot just for all of us to stay together and I though he would resent us for it but I was wrong, very wrong. Darrys just a little rough on the edges but he isn't cold. Far from it. We love each other so much I don't know how to describe it. At first I didn't believe he loved me this way but he really does-"

Pony went on explaining everything to me. Well none of the dirty details but I could think of those myself. I could see the spark of happiness in his eyes as he talked and I couldn't help but grin. They would be okay if something ever happened to me.

"Sounds like you guys are damn near inseparable." I stated after Pony finished.

"Yeah we really are have you ever felt so in love you would do anything in the worl- oh right I'm sorry." Pony said looking down slightly ashamed and I sighed.

"I thought I found that with Sandy you know that Ponyboy and don't be sorry I guess things like that just happen I like to think I learned a lesson from it."

"What do you mean you 'like' to think that?" I sighed again

"Pony I-I like some one else now."

"You do?" Pony seemed a little to enthusiastic for that news. "I mean is that why you've been so down lately?"

"Yeah don't go spreading it around okay?"

"Okay but who is it?" He asked the dreaded question.

"P-pony I can't tell okay."

"What? Soda that's not fair I told you everything about me and Darry and you can't tell me who you like?"

"Pony please I ca-"

"Soda seriously it's not that you can't it's that you won't."

"No Pony really I can't please don't make me." I was panicking and it could be heard in my voice.

"Well just I thought you trusted me but if you don't ..."

"Pony it's not that please-"

"I'm going to sleep in Darrys room tonight." Pony interrupted before leaving.

I screwed up again. I shouldn't have said anything and I did, it was all my fault.

Darrys p.o.v.

I was just about to fall asleep when my bedroom door opened. I rolled over to see Pony sniffling. Even exhausted I could tell he needed me. He gave me a tackle hug nearly knocking the wind out of me.

"Pony what's wrong?" I asked shocked by his unusual behavior.

We just got home from the hospital and he's breaking down. I hugged him close kissing his forehead letting him know it was going to be okay. It took awhile but Pony finally calmed down. I held him until he fell asleep and I tucked him in. His light red brown hair felt silky smooth as I brushed some behind his ear. All the worry seemed to melt from his face while he was asleep. I sighed before tucking him in and leaving the room. I had to figure out what was making Ponyboy so upset and I had a fairly good idea it was something to do with Soda. When I got to their room I heard Soda sobbing behind the door and I sighed realizing it was going to be a very long night. I opened the door and Soda was crying in his pillow. I sat beside him and rubbed his back to get his attention. Soda took one look at me before he crawled onto my lap and cried into my shoulder. I felt his tears fall onto my skin and I hugged him.

"Do you want to tell me what happened?" I asked softly.

Soda shook his head no and hugged me tightly. I rubbed circles on Sodas back to help him relax; it always worked with my brothers. Soda looked up at me with his big brown eyes and gave me a half smile. It was his wordless sorry.

"Are you sure you don't want to talk about this Soda?"

"I think so." He said flatly, that wasn't like Soda.

"You know Pony was crying when he came into my room." Soda looked ready to burst into tears again.

"I'm sorry Darry I didn't mean for that I swear we were just talking and it's just really complicated."

"I doubt I will be getting back to sleep tonight anyways Soda and I've got tomorrow off so staying up isn't unbearable."

"I-I told Pony I liked someone but I didn't want to say who."

"Can you tell me?" If it was serious I wanted to know.

"Don't make me tell please." Soda whispered before he started crying again.

The only thing I could do was rock him back in forth in my arms. Soda hasn't been such a wreck since Mom and Dad died. Soda looked up at me and his lip was still trembling. I couldn't believe he was seventeen. Soda licked his lips still looking up at me. Who could he like? He never went out much so it would be hard to figure out.

"Soda," I said gently while wiping a few tears away. "I won't make you tell but please understand that Pony and I are really worried about ya, if it's because you love some one we'll do are best to help you, okay?"

Soda sniffled a few times before saying a small 'okay.'

"Do you want to sleep in my bed tonight? It would be better than sleeping alone."

"No you and Pony… go ahead and sleep you need each other." His voice was solemn and tearful.

"Soda it's alright," I spoke realizing what he must be thinking "Just because Pony and I are… together it doesn't mean we stopped loving you to little buddy." Sodas lips trembled.

"I-I just don't want to be in the way Darry."

"You're not in the way come on lets go get some sleep and things won't seem so bad in the morning." Soda nodded.

I got up and helped Soda off the bed. He had lost a lot of muscle from lying on a hospital bed for three weeks. Soda stumbled a few times before I picked him up so he wouldn't hurt himself. He blushed a little but didn't complain as I cared him to my room. Soda had gotten much lighter which worried me but I said nothing. He would get better; Pony and I would make sure of it. I lied down on my side of the bed causing Pony to wake up. He instantly cuddled up to Soda who was in between us. Soda hugged Pony back and laid an arm over them as a half hug. We fell asleep like that, feeling exhausted and comforted by each others presence. Things would get better, I would make sure of it.

A/N: Well hope you liked the christmas present. Reveiw or I stop posting. Also I've been working on another story that will probably be a three-shot. Okay I'm working on two storys. One is an OFC the other is slash. The OFC is NOT Mary-sure I hate those. But this ideas been bugging me and hopefully people will like it. Anyways I'll be waiting for reveiws hope to hear from you soon.