Notes; Finally. I'm back! And here's the new chapter. I really had no idea where to go with this story, but now I've got some new ideas again so I will be updating! Yay. The long expected chapter, here it is! I hope you like it. Xx Ciao!

Disclaimer; Don't own it, apart from Christon and the plotline.

Song; The song I used is called 'I love you' by Ilse de Lange. It's her new song. She's an amazing dutch singer!

Chapter 9 – Stronger than I can deny.

//I Didn't mean to be so cold.
Like your arms had never held me.
Like a story never told,
but you know exactly how it goes.//

Paige took a deep breath while making her way down the aisle. Her dress trailed behind her and she held the bouquet of flowers tightly in her hand. Why was she even doing this? Did she even want to do this? She sighed inwardly and looked at Piper, who was taking the lead. 'This sucks. Why have I even accepted? I can't do this.' She glanced at Christon who gave her a reassuring smile. 'Ugh.' She smiled back slightly and bit her lip when she took place next to Piper.


'It's wrong. How did I end up being Phoebe's bridesmaid? She's marrying the man I want.' Paige looked at Phoebe who walked upto Cole. A wide smile plastered to her face. She looked so happy. Paige moved her eyesight to Cole, who was watching every move Phoebe made. It was obvious he loved her. Who was she to think that Cole loved her too? The small affair that they had had, had been nothing more than just sex. Amazing, great, mind-blowing sex, Yeah. She had to admit that. But just sex.


''Before we get started, I must ask, is there anyone who has just cause why this couple should not be united...'' The priest spoke up, gazing around the church, which was suddenly filled with hundreds of peoples. Whe no sound was heard, the priest opened his mouth to continue, but then suddenly Christon stepped forwards. ''Wait. I have a reason.'' He said, gazing at Paige. Paige raised an eyebrow, surprised. ''Phoebe and Cole should not get married, because Cole and her baby-sister have been sleeping together since a few weeks.'' He turned to Cole, who let go of Phoebe's hands. ''What?'' he asked in unbelief. ''Paige. Did you tell him?'' Paige shook her head and opened her mouth to protest, but no sound came over her lips. Her brow furrowed in confusion. Cole looked at Phoebe and rolled his eyes. He worked up an energyball in his palm.

''Hurry up Cole. The sooner she's out of our way the sooner we can continue this wedding.'' Phoebe told him, her eyes turned black.

Paige looked at the energyball and then at Piper, her hazel coloured eyes pleading. Piper crossed her arms underneath her breasts and stared Paige down, her eyes turning black as well. Paige's eyes widened in surprise and she looked back at Cole, the moment he threw the sizzling energyball at her.
Paige threw her arms up to protect her face. ''No!''

//Still you carry on with pride.
when you touch me you're so tenderly
All the pain you keep inside,
wouldn't stop you from defending me.
Always remembering//

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She sat up with a bolt and looked around the room frantically. She was panting and her hair stuck to her forehead. ''Cole.'' She whispered. Her throat was dry and her voice was hoarse. ''Hey missy Paige? Is everything alright?'' Paige looked up to see her eldest living sister walk down the stairs. She was wearing a purple silky dressing gown and her hair was pulled back and held together by a clip. She stepped off the last step and walked over to the couch. ''What are you still doing downstairs?'' ''I had a nightmare. I think. What time is it? Are Pheebs and Cole married?''

Piper raised an eyebrow and put her hand on Paige's forehead.

''Yeah, they got married today remember? You feel a little hot sis, you might be getting ill.''

Paige moved her hand and gently pushed Piper's hand away. ''I'm fine, really. Just a little confused.'' ''Hot chocolate?'' Piper offered, helping Paige to get to her feet. Paige shook her head. ''Bed. I need sleep, wait I remember why I'm here. Christon was snoring.'' Piper chuckled and pushed her long dark brown hair behind her ear. ''Go back upstairs, hit him with a pillow if he's still snoring. It helps.'' She grinned. Paige smiled slightly, ''Leo snores? I've never heard him snore.'' She said, tying the line of her dressing gown a little tighter around her waist. ''I know. Because I hit him with a pillow when he does.'' Piper replied and she walked into the kitchen. Paige let out a small laugh and started to climb her way up the wooden stairs. She shivered when the cold from upstairs hit her bare legs and walked a little faster. When she opened her bedroomdoor Christon was still asleep in bed, but not on his own side anymore.

He had rolled to Paige's side.

She rolled her eyes, slightly irritated and closed the door. She turned around to get in bed, but she bumped into a a large body and a breath caught in her throat. Her heart missed several beats and she looked up at the person standing in front of her.

It was Cole.

''Cole. What the hell are you..-''

She was cut off by Cole who gently pushed his index finger against her lips. ''Shh. You'll wake Christon up.'' He smiled slightly and wrapped his arms around her thin waist, pulling her closer to his body. Paige closed her eyes momentarily, enjoying that warmth of his body. She felt a shiver run down her spine before she reopened her eyes directing her gaze towards Cole. ''What's wrong?'' she whispered, allowing her fingers to trace small pattern on his bare chest. ''I couldn't sleep. And I know I'm meant to be on my honeymoon, holding Phoebe and stuff, but I needed to know.'' He replied, pulling her a little bit more closer.

''Needed to know what?'' Paige breathed out, leaning her head against his broad chest.

''If we're going to continue this.'' Cole said quietly. ''If we're still going to meet each other in secret. I want to.'' He stroked her long dark hair, taking in the scent of her raspberry shampoo. Paige shook her head slightly and pulled away from him, though not being able to break out of his strong arms.

''You're married now, Cole. We can't. I mean, yeah I want to too, but it's too wrong. I couldn't do that to Phoebe. You love her don't you?''

//I love you
Your love's stronger than I can deny.
I love you,
your faith kept us safe.//

She looked up at him, her eyes full of questions.

Cole looked into them and let out a sigh. ''Of course I do, but you. Paige you make me feel great things. Amazing things. And you make me laugh so much. Phoebe doesn't. Yes I love her and she has things you don't have and never will have, but .. -– It's complicated. I want both of you. I know it sounds egolistical, but I do. I'm sorry.'' He watched as Paige opened her mouth to reply and then closed it again. She knew she had to be strong. She knew she shouldn't give in to him, but what else could she do? He had her under his spell, she loved him. She loved him and not Christon. Why had she even said 'yes' to Christon's proposal. Why was she so confused? Why all these questions?

Paige swallowed hard and decided to give in, to follow her heart.

She moved both of her hands to the back of his neck and pulled his head down carefully, fusing her lips with his. She felt Cole's hands run up her back as he stepped closer to her and gently returned the kiss. Paige closed her eyes, getting lost in the moment and the good kiss. She allowed it to deepen for a few seconds before she slowly pulled away, keeping her lips dangerously close to Cole's.

He let out a small noise of disappointment and locked his eyes with hers, raising a questioning eyebrow. A small smile crossed Paige's soft, glistering lips. ''You better go.'' She whispered, brusing Cole's lips lightly with her index-finger. ''I don't want to wake Christon up.'' Cole nodded his head reluctantly and kissed the top of her finger. ''Will I see you tomorrow?'' He asked, a slight hint of hope in his voice. Paige smiled. ''Yeah. After dinner, 8.30 okay?'' She placed her hands on his broad chest and looked into his eyes. She saw them twinkle and smiled when Cole planted a soft kiss on top of her head. ''Okay. I'll be there.'' He ran his hands down her back once more and before Paige could give him a kiss good-bye he shimmered out.

She allowed a smile to play on her lips and glanced over at her bed. Christon was still asleep, his back turned towards her. She made her way over to the bed and took her dressing gown off slowly, shivering when the silky fabric ran down her bare arms. ''Hate winter.'' She mumbled to herself and tossed the dressing gown onto the end of the bed. She pulled the covers back and climbed underneath them, lying down and pulling them over her shoulder. They were already warmed up by Christon. She turned onto her side and carefully laced her arm around Christon's waist, wanting him to turn over and wrap his arms around her to warm her up, but he didn't. She shivered slightly and closed her eyes, moving closer to Christon.

After a few minutes her breathing became calmer and more regular, she had fallen asleep.

//Between two hearts you'll never find,
a deeper understanding.
There's no use in asking why,
when the answer is right before my eyes.
And i finally realize//

Christon opened his eyes, letting a heavy sigh escape from his parted lips.

He felt heartbroken.

Paige, the love of his life, had just admitted that she was having an affair, that she was seeing someone else behind his back. Cole. Someone she had claimed to hate, someone she had pretended to hate for all this time. How long had this been going on? Why was she doing it, didn't she love him? She had accepted his proposal. Then why was she making out with Cole. God, was that all they did? Probably not. Knowing Paige. Christon swallowed hard and moved slightly, not wanting to feel her arm around him. He loved her so much, but he had to confront her with this. He had to tell her that he had heard everything, but he didn't want to hurt her. Screw that, she deserves it. He thought to himself and he closed his deep green eyes.

Tomorrow. Tomorrow he'd tell her about it. He'd tell everyone, he'd confront her with it in front of her entire family.

No. Damn it. He couldn't do that either. Phoebe and Cole were married now, he didn't want to be the reason for ruining their marriage.

No, if Paige wanted an open relationship, then she could get one. He'd go out tomorrow, get drunk and end up in bed with a drop dead gorgeous blonde. See how she liked him then. She'd know how he was feeling now. And then he'd tell her why he had cheated. Just to her. And then he'd leave her. Yeah, that was the plan. He sighed again and shifted onto his other side, facing Paige. She moved and parted her rose coloured lips slightly, a slight smile playing on them. Christon looked at her. It was hard to imagine that such a small pale item like Paige would hurt him so much. It was hard to imagine that she wasn't going to be his wife after all. He lifted his hand and stroked her dark brown hair softly. ''You're beautiful.'' He whispered and slowly, a tear began to run down his cheek. It ran down to his chin and fell upon the pillow beneath his head.

Paige let out a small noise and cuddled into Christon's chest, smiling contently.

//I love you,
your love's stronger than I can deny.
I love you,
your faith kept us safe.//

To be Continued...

Notes; And done. I know, it was short, but at least I updated! So don't complain! Next chapter will be up within a few weeks. Love you all and happy Valentine's day! xx Paigey-Waigey