A/N- Hi! Thanks again for all the amazing reviews! I've replied to everyone individually again. Although bare in mind that I can't reply to anonymous reviews and those who had disabled private messaging. This is why I always make sure to say thank you at the beginning of each chapter - so people know that I appreciate every single review.

So, I've been back from Paris for a week now and ready to really work on this story! Unfortunately, when I got home I found out some sad news... a friend of the family has just been diagnosed with terminal cancer. He's 32 years old and has just been told he's got three months to live. I'm not going to go into much detail for obvious reasons but lets just say its shook me up a bit... I've been in tears multiple times thinking about it. He's been completely healthy until now, but got a bad cough and doctors discovered it. Its really sad, and all of my family have been upset by it. But it eventually lead me to think about this story and about how people cope in these types of situations and its made me determined to try even harder. I will make sure I do Bella's POV justice and hope it comes across as moving and emotional, because sadly things like this happen all the time.

Anyway, here's the latest chapter, back to Edward's POV. Hope you all like it!

"Standing, on the edge of forever,
At the start of whatever, shouting love at the world.
Back then, we were like cavemen,
We'd beam at the moon and the stars,
Then we forgave them.

You know no one dies, in these love town lies,
Through our love drowned eyes, we'll watch you sleep tonight.

Although no one understood we were holding back the flood,
Learning how to dance the rain.
We were holding back the flood they said we'd never dance again…"
~ The Flood, Take That.

To Wish Impossible Things.

Chapter Ten.

Edward Cullen. September 2006.

October was nearing… in just a couple of days the month of September would just be a memory, and we would be thrust into another time of year.

The end of Autumn… and the beginning of Winter.

I had always loved the winter… because of the weather it meant that me and my family were able to act more freely and not hide so much. And there was just something I enjoyed about it - maybe it was the cool air that matched the temperature of my skin, or the way everything looked whenever it occasionally snowed.

Or… maybe it was more then that.

All I knew was that it had always been my favourite season… even when I was human all those years ago.

But this year was different in a way… September had been such a special month to me, that the thought of letting it go was difficult. But I knew that it wasn't going to be a bad thing… if anything October may turn out be even better. But still, I knew that I would always look back on September 2006 as the best month of my life.

It was the month where everything changed.

Because I'd found Bella… the love of my life.

This week had been difficult - Monday in particular was a very strange, confusing day. It started off great with both me and Bella on a real high from our date and becoming an actual couple. We were desperate to be close to each other and excited about plans for Bella to come back to my house for time with the family and the opportunity to meet Carlisle. I also planned to play her a song I'd written for her… it was something I'd come up with the night of our date while I just thought of her. I was excited to see her reaction, and to just be with her in the place where I was most comfortable, and eagerly awaited the end of the school day. But then, Bella's vile 'friend' Jessica ruined our plans and nearly ruined something that was so special just by acting jealous and saying horrible things which caused Bella to say some hurtful comments in retaliation.

Originally Bella was determined to not hurt Jessica, and that's why she had held off telling her about us. I understood that. The only thing I didn't understand was why Bella was so loyal to her in the first place… I hadn't been here long but I could already tell that Jessica was not a good person - Monday was perfect proof of that - and that she didn't really care about Bella as a friend.

I tended to not listen to her thoughts too much, because I was afraid of what I would hear. However, when I listened for a moment during their argument all her mind was filled with were thoughts of hatred towards Bella, which proved my fears.

But Bella still believed that Jessica was a friend to her… and ever since their fall out she hadn't said one word against her. I figured there must be some reason why she refused to openly hate Jessica - maybe something had happened before in their past which had led Bella to find it impossible to hate Jessica. Although, for all I knew she could be constantly hating her in her mind… its not like I could hear her thoughts after all.

It was something else that I loved about her. She was a mystery and always surprised me, always doing what I least expected. I knew that hearing her thoughts would take some of that away, so I was grateful for the silence. Although I will admit there have been moments where I had wished to hear what she was thinking… with Monday afternoon being top of the list.

The rest of the week had been a lot better then Monday, with no more major complications making things difficult luckily. We'd spent all of our time together, with me going over to her house the majority of the evenings after school. She'd even began sitting with all of us at lunch permanently - her fall out with Jessica unfortunately also lead to her not talking to Angela, so it left her no option but to sit with us. She seemed a lot happier though, and even said that she preferred it that way, and needless to say I was delighted to have even more time with her. Alice was too, and it even seemed like Rosalie was warming up to her a little bit. Rose and I hadn't spoken since our argument, but that was more then fine with me - when she wanted to apologise I would be waiting.

Everything was going perfectly… I was enjoying the euphoria that being in love bought and the time flew by as it usually did whenever I was in Bella's company.

However… that was all ruined yesterday. It was very rare, but occasionally Fork's would get sunny days, and unfortunately that had to happen yesterday - on a Friday school day. I knew that there was no way I could go to school without exposing myself to the humans so I had no choice but to stay at home leaving Bella on her own.

I'd called her in the morning before school and made up an excuse about Esme needing us around the house all day - it was the best lie I could come up with on short notice. I felt like telling her we'd all gone camping, but that wouldn't have been believable as I was around her house until late the night before. She seemed okay with it, although I couldn't help but notice how quiet she sounded. I assumed it was just because she was upset at being left alone, and told her how sorry I was.

She didn't know just how desperate I was to be there.

The day passed incredibly slowly with me just spending it in my room alone. I did go and visit Alice several times to see if she'd seen anything to do with Bella. However, all she could see was visions that had me in them and the ones she'd seen a while ago that had bought us here in the first place. For some reason she'd never picked up a vision of just Bella, and while that was slightly frightening I tried not to worry about it and convinced myself that she'd see anything worth seeing, like if Bella ever was in danger for example.

Eventually three o'clock arrived and I eagerly called Bella, wanting to see if she was okay. It took me several tries but she finally answered, and the reception I got shocked me.

She was so much more quiet then earlier… almost withdrawn perhaps. I instantly knew that something had happened but she insisted everything was fine, but told me that she wanted to be alone. The original plan was for me to go over in the evening when it was dark, just so I could see her, but suddenly she didn't want me to.

It stung… the feeling of not being wanted I mean. I knew she'd probably had a difficult day and needed some time alone, but it still didn't seem like her to act like this.

I gave her the space she wanted though… although one time I was so very close to going and checking on her to see if she was okay but I held myself back. I did very quickly go and check on her during the night though - it was 2 in the morning and she was fast asleep when I did. She looked calm and peaceful as she lay there, and as tempting as the idea of staying all night was, I just kissed her on the forehead and left, content enough with the knowledge that she was safe.

I believed that she'd soon be back in contact by the next morning… but unfortunately it was now the afternoon and I'd heard nothing from her. I'd tried calling her but she'd never picked up.

The worry was killing me.

Emmett had been out on a run and told me he'd passed Bella's house on the way but neither her truck or Charlie's police cruiser was there, so my idea of going to visit her was out of the equation.

I decided to try calling her again - hopefully with a little luck she'd answer this time. I looked around my room for my phone for a while, before remembering that I'd left it downstairs on top of the piano. I made my way down, decided to ask Alice once again if she'd seen anything.

But when I made it down the sight before me shocked me… Alice was there on the sofa, with her head in her hands. Jasper was next to her with his arm around her shoulder, murmuring comforting words to her.

I quickly made my way over and crouched in front of her, placing my hand on her knee.

"Are you okay?" I asked softly, really worried about her.

She just shook her head though so I looked over to Jasper for help.

He just shrugged, "She was like this when I found her - I don't know what happened," he told me sadly.

I nodded and turned my attention back to her, surprised to find that she'd now lifted her head up and was staring into space.

"What is it Alice, what's wrong?" I asked frantic.

She looked at me sadly, "I just had a vision," she whispered.

"What did you see? Is it Bella, is she okay?" I asked her, grasping onto her shoulders tightly. The panic was surging through me… there was no way Alice would look so horrified if it wasn't something really, really bad.

"I don't know," she shook her head frantically. She was shaking herself, "I saw you and her… and then you I saw you devastated. Something's wrong, Edward. Something's really wrong."

"Show me," I whispered, needing to see this for myself.

She nodded and then began to repeat the vision she'd seen in her mind…

It was us - me and Bella - and we were sitting in some sort of field… only, it looked like more then that. It was a small circle shaped clearing that had long grass and filled with wildflowers of many colours. It was so quiet that you could hear the rustling of the leaves in the trees and the sound of a stream in the background.

It was a meadow.

And normally the beauty would astound me, but in reality it paled in comparison to the girl with me.

Me and Bella were sitting on the grass so we were face-to-face, and even though our hands were intertwined there was no other contact. Her head was bowed, but slowly she lifted it up to show tear filled eyes.

"Edward, like I told you before… I've got something to tell you," she whispered, her voice breaking.

"It's not good is it?" I asked her.

She shook her head, "No, it isn't. It's really, really bad," she whispered, taking a deep unsteady breath, "Edward, I'm so sorry."

The vision suddenly faded then and I frantically asked Alice if she'd seen anything else. She apologised saying that was all that had come to her, but that she'd keep looking for anything else.

I was crouched down but I fell back so I was on the floor, numb as it hit me…

She'd been avoiding me, not wanting to see me, not answering my calls…

And now she has something bad to tell me?

Suddenly, I knew what it was.

"She's going to leave me," I whispered. "Bella doesn't want me anymore."

"Oh, Edward, I'm sorry," Alice gasped.

"How do you know that? What was the vision?" Jasper asked confused.

Alice filled him in quickly, but I was too numb to hear what she was saying. I couldn't hear anything, or see anything… I was too shocked, too hurt to even breathe.

How could she want to end something that was so wonderful? So special? Did she not mean all those things she'd said?

Had she been lying to me the entire time?

I felt arms around me and looked down to see it was Alice who was hugging me. I was too numb to react though but leant into her grasp, grateful for the comfort. I then felt Jasper place his hand on my shoulder.

"Edward, please don't panic. You can't be sure that's what it is," he told me quietly.

"What else could it be?" I asked him sadly.

He was silent for a long time, "I… I don't know," he eventually whispered.

I sighed angrily, my thoughts now taking a bitter turn. "I should have known this would happen… I mean heaven forbid Edward Cullen gets some happiness in his life!" I nearly yelled, "I should have known it wouldn't last."

Alice clutched onto me tighter, "It just doesn't make sense… I saw all those visions of you together… why would she do this?"

"She obviously changed her mind about being with me," I replied quietly, pulling away from her and standing up, "I'm going to go outside… I need some air."

They didn't say anything as I left and didn't try to follow and I was grateful for that - I needed to be alone for a while.

I didn't end up going far though, and just ended up sitting on the front steps watching the forest as I tried to think.

It didn't work though… my mind was completely blank - maybe it was due to shock or disbelief I wasn't sure. I knew I shouldn't get ahead of myself - maybe it was something different she had to tell me. Maybe she had to go away for a while or something like that?

No… there's no way it would be something as simple as that.

I knew that everything added up to her leaving me… why would she be acting so distant after all?

I sat there for a long time, pleased that it was cloudy today - the sun made me paranoid even if there wasn't any humans around. I hated the way I looked when the sun shone, so was grateful for the cloud cover.

The darkness it bought only matched my mood anyway.

I must have been there hours, numb with upset and grief. No one came to disturb me, and I certainly made no effort to go and talk to them. I don't think I could speak right now even if I tried.

The roar of an engine made me jump in surprise, and I looked out towards the forest already knowing who it was. I would recognise the sound of that engine anywhere.

I stood to my feet ready for her to appear with determination in my mind… if she was going to leave me, I was going to have to try and stop her. There was some sort of reason causing this - her rash decision - and I had to try and convince that us breaking up was not the right move.

I couldn't lose her… not yet.

Not ever.

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(Bella)

"You're going to leave me aren't you?" he asked quietly.

What? Where did he come to that conclusion? Didn't he know that he meant everything to me?

If anything it was going to be him that left me, once he found out the truth that is…

I tried to explain that to him, "No, Edward, I…"

But he cut me off by raising his hand, "There's no point in denying it, Bella. I can see it written all over your face, but can I just tell you something first?" he asked me softly.

I knew I had to tell him the truth as soon as I could - before it became too difficult. But his expression was so beautiful and was pleading with me to let him speak.

How could I ever deny him?

"Anything," I whispered.

We're back to Bella next chapter… and the reasons for the way she's been acting will all be explained.

Okay, so I know this was a short chapter… I did consider cutting it out and just going straight onto the next one. But I realised it was important to let Edward speak… because next chapter, its Bella. And trust me, next chapter is going to be big, you won't want to miss it! It should be out very soon.

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