April 28th
Katniss's Point of View
Its been about three months since I broke up with Peeta. It was awkward when we first went back to school. We aren't the type of people to make friends choose. We still eat lunch and hang out with the same people, but I don't talk to him. Sometimes he directs a question or a joke at me, but I don't answer or laugh. There have been so many times when I want to talk to him so badly, I want to jump in his arms and hold him tight, but then I look at him and I remember how he hurt me, and instead of doing those things, I want to cry. I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss him. Honestly I don't know how we will do the duet. Its too late to change it. The song was accommodated for us and Miss Trinket would freak if we told her we wouldn't do it together. So far we've been practicing our parts separately.
June 1st
We sit in music class practicing.
"Okay class, its time to practice the entire performance." Miss Trinket calls. Oh no. Practice the song with Peeta. I look to Johanna
"I don't know if I can do this" I say to her. Johanna looks at me.
"You said you're completely over Peeta. This shouldn't be a problem. Unless, you still feel something for Peeta?" Johanna asks giving me a look. I know what she's doing.
"I am over him. I meant I don't know if I can do this because he might try to get me to feel something for him" I lie.
"Okay then, go up lead singer" Johanna says
"Fine, I will" I say
"Lead singers up here please" Miss Trinket calls
Peeta and I walk up to the front. The rest of the class goes to there places by their instruments.
" 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, go" Miss Trinket says. The songs starts and I take a deep breath.
Picture perfect memories
Scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone 'cause, I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
"Katniss Look at Peeta!" Miss Trinket says. I look everywhere but at Peeta.
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now
I can feel Peeta's eyes on me. Now its Peeta's turn to sing.
Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweepin' in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
"Stop!" Miss Trinket calls. The music stops. "Katniss you have to look at Peeta!"
"Okay" I say.
"1, 2, 1, 2, 3 go" Miss Trinket calls. The music starts again. We got through the song again and this time, Peeta is the only person I'm looking at. I can't take my eyes off of him. When the song ends ny heart is racing. A bunch of feelings come flooding into my chest. I can feel people's eyes on us as Peeta and I stare at each other. I get a warm feeling in my heart.
The bell rings and more feelings come flooding through. I still care about him, but I can't get past the fact that he hurt me. This is too much, he gives me a small smile. I grab my bag and run out of the room.
Peeta's Point of View
The class starts to file out and I see Madge trying to get through to go after Katniss. My heart hurts. I thought I saw something. Nope. She ran. Johanna comes up to me.
"I saw something. Something in her eyes. Then I saw something else and she ran." Johanna says
"I saw it too" I say
"When you two broke up she put all her walls up. It was really hard to get any emotion out of her. She laughs more now but she still has her walls up. But just now, there was something in her eyes, then the bell rang and she snapped out of it and there was something like pain. But that something else, I feel like she still cares about you. I know you definitely still have feelings for her" Johanna says
"Why do you care so much?" I ask her curiously.
"I've grown up with hardly any love or caring. You two care a lot about each other. You shouldn't lose that." Johanna says
"We care about you Jo" I say to her
"I know you do, thats why I want to help you two" Johanna says.
Katniss's Point of View
I'm really glad that was my last class of the day. I see other kids coming out of the class so I run faster. I run a block down then I walk the other block. I walk along the street and about halfway down is the store I'm looking for. Its a record store but they sell guitars and you can record songs in the store too. The store owner and manager is my friend, Cinna. I found this place like two months ago when I was looking for guitar strings. I keep my guitar here now since I'm here a lot. Sometimes I help him out here but not a whole lot of people come here since its easily missed when walking past. It opens at 8am and closes for lunch at 3pm to 4pm then opens again until closing time at 10pm. Right now its 3:17pm.
Cinna gave me a key. I open the door, its empty, he must have gone out. I walk into the back and into the recording studio. I grab my guitar and my music Journal. I started working on this song three months ago, then I got major writors block and stopped working on it. Right now I have lyrics running through my brain. I write until I'm satisfied. I fix ny guitar and start strumming.
I should have known
That you would hurt me
All my life
Has been filled with
I was a fool
To think you were different
Now I'm running away
from you
I was a fool
to let you in
I was a fool
to bring down my walls
I was a fool
to believe you were different
But no more!
You're never getting back in my heart!
You're never getting past my walls!
You're never gonna convince me!
No more!
I'm a fool no more!
I'm done with you
'Cause you hurt me too
I was such a fool
But as of now
I'm a fool no more
I open my eyes once I'm done. I look up and see Cinna standing on the outside of the recording studio. He's smiling at me. I put my guitar down and exit the room.
"I though you had major writers block on that song" Cinna says
"I did. Up until just now, when the lyrics came to me" I say.
"So what brought back the emotions?" Cinna asks me.
"It was during music, we had to sing our peice together and every emotion came flooding back to me." I explain.
"I see, this boy hurt you bad didn't he?" Cinna asks me. I've never really spoken about Peeta to Cinna. I haven't really spoken to him about any of my friends. My friends don't know about this place either.
"Yeah. We were at a party and I saw another girl kissing him" I say
"Oh, I'm sorry Katniss" Cinna says
"Doesn't matter, I should have seen it coming." I say.
"Well then, since you're here, get to work" he says tossing a work apron at me. I smile and nod. Sometimes I help out here. Cinna can always cheer me up, I love being here.
Sorry for the shorter update. I started school again and it's been tough finding a day to write. Does anyone have faith for our lovebirds? Its pretty rough for them right now. That song, fool no more is my song. The underlined lines just signified a new verse. Until next week!