chapter 10
"sam died" those two words were rolling around and around in my head. i mean i know i hated her but i never wish her to die and poor alanna. brett look at me and said" whose going to tell randy?" i replied" me i will but first brett did you and sam ever?" i did not even know how to ask the question which was did him and sam ever sleep together because if they did i think i knew who liam father was. which crash me because i would have to break twice the bad news to randy. but i decide first thing first i have to tell randy about sam and then we can figure the liam thing out later. i walk back to randy's room and see that little alanna was still in the bathroom. randy said" is she gone isn't she?" i look up and i saw alot emitions in his face and walk over and softly nod my head and hug him and replied" i am sorry randy" randy softly sob in my arms which part of me did not really understand why since she had done some horrible things like cheat, lie and try and almost sucussed on end mine and randy friendship. but the other part of me understand why he was upset that was his wife and the mother of his daughter. i just hope to god he was not blame himself he did that to me with my accident and i survive i was not sure if he was blaming himself for sam accident and she died how bad his pain could be or would be. randy look at me and said" can you get alanna out for me? please" i nod my head and walk over and open the bathroom door and see her curl in a ball in the bathroom shower in the corner of it. i closed the door considering i think it could be like a girl talk me and her could talk. alanna said" mommy left me, why did she leave me does she not love me anymore" i felt a huge lump in my throat and kneel down and replied" honey your mom love you very much and she never wanted to leave you, but sometimes when we went something we did always get it and sometimes we have to leave the person and the pepole we care most about, but i know one thing your mommy is in heaven and watching over you and your daddy and liam" alanna said" so people that have angels are special right" i giggle softly and replied " yeah i have several angels watching me my dad mom and my mom mom and my dad dad died so i have three angels watching over me every single day" she look at me with her sad eyes and said" you and daddy won't leave me right" i hug her and gentle rub her back and softly said" sweetie i promise i won't leave you, i will always be here for you and your daddy and miracle and kendall and liam but i think right now your daddy needs you so how about we leave the bathroom it smelly in here" she giggles softly and nod her head and we walk out of the bathroom and she walks over toward her daddy and i gentle take liam and randy hug his daughter. i look down at liam and froze because i think the father of him was standing out side in the hall way. i put the sleep little boy in his car seat as i told randy that i had to go step out for a moment. he just nod his head and i walk out of the room and i head toward the lunch room and just look out the window. i felt bad part of me was jumping up and down that i would not have anymore drama with sam but again i felt so bad for little alanna and randy and little liam. i see brett and then part of me felt bad for him for not knowing that he might have a son and losing sam. so i get up and walk over and i notice he was talking to someone and i froze and smile when i see it was ted. ted see me and said" my priceless angel" i giggle softly and replied" hey teddybear" brett said" when did you get up here?" i replied" a few moments ago" ted hugs me and whisper" what up with my brother". i said" sam died" ted look at brett and said" wait a moment sam randy's wife are you out of your mind" brett replied" ok it was a one time thing a few months ago ok shut it" ted look at me and said" he does not know does he?" i said" randy no he does not know" ted replied" not him brett does not know about liam" i shook my head softly and brett said" liam i do not know a liam" i replied" liam is five days old sam son" ted said " it is not randy through" brett replied" i do not have a son" i did not say much not feel like agruing with anyone.
a few days later ted was helping me get the cribs put together and everything for miracle since she was well and health at the moment that she could come home. kendall on the other hand had to stay for a while on a breathing machine. miracle and alanna were a sleep and then me and ted help randy to my apartment. ted went to go lay on the couch which left me and randy alone in my room with little liam. randy said" thanks for being so supportive lately with alanna and me i mean i know sam was not your favorite person in the world" i look at him and gentle caress his cheek and said" no but i know what it is like to lose someone you love so much she is little she will be ok" randy said" i want to keep liam i know i am not his father but i want to adopt him but i know it is bad idea so i was thinking i could put him up for adoption" i rub his back softly knowing he love that little boy but knowing that he was not sure it was a good idea to keep that little boy. i really did not know what to say to the matter and i felt like my opition should not make it go either way. i said" randy you know i am always here for you,no matter what you decide to do i can't make this decision for you" he nod his head and lays back and i lay back with him and he said" i am glad to be home" i look at him and replied" home this is a small apartment that i have until kendall gets out of the hospital" randy smile and giggles and said" no angel i am glad to be home your arms and being near you feels like home to me. " i blushes and kiss him softly and said" that is the corniest weird cutest thing i think i have ever heard" he laugh and said" i know i am corny but it is cute i heard it in a song and it made me think of you" i smile and just lay there beside him until we both fall a sleep.
a week later
kendall gets to come home from the hospital and me and randy both decide we would move into randy house. john cena, john morrison, evan bourne, alex riley, cody rhodes and ted come to the house and we pack sam stuff and put the stuff in storage. john cena pulls me out side and said" are you sure living in her house with him is going to a good idea?" i look at him and replied" john she is gone i am not going to be mean about it i am just saying it she is gone she is not coming back, we care about each other out of all people you are the last one i thought would have a problem with this" john said " i do not have a problem but honey i know he has hurt you in the past, i think you guys are rushing it, him because sam just died and you because you think if you do not rush it that you will lose randy again to someone else" i look at him and replied" that is the stupidest thing i think i have ever heard john i love him, i love alanna and i love our twins, this is hard on him, sam gone and he put liam up for adoption the day before we came home he needs me and i am not afraid of lose him, i am afraid that we might have lost that feeling and i am going to live here so we can work on us and him getting better" john sigh softly and hug me and said" ok i am sorry i did not mean to make you mad" i nod my head and we go back to the house and i order pizzas and i walk in and smile seeing the twins laying on their belly and the boys were playing videos games. it was the xbox connect thing. randy and john cena one team, ted and cody one team, alex riley and evan bourne on one team and christian and daniel were just watching and eve was braiding alanna hair. alanna said" daddy do i look pretty" randy looks at his daughter and smile and replied" you do honey you are a cutiepie" alanna giggles and look at eve and said" now braid miracle hair" eve laugh and replied" when she is older she is to little right now"
when the pizza came we all ate and randy get tired of playing video games so they decide just to play the wii. i pick up miracle and she smiles and i act like she was a plane and randy kiss her and said" good night baby girl daddy love you" i smile softly and walks toward her room and gentle put her down and gentle put a blanket around her and she falls a sleep. i walk back in and see john hold kendall and the kinect game system was on and i look and they were playing the dance game and i start laughing and i kneel down in front of them and took a picture. i said" john give me my dance little monkey" john smile and hands me kendall and i do the same thing to him like i did miracle and randy smiles and kiss his forehead" good night buddy daddy loves you" i put him in his crib and i walk back to the living room and my phone rings and i was not near it and john picks it up" hello" a voice said" hey it is angelica mother may i talk to her" john replied" sure hold on" i said " who is it" john replied" your mom" i said " i am not here" i walk back out of the room and ted was the only one that knew why i said that and he follow me and said" you have to tell them" i replied" i know i just can't at the moment, i mean we are all already dealing with alot" ted nod his head and hugs me.
the next night on raw alex,john morrison, john cena and sheamus team up against christian, dolph zigger, jack swagger and christian. during the end of the match randy turn it off and look at me and said" when your mom called what happen, why did you tell john to say you are not here" i look at him not really wanting to talk about it since he was knew how bad some of my family members were but he did not really know or seen how bad, he had just heard me tell him things and he would get the viperness look in his eyes. i said"my mom came to see me one day when i was in the apartment i think it was the day before or so you said you were coming anyways ted was over, kendall was sick and codes were going off i was scared that i was going to lose him anyways my dad call telling me he had told my mom about the twins and everything anyways my mom comes we get into a huge fight and she start hitting me over and over, ted came a little while later told her to stop or he was calling security, she look at him and tell him tell security do not forgot to take out the trash and she left, i do not want see her and i want her no way near our kids" randy caress my cheek softly and said " why didn't you tell me sooner" i replied" i was ashamed, randy my mother beat me called me trash, i do not want them to see that and i sure as hell do not want to turn into that" randy hugs me and said" baby you're most unselfish person i have ever meet, you care more about others and put others first" the phone rings and i sigh and grab it and said" hello" the voice said" hello darling finally answer the phone to the women that give you life" i felt my stomach turn and like i was going to puke. she said" i want to see my grandkids" i replied" over my dead body, they are four months old they did not need something to scar them for life i had enough of that and they do not need my hand me down of mis fortune with a mother that did not give a damn when she was pregnant with me taking diet pills, they do not need you, you ruin me you are not ruining them" i hang up the phone and felt like hiding anywhere away so she could not find me or my kids or randy or alanna.
randy kiss the side of my head and said" angel lets go to bed" i replied " yeah ok" we went to bed and randy took a pain killer and went right to sleep but i just look up at the dark ceiling wondering if she was planning something. i knew who i was going to be caling in the morning. i just laid there for a few hours and then just as the sun was coming up i walk downstairs and start making bottles.
a hour later kendall woke up and i smile and thought finally something to get my mind off the evil one that call my mother. i walk in to his room and pick him upare " hey big guy oh you are wet" i change him and took him into the living room where the sun was coming and feed him and he drank all four ounces. i put him down his baby swing and press it on two. a little while later i felt two arms around me and i look down and see tattoos and smile softly. randy said" i woke up and you were gone and i thuoght me and u were just a dream" i sigh softly and replied" um kendall woke up and he was wet so i had to change him and feed him" randy said" oh well i hope to woke up to you again i love seeing the peaceful look written all over your face." i blush softly and lean over and whisper" i am only like that when i am with you"
then me and randy both heard a voice saying " miracle is crying and i am hungry" i giggle softly and replied" you get alanna breakfast and i will get miracle" randy nod his head and kiss my neck softly which sent shivers down my spine. i walk in and see miracle and she was wet and dirty and i change her as well. i carry her downstairs as well and feed her and put her in the other baby swing.
alanna was eating her cereal and said" angelica daddy pour you cereal as well" i smile softly since we decide that we would let alanna call me whatever she was comfortable with and i would be fine with it. i smile and said" ok cutie i will be there in a moment" i press the button and let it be on two as well as it was the same for kendall.
4 months later
the twins were eight months old and crawling everywhere and pulling themsleves up and then well crying because they did not know what to do. randy was going to be going back on the road soon. it is december and a week before my birthday and i had not heard from my mom since the night we talk and part of me was happy and the other part of me was freaking out severly. randy get his parents to watch the kids and he was doing really well and he was champion which i was very proud of and it was a supershow in ohio. randy was fighting health slater which i thought was stupid. i mean come on the man fought christian to go from christian to health slater really. but oh well i was just happy to be back on the road with him and my friends. eve see me and her mouth drop and said" no wheelchair no baby fat oh my god is that a smile, is ted that good?" i giggle softly and said" good to see you to eve, yeah no wheelchair no baby fat and i am not with ted i am with randy". she look at me like i had stupid stamp on my forehead. i said" eve he is the father of my children i love him" eve replied" i know i am sorry it just he hurt you so bad" i nod my head
what is going to happen on my birthday
author note whatever happens on raw and stuff from now on will just happen but later on like the six months or two weeks or whatever