More plot yesssss! XD I think it might end soon and I'm almost to the end of how much is already done. I don't know yet, it depends on the feedback I suppose.

Chapter 10

Lelouch took a deep breath before opening the door to his first class. Slowly, he stepped inside and saw Suzaku at his normal spot. To his surprise, Suzaku looked up at him, but then immediately turned his head to stare at his desk. 'Is he going to ignore me now? Am I really that unimportant now that he doesn't even want to talk to me, not that I really want to discuss things,' he thought to himself as he sat at his desk.

The minutes slowly ticked by with not so much as a glance from Suzaku. Lelouch somehow felt more hurt by this. Once class was over he wanted to run, but he was never one to flee from a battle. How much harder could this be? No, he already felt like a failure for hiding. He slowly walked to the door, waiting for Suzaku to catch up. He felt a hand on his shoulder and shuddered. "I don't want to make a scene, we'll talk after school."

Lelouch's eyes widened and he gulped. So it was much more satisfying than thinking Suzaku was simply ignoring him, but now he had to deal with this weight on his shoulders all day.

He managed to bear through the rest of the day and the student counsel meeting after school. He was sure everyone noticed something was up between him and Suzaku since they didn't say a word to each other. Lelouch shrugged off the questions about where he had been by giving another sick excuse.

After what seemed like forever, everyone began to file out of the room. The two boys knew they would have to speak at this time, so they remained in the room.

"Listen Lelouch…" Suzaku began, but was cut off.

"No Suzaku, I need to get this out first." He took a deep breath to ready himself. "I'm sorry I've become such a burden for you. I never meant to weigh you down with my sins. I realize you've been having a hard time and I've only been forcing you through it all. I promise you I'll leave now and you will never have to see me again." He tried his best to fight back the hot tears threatening to pour out. He didn't know if he should wait for a response from Suzaku or leave now, but he slowly backed toward the door.

A firm hand grabbed his wrist before he could get any further. He looked up at those gleaming eyes and saw a soft smile.

"Lelouch, is that what you thought this was about?" he tried to say in a soothing voice.

"Why are you smiling Suzaku I'm being serious! Don't make a joke out of me!" he yelled.

"No Lelouch, you don't understand! I'm the one at fault here. I keep bringing up the past for no apparent reason. I supposed I still hold a grudge against Zero, although I know I need to let that go. My mouth seems to speak before my mind can resist. No, there's no excuse for why I keep hurting you. Every time I make you cry my heart sinks. I know I can trust you and that you will keep your promise to me. Lelouch, I love you and if there's anyone who needs to leave right now it should be me." He tightened his grip on Lelouch's wrist slightly to make himself clear.

Lelouch couldn't seem to form words at the moment. He just stared wide eyed from what he just heard the boy say. 'He thought this was his fault?' he thought in his racing mind. He thought this entire time that he had ruined their love. Why was Suzaku taking all the blame? He really couldn't blame him for having not completely forgiven him yet.

However, Suzaku interrupted his thoughts. "Maybe…maybe we should take a break until I can get over this." He dropped Lelouch's wrist and his eyes dropped to the floor. "I don't want to lose you and for that I need to stop this. I can stay with the military like I did before. I don't want to cause you any more pain Lelouch."

Lelouch gasped and grabbed Suzaku's shoulders. "No Suzaku that is unnecessary! I want you to be with me, I can't let you go again!"

The brunette gave another small smile. "I told you I don't want to lose you. I need to get over my hatred. If you still love me when I return I'd be ecstatic."

"I could never stop loving you Suzaku how could you even say that! I can get over it I don't blame you for hating Zero! Please Suzaku don't do this!" he said through his waterfall of tears as he fell to his knees.

"This won't be the end Lelouch. And if nothing else we'll still be friends right?" Saying those words felt like he was stabbing his own heart, but he knew this had to happen. It was for the best. He wiped the tears from his eyes and lifted Lelouch's chin to place a tender kiss on his lips. Lelouch knew he wouldn't be able to stop him as he heard his footsteps pass out the door. He was really leaving?

He watched as the brunette walked away and out of his life in what he felt was forever. This couldn't be happening, he had been ready to break up with Suzaku and then gotten his hopes up when the other boy said it wasn't his fault and then they were crushed again when the brunette said he was leaving. Lelouch let out a broken sob and curled up on the floor, he didn't care who walked in on him at the time. For the rest of the night the dark haired boy stayed there on the floor crying until he finally fell into a fitful and nightmarish sleep.

Lelouch was becoming severely depressed. He didn't know how to deal with this pain any longer. He had been dying inside ever since Suzaku had left him broken and alone on the floor of the student council room, and the others were concerned about Lelouch. He was quieter than usual and he seemed withdrawn. The dark haired boy had been skipping school more than ever before and when he did show up he either slept or stared blankly out the window.

Milly wasn't stupid, she had figured out that Suzaku and Lelouch had been together. It wasn't like she disapproved of them, but she could guess that whatever happened the day when Rivalz told them there was mice in the student council room was the start of what was causing Lelouch to be so distant. Also Suzaku's disappearance back to the military was suspicious and Milly was afraid that he was the reason that Lelouch wouldn't talk to any of them.

"I'm worried about him madam president he's not acting normal at all," Shirley was saying as the two walked down the hall.

"I know so am I he seems to be heart broken or something similar. I'm just not sure how we can help him," Milly replied sighing and looking down, "Let's just keep a closer eye on him and hope that whatever it is that's bothering him he can snap out of."

Lelouch had given up hope. Suzaku had been gone for two months and three days. He only knew because he was keeping track. He knew when the boy had left that it was just his way of leaving him without actually having to break up with him. What Suzaku had done hurt more, though it would have been so much easier to deal with the loss if he had just told him that he really didn't want to see him anymore.

"How could you mess with my feelings like that Suzaku?" Lelouch whispered to himself, "I thought you were better than that and I…I loved y-you!"

Sitting in his room the dark haired boy couldn't help but think about everything Suzaku had said to him and all the promises the boy had broken. He told him he would come back but did it really take two months to get over this hatred?

"I love you too Lelouch."

Cliffhanger muahahaha X) I'm sorry I get so much enjoyment out of teasing hehehe...anyway I hope it's not going to fast or anything and people still like it! So keep reviewing please I love pretty much anyone who reads this anyway!