chapter ten

Have you ever felt like you are flying, that you are so high above the sky that nothing bad can happen to you, your safe, protected, free.

kissing Jace right now in my room, in the dark, makes me feel like that, like I am flying, and I never want it to end, but of course it does

he was the first to pull back, but I still kept my eyes closed. I felt the bed move a little, then arms were wrapping them self around me in a hug, I still haven't opened my eyes but I didn't need to, I didn't want to.

he pulled me closer to him and I was melting into him, just like I knew I would. " I want you to go" I whispered to him

"no you don't" he was right I didn't want him to, but I needed him to so I wouldn't fall completely

" please just go." I said, he pulled back a little and looked at me, I was a little afraid of what he might do, what if he gets mad like Sebastian did. I shuddered at the thought, I trust Jace though, I know I do. he nodded and was about to stand up, but I grabbed his arm "wait... i couldn't sleep can you stay, but promise me you won't kiss me, again" I asked a little embarrassed and hesitant.

he smiled at me and nodded again. we climbed up in bed and layed down on our sides facing each other, not touching. I had some confidence in me from earlier, so I scooted closer to him and he froze for a minute before pulling me into him completely, putting his chin on my head so I was tucked under his head.

I fell asleep on his arms, feeling safer then I have in a long time

THE NEXT MORNING

when I woke up, I knew before I even opened my eyes that I was alone, there was no more heat that always seemed to role off of Jace like he was a heater.

I got up and went down stairs not even caring to change sence my PJs weren't inappropriate. I went down stairs and into the kitchen where only Maria was.

" good morning" I told her smiling, she turned around and smiled back

" good morning hunny, everyone else is in the dining room eating breakfast your plate is already out there" after thinking her, I went into the dining room where they were, even Jordan and Maia was here

I smiled at everyone as they all said good morning to me. I sat down with Aline to my right and Jon to my left

" so what are we doing today"asked Magnus "we are all of of work and the college students is on a break we should do something... we should have a party"

" but we already are next month, remember the 4 to of July party that Clary wanted" reminded Jon

" yes but come on let's have a party before hand like a... before party" argued Magnus

"... fine but what about Brittany and Tyler"asked Jon

"we could-"started Magnus but he got could off by Maria

" my mom can take them for the night sence it is Wednesday she doesn't have to work" she said sitting down next to Jon

" so it's settled we are having a party. YAY" An excited Magnus cheered.

PARTY

After a lot of arguing and Izzy running around like a mad women the party turned out great. good music. good food. a disco ball. and of course a lot of alcohol. a lot.

the house was packed and it was loud but it was fun, I was dancing with Izzy and Maia, in my tight green dress that reached my mid thigh, we were having a lot of fun when I felt hands on my waist from behind me

I turned my head and seen Jace

I smiled and turned my whole body in his arms and put my arms around his neck " hey" I wished in his ear, and mentally part my self on the back when I felt him shudder

"hey beautiful, do you-"he got cut off by a voice I never wanted to here again

"CLARY" said a booming voice, I didn't want it to be true but even as I was turning I knew it was, and who it was

"Sebastian"