Chapter 10

"Just look at this," Rebekah sighed. "Have you ever seen anything so beautiful?"

"It's lovely," Mag replied absentmindedly. Rebekah seemed genuinely happy as she tried on one of the gowns they had found from the carriage and the last thing Mag wanted was to ruin her happiness. Perhaps Mag couldn't even remember anymore what happiness felt like, but there was no reason why everyone else around her should be miserable.

She wasn't the only one who had lost someone. Yet she didn't know how she was supposed to go on. For a brief moment she had held her beautiful newborn son in her arms. He had opened his eyes and looked at her. It had been the happiest moment of her life. Then he had been gone. He had stopped breathing. After that there was nothing but darkness.

Finn had been there, he had done everything he could to help her. Finally Niklaus had returned, but by then everything had been over. Mag had been rocking the lifeless body of their son in her arms, she had refused to let go. A part of her had died that day and she didn't think that she could ever be happy again.

Everything that had happened after that hadn't really meant anything to her. They had sailed across the sea, running from Mikael. How had everything turned out so wrong? Everything had been well after Niklaus had said that he only wanted to be with her and their child. Yet Mag had noticed the change in him. He had seemed restless and he had wanted to be close to her all the time. Touch her, kiss her, bed her…

She couldn't deny that it had been incredible, wild and passionate. For the first time she had really enjoyed it. He had wanted to kiss and lick every part of her, even her most private part. One time he had given her so much pleasure that she had passed out. Then everything had gone wrong. The full moon had drawn him to the woods. He had gone to search for the wolfmen. Unfortunately poor Henrik had followed him.

Esther and Mikael had been devastated. Mag could certainly understand their grief, but she couldn't understand how they had chosen to deal with it. By turning the rest of their children into monsters. Fortunately she had been pregnant; they hadn't wanted to risk killing the child. Her beautiful little boy. She had named him Soren. If the child would have been a girl, her name would have been Saga.

After Esther's spell, things had turned out very ugly when Mikael had found that that Niklaus wasn't his son. His real father was a wolfman. Mag had tried to be there for Niklaus, although she couldn't deny that the change in him had scared her. Not to mention his anger after Esther had used a spell to capture his wolf side. He had felt completely betrayed and she certainly couldn't blame him.

Yet she had hoped that they could still have some kind of life together after their child would be born. They have had to run before that had happened. She had given birth in an abandoned shack while her husband had been looking for someone to drain. She didn't know what she would have done if Finn wouldn't have been there. He had been an amazing friend and he could certainly understand her loss.

"Here, try this on," Rebekah said, handing her a dark green gown.

Mag didn't really care what she would wear, but she knew that she needed to focus if she didn't want to ruin the whole thing.

"Perfect," Rebekah said smiling and wrapped her arm around Mag's shoulders. "You just wait when Nik sees you."

They returned to the carriage where Lucien was teaching Elijah, Kol, Finn and Niklaus. They were all dressed like noblemen already.

"Well, well," Kol hummed smirking when he noticed them. "Someone looks gorgeous. And you look tolerable too, Bekah."

"Very funny," Rebekah snorted.

"You both look lovely," Finn stated and smiled at Mag.

Niklaus didn't say anything, he simply looked at Mag. He was probably tired of being rejected. Mag really couldn't blame him for that. She had tried, but just the thought of being touched made her sick. Not to mention some part of her blamed him for not being there. Not that he could have really done anything, but he should have been there when she had needed him the most. Instead he had been taking someone's life.

"Ladies," Lucien said. "We were just practicing a proper way to greet other nobles…"

"I can demonstrate," Kol said and walked over to Mag.

"My lady," he said and bowed before taking her hand and touching it with his lips.

"What do I do?" Mag asked, looking at Lucien.

He showed her how to curtsy. Rebekah was able to immediately mimic him, but Mag felt clumsy and she probably looked clumsy. This wasn't like anything she had ever done before. Yet she tried her best as they practiced different things. Lucien was a good teacher and he seemed like a nice man. Finally it was time to get into the carriage and head towards the castle.

"Can you believe this?" Rebekah cheered and took Mag's hand. "We are traveling in a carriage."

"Yes," Mag muttered. "Who would have ever thought?"

She couldn't deny that she envied Rebekah for her joyful spirit. After everything that had happened, Rebekah still had hopes and dreams. Mag wasn't sure if she has ever had those. All she had hoped had been a husband who wouldn't be cruel to her, a little home and… She couldn't finish that thought, it was too painful. She felt lost and she didn't know what to do.

She glanced at Niklaus who was talking to Elijah. It was only a matter of time before he would get tired of waiting. Waiting for her to get over the darkness that had swallowed her. She knew that she should try harder, but the truth was that she didn't have much strength left. She felt empty. Hollow. Hopeless. She had no idea how she was supposed to get over that.