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So I know this is a short chapter, but I believe it is a rather poignant one. The next will be a lot longer, I hope you like it.
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3 minutes exactly until the time came to take his last breath. And Dean knew, that now was the right time to make the call he had to make. Because even if his brother did pick up and they spoke to each other it was too late for anyone to reach him where he was. Even Gabriel who he knew was in town, wouldn't get here in time to stop him pulling that trigger. He just wanted to explain to his brother, try to make Sam understand why he was doing this and that it was for the best. With the he picked up his phone, placing the photo gently down beside him and gun, and dialled his brother. It rang five times before he let out the breath he was holding as it went to voice mail. That was good. It would be better to do this in one go. It would be like his own little suicide note. Once he heard the beep he took one more breath and started to talk.
"Hey Sammy. You're probably wondering why I'm calling this late, but I want you to know, to understand, why I did it. I love you Sammy and nothing could ever change that. You're my world little brother, protecting you has been my mission in life since the day I was four years old and dad placed a tiny buddle of blankets in my arms and told me to never let anything happen to you. But you don't need me now, no don't try to say you do, we both know it would be a lie. You have Jess now, and she's good for you Sammy. She is all I ever wanted for you, you are good and happy and that is because of her. When you look at her I see it in your eyes. She is your world. She means more to you than anyone else ever could, and that's okay Sam. it's now it should be. She is your one, your perfect fit and I'm happy for you Sammy, so very happy.
I had that you know, I had my one, my perfect fit. I had a person who was my whole world, but I was too stupid to notice it until it was too late. I love him Sammy. I love him with everything I am, and I… I can't go on without him. Not anymore, I've done a year and I've seen you find happiness. There is nothing more for me in this world so it's my time to go. Go see if his insistence in heaven was true, and maybe, you never know, but maybe the gods will be kind and I will be with him again. Maybe I will be able to tell him how I feel. Tell him that I have always loved him, that it took losing him for me to open my eyes and see the truth. I hope I do the chance to say that. And that hope is more than I have living on this empty earth.
The only sorrow I feel about going is leaving you Sammy. I don't want you to be too upset, and I don't want you to think that this is your fault, because it not, not in anyway. You haven't missed anything you could have done to help me, or neglected me when you found Jess. You have been the perfect little brother and have done everything you possibly could. There is nothing you could have done Sam, even you don't have the power to bring him back to life. And that's the only thing that could save me now Sammy. But then he was always the only one who had the power to save me from myself wasn't he?
I love you Sam and I'm so proud of you, but I can't do this alone anymore. So goodbye Sammy, I'm going to join my love now. Time to go say hi to Cas." And with that Dean hung up his phone and took a drink of his beer oblivious of the tears running down his cheeks. He hoped that that didn't upset his brother too much, though he knew that what he was going to do would hurt Sam more than anything. But he would have Jess at his side. Yes, think about her rather than what he would be doing to Sam. think about the first time his brother and Jess had laid eyes on each other and Dean had known, without a shadow of a doubt that she was meant for his Sam.