I sat on the library's floor in shock. I could feel anger burrowing deep inside me. How could my own mother lie to me? How could she watch me suffer and not say a word to me? How could she let me live my life thinking i was nuts. When here all along she had been raised and born in Bayhallow! The place were the Fae existed!
I was angry but i was also in shock. What was i to do now? I obviously couldnt trust a word she said. She'd probably just lie to me again. I had to speak to Jace. Maybe he would know something about it all.
I put the newspapers back in their correct cabinet. I said a hurried good bye to the librarian and left the library. I walked out into the sun. But for some reason i didnt feel warm. I felt cold. My whole life had been a lie. I hadnt been born in New York like my mom always said. So then who was my father?
Jocelyn always said she met my father at a conference she had been to for work. But if i was born in Bayhallow than that too was a lie. Was there anything she ever said that was the truth? Why would she keep this from me? Doesnt she understand the danger im in? Or maybe she knew and didnt care.
I walked to the meeting place with a heavy heart. I didnt know what i was going to do. Everything had led me back to the place of my birth. Whatever was happening, it was happening here. Why would she bring me back here?
When i made it to the bottem of the hill, i could see Jace standing there. His solitary figure cut a slice of the horizon. If i was in a better mood, i would have looked at that beautiful scene more. Instead i trudged up the hill.
When i came panting to the top, he was there to hug me. He had a smile on his face when he seen me coming up the hill. But it was gone now.
"Clary are you okay? You look a little worried?" he asked, looking at me in worry.
"I was born here Jace."
He looked taken back, "What are you talking about?"
"I went to the library to look at old newspapers and i found out that my mother lied. She was raised here in Bayhallow, and i was born here."
He looked puzzled by this. "But how is that possible? I have never heard my parents or anyone mention you."
"The librarian had asked me who i was, and when i told her she said welcome back. The adults know Jace. Whatever that happened, they know." i said weakly.
"Why would your mother lie to you? Why did she pick up and leave. You dont have any siblings do you?"
"No, its just me."
"Because maybe you did have a brother or sister that got taken by the Unseen, maybe thats why your mother left." he said, while watching my reaction.
A brother or sister? Could that be true? It didnt make any sense though.
"Why wouldnt she tell me? She has went through my entire life making me feel like i was a freak. When this whole time she knew everything! Or at least enough that i wouldnt feel so alone. And she kept it from me." I cried. Tears were streaming down my face.
Jace clutched me closer, "Dont worry, we will figure things out. At least the Unseen havent been causing any trouble lately."
I completely forgot! I hadnt told Jace about the token! Should i? I didnt want him to worry about me. I had buried it and it was long gone. I decided not to mention it. I would tell him some other time. Things were just too tense right now.
I hugged him hard. We stayed together like that for what seemed like forever. He then broke apart and kissed my lips gently. I could tell he wanted to kiss like we had done before, but he was holding back.
My emotions were haywire. I didnt know what i wanted, or what to do. I felt right in Jace's arms so i just busied myself with that. Things couldnt possibly get much worse, could they?
We sat on the grass for a little bit watching the sunset. I clasped his hand tight in mine. I didnt want to be alone. I didnt want to have to go home and face my mother. What would i even say to her? What would she even say to me? No apology could ever replace the amount of hurt i have lived with all these years.
I snuggled deeper into Jace's arms. I wanted to be with him with all of my being. He made me feel like there wasnt anything to worry about. I didnt want to go to my room and pretend everything was fine. I sighed before i started to get up. My mom would worry and i didnt want her calling the police.
"I have to get home Jace."
"What are you going to do about your mom?" he asked.
"I dont know. I will have to figure it out. I will see you Monday okay?"
He nodded and we started to make our way closer to the house. When we reached the driveway, we did our usual routine. He hugged me fiercely. When i pulled back, he kissed me. I loved the kisses but i was still upset about today. So i was less eager. He noticed and broke the kiss.
"We will figure things out, okay. Maybe theres things we just dont know yet. Dont beat yourself up over this. Maybe she had a good reason for what she did."
I didnt answer him. I couldnt think of any possible reason that meant lying to your daughter. She should have told me the truth. I said good bye and went to the front door. The lights were on in the kitchen. I grasped the door handle lightly and stepped into the house.
I could hear my mother talking. But who was she talking too? I edged closer to the kitchen trying to hear what she was saying. I made sure i didnt make any noise.
"You cant be doing this. You need to stop." I heard my mother say.
I was in the living room, i was almost to the kitchen.
"Shes just a girl, why must you torment her like this?"
I was almost there!
"I dont care what excuses you give. Iv stopped believing in your lies a long time ago."
I was pressed back to back to the living room wall. I took a careful peek and was not expecting what i saw.
There was no one there!
My mother was standing with her back to me, her hands on her hips. I was confused. I had heard her talking, but to who? I tried looking to see if she was on the phone, but she wasnt. She was completely alone.
"Mom?" I asked stepping into the kitchen.
She whirled around so fast to look at me. Her eyes displayed that she hadnt expected me to be there. She was flustered. Her eyes darted around the kitchen before she finally seemed to calm down.
"Clary, you home late."
"Who were you talking to?" i asked.
"Myself, i was just talking to myself was all. Something over work had me a little upset." she stammered. I could tell this was a lie. She was lying to me again!
I nodded and went to my room. What else was i supposed to do. I could confront her but then she would just lie some more.
This was starting to get weirder and weirder. My mother was talking to someone, i knew it! I had heard her speak, i had heard her voice, she was talking to someone. But there was no one there. Was she talking to one of the Fae? But how? They never spoke to me no matter how hard i tried.
But if it wasnt the Fae then who was it? I was sure that no one had jumped out the window. And i was sure invisibility cloaks were not invented, so how had there been no one there?
My mom was keeping things from me. For whatever reason, she had always kept things from me. Even tonight she chose to lie instead of telling me what was going on. I was angry with her. This was my life! I had a right to know why i was seeing these things. I had a right to know why we had moved from Bayhallow in the first place. I had the right!
I laid back on my bed and put my arm over my eyes. Things just were getting better and better. First i see people that aren't there, then my life goes bad, and than i move and it follows me still. And to top it all off, my mother was a liar. The only good thing i had was Jace. Even the thought of him calmed me down. He was the only one that had believed me and had tried to help me. My own mother wouldnt even help me.
I didnt know how i was going to be able to sleep. My thoughts rushed inside my head with such energy that sleep was almost impossible. I had so much to learn and who knew how much time i had. The Fae contacted me for some reason. They must want something from me, but what? I hadnt even heard of the Fae until i moved here. I was not a part of this town when i had started noticing them. I was in New York. They had to have followed me there, but why? I thought that i would never go to sleep. But for some reason i was nodding off anyway. The walk around town must have done it. Because before i knew it, i was asleep.