Story Title: He, She? Whatever, I'm Me

Chapter 10 Title: Clear Walls

Series: Beyblade

Rating: M

Warnings: Kai is a girl (that was obvious) future pregnancy, and as said in the rating, will be changed to M.

There is no longer just the possibility of shonen ai being in here because it is in here. Right now, the yaoi pairing is Bryan/Rei and a future Kevin/Ian- NOT Kenny/Ian.

Summary and Ages: See first chapter

Disclaimer: I no own

Thanks to everyone who reviewed and all that jazz! You guys make me really happy with your reviews! I really appreciate it! Please R&R again!

Me: Thanks for reviewing anyone! Sorry that this chapter is shorter then the other ones...

Carlos: So how did I wind up in here?

Me: That reason will be given in due time!

"Kai?" Rei asked. "You're not leaving now, are you?"

"Yeah, I have a headache from all the music. Nothing major- I'll just drink some tea when I get back to the dojo," she said, trying to smile. She felt her cheeks heat up under Bryan's surveying. Back in the abbey, they didn't have comforts like tea. He wouldn't know if Kai took things like aspirin because he never saw her take anything medicine related. Rei, however, knew from experience that Kai didn't take pills. She felt that enough had been done to her body with all the experiments done in the abbey.

"Alright, I'll walk you home," Rei said.

"Er, no that's alright. I couldn't steal you away from Bryan here," Kai said, pulling on Bryan's arm and pulling him next to Rei. Bryan looked at Kai's nervous form, his eyes narrowing slightly.

"Kai-"

"I'm fine, Bryan. Really," she said. "Just a headache…"

"You know where the tea leaves are, right?" Rei asked. She nodded and then walked out and Bryan and Rei shared concerned glances after her.

"She'll be fine," Bryan said, not taking his eyes off the door.

"Maybe something happened?" Rei asked.

"Maybe," Bryan said, his lips drawn into a thin line.

"Come on, Bryan. You know whatever it is, Kai will figure out herself," Rei said, trying to help. Bryan looked at Rei and nodded.

"You're right…come on, let's dance," Bryan said. Rei rose an eyebrow. Rei already suspected that something was wrong with his captain. He could now confirm that thought when Bryan asked him to dance… or tell him to.

"Yeah, let's," Rei said, allowing Bryan to take his hand and lead him to the dance floor. He could suspect. He could get his questions confirmed secretly.

But he would not pry…yet.

Kai walked quickly so that she could get to the dojo faster. She was almost there- she could see the dojo but she hardly noticed several figures following her.

"Hey beautiful, where are you going in such a hurry?" She mentally groaned. She so did not have time for this… She turned around and stared at the boys in surprise.

"Carlos?"

Tala's eyes opened slowly. He turned onto his side, expecting to find Kai but he didn't. He sat up immediately. Sighing, he put a hand to his forehead, rubbing his temples. 'Did…did she use me?' he thought and then shaking his head, he put the thought aside, getting up to put his clothes back on. When he had his clothes on, he walked towards the door, intent on just getting the hell out of there but something made him survey the room again.

His eyes fell on the dresser and the note.

Dear Tala,

I didn't mean to leave you to wake up by yourself. I don't want you to think that I want this to be a one night stand because I don't. I'm not for one night stands. They get numerous girls pregnant and… well, enough rambling about that. I'm sorry I couldn't be here when you woke up. I hope that it was you who found this note and not someone else. I'll try and get in touch with you first- if you still want to see me but if not I'll most likely be over worked at the Phoenix Flame. Feel free to come if you feel that I don't get in touch with you soon enough.

Kai

Tala creased the note neatly as he folded and slipped it in his pocket. He unlocked the door and was about to open it but his eyes turned to the window.

"What the hell?" Tala grumbled as he made his way over to the window. The teenagers were probably to drunk to notice him scaling the roof to get down. There was nothing wrong with scaling a roof and jumping down… nothing at all…

"Carlos?" Kai said in surprise. The teenager in the back of the three looked up from the ground and his eyes trained on her.

"How do you know my name?" he asked. Kai stared at him longer then she should have- she didn't mean to but…

"No…" Carlos whispered, pushing the two other teenagers out of the way to get to her. "Kai?" he whispered so only she could hear. Kai instinctively took a step back when he invaded her personal space. He used one hand to hold her steady, not very tightly because if this really was Kai Hiwatari then he didn't want his ass kicked, and the other to brush her hair away from her eyes.

"It can't be…" Carlos whispered. "Those eyes…"

"It's me," she said. He wanted to reject- she knew. He wanted to shout obscenities and tell her that she was lying but… the eyes, the hair, the voice she was using right now… She knew what he would do next as he nodded slowly and dropped his hand from around her waist. He reached for her back, watching for the similar reaction when he brushed against the scar. She shuddered under his touch and he had all the proof that he needed. He himself couldn't suppress a shiver. There was always apart of him that had been scared of Kai.

"I'm not sorry, Kai…" Carlos whispered but to Kai it was like he said it at a normal volume.

"I know," she said. He cupped her cheek, looking like he wanted to say something more but he brought his hand back and grabbed the other two ex-Blade Sharks' arms, despite their protests.

"Carlos,"

"Yeah?" he paused.

"You never were weak," she said.

"What?" he started.

"You just needed the something to work for so that you wouldn't kill yourself," Kai said calmly.

"Do you still agree with what you preached back as a Blade Shark?" Carlos asked. "A weak blade is nothing but trash?" Kai was quiet before answering.

"If a beyblade is weak…" she spoke. "Then it will be destroyed to get stronger." Carlos stared at her as she walked into the dojo. The fear he felt began to disappear and in its place, remained awe.

Kai remembered everything about taking care of the Blade Sharks.

She was rough and cruel with them so they wouldn't be cruel with themselves. She called them weak because to her, they were. She knew that if she didn't give them something to work for, most wouldn't be here right now. Most of the Blade Sharks were mistreated in some way. Some just wanted to train under her. Others were rebellious orphans and children who needed a way to take out their frustration. They needed to know that there was someone willing to protect them but also willing to hurt them in the same second. She would not- could not- have them become completely dependent on her. They were like baby birds; they would leave the nest some day. They all had to and they all did.

Taking her time, she turned on the shower and then went to get a pair of pajamas. After closing and locking the door, she took off her clothes and stepped into the hot spray. She stared at herself in the mirror across from the clear door of the shower. She turned around and lifted her hair up, staring at the scar that didn't used to be that big or jagged.

"Kai,"

"What is it Carlos?" she snapped, throwing her scarf over her shoulder after the wind blew it in front of her.

"Some of the younger kids were wondering why you wear that scarf," Carlos grumbled. She looked at the younger members of the Blade Sharks who were looking at her in fear and curiosity. She sighed.

"Because I like it?" she said sarcastically. Carlos frowned and the older kids snickered. She rolled her eyes and untied the scarf, revealing the small scars that decorated her neck. They were nothing compared to other scars she had but they didn't need to know that. She heard Carlos suck in a breath as well as the rest of them. She retied the scarf.

"Everyone done wondering?" she questioned. "No? Too bad." She got up, jumping to the other side of the large cargo box. She heard Carlos scrambling after her.

"Where did you get those?" he demanded. "Kai!" He grabbed her shoulder, and she grabbed his hand, twisting it painfully.

"What do you think you're doing?" she hissed. She felt Carlos beginning to shake and let go of his arm.

"I- I challenge you!" Carlos said.

"You want your blade destroyed that bad?" Kai sneered.

"If I win, you tell me where you got those scars," Carlos said. "I lose… you crush my blade…"

"Hardly a fair deal, Carlos," Kai smirked.

"I'm ready," Carlos said. Kai surveyed him. He was shaking slightly- it was obvious that he didn't want to do this and he was scared.

"Don't let yourself be goaded by the other, Carlos," Kai said, walking away. "It makes you weak." Carlos bristled.

"Kai!" he shouted. Kai turned just in time to see a beyblade shooting at her. She moved in time to keep the blade to stop from hitting any vital organs (Carlos was shaking so much he could barely control the blade) but it cut across an older one. She grunted in pain, trying not to scream as she hit the ground.

"Kai!" She felt someone grabbing her and lifting up the back of her shirt. (Her womanly features had not yet started to develop.)

"He's bleeding! What'd you do, Carlos?!"

"I… I didn't mean…"She felt her shirt being lifted off of her and she let whoever was doing it do it. She was wearing an undershirt anyways.

"What's with those scars?"

"It looks like there's another scar under that wound…"

"Hang on, Kai,"

"K-Kai, I'm-"

"I know," she grunted.

"But-"

"I know," she snapped. "You're not sorry, right?" She looked at him and he shook his head.

"Good," she managed to say before falling unconscious because of the blood loss.

Of course, now she knew how she had gotten that scar. She had gotten it in the abbey. Stepping out of the shower and wrapping a towel around herself, she slid to the floor.

"Good…" she whispered wrapping her hands around her knees. "Good."

Me: I'll try and make the next chapter longer! And don't worry, Tala finds out soon that Kai is a girl...give or take a few more chapters!

Ian: So that's why you put Carlos in here?

Me: Well that and I hardly ever see the Blade Sharks in/mentioned in a story. Hey, where'd you get my notes?! Ian!

Ian: Please read and review!