Chapter 10: Confrontations & Confessions Part2
A/n: Sorry for the wait. I honestly have been trying to update but summer's been busy.
Disclaimer: I haven't used enough of these o.O
…I don't own Austin&Ally and any songs used in this event.
So..here we go;)
Austin stared at the small brunette girl in front of him. His head twisting and turning with the information he was just given.
Innocent, adorable, quirky Ally. The same Ally who refused to kill flies, no matter how annoying, because "They have feelings just as much as we do." The same Ally who refused to hurt anyone in general(well, maybe if they touch her songbook, but that's understandable, and the damage never lasts.).
Everything this Ally told him, made his blood boil and raise his temperature. How can someone do all that stuff to Ally?
To think the reason why she was lying to them and him self, was to protect everyone she loved. He still couldn't grasp the concept though, and he was afraid of what might happen when he did. The only intelligible thought he had was, "Why Ally?"
Turning to look at the fore-mentioned girl, he studied her. How her small from had only grown smaller, making her trembles more noticeable. How her eyes had shadows under them from stress and lack of sleep.
"Ally,", he started out, it was the first word he uttered sense she finished speaking, "I never, want you to put yourself through something like that. I don't care who you're trying to protect. Yes, it's probably the most noblest I've ever heard…"His sentence trailed off for a moment, as he looked into her eyes. Austin couldn't explain what happened in that moment, really, all he could really say, was he discovered a revelation.
This girl, his best friend, was the one who plagued his every thought sense meeting her three and a half months ago. He'd always managed to bring her into a conversation, even if she wasn't there. Whether it be pointing out dresses she'd wear, or something that just reminded him of her, he always voiced his thoughts.
He remembered one time he was looking in build-a-bear workshop(obviously because his brother made him, of course), and he noticed a cute, big doe-eyed Alligator. It made him think of Ally, because of that one time at Suzy's Soup when her old teacher called her that. He teased her constantly about it, but never in a hurtful way. But besides the name reference, it also had these big brown eyes, so he bought it for her. Naming it Ally the Alligator, who went on a lot of play-dates with Dougie the Dolphin. He smiled at the memory, the way Ally's eyes lit up and how she giggled happily. Looking at the brunette now, he realized the said stuffed animal(Alligator, not Dougie), was wrapped in his friends arms as she rested her chin on it's soft, plushy head. And after all this memory surfing event, he realized Ally was the more important to him than anything. He'd do anything to make her happy again, and smile, just like she was when he gave her the cuddly plushy.
He loved her, more than he ever thought possible. But after finally being able to admit that to himself, he realized he couldn't tell Ally any of it. How selfish and insensitive would he be, after all she's been through, to add a confession of love on top of everything? She'd probably be confused what with all the drama in her life. Especially now that Austin was pretty sure Alex wanted to kill him. She would be worried enough about him, why let love complicate her life further? No, right now, she needed someone to be there to support her, not more stress. But it was building inside him, and Austin promised that as soon as he could, he'd tell her everything.
So with that, he smiled softly and continued his sentence, "You're worth to much to lose. Worth more than any of us. And I promise Ally, we'll do whatever it takes to protect you."
Ally smiled, and reached out gently to hug him. Austin pulled her into him, brushing his fingers through her hair, absent-mindedly rubbing small circles on her sides.
Too soon, Ally pulled away, but as she did, her shirt sleeve rose up a bit. The skin exposed there was pink and raw, and caught Austin's eye quickly. Catching her wrist gently, he watched her slightly wince. Pulling her sleeve up to her elbow he felt his breath stuck in his throat. He could only stare at the gruesome engraved letters that took up half her forearm. Looking up he saw Ally had turned her head the other way, tears trailing down her flushed cheeks.
"You weren't supposed to see that." She chokes, closing her eyes, "No one was."
"Ally, when did he do this?" he doesn't have to ask who, it's a pretty obvious tell from here. She swallowed, trying to fight the hysteria bubbling up inside her.
"I don't want to talk about it." Austin looks into her eyes and he swears they're the saddest he's ever seen them.
"Please Ally. You've already told me most of it. Why leave this part out?" His voice is barely a whisper, as he pleads with her. There's a nagging feeling tugs at his stomach though, telling him whatever Alex did to her now, is much worse than he's done before.
"Because, when you find out, you won't want anything to do with me."
Pulling her hand back, she grabs one of the big pillows on her bed, hugging it to herself. She looks him shamefully in the eye, "Please Austin. I can't lose you."
Shocked is all that can be seen on his face. He wouldn't, and couldn't leave her. After everything they had been through, and all that he discovered tonight? No, he couldn't leave her, no matter how bad whatever it was she was hiding. Determination crawls up his spine as he cups her face. When she brings her face to his, she's so close that he thinks he might kiss her, but now isn't the time for that. "Ally, there isn't a thing, on this earth that could make me leave you." His voice is stern, and he's still left with the wanting to add more, but he can't stand to be the extra baggage in her life. When he tells her, he wants it to be the happiest thing in her life. Not the most stressful.
She searches his face, for any kind of faltering and if he's honestly able to handle it. She knows he can't, but he's so set and determined in this; he deserves to know. She shuts her eyes closed, not being able to see the look on his face when she tells him. The memory still burns and lingers in her head, never fading and invading her dreams. But the intensity is excessively less when Austin is around, or her other friends. Just the feeling of not being alone makes it a bit easier.
"He did it the night he…raped me." She's surprised in herself, how the words just came out like that. But then again; there's not many ways you can put it differently.
He's frozen in time. The whole world is tuned out. Except for the chilling words of
Ally's numbing sentence, echoing off the walls of his head.
"What?" He roars, and he absentmindedly reminds himself of the Beast in Beauty and the Beast. He definitely feels like him right now. Rage boils up in the pit of his stomach, slithering outward, making his skin a shade of red.
Ally flinches. She has never ever heard Austin mad. He's always been calm, even in the most frustrating situations.
To be honest, Austin's surprised too, because he has never lost his cool before. But he can't, and won't get rid of the anger. Because seriously, this is Ally. His Ally.
Images are mercilessly feeling his head of Alex touching his Ally, and he growls murderously. Before he knows what he's doing, Austin is off the bed, and punching the wall repeatedly. He's growling and yelling, cursing the Bastard who thinks he can touch Ally. And he is making such a ruckus that he's surprised Lester has not come in yet. Then again, he never was one to give a shit. After all, when he was worried about his daughter, all he did was call her friends to watch over her, instead of staying home for once. Maybe if he was around and cared more often, Ally wouldn't be going through this. Another growl escapes his throat as his fists connects with the wall again.
Austin's poundings just keep getting more and more aggressive, until two small hands place themselves on his shoulders.
"Austin, stop. Please." The trembling voice belongs to Ally, who, Austin realizes, he's probably scared- he's scared too, really-to death. She's never seen him in such a rage, and really, he's never been in one. Perhaps, that's just what love does to oneself.
Groaning, Austin steps away from the wall, running his hands through his hair.
"I'm, I'm so sorry Als…you didn't need to see that. I just...wish that wall was Alex."
He looks down at her trembling form. Ally hugs herself-as if she has no one in the world, and that saddens him-while her eyes are downcast-like she's some sort of disgrace.
"So, you're not…repulsed?" she's biting her lip now, which is never good, but so adorable on her.
Austin can only blink, and blink, and blink some more. Till finally, he begins to laugh, the sound scaring Ally as her brows raise high on her head. He wants to tell her he's sorry for scaring her, but the laughter stops him.
It isn't because Austin finds the question funny,-no, not at all-he is just so shocked she would ask, or even think that. When he is able to calm down, he takes them to her bed to sit down, before lightly placing his hands on her upper arms. He looks into her eyes, and she's a little more than overwhelmed by the fierce look in them. But she isn't scared, because it's not a look of hatred or anything like Alex. It's of passion, concern, and absolute Austin. Just looking at them envelops her in smoldering warmth, and her lips tilt slightly up, while tears prick her eyes with the words he says next. There weren't many words, because Austin was never good with them, but he said them so meaningfully, her breath was taken away.
"Who could ever, be repulsed by you, Ally?"
Something in his eyes changes a little then, and Ally can't find the correct words to describe it, she just knows that it feels her with such a weird adrenaline. She barely notices the tears slipping down her cheeks as she practically flings herself in his arms.
Austin's arms are already looped around her waist before hers intertwine around his neck. She's surrounded by his brown-sugary scent and feels every worry and stress wash away. Ally's at home in Austin's embrace, and as she plays with the little hairs at the nape of his neck, she isn't sure she'll be able to leave it.
"I've never felt so safe, with anyone like this in My Life before." Is what she murmurs into his shirt, and feels his grip tighten. The feeling of a smirk on his lips is evident as he presses them to her hairline. "Good." He mumbles, "Because I won't let anything happen to you. Ever again."
Her smile is soft as she looks up into his dark iris's, and he's a little more than blown away, "Good, because I don't think there's anyone I would trust My Life more with."
And for the first time in months, Austin watches her eyes light up again.
Sparkling in that natural way, that is absolute Ally.
A/N: Sorry it took so long, Love's!:/