Personaly, I would like to thank everyone who sent words of support and kindness due to the unfortunate event that happened last week at my school. So, this chapter is dedicated in loving memory of BB.

- Blake Michael Bennington -

June 6, 1991 - April 16, 2008

We don't know why you did it, but we still love you!

HALEY'S POINT OF VIEW

"Driver..." I call out still holding the picture in my hands.

"Yes Ma'am?" asks the middle aged man, while looking at me in the mirror.

I look out the window and then down at the picture again. I close my eyes to try and hide the tears. I hesitate before answering and look down at my hands.

"Cou...could you...could you turn the radio on please? I finally say.

"No problem, Ma'am." he states while switching on the radio.

I close my eyes and lean back in my seat.

I originally wasn't going to ask him to turn the radio on and I suppose you all know that. I was going toask him to turn around and take me to Nathan. That is where I belong. Or at least that is where I used to belong. I was going to ask him to turn around, but something stopped me.

That thing...is called fear.

I listen as the music fills the silent car and I try to concentrate on the lyrics.

(I'll Be Missing You by Puff Daddy and Faith Evans)

It's kind of hard with you not around
I know your in heaven smiling down
Watching us while we pray for you
Every day we pray for you
Til the day we meet again
In my heart is where I'll keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts I just can't define
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us in the 6, shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me taking flicks
Makin hits, stages they receive you on
I still can't believe you're gone
I'd give anything to hear half your breath

Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you

(Song is in honor of Blake. Please look this song up on YouTube. I also want you to look up "Blake Bennington" on YouTube. He was an amazing person and I want everyone to know that. The video that was played at his funeral is there and I would appreciate it if you watched. We want people to remember him and pray for him. We love and miss you Blake. I love and miss you. )

I breate out and let the tears fall. I can't even start to explain the eternal pain I feel. I want to leave Felix SO BAD! But I can't. I am a coward. A chicken. Whatever you want to call me, I am it. It's not just leaving Nathan that hurts. It's mostly the fact the I am hurting HIM by walking away. I don't want to. I really don't. I would say I have to walk away, but that is a lie. I could stay with Nathan for my own selfish reasons and watch while my family is killed away one by one. I won't let that happen. Even if I die in the process. I love Nathan, but I love my family too. And I can't let them down. I won't let them down.

As the song ends and my tears stop falling, I see I have a new text message. I figure it is from Brooke telling me how much she misses me, even though I have only been gone like ten minutes. That's just Brooke I guess.

I flip open my cell phone and go to my inbox. I click on the message to read it.

I drop my phone and my mouth hangs wide open. (The cab driver is looking at me like I am crazy.)

I pick up my phone from where it landed when I had dropped it and stare at the message NATHAN sent me:

Ms. James

It's something unpredictable, but in the end its right. I hope you have the time of your life.

Mr. Scott

P.S. Don't call or try to reach me. I hate you.

I gasp when I read the last part and the tears start falling. Again.

I know what I am doing to Nathan is harsh and totally bitchy, but I didn't expect that last line in his "lovely" message. I really shouldn't be mad though, I mean it is my fault. So...

"Message deleted." sings my phone from inside my hand.

"Nathan deleted." I say to myself.

I lean my throbbing head up against the glass of the window and let the cool temperature calm me down.

He hates me. Nathan hates me. Is all I could think about for the rest of the journey to the airport.

NATHAN'S POINT OF VIEW

"I hate her, I hate her!" I scream while throwing yet another beer bottle at the wall of the beach house.

Right now, I am "grilling" every picture I have of Haley and I. Some might call it harsh, but I call it life. And you know what? Life sucks.

"Nate, calm down and come home. I'm worried about you." says a concerned Lucas from the front door.

"I told you not to follow me Luke!" I yell at my half brother furiously.

"Since when have I ever listened to you." he states "trying" to be funny.

"Get out!" I bellow at him.

Lucas gives me a questioning look and when I don't do anything he angrily marches up to me.

"You know what? Drink yourself to death. She is a girl Nathan! Get over her. Accept the fact that she left you and get on with your life! Stop drinking and abusing the people that actually love you over someone who doesn't! What happend to Nathan the player or Nathan the pain in the ass? Huh? What happened to him? We miss you Nate. Come back to us, because it's clear she isn't coming back to you." Lucas yelled before grabbing the case of beer and slamming the front door on the way to his car.

I just stood there for a long while until I realized something, Lucas was right for once. Haley is just some girl who I was attracted to. She is gone now and I need to get the old Nathan back. But first, I need to think...

and throw up.

HALEY'S POINT OF VIEW

"Attention. Last minute boarders for flight 323 please board now."

I look down at the ticket in my hand.

Flight 323.

I look back up and take the picture of Nathan and I out of my pocket. I look at it for the millionth time and after just starring at it for a good 30 seconds, I make up my mind. I pick up my suitcase and start walking...

To a cab.

NATHAN'S POINT OF VIEW

I put my face in my hands as I listen and watch the waves crash upon the sandy shore. A single tear strangles down my face and I quickly brush it away. I look at the picture of Haley and I again and I make up my mind, I still do love her. I place it carefully in my pocket and look out at the setting sun. I hear footsteps coming up behind me and I moan because I am sure it is Lucas even though I told him I wanted to be alone. Great.

"Felix never had a chance."

I whip my head around because I know that is definitly not Lucas's voice.

There stands the one and the only...

Haley Elise James.

Yeah! Ok so I know I haven't updated in a LONG TIME, but Blake's death had affected me more than I thought possible. Thank you guys for still staying loyal to this story. Remember to vote for the poll!

POLL

What should the name of this chapter be?

A. Change of Heart

B. Mind Made Up

C. Love/Hate Relationship

D. Surprises

How does Nathan react to Haley returning?

A. He is still hurt by what she did.

B. He wants nothing to do with her and tells her he hates her.

C. He thanks her for coming back to him and he accepts her apology.