~A/N~ characters might be a little OC because I'm trying to get back in the swing of things and not totally destroy this story. And if they sound a bit whiny its most likely because I feel like crap.

Sakura's P.O.V

I sighed looking at the small crater I had created that would soon become suna's new pool. The only problem is with all my plans for revenge on little mister Gaara I forgot something important for my pool. I needed to line it with something so the water didn't either A get absorbed into the ground or B become some sandy, muddy mess. What good is a plan if it falls apart before it even gets off the ground.

I hummed to myself sitting beside the beginnings of my pool. Now all I needed was the help Gaara was sending and my own back up coming from the hidden leaf village in the form of my girls. I needed them for more than just my plans, I needed the comfort and support of my friends. What happened on the battlefield nearly destroyed me. My job was to save lives not destroy them and I had destroyed an innocent life. She should never have been on the battlefield and he never should have let her. Even knowing that I was heading down a destructive mental path and everyone knew it even me. Even though Gaara was trying to help me taking me away from work was the worst thing he could have done. It was the only distraction I had.

I shook my head standing up I didn't need to go there it would only hurt me more. I turned towards the approaching footsteps and smiled as I saw Ino, Hinata, and Tenten coming towards me.

"Well that was amazingly fast even for you pig."

"Shut it forehead!"

We all just laughed as I ran them through some of my plans for revenge with me leaving out quite a few details that led up this revenge plan. I wasn't quite ready to tell them what happened only a short time ago.

"So forehead plans to seduce the Kazekage. Not bad forehead after all he is hot!" she said grinning widely.

"For once I have to agree with Ino even though Neji is definitely more my type, "Tenten said smiling and patting me on the back.

"I think you'll be good for each other," was Hinata's response.

"Wait wait wait! You're totally missing the point here!" I said frantically waving my hands back and forth.

"Which is what exactly?" Tenten asked cocking her head to the side.

"That I'm not seducing him! I just want to get back at him! I want to feel his head with thoughts he wouldn't normally have about me until I completely disrupt his work since he made me take a break from mine since I was working too hard. He messes with my work and I'll mess with his." I took a deep breath after my explanation.

"Sakura I would understand this if there was a more emotional reason behind it like you had feelings for him, but this is going too far and one or both of you could end up hurt if one of you develops feelings for the other. This is not like you at all you're caring not spiteful." Hinata said quietly.

"Hinata's right. What gives Sakura and why did Tsunade say that her and Kakashi would see us soon when we left? We're supposed to be here for a couple weeks."

"Sasuke tried to kidnap shortly after I got here to carry on his clan." I raised my hand to cut them off when they opened their mouths to speak. "I found out shortly after that I'm related to the leader of the Akasuki he's my brother that has long since been believed dead. Not too long after that Sasuke came here and tried to start a battle, the akatsuke helped ward him off I attacked one of his team members not knowing she was pregnant with his child and I killed the baby. I had no way of knowing til there was so much blood and tried to save the baby but it was too late at that moment I wanted to die. I feel like such a monster and all I do is work and drink and sometimes I even drink at work. Gaara found out about the drinking and told me to stop when I refused he told me I wasn't allowed to work until I pulled myself together. So now I decided to wage mental war against someone who was only trying to look out for me and take care of his people at the same time! what's wrong with me?" I fell to my knees crying.

"Nothing is wrong with you that's just a lot to handle in the little time you've been away from home. Plus it sounds like you're bottling it up and handling it all the wrong ways. You are not a monster you couldn't have known. What I think is that you need to calm down and we need to find a way to de-stress you with no alcohol." Tenten said patting my back.

"She's right forehead! So lets dry those eyes, get you dolled up, show this place what we're made of, and maybe find you a guy." Ino said jutting out her hip and fist pumping the air.

"That sounds nice but my hearts not in it. Maybe a night of chick flicks instead?" I suggested rubbing my eyes.

"well fine then party pooper movie night it is."

I nodded dusting myself off I handed Tenten a piece of paper with instructions of what needed to be done with the pool, "Can you girls handle this when help shows up I think I need a walk to clear my head and sort out my priorities."

They all nodded. I smiled and headed back into the village to just wander around and think. Maybe I wasn't a monster but I was broken and needed fixing. That would take lots of time and maybe a certain Kazekage to help fix me. I shook my head smiling to myself wishful thinking. Maybe just maybe I should call my plan off and instead try to make friends with him. After all who couldn't always use a new friend?

Gaara's P.O.V

I glared at the mountain of paperwork on my desk. Didn't those men have anything better to do then find bogus things they thought I should fund? A strip club, and a whore house? They may think the degradation of women is ok but it was not something I would ever approve of. Plus I just couldn't focus between the damn rat in my head throwing innuendos and sexual images out left in right and feeling Sakura's distress.

I sighed putting my head in my hands feeling drained. Sometimes this job was too much work and expectations. I enjoy it though it's just sometimes I need a break but in times like this there is so no such thing as a break.

~A/N~ OMG I AM SO SORRY! I didn't realize it had been so long since I updated! And I promise I will try to update more! Lost my desire to write and then had a baby boy! So now that things are easing into a routine I should update more! Thanks to all my readers that have stuck with me even though I haven't been updating. YOU GUYS ROCK!