Ahsoka couldn't shake the fear of facing her old master. She had spent years trying to believe that, like Padme had said, there was still good in him. She had watched Padme die. It had been painful to watch, not just because it was her friend and her confidant, but because the person who had caused her death had been someone she trusted, admired and even loved like a big brother.
Facing him would mean a fight to the death. She didn't know if she was capable or ready to face him. He had always been an amazing fighter, which would mean she had little chance of winning the fight. Worse still, her vision showed her during this confrontation, Aleah and Lux, two people she loved dearly, would be with her when she fought. Once Vader had killed her, there was nothing to stop him from killing the others.
Ahsoka was realistic. This was a fight she couldn't win. Once he came, she would fight and die, but she still thought she would be the lucky one. She wouldn't be all that aware of the death of her loved ones. This was all she thought about as they made their way to the safe house.
Ahsoka had requested she walk for some of the trip. It hurt and she got dizzy but she could manage. She leant on Rex for support as she walked. Lux was leading the way. Rex had been quiet since she had told him her vision. Ahsoka looked at him for a few moments, trying to figure out what he was thinking. His expression was guarded, clearly hiding his fear, like a good soldier was supposed to. Ahsoka looked down thinking how bad she wanted to talk in private.
"Please, tell me what you're thinking," Ahsoka said quietly. She looked up into his deep brown eyes.
"I was thinking of what training we need to teach the Rebels," Rex murmured. Ahsoka knew he was lying but didn't want to press it. If he didn't want to talk, there was no point forcing it out of him. Maybe he too was accepting her imminent death.
She had never been one to go down without a fight. This was different. She would fight someone she loved, who was a superior fighter and who had no mercy. Ahsoka was realistic; the odds were not in her favour.
"We're almost there," Lux called back to them.
The walk took so long, but eventually they were heading toward a tall cliff. Ahsoka would remember it from anywhere. It's where Steela died. Ahsoka had carried Steela's death on her shoulders from years. But after a while, she accepted it as part of who she was. Nothing would ever change that.
Lux had slowed and fell in step with Rex and Ahsoka. "This is an important place for the people of Onderon. Steela's memory still lives on."
"She was an amazing person," Ahsoka said in a subdued voice. She didn't really want to talk about this with Lux.
Aleah, Zeb and Archer came sprinting forward to see their parents. They ran straight into Ahsoka's arms. Rex wrapped his arms around them all. It made her shoulder sting but it was worth it to feel them safe and alive. With what she was facing very soon in her future she wanted all the time she could with her children and husband. It was a nice moment.
After all the greetings had passed, Ahsoka was taken to have her shoulder treated, and after that, she and Rex started organising a plan for training the Rebels. They decided to split the training in half between them. Rex would deal with weaponry use and maintenance and Ahsoka would do all hand to hand combat. They also decided to do strategies together so they could use their different styles to influence the Rebels.
Ahsoka was taking half the Rebels for the first lesson. "Alright, let's get started. So we need to be able to defend ourselves if we find ourselves fighting without weapons. What I'm going to teach you is basically hand to hand combat. I will teach you defensive techniques first. What many people assume is that you learn a few moves and you can fight anyone. You will never really learn how to defend yourself until you fighting for your life. This is all safe, controlled situations.
As well as this, you need to be very fit to be able to fight. Mobility is essential. Stamina in a fight is lifesaving. When you get tired during a fight, you let your guard down and find yourself vulnerable. So to start, let's do some fitness training."
Ahsoka basically made them run to a rock very far away and back and forth continuously. After they had done that, she made them do push ups and sit ups until many were on the verge of tears. To show solidarity and to get back her fitness, she joined them in doing all these exercises. Ahsoka found she had lost much of her stamina, but her muscle memory helped her as she did sit ups and push ups. They did these activities for half the day until she told them they could have lunch and a break.
Ahsoka made her way to the common eating area, which was a large cave within the cave itself and sat down next to Rex, Lux and her kids. Rex looked calm as always, but the others had a frustrated look on their face. Ahsoka wondered if they were struggling at weapons training. Zeb and Archer answered that for her.
"Why is it so hard to clean a gun and put it back together? I mean we were only dealing with simple blasters and I got it right the first time!" Zeb exclaimed.
"Yeah, why were you so picky with the structure? I was one piece out!" Archer joined in eyeing his Dad with irritation.
"Tough first lesson?" Ahsoka smiled. Rex gave her an exasperated expression and turned to the boys.
"One wrong piece may mean the difference between the weapon shooting to maximum precision or it blowing up in your face making you look stupid, not to mention injuring yourself and anyone near you," Rex tried to reason with the twins.
Ahsoka enjoyed the bickering all through lunch until she went back to teaching her class. She decided she would let them start learning how to block attacks. She stood at the front of the class and demonstrated to them how move their bodies in order to stop a punch or slap and gain the upper hand on the opponent. It was a long afternoon.
As she lay curled up in Rex's arms that night, she started remembering the fear of her master coming to find her. There was tightness in her chest as it sunk in yet again. She buried her face into Rex's chest and searched for sleep, but her muscles were too rigid with overuse and fear.
Rex knew her well enough to know what she was thinking "I will fight for you," Rex whispered to her. "I will protect you if it's the last thing I do, even if I have to die for you"
. "I know, but that's what I'm afraid of" She closed her eyes tight and clung to Rex.
