Its like your a leech,

Sucking the life from me,

Its like I cant breath, without you inside me

And I know I let you have all the power

...

I cant take it,

Just one more hit,

I promise I can deal with it

Ill handle it

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I walked slowly over to the group of guys stood around the bonfire; they were laughing and hitting each other's arms playfully.

"Matt, can we talk now?" My little voice was barely audible over the loud gruff laughs of Paul and Jared, but Matt turned around and smiled at me. Embry was watching me carefully from next to him.

They had all been "bonding" while the girls took care of the kids.

"Sure babe" He nodded and followed me as I walked away from the guys. I could feel Embry's eyes on me still; a shiver ran through me at the thought of him watching me, a good shiver.

I walked down the beach to a little rock pool and sat on the biggest rock, dipping my bare feet in the chilly pool below me. Matt sat next to me and sighed.

"Jesus I thought you were taking me to a whole new beach, far away enough?" He laughed, I just smiled at him.

He took in my appearance for a minute, squinting his eyes and pouting his lips a little.

"These guys are great Jod, I can see why you're looking so much better, Gracie too" He smiled and looked back at the group of people huddled around watching Jamie open a few more presents. It was late now though, we had been here all day it was around 7.30pm.

"Thanks for coming Matt, means a lot to me and Gracie was so excited"

"No problem shrimpy, now what's up?" I smiled at his nickname, he had always called me shrimp because I was so much smaller than him.

"You said you got in a fight with Mark, what happened?" I felt uneasy, what if something bad had happened and Mark knew I was here. Matt rubbed his forehead and creased his brows for a minute before sighing and looking at me.

"He's a psycho, been stalking my house constantly, I reckon they tapped my phone too. I was locking up the other night at the bar, he was stood out there watching me. He had a gun, I said a few things I probably shouldn't have, and I just riled him up more. Then he noticed I didn't have my Merc and asked where it was, I got sarcy and asked him where his gun was. His face dropped like a mother, I think I made him realise I knew where you were, I mean no one would have known it wasn't his normal gun unless they knew you had taken his one. I'm so sorry, I know it was stupid. But he makes me so crazy and angry, his smug little face. Arrogant ass, I just want to rip him up and feed him to a pack of hungry wolves."

My heart pumped loudly. Why could Matt never keep his mouth shut, he always made comments and made stuff worse.

"He rang me" My voice was small and weak again.

"What? When?" Matt looked at me sharply

"Thursday, he didn't say anything, just chuckled. It was him though, I know it"

I felt sick again, this was all so real now. For a while I had managed to push it away, but now Matt was here it was hitting me hard.

"So he did tap my phone, asshole. I am guessing those guys don't know anything" He nodded back at the group. I shook my head.

"Jodie, when I said keep quiet, I mean to strangers, not your family. You should tell them, they could help. I mean look at the size of them, he comes near here they would rip him to shreds. At least tell your brother?" He turned my face toward him, he was frowning slightly.

"I can't, I can't say it out loud. It hurts, like when I say it it becomes real. If I don't say it, it will go away. They will look at me different, like I'm weak or something. Its all my fault, I should never have been so addicted to him, I let him do it to me, I thought I could handle it but I cant. I can feel myself breaking down Matt, I cant tell them, not yet" Tears were forming now, Matt always made me cry.

I leant into him and sniffled into his dark blue checked shirt.

"Come on Jo, I won't make you tell them. But promise me that if things get bad you will. There is only so much I can do to protect you, at some point you have to tell someone else. And don't be so stupid, there is nothing you could have done to stop him being such a twit, seriously, just stop before I lose it with you and your stupid "Its all my fault" attitude"

I nodded and sniffled into his shirt again, he stroked my hair away from my face and stood up, pulling me with him.

"Come on I'll give you a piggy back?" He smirked at me; I smiled back wiping my tears away. He was the only person who could ever cheer me up or calm me down.

He was there for everything, part me of always wished I had just gotten with him when he tried all those years ago, things would be so much different. But he was my bestest friend, we did everything together, clothes shopping, he would often take Gracie out and pretend he was a single dad who's wife had ran off with a Spanish man, in order to pull girls. It didn't work much but he still tried.

My first time I was arrested it was with him, nothing big, just indecent exposure in public. My first year of College, he got me wasted and convinced me to go skinny dipping in the campus water fountain; we filled it up with bubble bath and everything, it was hilarious until the police turned up.

He was at Gracie's birth, not Mark, he had held my hand and when I had said I couldn't do it he gave me an almighty smack around the head and told me to stop being such a whiner. When I was sad or depressed about stuff and I was able to leave the house I would go to his, he would be waiting with ice cream and a romantic film, he wouldn't watch it, just make snarky comments but it cheered me up. I often called him my gay best friend, he wasn't gay but we were so close and did all this stuff together that people often thought he was. Which I found hilarious, he did not, especially when he was trying to pull a girl.

"Come on short stuff" He was stood in front of me waiting for me to hop on, so I did. He ran back up the beach spinning in circles as he went.

Embry's pov

I watched as she flew down the beach, Matt chasing after her. They sat down on a little rock pool, it was too far away for us to hear the conversation.

They started talking and Matt reached up and cupped her face in his hands, turning her toward him. Jealousy sprang within me again; it looked like he was going to kiss her. She looked down, and he pulled her into him, clutching her tightly.

I started shaking a little. An ache ran through me, painful but it was more fearful than anything. I felt fine, it must be her. I vibrated more now.

"Calm down Em, he is just her friend" Jared patted my shoulder, the shakes still rolled out of me though.

"Is she crying?" Jacob was squinting trying to see them clearer. I followed his gaze, she was wiping her eyes and cheeks. She was.

I stood up and began to make my way over but Sam gripped my shoulder.

"Leave it Embry, I mean it" His alpha command rung high and I stopped in my tracks. Frozen. The ache died down and I looked back to see Matt running up the beach with Jodie on his back, she was giggling and he spun around in circles.

She hopped off him as they got nearer and Gracie went running to them both, giggling loudly. Matt grabbed for Gracie and spun her around and she squealed for Brady to save her.

I focused in on Jodie; she was watching them, smiling slightly. But she looked flushed, her eyes were bloodshot. She had been crying. She saw me looking; I held her gaze for a minute, her eyes, they were so conflicted. She looked away and walked to the girls.

I stayed stood there, watching her, I must look like a stalker. I know I did, but I couldn't stop myself. The pull to her was so intense. She was so beautiful, she was everything to me and she didn't even realise.

A hand came barrelling down on my shoulder and another one waved in my face. Matt.

"Just wondering if you wanted another beer bud, but your too busy eyeing up Jodie" He smirked as he said it and shook his head slightly.

"Uhh I wasn't eyeing her up, I was just um" I couldn't think of an answer, I knew I was red now. He laughed again.

"It's ok, just be careful with her. She's a delicate little thing and she doesn't need some guy trying to force himself on her" He looked at me seriously now, I couldn't decide whether he liked her or not. Is he warning me off her or giving me advice?

"You like her?" It popped out before I could stop myself. He coughed a little and looked around.

"Hell no, that would be near enough incest, at first yeah I did but now she's my girl, just friends buddy, so feel free to ogle her as much as you like. I'm just saying, don't mess with her, I don't take lightly to that, she deserves more than that." He patted my shoulder and went to walk off.

Why was he telling me that? I couldn't do anything anyway, she is engaged.

"I can't, she is getting married in 2 months" He frowned a little, confused maybe then looked at me.

"Yeah sure she is" He sounded a little off; he snorted a little before walking over to the beer cooler. I don't even know why we drink beer, can't get drunk. But I shrugged and followed him.

Marks pov

"Put out a missing person on Matthew Louson too, not a warrant just a missing person." I slammed a picture of him on the desk in front of Browns. He looked up at me and nodded reluctantly. I knew he was doing this because he was my partner and one of my oldest friends, but that didn't mean he wanted to. He had liked Jodie, and loved the little shit of a child.

"How do you know he's missing?"

"I just do, he hasn't turned up at work for two days now, his house is empty and his rental truck was abandoned at his dad's car dealer. I just know ok" I sipped down my "coffee" and sighed as the sweet taste of whisky hit me.

"You think they're together, maybe they ran off together? Affair?" Browns were the only person in the office who would say that. The only one who wasn't intimidated by me.

"Who knows, but I want my daughter back" A lie, I couldn't care what happened to it. I just want Jodie. To teach her a lesson.

"Ok, sent out a missing person report nationwide and requested cctv assistance on finding the Mercedes you said about" He pressed some more keys and ran his hands through his grey hair.

"Cheers" I nodded at him and stood up.

"I'll ring you if I hear anything, now go home, if Jason finds you here he will flip"

Without another word I downed my drink and left, ignored the stares of the other officers as I went.

...

Cold, stale air hit me as I opened the front door to my big empty house. The smell of beer reached me and I walked to the kitchen to grab one.

I hadn't cleaned it. That was her job, to clean her mess up when I bought her home. She would clean it, and then I would teach her one last time.

Blood smeared the white stone floor's, her bloodied hand prints led up the stair's on the railings and the wall. The broken bottle lay shattered on the floor, the dinner she had made strewn across the cooker. The blood drenched knife was still stabbed into the chopping board, where I had slammed it down to scare her.

I grabbed a can and walked to the living room, turning on the TV her face filled it. Her laughing face, she hadn't laughed in years. Pressing play her laughter filled the room.

"Jodie look look a monkey!"

"It looks just like you baby" She giggled at me, we were at the zoo, just after we first met.

I leant into the shot and kissed her deeply; she blushed and turned away, still smiling widely. We hadn't been like that for years now. She never even looked at me now.

I skipped it on; we were at the house, this house, covered in paint. We had just moved in and were decorating. I had the camera placed on the table showing us dancing with each other to our song; I always sang it to her.

I was spinning her around and around, she was giggling wildly.

"Is it the look in your eyes, or is it this dancing juice, who cares baby, I think I wanna marry you"

I spun her out again and she ran back to me, kissing me softly. I tickled her stomach and she fell to the ground laughing. I had already asked her to marry me by this point but I hadn't got a ring for her. She was still laughing and dancing to the song.

I dropped to my knee's holding out a ring.

"Marry me Tigger?" I always called her Tigger because she was such a bouncy person. Always happy and energetic.

She nodded wildly and pounced on me kissing me.

She was mine, I would show her. Remind her of that, she had said yes. She chose me, this life.

I stayed sat like this for hours, watching old videos. Each one she was a different person to what she is now, she was confident and sexy back then. Now she was weak, pathetic. I smiled, I had done that to her.

The shrill sound of the phone ringing brought me from my thoughts. I stumbled over to it.

"Yeah?"

"Mark, its Browns, I got something you might want to look at over here. I think I got her"

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