It's after midnight here and this chapter is over 6,000 words, that's a record. I spent all day writing this and I just posted yesterday. I think I've gone crazy. O.O
Disclaimer: I don't own anything digimon related. I own only the OC's I've mentioned before and the song lyrics (so no stealy the lyrics, 'kay -.^ )
Here's the last chapter. I'll probably take a day off before starting the extra/epilogue/smut chapter. Have fun. ^^
Chapter 10 – Don't Stop Believing
There was a strange energy in the air – excitement mixed with fear and anticipation. Everyone was on edge and jittery fearing for the worst but ready for the best. Yet, there was one person in the room whose own cloudy depressed aura repelled this uplifting energy. Yamato could neither feel excited or scared, all he felt was depressed. He had come into the changing room in a zombie like state earlier than the others and flopped into his chair. And he'd stayed right there until the others had arrived.
They had tried to approach him, but Sephyr had held the other girls back knowing exactly why the blondeboy looked so depressed. She gave him a sympathetic look before settling the other girls on the opposite side of the dressing room.
Yamato didn't notice them, he didn't notice anyone or anything. Not when the designers came in with their clothes, or the makeup artists, or the hair dresser. He wouldn't allow himself to think about anything until he had to. Until he was up on that stage ready to sing, he wasn't going to think, because, if he did, his thoughts would ultimately lead to him. He really didn't want to think about him right now.
It was right as the hair dresser was working spikes into his hair only half way done that he heard the arguing outside the dressing room door. He let himself come to for the moment so that he could hear what was going on outside.
"What are you doing hear?" said what sounded like an angry Sephyr.
"Just let me by, Sephyr."
"Haven't you done enough harm, Logan?"
"Please, Sephyr, I just want to talk to him," begged Logan.
"I'm not so sure he wants to talk to you," hissed Sephyr.
Yamato stood up, to the annoyance of the hair dresser, and walked out. Both Sephyr and Logan turned to look at him. He nodded toward Sephyr and said, "Go back in, I'll talk to him."
Sephyr nodded and left the two blondes. Once she was back inside, Yamato took a few steps away from the door and turned his icy blue eyes on the American boy in front of him. "What is it you have to tell me?"
What once was a fierce looking Logan became a shy guilty blonde who looked like he had just got caught with his hand in the cookie jar. "I like you."
"I thought you liked Tai with how you were all over him yesterday," said Yamato bitterly.
Logan ran a hand through his blonde hair nervously. "I'm sorry, Matt. It's just from what all I could see, I thought I could do a better job with you. You're beautiful, and I got jealous of your guys' relationship. It just seems everyone I've ever wanted was already taken. You are a really great friend, and I regret that I couldn't see you that way until you ran away yesterday. You really do love him?"
Yamatorefused to look at Logan. This guy had caused so many problems just because he was jealous! He didn't feel totally betrayed by him because he hardly knew Logan, but he knew if would be a while before he forgave him especially if he and Tai ended. His heart pricked with pain at the thought of the fluffy haired brunette. "Yes, I do love him, I always have."
The other blonde sighed. "I should have known. Crap, I'm sorry Matt, I really screwed you guys over. I'll leave now."
Yamato suddenly grabbed Logan's arm. "Hey, Logan, you're a pretty cool guy. I'm sure you'll fine someone you'll love you. So don't give up."
Logan smiled slightly down at Yamato. "Thanks, and if it's any consolation, I hope Tai does come. If he doesn't, he'll be missing out on the greatest thing that could ever happen to him."
Yamato smiled as well. "Thanks."
Logan started walking, but stopped as soon as he reached the end of the hall and turned around. "Hey, Matt, sing your heart out."
The blonde singer nodded then headed back in. His hairdresser was probably pissed at him for leaving before he was done.
"Okay guys," the manager said to the band as they were getting ready to head out on stage. "This is a band I've never seen the likes of before. The stands are almost filled. I want you guys to knock them off their feet. I want you to be the highlight of the night. I want you to out do the real band they came here to see. Be the band they came to see. Be…"
The producer interrupted their manager. "Just do a good job. We'll be doing a recording from here. Matt, you seemed a little down, you doing okay now?"
Yamato gulped and put up a thumbs up. "Yeah, just a little nervous, I'll be okay though."
"You guys ready?" the producer asked.
Everyone nodded and began to file into their positions on stage. Yamato was the last to go. He tapped his mic a couple of times before singing a line to make sure it was working before taking in everything thing around him. Everybody was dressed alike each in a white suit altered to look slightly to the Japanese style of visual kei. And each of their hair was sprayed at the tips with different colors. He was quite happy with the way everyone looked and how the stage was set.
With a sigh, he turned to the huge white curtain in front of him. He could hear the screams and chatter of the fans out there and hoped that that one specific person was waiting out there somewhere for him as well. Once he got the okay from the rest of his band, Yamato turned to the curtain person and nodded indicating they were ready.
Once the curtain started going up, that was it. Yamato took a deep breath and placed a mask over his whirling emotions. There were so many people cheering and waiting excitedly for the concert to start, but Yamato ignored all of them scanning the crowds for that tuff of fluffy brown hair. He couldn't find it.
"Hey, how are you guys doing?" Yamato said into the microphone his worry masked by a slightly upbeat tone. "I'm Matt and this is my band HAREM. It'll still be a little while before the band you came here to see is ready, so we'll be warming you up for them if that's okay."
There were cheers, but also mumbles of confusion and annoyance.
"We're fairly new, so please listen to our new song. It's called Chocolate Eyes," Yamato announced and took a step back from the microphone. He turned to Sephyr and nodded indicating she should start. The slate eyed girl pushed a button on her keyboard which gave off a high up beat rhythm. The base came in after that with a couple of strums. As soon as the guitar got one note in, Yamato started singing.
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"Alone in the world, just you and me
At first I couldn't see
Anything but your troublemaking
But you leaped through fire
And hiked through cold
To lead us through the great unknown
Just to save a few fragments
Of a world beginning to shed
Because"
/
Yamato's blue eyes took another scan of the crowds as he sang wondering where Tai was. If he didn't come this song would be for nothing, but with every word he sang, he was beginning to feel the depression coming back and a little sadness leaked into his words. Where was he?
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"You believed in love
The kind that comes without
Shouts of warning
The kind that we share
Bare and hidden
Behind your chocolate eyes"
/
This wasn't good; he'd crash and burn if Tai didn't come. He couldn't sing a love song without his sun. He couldn't sing this song if his world was dark.
Yamato scanned the crowds again. Thang it, Tai, if you don't come more then our relationships will be ruined. What about Logan, he'll never forgive himself. And Sephyr and the rest of the band will never get another chance. For once I'm the one waiting for you. I'm doing my part, I'm here, singing my heart out, but where are you. If you're not here how will you know my feelings. YAGAMI TAICHI, I LOVE YOU!
"Matt!"
Someone was calling his name, but he couldn't pinpoint their position. Who was it?
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"Even if the distance was long
Even if I was wrong
You still came to pull me back
Leaping through fire
Hiking through cold
You came to show me I wasn't alone
Just to hold my hand
Stinging with the impact
Of the imprint on your face
Because"
/
"Matt!"
There! Running down from the top balcony was a mass…of…fluffy…brunette…hair with those stupid goggles stuck around it. Yamato couldn't help the smile that crossed his face at the sight of that idiot and those chocolate eyes. He felt like crying, but knew he couldn't. Instead he put all his emotions into his song and literally sang his heart out. Taiwas there, everything was going to be okay.
"You believed in love
The kind that comes without
Shouts of warning
The kind that we share
Bare and hidden
Behind your chocolate eyes"
/
The brunette finally made his way to the seats closest to the stage right straight smack in front of Yamato. The blonde could see that Tai had ran all the way there. And, were those flowers in his hands?
Suddenly the song's rhythm changed and it slowed down slightly becoming deeper.
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"But I'm cold
And a stubborn fool
So confused
By my feelings for you
Is this love
Or is it a game
What do you hide
Behind your chocolate eyes"
/
Yamato could see Tai's eyes widened at the words in Yamato's song and he lifted his head locking his eyes with Yamato's blue ones. The blonde never took his eyes off from Taichi after that.
The song started to get faster again.
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"After the rain falls
And betrayal calls
Will you still run to me
Leaping through fire
Hiking through cold
Will you travel through the unknown
Just to hold this undeserving fool
Standing stunned without his sun
To brighten his everyday
Because"
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"No matter the distance
And forces of resistance
I will come running your way
Leaping through fire
Hiking through cold
I will travel through the great unknown
Just to look into your chocolate eyes
Dirtied with tears of fears
You've yet to shed
Because"
/
Again, the song slowed down slightly becoming sweet as Yamato readied himself to sing the last chorus of his song. With those six lines, he would have to reveal the feelings he had denied for so long. He didn't think he could ever write words to convey all he truly felt, but he would have to try.
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"I believe in love
The kind that comes without
Shouts of warning
The kind that we share
Bare and hidden
Behind your chocolate eyes"
/
The last word rang with the strum of the bass and everything was silent. A grin broke out on the brunette's face causing the sun rays to brake through the clouds of Yamato's depression and he smiled back. After a few seconds, cheers erupted from the crowd. Yamato took hold of the mic and started talking.
"Okay guys, quiet down," he said in a happy voice that wasn't masked. "We thank you for your applause. Now, how about a round of cheers for the band you guys really came out here today to see."
There was a rupture of cheers and screams from the audience and Yamato and the band began to move off stage to make room for the other band. Right before he was totally out of view, he threw a look toward the brunette standing in the crowd that said 'Meet be behind stage.' He got a nod back before he could no longer see the crowd.
The band hurriedly made their way to the dressing room fanning themselves and chatting about how awesome it was to perform live on a stage right before a famous band. Yamato stood off in his corner, a small smile on his face. He couldn't wait for Tai to arrive; he was having a hard time even believing that it had really been him standing in the crowd in front of him.
"I'm guessing he came," said a voice behind Yamato.
Yamato jumped and turned to see a smiling Sephyr. He nodded, a grin breaking out and he tried to keep it down.
"Don't hide it, I know you're happy."
Yeah, he was happy, but he and Tai still needed to talk some things over. In a split second decision, he launched himself at Sephyr and hugged her tightly. The slate eyes girl froze not being use to being touched by just anyone. After a few seconds, she slowly lifted her arms up and hugged him back.
"Matt, I'm sorry if I caused you trouble," she whispered to him.
Yamato shook his head. "No, I have so much to thank you for. You put up with me." He really was thankful for this girl and the other girls in his band as well. The blonde had never noticed before, but they had been there for him when his normal pillar of support was the reason he was having problems. He wasn't as alone as he originally thought.
They let go of each other, and Sephyr looked at Yamato with soft eyes. "You remind me so much of what I was like when I was in college, when Leon was chasing after me. If that boy ever breaks your heart again, you come running to me and I'll deal with him, 'kay."
Yamato nodded, though inside he was thinking that he could never submit Tai to a lashing by her or any other member of HAREM.
There was a small knock on the door and Lacey bounced over to answer it. "Who are you?" she asked to a nervous fluffy haired brunette who was carrying a bouquet of white roses.
"Uh, is Matt here?" he asked.
Lacey turned and called out to the blonde. "Hey, Matt, I think your lover boy is here to see you."
Tai? Yamato suddenly became nervous and he looked at Sephyr for help. She only shrugged and began ushering the other girls out.
"Let's give them some alone time and go see if we can catch a glimpse of the other band's performance."
Once everyone was gone, Yamato turned to Tai. "Hey, Tai."
The brunette looked down at his feet and passed the roses to Yamato. "These are for you."
Yamato took them and placed them on a counter. "So?"
Tai took a big breath before asking, "You love me, don't you? That's what you were trying to tell me with that song."
"Yeah, I love you," Yamato said, those three words just rolling off his tongue. How good it felt to actually say them. "And you came to hear me sing, what does that me?"
The brunette sighed running a hand through his hair before pinning his eyes on Yamato. "It means I love you as well."
Silence issued between the two before Yamato felt two arms encircle him. They were warm and comforting and held so many promises. He never wanted them to go away.
"I'm so sorry, Matt. I don't know how to make it up to you," Tai cried into Yamato's neck. "How can I explain what I've done?"
"Why don't you start at the beginning," Yamato suggested.
Tai let him go, but took hold of one of the blonde's hands instead. "I never meant to make you think I wasn't sincere in my feelings. When I said I was unfaithful to everyone before it wasn't because I cheated on them, but my heart was never really there. Only one face ever showed up when I kissed them, went to bed with them – yours."
Yamato listened to Tai's story intently, his heart beating hard against his ribcage.
"I hadn't realized I was bi until after I broke up with Sora. She mentioned something along the lines of 'You look more happy when you're hanging with Matt then with me'. It was only a silly suggestion, but it made me see that you weren't just a boy, but a hot boy."
Okay, so that's where the lust came from, Yamato could understand that, but when had he started liking him? That's what Yamato really wanted to know.
Tai continued talking. "I was thrilled when I found out I could go to the same college as you. It was like without you things just weren't as sunny."
That was the exact way Yamato had felt when he'd left on that plane what seemed like forever ago.
"I'd never really thought about a relationship with you until that night at Lights. As soon as you said you were gay I figured we could try, and you know sometimes I don't think things through before I blurt them out. It wasn't a game; I just wanted to see if we could be together."
Yamato could tell that Tai was about to begin to ramble. He just wanted to know when he'd fallen in love with him. "When did you fall for me, Tai."
"When you didn't kiss me back the first time. But I didn't realize it until you punched me and knocked some sense into me," he answered. "Matt, you've always been the one who held back. I was so caught up in just seeing if it was possible to be together, that I didn't notice your feelings, I didn't notice that you were already in love with me."
"It's okay, Tai, we're good now," Yamato said comforting the brunette who was about to go into hysterics. "I was a fool for not telling you how I felt."
"You wrote a song for me just to tell me how you felt!" Tai exclaimed grabbing Yamato in another crushing hug. "I've been so blind. Please Matt, don't stop believing in me."
Yamato brought a hand up and rubbed in through the fluffy nest of brown hair affectionately. "I've never stopped believing in you, Tai." The scene reminded Yamato of another when they were still only elementary students lost in the digiworld, only this time their roles were reversed. "Just say you'll stay with me."
"You mean so much to me, Matt. I don't think I could ever leave you," Tai said.
Yamato pushed the brunette away lightly and grabbed his face between his hands. He stared deeply into those chocolate eyes before kissing them sweetly. He smiled before he felt Tai moving in to claim that smile with his lips. They kissed, softly, sweetly, warmly, putting all their feelings in those few seconds.
Suddenly, there was a knock and the two lovers broke away. Yamato walked to the door and found the lead singer to the band they had been warming up for at his door.
"May I help you?" Yamato asked, Tai standing off in a corner trying to be inconspicuous.
"Uh, you're Matt Ishida?"
"Yes."
"We're just taking a quick break, but I just had to say, man, you're awesome. That song was well played out. And a girl band with a guy as lead singer, why didn't anyone else think of that before?"
"Thanks." Yamato really wasn't sure what else to say, he was so taken back.
"Hey, if you guys aren't busy, we have a concert next month in Chicago, you want to warm up the crowd for us?"
"Yeah, definitely, I mean, I'll have to talk to our manager, but yeah, I'd love to," Yamato said.
"Cool, okay, I've got to go now. Hopefully I'll see you on the charts pretty soon," said the singer before running off.
"Yeah," said Yamato dreamily. Getting his boyfriend to confess his love and having a famous singer tell him his song was awesome, oh yeah, today was so Yamato's day, and he knew just the perfect way to end it.
Tai came up and slapped him on the back. "Nice job. Looks like you're on your way to becoming a big Rock Star, Yama."
"Don't call me…" Yamato started but decided to let it go.
"What was that," Tai teased, his normal silly grin on his face.
"Nothing, let's go listen to the band. Then, when they're done, you can come over to my place," Yamato said entwining one hand with Tai's and leading a now fantasizing brunette out the door.
Yamato giggled as he tried to open his front door. Tai was behind him, arms wrapped around his waist and lips nibbling at his neck. "You're going have to stop or else I'm not going to get the door opened."
"Don't want to," Tai whined in protest pulling the blonde closer to his chest.
Air left Yamato's chest and he turned to glare at his boyfriend before proceeding to insert the key into the lock and open the door. They stumbled inside falling to the floor in a heap, Tai's leg kicking the door shut behind them. Yamato wiggled beneath the brunette trying to crawl away, but the brunette had a firm grip on him. He nuzzled the blonde's neck nipping at it and slipped a hand under Yamato's shirt rubbing it up his side.
"S-stop, Tai, we can't do it here," said Yamato slapping at the hand.
"Why not, I want you, and I know your floor's not dirty since you're a neat freak."
"I'm not a neat freak, but everything's in the bedroom," Yamato informed him.
"Oh," Tai said and got off the blonde heading to the bedroom. "Come on Matt, if you don't hurry up, I'll take you on the floor anyways."
Yamato blushed at the threat and hurried inside taking a nervous seat in the middle of the bed. It had been almost a month since that first time, and he was nervous. Tonight wouldn't be his first time, but it would be the night he gave everything to Tai willingly.
Tai shut the door and pulled his shirt over his head as he stalked toward Yamato. He went right up to Yamato, towering over him and bent down to place a quick kiss on the blonde's lips before parting still keeping their faces close. In a quiet voice, he asked, "Do you want to be top or bottom?"
Yamato was shocked by the question. Did he have a choice in the matter? He thought since he was bottom last time he'd still be playing the girl role this time around. "You mean I can choose?"
"Well, yeah. I mean, I didn't really give you much of a chance to fight for the position last time," Tai said grinning.
The blonde looked away considering. "Bottom."
"Really?" Tai asked tilting his head. "Why?"
Blood suddenly rushed to Yamato's face and he stuttered, "B-because, y-you're in soccer, so it'd hurt more for you when you ran and st-stuff. And," he added lowering his voice blushing even deeper, "I liked it."
Tai's grin just grew wider. "Okay," he said before pushing Yamato all the way down.
Yamato entangled his hands in the fluffy brunette hair as his boyfriend trailed kisses down his chest after undoing each button of the white shirt he'd worn for the concert. Once his chest was revealed, Tai made his way back up to Yamato's face and kissed him. He tried to poke his tongue into Yamato's mouth, but the blondefelt like teasing him a little and refused to allow him access. Frustrated, Tai resorted to other tactics to get what he wanted. Softly, he slithered a hand up Yamato's chest until he reached one of the rosy buds and pinched it sending tingles through Yamato's body. Yamato gasped and Tai took the opportunity to delve his tongue into the other's crevice.
At first, Yamato fumed over the unfairness and didn't kiss back, but soon he was melting and entwining his tongue with Tai's, battling. Eventually, they broke for air, both breathing hard.
"Where's those things you said you had?" Tai asked breathless.
"In the drawer," Yamato answered in the same tone.
There was a few seconds of scrambling as Tai searched for what he was looking for. Yamato took this time to reposition himself more comfortably under the brunette. Once Tai had what he wanted, he laid it down beside the blonde and placed a few butterfly kisses on his face before undoing Yamato's pants. Slowly, he pulled them down along with the other's boxers.
Yamato laid there naked except for the shirt still connected to his arms. He shivered a little before wondering why Tai wasn't continuing. "What is it?"
The brunette's eyes glittered as he stared down at his naked boyfriend below him. "You really are beautiful."
A blush covered Yamato's face and he looked away. "Stop staring, it's embarrassing."
Tai smirked. "I know, but the pink flush just makes you even more beautiful."
Yamato reached a hand up to slap him lightly, but the brunette caught his hand and pulled it to his mouth kissing the top of it tenderly. "Only be mine, Yamato."
Butterflies started fluttering in his stomach at Tai's words and he smiled. "Already am."
Tai let go of Yamato's hand and trailed a hand down the blonde's pale chest until he came to his manhood. With a feather light touch, Tai wrapped a hand around it causing Yamato to gasp in pleasure. He did a couple of teasing pumps before leaning over the blonde again and catching Yamato's lips in another passion filled kiss. The brunette's hand didn't start up again until Yamato started moaning in pleasure of the kiss.
Yamato moaned and mewled loving whatever Tai was doing. He was so glad they could be together like this. After tonight, there was going to be so many people to thank. So many people had helped to get him and Tai together and he felt like he almost owed his life to them all because (though rainy days could be fun at times) he couldn't live without sunlight in his life. And Tai wasn't just his sun, he was his air and water and passion – he was his whole life.
The blonde felt Taichi stop his ministrations on his lower regions and looked to see what the brunette was doing. Tai had grabbed the bottle he'd laid beside Yamato and was pouring some into his hands. Yamato knew what was coming next, and he closed his eyes getting ready for the pain to come.
Tai inserted one slick finger into Yamato's entrance and waited a couple of seconds before wiggling it around. Yamato whimpered a little at the strange feeling of the finger intruding inside him. He gasped when the second finger entered. The brunette started kissing Yamato again to get his mind off the scissoring of his fingers in the blonde's entrance. It seemed to work because soon Yamato's mind was hazy and he was mewling in pleasure of the kisses again.
Yamato tightened up when a third finger was entered and had to break away from the kiss to calm himself down. He swallowed before turning his eyes onto his brunette lover.
"Ready?" Tai asked unzipping his pants and pulling them down along with his boxers.
Yamato gulped and nodded trying not to stare at the naked body of his once best friend turned boyfriend.
Popping the lube bottle opened again, Taichi plopped some into his hand and began lathering up his member. Once it was good and raring to go, he positioned himself at Yamato's entrance and stared into those beautiful icy blue eyes. "Relax."
The blonde nodded and took a big breath letting it out. In that moment, he felt Tai slam into him. He bit his lip to try to keep from screaming. Once the initial effect had worn off, Yamato took a couple of deep breaths before wiggling his hips indicating that Tai could begin moving. The brunette did one slow testing thrust before starting up a fast pace trying to find that spot inside the blonde that would make him scream with pleasure.
"T-tai," Yamato gasped when his prostate had been hit and settled down into a fit of small mewls.
Now that Tai had found what he was looking for, he began that medium pace he'd set the first time they'd had sex that was both heaven and hell to Yamato. It made the lovemaking seem to last longer and made him feel like he was floating on clouds, but also made him become impatient and drove him crazy with pleasure and want. He wrapped his arms and legs around the brunette and scooted down so that Tai was going deeper.
"Mhnn…ah," he moaned running his hand through the mass of fluffy brunette hair as pleasure built up inside him.
When white threatened to over come his vision, Yamato let his arms fall beside his head too weak to keep them up any longer and said in a quiet lust filled voice, "Mmmm, Tai, hurr—y…uh."
Just the way the blonde looked right then sent Tai over the edge and he started thrusting fast and hard for a few seconds before releasing inside the blonde groaning his name. Yamato came right after clasping himself to the brunette.
They flopped down onto the bed rolling to their backs. Their chest rose and lowered as their breaths slowed down.
"Love is exhausting," Yamato said.
"Y—yeah," Tai agreed, "it's like going on a really long journey."
"Is it harder than saving a whole digital world?" Yamato asked.
Tai grinned. "That was easy compared to this."
They smiled at each other before breaking out in fits of laughter. Yes, catching the one you love can sometimes be very frustrating as Yamato had learned. Love was harder than traveling through an unknown world and fighting strange creatures, but the reward at the end was even better than the satisfaction you get from saving a world. Love was the journey of a lifetime.
"Hey, Matt."
"Hmm?"
"Want to go again?"
"Okay", Yamato agreed. Yep, love was exhausting, but as long as he was with Tai, he never thought he'd get tired of this journey.
Since I worked so hard on this I'd really would like reviews, please. And cookies, I like peanut butter. ^^
-- Zee ;)