10. Not a wimp

A few hours after blaise had left the quidditch pitch I slowly got up and began walking back inside. Thinking. The more I thought about it the more I realised blaise was right. What about Hermione's future? Her friends? She had lost just about everything in the past few days and true she still had blaise and her family but she'd lost a lot more than me. Truthfully the things I had lost were due to what I had done. That's how I lost blaise, my brother, my best mate. I just hope to god I haven't lost my son.

I had been such an ass to everyone recently, I was no better than potter or weasley. I suddenly realised I was outside the portrait hole. I wonder if she's inside. I mumble the password to the portrait which swings open. The room in front of me goes quiet and every single face is staring at me. Shit. I'd forgotten about all of our friends meeting today.

Blaise stood up as I walked in but Hermione tugged him back down avoiding my eyes. I slowly looked at the faces of my friends and the weaslett before hurrying through the common room and into my room. I lay on my bed as I heard them all beginning to talk. I heard a faint knock on my door.

"Come in" the door creaked open and pansy poked her head in and came to the side of the bed before sitting next to me.

"Draco, what happened? You lot were fine earlier"

"I was an ass is what happened, I've really messed up pans" I sighed still staring at the ceiling.

"How?"

"I was selfish and managed to lose my family and my best friend in 24 hours and I don't think their coming back anytime soon"

"Draco of course you'll get them back it's hard to resist you just let them calm down"

"You don't get it pans, you didn't see the look in their eyes, and you didn't hear what I said!" I was close to crying, I didn't deserve her sympathy.

"Listen to me Draco, she will forgive you eventually just keep trying"

"Can I have some time alone?" she stood up and silently left the room. I slowly fell asleep to the sound of the party going on down stairs.

I flooed over to the manor during the last hour of school. My mother was sat in the living room cradling scorpious when I landed in the fireplace gracefully. She looked up with a stern look on her face.

"What did you do?" she snapped

"What makes you think I've done something mother?"

"Well Draco you are here 45 minutes before the end of school and you are alone"

"I had a free period" I lied quickly

"Don't lie to me Draco"

"Fine I was supposed to have potions with Hermione but I skipped it"

"Sit. Explain" I sat down on a high backed leather chair.

"we had a fight I told her I couldn't stand her then, I tried to pick a fight with blaise but he told me everyone was sick of me and I was selfish and that he knew I wouldn't keep up being a good father, now none of them are talking to me but I wanted to see my son before I gave him back."

"Why Draco?"

"Because I got upset when she told you we weren't really friends because I like her"

"You do realise how silly that sounds don't you?" I put my head in my hand and nodded, sighing. "Well come on then hold your son" she handed scorpious to me and I held his tiny body. He looked up at me through his tiny violet eyes before giggling.

"So what are you going to do to make it up to her?"

"Well first I think I'll let her calm down, and then I guess I'll try to talk to her"

"Do you want to make it work with her?"

"Of course I do, not just for our son but because…"

"You like her as more than your son's mother"

"How did you know?"

"A mother always knows Draco, so how long?"

"Since third year when she punched me"

"Does she know?"

"Of course she doesn't!"

"I will never understand you boys" she sighed before sitting down and watching me play with scorpious. I continued holding him for an hour or so before the fireplace came to life once again and Hermione and blaise stepped through.

"Ah Hermione I take it you're her to pick up scorpious and blaise it's good to see you I hope you are well"

"It's good to see you too narcissa, I just came with Hermione to pick up scorpious but I see someone beat us to it"

"Yes Draco has been her for a little while we were just waiting for you actually, weren't we Draco" she said giving me a pointed look.

"Yeh anyway here he is, I just got him off to sleep" I said handing him to Blaise since Hermione was standing as close to the fireplace as possible, I turned towards her. "Um can I talk to you?" she looks from me to blaise to my mother and back again before answering.

"Ok" she followed me from the room and into the gardens. When we stopped I turned around to her angry face. "What do you want malfoy?" she spat. The use of my last name stung a bit.

"I'm sorry, I was a dick but please let me make it up to you"

"I'm sick of you saying sorry Draco; I think it's better if we just stay away from each other"

"But what about scorpious?"

"I can look after him on my own" my heart dropped to the floor.

"Please don't take my son away from me" I begged as she began to walk away, she stopped and turned back.

"I'm not you can look after him from time to time I just don't need your help on a daily basis"

"But…"

"Goodbye Draco" and with that she walked back towards the house. I slowly followed and by the time I reached the living room I saw her and blaise flooing away with scorpious. As soon as they were gone I shattered to the floor.

"What did she say?"

"She said… she wants to rise… him…alone" I choked as tears fell from my eyes. I had never felt so shattered in my life. I had never had my heartbroken either; I always did the heart breaking.

"She'll change her mind she knows what a good father you are"

"She won't I know her" mother sighed

"right that's it, get up go back to school and do as she asks stay away from her for a while, and stop being a baby!" I stared at her shocked "Draco be as strong as I raised you to be, true you may be hurting but the Draco I know wouldn't give up. He would instantly find a new way of getting her back. Now go" I stood up.

"Thanks, you're right I'm being a wimp. I hate wimps. I will get her back! Even if it's the last thing I do." I gave a small smile before flooing from the manor.

Thanks for reading :) more coming soon. Please review. Sorry for the long wait. Hopefully Draco won't be as much of a wimp from now on although he still has a broken heart but maybe that's a good thing x