I cracked around my 5th timeline. I killed Asriel in the 6th. I left everyone alone while plotted underground in my 7th. I killed my parents in my 8th. I had a different timeline for killing each monster. I killed one, then reset, killed a different one, then reset. I never really messed with many humans, they were no fun. I lost count after my 42nd, when I tried to kill a certain skeleton. He gave me a bit of a bad time. I didn't care what happened after I beat the smiley trash bag.
Right now, I was determined all right. Determined to make this timeline my best yet. I could feel it in the air. If I reset again, the world would end itself.
I no longer cared what happened to everyone else. I was getting MY happy ending. If that means killing every last human and monster on this planet, then so be it. I was getting my soul back, no matter what. I was so sick of being a fucking flower... I couldn't take it. I was either going to kill everyone on this fucking planet as my final bow, or I was going to take back my old life. If I was determined enough, maybe I could get one last reset... Back to when I fell. Back to before I was like this.
I still barely remember what happened before I woke up that first time. Whatever it was, I'm sure it was better then this. The moment I woke up, I rushed to the surface, and went into the forest. I practiced my attacks for a little bit in the clearing I had found. Who would have know that blood and tears were something that you could fight with?
My plan was simple. Find seven souls of people up on the surface, store them in my little clearing on the surface, and then finally have the determination to go back to before I was... this. If seven wasn't enough, I'd find enough. I didn't care how long it took.
I disappeared into the ground, and appeared before a teen that had ran away from home. They were in the middle of a dark field, the perfect place for my first attack. They stumbled back when they saw me, not that I minded, I was used to that kind of reaction.
"Heh Heh, Hi, I'm Rosa, what's your name?" I asked with a cheery smile on my face.
"I-I'm Matthew..."
"That's a great name! I've been looking around for someone to help me with something, do you think you could help?"
The boy simply nodded, probably in awe that a flower was talking to him.
"Ok Matthew, I'm going to need you to stay still for me... this might seem a bit weird, but you've got to trust me on this one..."
"U-Um, Ok..." I quickly pulled his soul into battle. Hmm, a nice dark blue, whats this kid even running from? His soul's in perfect condition. His face was terrified when he saw what I had done, so I needed to calm him down.
"Hey, calm down pal! This will only take a moment... You see, I've been working on some kind of, healing drops, and they only work if applied directly to the soul!"
"What?"
"Here, move your soul around, try to get as much as you can!" I dropped some of my tears down on his soul. He foolishly ran right into them. I was excited to finally break my act. "You selfish BRAT. Don't you know to never trust strangers?"
I surrounded his heart with blood, and killed him easily. I took the soul back to the forest, and hid it under some leaves. Hopefully it wouldn't go anywhere. The next six were just as easy. Just stupid selfish brats stuck in 'rebellion'. None of them left when I put them under the leaf pile in the forest, so everything was looking pretty good for me.
Apparently, after the six children went missing, people started to catch on. No one went back into the forest for a really long time. I was just left plotting what I would do with my newfound powers once I gained them. Maybe I would be able to have a bit of fun before I truly reset every timeline, giving me a fresh start.
I went into the field for the 30th day in a row, looking for my hopefully last victim. I was about to just go back to my clearing, when I saw someone. A small child with brown short hair, a striped sweater, and blue shorts. I moved in for hopefully the last time. One thing concerned me though, this one didn't jump back. They just stared at me with a blank expression.
"Um, Heh heh, Hi, I'm Rosa, uh, what's your name?" Something was different about this one. But what?
"Frisk." Why did this name seem familiar to me? I never knew someone named Frisk, did I? Whatever, lets just focus on keeping up my act.
"Oh, thats a nice name! Hey! I've been looking for someone to help me out with something, do you think you could lend me a hand?"
They simply shook their head and looked at the ground. "(Y/N), don't you remember me? It's me, your best friend." I felt a wave of memory wash over me.
"Hey... are you ok?" I heard a voice call out to me.
"Yeah, I think I'm fine, just a bit bruised probably, heh, I mean, I've survived worse."
"Oh, what's your name?"
"My names (Y/N)..."
"Nice to meet you (Y/N)... My name's Frisk, I fell down here awhile ago, but this nice lady Toriel said I could stay with her. I'm sure she'll be really happy to meet you!"
"Heh heh, slow down for a minute kid, I still need to catch my breath,"
"Oh, sorry! Here, let me help you..."
"Thanks, hey, where is here anyways?"
"Oh! We're Underground, where all the monsters were locked after the war. But we're only allowed in the Ruins. Maybe Toriel would let us leave together, but I'm not sure."
"Heh, something tells me I don't know what I just fell into."
"Don't worry, I'm sure you'll love it here!"
"I hope you're right."
As I slowly was pushed back to reality, I looked at the child before me with new eyes. I still felt nothing for the child, but still, something felt different.
"F-Frisk, I..."
"We've been through these resets so many times before... I don't want our last timeline to end like this. I'm so sorry I wasn't there when you fell... I just wanted to stay with my family that time. If I would have been there, maybe you wouldn't have..." The human was crying at this point. Now it was I that was giving the blank stare.
"I-I'm not the same person anymore. I don't want to hurt you, I can tell that I used to care about you, but I can't feel anything for you. Just go. Before I change my mind."
"(Y/N), you can't do what I know you're planning to do. The world will just find a way to move on without you. It's impossible to do another reset. Just give up. Please."
"JUST GO." I shouted.
"I remember back when you and I first meet. You were the most kindhearted person I had ever seen. Despite everything that happened, you refused to fight back. Normally, when the world is reset countless times, people tend to gain LOVE just to see what would happen, to see what would be different. But you, you never gained any LOVE, you're soul stayed kindhearted until it started to fade. It almost faded into non-existence, but by the looks of things, I guess that you sacrificed yourself for Asriel. And if you hadn't gotten that extra dose of determination, you could have faded away peacefully... I... I'm so sorry (Y/N)."
By this point, I was so fed up with not being who everyone thought I was. I was so tired of not feeling anything. I can't do this any more. I don't care what happens. I pulled Frisk's soul into a battle. I closed my eyes. "...I've changed my mind."
"(Y/N), please! Can you hear me? Please, don't do this! You know I won't fight back, please just stop this!" I shoot a few tears at Frisk, but wasn't surprised when they dodged out of the way effortlessly.
"Stop calling me that. She died a long time ago." I tried again to shoot them down, but they knew all of my moves before I even attacked.
"...It's no use, there's only one way to save you..."
"JUST STOP TRYING TO SAVE EVERYONE! IT'S NO USE! You'll just end up getting hurt yourself, and regretting even trying in the first place. You'll end up waking up every morning disappointed that death didn't come through the night, and trying to figure out what the FUCK YOU DID WRONG!" I filled the whole area with blood, making it totally impossible to escape. I started crying real tears that I hadn't cried since the first timeline.
"I.. I'm so s-sorry." Was their last words. I stopped to take a deep breath. I looked around in the trees, to see if any of their worthless friends had been watching from a distance. To my surprise, their was no one to be found. I saw Frisk's glowing red soul and took them back with the others.
With a deep breath, I looked down at the seven souls. I could absorb them all right now and see where that gets me, but for now, I just want to wait. The small amount of feelings I felt for that person a few minutes earlier were gone, and in a way, I missed them.
I decided that nothing fucking mattered anymore, and quickly absorbed the souls. The power that surged through my body was incredible, but I didn't really care at the moment. At least, that was until something incredible started to happen.
With a flash of white light, I could feel my horrible excuse for a body reform into something I thought was long gone. I was able to move my fingers, look down at my legs, feel my hair brushing up against my cheek. I felt, for the first time in what felt like forever, happiness. I giggled a little bit. I couldn't believe what happened, it was just to amazing to fathom. But that was immediately followed by more regret and sadness.
"Hey! Where am I?"
"I'm so scared!"
"Someone help!"
"Guys calm down, that fucking flower will pay for whatever it did to us."
"Am I dead? What happened?"
"...(Y/N), can you finally hear me?"
As I heard the echoes of the voices of the people I had killed, I fell to the ground. My newfound freedom had brought me to a new prison. I just laid on the ground for a good long time listening to my regrets, until I remembered something.
"A true reset." I muttered. None of the other souls seemed to notice that I had said anything, except for one.
"You know what will happen if you do that, please (Y/N), I need you to trust me! (Y/N) I know you can remember me, just listen to me now. Please."
I ignored the voice in my head as I used all my focus to remember when I fell. To try to reset to back when I was laying on the bed of golden flowers, back to when I was just a scared little girl that fell down into a mountain. I felt the reset working, I thought for sure that I was finally in the clear...
Then it all went black.