Chapter 10:

For the next couple of days, or maybe it had been weeks, Barry had not been keeping track, he was torn up. Cisco tried to get him out of his funk but nothing was working. Barry had missed calls and texts from Iris, Joe, and Wally. And in his usual dramatic fashion, Cisco ensured them that he was okay but needed time to deal with the ultimate betrayal. Cisco went over to check on Caitlin and left Barry alone to wallow some more. He threw Barry's cell phone next to him.

As Barry was staring at the TV screen but not really watching what as on, he hears his cell phone alert go off.

"No, whoever is in trouble will have to wait. Flash is off duty." He says out loud. He glances down at the alert on his phone and realized it said SOS from Cisco.

He calls Cisco immediately.

"Barry, get over here quick! I think she did it again. She won't open her bedroom door."

"Shit." Barry instantly ran over there.

He sees Cisco banging on her bedroom door.

"Cait, open up, can you hear me ?!" He yells through the door. Cisco starts to tear up a little. "Caitlin…" Cisco sounded like he almost whining.

Barry puts his hand on the door and phases through it. He sees her laying on the bed, looking like she's trying to keep herself awake.

He runs up to her and hold her in his arms. "Cait, what did you do?" She looks up at him and smiles. Her hand moves across his cheek softly.

He sits behind her and holds her in front of him.

"Cait!" Barry says a little louder.

"What Barry..." she says slowly as she starts to nod off on herself.

He moves around from behind her to feel her pulse. It was slow and barely there.

He pulls her close to his chest and feels that her breathing was starting to get shallow and labored.

"Cait, why do you keep doing this, we can't do any of this without you. I can't."

In her unstable state, Caitlin smiles.

Barry let Cisco into the room. Cisco runs in and sees Caitlin's state. He immediately feels for her pulse. His eyes widen as shot Barry a look of instant worry.

She starts saying something under her breath that made no sense as her eyes were closing slowly.

Barry ran to the lab, got the meds HR used on her last time and ran back to her apartment. He gave her the shot of medicine in her leg.

"Owww…" slowly escapes from her mouth. She seems to pep right back up. Looking around she realized what had went on. Tears instantly fill her eyes.

The boys had an instant rush of relief.

"What're you guys doing here?" She asks them softly. Cisco looks down at his phone.

"Um, Barry. I have to go meet Gypsy. Can you handle this?" Cisco asked.

Barry nodded at him. "Is everything ok?"

"I... don't know."

"Okay just go." Barry motions to the door.

"Will she be okay?" Cisco asks as he was hesitant to start walking away.

"Yeah. She'll be okay."

Cisco kisses Caitlin's forehead softly.

"I love you, Caity. Please stop this. You're scaring me." He whispers in her ear.

Caitlin didn't even look up as tears fell from her cheeks.

Cisco opens a breach and tends to his matter with Gypsy.

"Barry...I- I don't want to talk about it right now."

The medicine makes her really nauseous. Grabbing the trash can, she expels her darkness into there.

He wipes her mouth with a towel and pushes back her hair from her face.

"Did he appear to you again?"

She nods slowly at him.

"Caitlin, please just talk to me."

"What do you even care? It's not like it matters to you." Her eyes start to flash that familiar icy blue color.

"Of course, I care."

"No Barry, no one else exists to you when you have Iris, when you have to be with Iris, who cares about other people's lives. Especially when they claim to be your friend. Forget about it."

"You don't mean that Cait." He stands up and leans on the wall. She follows him over to the wall.

"You can just say you don't care Barry. There's no need to lie to me."

"I care about everything that happens to you." He looks at her with those pleading eyes.

"I don't believe you"

He grabs her by the arms and pushes her against the wall in her room, not knowing how else to get through to her.

"Caitlin, you can't do this to us. I can't do it, any of this, without you. You always pull me up when I'm down, let me help you. Please stop, just find an outlet with me."

She examines his face, noting that he looks genuinely frightened.

"We need you, we are all here for you. Please want to get better." He presses his forehead to hers as he feels the tears attempting to surface from his eyes. The knot in his throat grows rapidly.

"I am so serious Caitlin, I can't. I need you to be here." He tells her in a whisper. Her eyes return to honey.

Moving out of his grasp, she walks toward the bed. She reaches for the syringe. He watches her carefully to see what she was doing with that needle.

"Cait...please." He pleads with her again, in an even more desperate tone.

She turns around to hand him the needle slowly. She walks over to her dresser to grabbed the pills sitting on top of it and hands those to Barry as well.

He grabs it from her hand and watches her face intently. Slowly her face crumbles into sadness. Caitlin lets out a huge sob and almost falls over but Barry catches her and brings her down to the ground softly, along with himself. With her sobbing in his arms he holds her tight to his chest.

"I'm so sorry Cait. I'm so sorry." He repeats this over and over in a brave attempt to soothe her. 45 minutes of crying. 45 minutes of Barry letting her get all the pent up emotions out.

Later, they were still sitting on the floor. His back against the end of her bed, she was cuddling into his chest in front of him. Barry takes in her scent as he feels her body shake against his. Rubbing her lower back to soothe her like he always did, it's pure silence. Maybe talking about something other than this will help ease her mind.

"Iris cheated on me."

Caitlin looks up and him with confused eyes.

He nods slowly, looking down at her face.

"What? She told you this?"

"She didn't have to...I - I saw them, in my apartment and they were about to kiss each other."

Caitlin stays silent, taking it all in.

"I confronted her right after I saw, after he left."

His breath catching in his chest, he continues

"She didn't know that I was coming home that night. She didn't even deny it. Just tried to blame lack of attention."

"I'm so sorry Barry, I don't even know what to say to that. She seemed to really love you."

"Yeah, it just feels like betrayal honestly. I guess I'm sort of numb to it at this point." Barry sighs deeply and gives Caitlin a broken smile to let her know that he will be okay. Eventually.

"I'm sorry that you had to deal with all my shit on top of that." She looks up at him with desperate eyes.

"I would have dealt with anything regarding you no matter what."

He examines her eyes. Barry sees the pain that she's hiding behind them and all he wants to do is take that pain away from her. She shoots him a soft smile, but he reads right through it. Don't hide it from me, Cait. He brings his hand to her check and softly brushes his thumb against it. His heart was fluttering again.

Barry slowly leans down and brings his lips inches away from hers. She hesitates slightly but eventually meets his lips. They knew they were using each other for the moment. They needed, wanted to forget about everything else. The instant their lips touched Barry felt at ease. It felt like electricity ran through their bodies. The kiss is tender and short, almost like an overdone peck, light as a feather. Pulling away, he looked at her face, making sure he didn't do something she didn't want him to do. He notices that her eyes were softer and wandering across the length of his face. She lands on his mouth and he slowly leans back in to continue. She sits up so they can have the proper angle to their kiss.

Facing each other, his hand moves perfectly to her neck to pull her in closer to him. He parts his lips in the hopes that she returns his slight demand. No words needed to be spoken. Her soft, pouty lips felt like heaven to him. His stomach dropped and his heart fluttered. She tasted like flowers.

Their breathing grows more intense and labored. He moves his hand into her hair, giving him access to angles to deepen and perfect the kiss.

She moans slightly into his mouth as their tongues found one another.

His head felt fuzzy, almost as if his thoughts turned to white noise. His skin grew warmer. He slides her onto his lap ever so smoothly. She fit on him perfectly. This position gave him the opportunity to tilt her head back in angle that gave him access to her neck. He places soft kisses on her neck and throat as he felt her breath catch with each kiss. She returns the favor. He feels the hairs all over his body raise as she sends chills down his spine when her lips brush the sensitive skin on his neck. Barry, getting caught up in the moment, feels himself getting hard underneath her body.

Their bodies are so close. It is almost as if she was clinging to him for his heat. And he lets her. They stop kissing in an effort to catch their breath. Foreheads pressed together, he removes his hand from her hair and places it firmly on her behind, pushing her up and closer to him. His eyes are intense and fixed on hers. Caitlin's usual honey colored eyes are unusually darkened by the want filling her.

Caitlin kisses him hard and fast again as he returns the intensity in her kiss. His fingertips go underneath her t-shirt and she shivers delicately with his touch. Barry, hesitant to get underneath her shorts, runs his hands down her leg and stops at her inner thigh. Caitlin bites his lip soft enough to produce a slight groan from his throat. This is her way of telling him it was okay. Barry pushes her soft shorts and underwear to the side to feel how wet she was. He couldn't believe he was doing this to her. Still kissing her, her mouth opens up as her breath caught.

A soft moan escapes from her lips. He expertly finds her spot and rubbed fast enough for her to feel it, but slow enough to make her quiver. He gradually starts to pick up the pace with his fingers, which makes her convulse on top of him. Barry examines her expression changing as he is changing the speed of his fingers. Their eyes locked on each other, he can tell she was trying to shy away from his glare but he furrows his brows in an attempt to get her to keep looking at him. Their lips are barely touching and she is breathing heavily into his mouth. She is close...from the way she was shaking.

"Fuck."

She inhales sharply and releases broken breaths as he continues to drive her crazy. Barry keeps looking at her face and when she tries to hide it, he takes his free hand in her hair and pulls her head back so she can't hide her face from him. He wants to see her face when she is finally ready to release. He thought this was a jarringly intimate moment but he knew deep down how he felt about her. His free hand moves to her lower back and he began to rub her back in a familiar fashion, letting her know it was okay.

Her movements on top of him grew increasingly jerky. Barry adds more pressure to his motions and he could tell she desperately wants that release that is inside of her. Her hips are jerking forward as he watches her face. Her lips part and her eyes slowly roll to the back of her head and close. A moment later, she pretty much collapses into Barry's lap, breathing heavily, while he continues to rub small circles on her back.

Once she catches her breath, Caitlin kisses him hard. Her lips crash into his and he openly obliged. He lays her down on the floor to get on top of her. He slowly kisses her, making it as slow as possible, especially for the fastest man alive. He feels her shaking underneath him as he presses his body closer to hers. Barry was almost bursting through his pants. He feels the tug from her hand on his pants zipper and he let her free his hard on. In turn, he slides her shorts off of her body and kisses his way back up her legs. He felt nervous but was strangely comfortable in this situation with Caitlin. Everything was happening so fast there was no time to think about what they were really doing.

He needed to be inside of her, that's all that Barry knew at the moment. He couldn't think about anything besides drowning himself in her, losing himself.

He leans back over her and kisses her softly. She presses her hips up on him in a message for him to get on with it. She smells so good.

He looks her straight in the eye for confirmation to go ahead. Caitlin grabs his face and kisses him so softly, that he could have melted on the spot. Barry pulls his pants down a little bit, pushes her panties to the side, reaches down in between them to place himself inside of her and enters her slowly. He watches her face as he slides in her. Caitlin's lips parted and a shallow moan escapes from them. He doesn't move for a moment, remaining motionless for a little, allowing them time to adjust to each other. She felt like heaven. Better than he ever imagined. He releases a harsh groan from deep in his throat and presses his body to hers. Caitlin wraps her legs around his hips.

He starts to stroke in an almost instantaneous rhythm. Leaning down over her, Barry gives her a kiss and buries his head in the space between her shoulder and neck. Their breathing intensifies as his pace got quicker. Her arms wrap around him just like her legs did. His stroke gets deeper and harder with every passing minute. Her moans are constant and that was only driving him to go faster. She digs her nails into his shirt as he reaches her g spot with every stroke.

Caitlin tosses her head back on the floor and he leans up to look at her face. He watches her intensely as she bit down hard on her bottom lip in an attempt to stifle the noises she was making. Her core is dripping wet and pretty much talking back to them now as his stroke remained strong.

He throws one of her legs up in the crook of his forearm and bicep and pushes forward, opening up her legs a little more. Her arms snake around to his lower back and her nails dig in ever deeper. Caitlin is writhing under him, not holding back with her moans anymore. Face to face, their mouths open and touching but they weren't kissing. It was like they were sharing and breathing each other's air. Caitlin moans into his mouth and is releasing his own groans in return.

"I - I'm g- gonna cum." Caitlin tells Barry breathlessly. Her broken cries are louder and more rapid. Barry looks deep into her eyes and reaches down between them and starts rubbing her clit, so fast that it's almost like vibrating because of his powers. Caitlin tries to hide her face in his shoulder but his free hand pulls her head back by her hair. He watches her come undone underneath him. Her mouth opens but no sound comes out of it. Their eyes lock on each other as she convulses around him. His mouth opens slightly with a gasp as he feels her orgasm around him.

Once she comes down slightly, he gets back into it. Faster and harder, she is clinging to him as he pounded into her. The two are moaning and breathing loudly at this point. Their shirts start to stick their skin and that's when he notices that they didn't even bother to take their clothes off.

He nuzzles his face into her neck and her into his. He bites down on the space between her neck and shoulder, which would end up leaving a bruise. A groan escapes his throat that had been threatening to slip out times before. She cums again, before he pulls out of her and releases himself onto her thigh.

"Sorry." Barry apologizes breathlessly for the mess on her leg.

She shakes her head in acceptance, trying to catch her breath.

They were using each other and they both knew it. Barry lays down next to her and pulls her on top of him. Like always, he rubs small circles on her lower back, easing her down from her last orgasm. Her head fits perfectly under his chin.

It should be more awkward than it feels. Somehow, it feels natural that they lay on the ground having just done what they did. He just fucked his best friend and they both knew they were using each other to forget about all of their problems. He knew deep down how he felt about her but he was unsure about her feelings towards him. But he wasn't going to talk about it now and ruin everything.

"Can I stay here tonight?" He asks softly.

She nodded, kisses his chest and got off of him to go take a shower. He watches her walk into the bathroom. She has a cute butt. He pulls his pants back up and lays there, waiting for her to be done.