Ok so I decided we needed this chapter, give more detail of the scaling system .. and how everything is changing around him.

Its like being unconscious after being knocked around a few times, I can sometimes hear and sometimes I even get flashes of what's going on around me. Then the damn darkness comes and I hate it, it scares the shit out of me because I can't move, hear or let them know I'm still here. I'm starting to think I'm not going to ever be able to take control of this. When I pop back into reality I can always hear Rachel, she's either talking or singing, sometimes she's crying and I want to be able to tell her that I'm fighting because it's no way in hell I'm leaving her.

What I'm most afraid of is me losing a sense of reality, maybe I'm dead and this is where you go after? No matter how hard I fight to control my body or even my mind I lose, I'm losing a battle within myself and if it wasn't for her voice I would have just let go along time ago. I just don't see where things are fair, I've been fighting for my life since I was 7 years old what could happen if I just relaxed for a minute. I'll never leave her but I'm so damn tired.

Ok Finn, you rest for a second no longer and then you come back and fight until you take control and go back to your girl. It's settled...

"I don't understand what's happening? CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TALK TO ME?!" He's been doing so good, I don't understand why everything just went off and everyone started to yell "Code Blue" but that's not true, he's fine.. He has to be.

I call his mom and Noah, he'd just left so he got back in record time, I told him what happened and how they wont tell me anything and everyone is just running and the doors are shut and they even have the blinds closed so I cant even peak in. When his mom arrives she doesn't even bother to talk to anyone she rushes into the room and when they try to hold her back she tells them she's not going anywhere, they comply and shut the door behind her. "I just don't understand what went wrong Noah, I was singing and telling him goodnight like I always do and then it was just nothing, all the lines went flat." I don't know if he can even understand me at this point I'm crying so hysterically but I don't care. " I can't lose him Noah, I just can't." He doesn't say anything, I know it's because it's nothing to say and he's crying right along besides me.

It's nothing we can do but wait, people finally stop running and things start to slow down. "Rachel." I look up to see Carole standing there with a small smile on her face, it reminds me so much of Finns I almost cant stand it." I-Is h-he.." I can't say the word, I hope more then anything she doesn't say it either. "He's alive, they don't know what happened but it was almost like he just stopped- um… being here with us for awhile and after awhile they were able to bring him back. Brain activity is fine, heart if strong, blood pressure is regular.. he's opening his eyes just as much as before. It's really like he just took a break and came back." She says with a nervous laugh."Can I go see him Carole?" I don't know what they hospital rules are after something like that happens. "Honey, you can always go see him, as much as you have done for him and given up your free time to be here with him when I can't and even when I am here you don't leave, you never have to ask to go in, ok?" I couldn't help but get up and hug her, she might have messed up when it came to Finn and in the past but for the past 5 days she has done everything in her power to make sure Finn gets help and Chris gets help with his PTSD and some jail time along with it.

Yesterday they came and talked to her about possible rehab for Finn, she didn't make a decision she said it would be up to him but I'm not sure how to handle something like this so I can't go against it and say it was wrong. Finn's life has changed so much and he doesn't even know it, when his dad got put away everything automatically went to his name, he's been running a business for the past week and has no idea. I hate that because I don't know if that is what he wanted or not. His mom stepped up and started making decisions dealing with the company until he is able to.

Walking into his room seems like nothing has changed, his eyes are open and a few doctors are standing and writing notes about what just happened, I've seen them all before. Before they walk out they turn and tell me how strong he is and how lucky he is to have me. I can see how people make that assumption that it's Finn that is lucky, but its me to have someone like Finn in my life and to love me. I don't say anything I just kiss his cheek and whisper "I love you." I grab my PJs and walk into the bathroom and start to get ready to go to sleep. When I walk out his eyes are open again and I decided that instead of sleeping on the guest bed/couch, I'm going to sleep next to the love of my life. I grab my phone and text Noah and let him know Finn is doing good and I'm going to sleep.

Noah has been a lot of help he comes and brings food or anything else I need, he send me back a quick "goodnight berry" text and I stand to walk over to Finns bed.

I get in and ask him what he wants me to sing, I decide on "Faithfully" it only seems right. When I'm done I open the book I checked out of the library on The Glasgow Scale without them even having to tell me I know each level Finn is on :Eye opening he's moved to level 4, which means its spontaneous. Verbal he's a level 3, we discovered that after he kept saying the "S-H" word the other day, inappropriate words, Check! The motor skills is the hard one to decide since his body is also going through withdraws and has involuntary moments due to that. I read until my eyes are crying to be shut.

"Goodnight Finn, I love you and tomorrow I'm going to Redbox and check us out a few movies and tomorrow its going to be the best date ever! I promise…I wish I knew you could hear me." I take his hand in mine and look into his eyes before one last kiss for tonight.

" Bu-u-t yo-oo-u st-oop Lo-ve"

I jump out of his bed and run to tell his nurse he just moved up to level 4, when I come back with her with me he's laying there with his eyes closed but his mouth moving.

"F-ig-gg-ht mo-ooooo-re"

I cant help but smile of course " But you stop love" and Fight more" doesn't make any sense but it means that part of him is trying to break though, confused conversation, level 4 has to be my favorite so far. I get back in position next to him and listen to him struggle to say random words that make no sense until I start to fall asleep, he's coming back to me.. I knew he'd never break his promise.

So.. Finn had a little to say this chapter its said that some people are just trapped when they are in a coma and with him being knocked out so much from abuse I figured he would see the two like they are the same, I hope you guys get that he's talking like that because his head is so scrambled the words are coming out slow and incorrect. but I love me some finchel and I needed them to feel that connection..

Disclaimer. nothing is mine but the storyline.

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