Chapter 9
So thanks for all of your guys suggestions. I really liked a few of them. The course of the story will be a surprise, but if you suggested something you will probably know, but I will incorporate some other things so everyone can be surprised.
I don't own anything. I only own Sierra and Beth Crowley owns I am not nothing. (You should listen to it. It is awesome.)
I am standing at the airport waiting for Sierra to come out. I just couldn't wait to see her. As I was thinking this I see her coming out of the airport. I roll down the window of my truck and yell Sierra! She looks over and smiles. Once we get her bag into the car we drive home. We had about an hour to talk in the car.
She asks how the school is here and I say "it's only been 2 days, but the guys are dicks and the girls are bitches. Except for a few, but the rest are fucking shit" I say.
"That's nice. School has been shit since you left"
"Oh, I'm sorry about that. Anyways how are you?" I ask.
"Fine. Missing you though. By the way what is going on with the bitch that left you?" She asked.
"I went over to her house and yelled at her, accidentally revealed what she has been doing to me and made friends with her sibling" I rattled off.
"Have you told Charlie what she did?" Sierra asks.
"No, if I did I would have to then go forward and tell the police. And in a small town, word gets around. Fast. I don't want any sympathy on what has happened to me" I reply heatedly.
"OK. I get it" she says. After that we just chatter on about anything and nothing. By the time we get home, we have exhausted a lot of topics. Once home, it is around 8, so we eat breakfast. It was more of Sierra eating and me picking at my food. By the time she was done, I had only eaten one bite and I was full.
"You need to eat more Bells" she says sternly.
"I know, but going weeks without eating has made it to where I eat once and I am good for a long while" "When was the last time you ate?" she asked.
"A few days ago" I responded.
"You need to eat more! You must be so underweight. How much do you weigh now? And be truthful" Sierra says.
"I actually don't know" I replied. "Let's find out"
So we go upstairs to my bathroom and see the scale. 72 flashes on the tiny screen. I was really underweight.
"See that? You have got to eat more. 72 pounds is the weight of a freaking 10 year old! Your 17! You shouldn't weigh that much" Sierra yells.
"I know, I am working on it. I just need to eat more often. Although I have the tendency to forget to eat. Whoops" I mutter.
"You need like a feeding schedule Bells. Like you start eating more frequently then start to slowly build up to 3 meals a day. I'll help you too. Also, tell your dad. He can help you"
"No, if I were to tell Charlie then he would make me eat everything 3 times a day. Then I would have to explain to him why I don't eat all that often. That would lead to the abuse and then he would make me do police report. I don't want to do that. Word would spread and I don't need people knowing my business." I repeated.
"Ok so we aren't going to do the police report, but now let's talk about your eating schedule. You should try for lunch every other day."
"That's too much! Can we do lunch every 3-4 days? Like that is reasonable, right?"
"Fine, I concede. While I am here I will help you and make sure you stay on schedule. Then when you are at school have someone that you made friends with make sure you eat"
"Um, I don't want anyone in this town to know what I have been through, the only people that know are the Cullens" I spit the name.
"Then make friends with one of them and get them to help you eat" Sierra says, exasperated. "Even if you hate one of them, it doesn't mean you have to hate all of them"
"Fine. I made sorta friends with one of them yesterday. I will ask later if she could maybe help" I finally sigh.
"Ok, depressing stuff over with, let's watch some movies!" Sierra squeals happily. I could see why though. I was excited too. We would always just watch movies and then make odd comments about it and we normally agree, which ends in a fit of giggles. I could always forget what my problems were whenever we did that; and no one else lets us just start randomly talking during movies. We start with Harry Potter the Goblet of Fire, my favorite one. Then it was Sierras pick and we watched Underworld: Rise of the Lykens. Also one of my favorites. Then we watched the Hunger games. In my opinion the book was way better. It gave a more detailed background of the characters and why they are like how they are. I told this to Sierra and she didn't agree ate all. She said that the movie was awesome because some stuff in the book you just can't imagine. We just agreed to disagree. After our small little spat we started watching Lost Girl on Netflix. After about 7 episodes it was midnight so we agreed to go to bed. We ended up in the same bed. I woke up to Sierras arms around me, I looked at the clock and it was only 7:30, so I went back to sleep. We woke up again at 9 and Sierra ate breakfast. After that I wanted to show her what new songs I had been working on. I showed her Never Forget You then played another son that I came up with. It was called I Am Not Nothing.
No one ever made me feel as small as you did
No one made me feel as cursed
I'd lie awake in bed just staring at the ceiling
Wondering if things would get worse
I was trapped under your thumb
Believing when you called it love
But I will forgive myself
And start to let it go
Accept that who you chose to be
Was out of my control
And though it might be hard
To begin again
I'll write myself a brand new story
With a happy end
I survived
So tonight
I am taking back my life
And I'll show you
That I am not nothing
I kept my head above the water
'Til the moment when all the elements aligned
And I could fly away to heal my broken spirit
And leave my demons far behind
You always said that I was weak
But the bravest thing I did was leave
So I will forgive myself
And start to let it go
Accept that who you chose to be
Was out of my control
And though it might be hard
To begin again
I'll write myself a brand new story
With a happy end
I survived
So tonight
I am taking back my life
And I'll show you
That I am not nothing
Looking up at the sky
I think I see the start of a sunrise
And I will forgive myself
And start to let it go
Accept that who you chose to be
Was out of my control
And though it might be hard
To begin again
I'll write myself a brand new story
With a happy end
I survived
So tonight
I am taking back my life
And I'll show you
That I am not nothing
I'll show you
That I am not nothing
I played this one on the piano. Sierra looked like she loved it. But I still had to ask, that is how insecure I was about my singing.
"That was amazing Bells. Just remember, you are not ever nothing" she says with so much love I just have to believe her.
"I love you, you know" I whisper.
"As I you" she responds.
Sorry for not updating on so long. I just really didn't have the motivation. Plus I was busy with a new project I am starting on. Also, I made a new story. Read it please. It is called A Surprise. I will probably update by next Wednesday. I really need to make a schedule. I'll conjure one by the next time I update. Anyways sorry still.
Also, thanks for the 7k reads/views. I really appreciate them. They motivate me to keep going.
-Klutzy Stone Heart