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Chapter nine

"Ummm well Edward's kind of my older brother." She whispered.

"Alice what do you mean he's your brother! Why have you never told me?" I shouted.

"Bella please I'm so sorry, Edward's actually my half brother, remember, I told you about him and that my mom was married to his dad first but when his dad died my mum met my dad Carlisle and then had me. The reason you never met him was by the time we were friends he was already away off to college and we never seen him for that whole time because he was too absorbed in Jane" She yelled back.

"I know that, I did put the pieces together about that one Alice I'm not that dense. I meant why the hell, did you not tell me that your older brother was going to be my new lit teacher or was that just not that important to you." I sighed.

"It was just, once Edward found out I was your best friend he promised me to keep quiet about it. I suppose that he didn't want the fact that he's your best friend's brother to be added to the list of why he couldn't have you."

She continued,

"But Bella please, having me know will be a good thing in the long run. I'm his sister and your best friend I promise I wont even tell Jasper scouts honour." She said as she raised her little hand in the air.

I laughed.

"Alice it's not that I'm not glad you know, but do you honestly think I will go back to him and say to him 'lets start an affair' I'm not that girl I wont let myself be that girl, besides the way he spoke to me was hurtful he treated me like I was nothing to him. What I did was a big mistake I know it will be something that I'll never forget and I will have to live with that, but I had sex with him Alice! And he treated me like shit, it hurts Alice it really fucking hurts, I just can't forgive him knowing that he can hurt me like that." I sobbed.

I felt Alice shift her weight was that we were sitting shoulder to shoulder, I looked at her as she wrapped her arm around me.

"Bella I know that he's a complete ass, but he does care for you I just know he does, I mean he told me he did. You should have seen his face after that class with you. It was like he had seen the light for the first time in five years Bella, he has fallen for you. You just need to understand, Edward is very dramatic, and why do you think he became a literature teacher for crying out loud. All I know is that right now he's probably freaking out knowing that he was mean or hurtful to you in anyway." she chuckled.

"I just don't know what to do anymore Alice, I mean he's married with a daughter, also he's 28 years old and my teacher, God why do things have to be so fucked up"

I lay down on my bed, closing my eyes. I felt Alice's body lay down beside me rubbing circular motions into my back as I sobbed into my pillow.

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I awoke the next morning to the scent of coffee and bacon filling my room. I opened my eyes and saw that it was already one in the afternoon. I rolled myself out of bed dragging myself downstairs. I guess I was going to have a lazy Sunday today if I had to face him tomorrow.

I was greeted by Alice in the kitchen this really was a rare sight Alice in an apron with a frying pan in her hand, can anyone else yell Kodak moment. She skipped over kissing me on the cheek.

"Good afternoon sleepy head, sleep well I hope, because you sleep like the dead." she laughed.

"Very funny Alice...now about this breakfast, when do you ever make breakfast for anyone?" I asked with raised eyebrows.

"What do you mean Bella; this is my breakfast spectacular." she joked.

I sat down at the table whilst Alice served me up bacon and eggs with a side of coffee. Although, I was thankful for the breakfast I wondered what this was all about.

"Alice, not that I'm not grateful or anything, but why did you make me breakfast?" I questioned.

"I knew you wouldn't be up to cooking after last night ...and.....you're going to need all the energy you can get if you want to toy with my brother tomorrow."

"Alice what have you been up to while I was asleep?" I asked as I spotted the shopping bags across the kitchen.

"I only bought a few things for you, look do you want to make my brother beg on his knees for forgiveness or not?"

Of course I wanted that, I know I sound like a teenage girl right now and usually I wouldn't allow this sort of behaviour especially from myself, but hey what have I got to loose.

"Fine I will Alice, but only because I have nothing to lose when it comes to him now." I sighed as I shoved scrambled eggs into my mouth.

"Thank you Bella." she squealed, she was actually jumping up and down clapping her hands. I sighed, knowing that I had just unleashed the beast.

Alice was staying over tonight too in order to help me get ready. So we spent the rest of the day talking about her and Jasper and how she and Jasper had been caught by Mrs. Hale on top of the washing machine, let's just say she was not amused that they were having sex on her pride and joy.

We had made it an early night as Alice wanted her beauty sleep if we were going to have to wake up at six to start with my make over.

We were awoken by the drilling noise of my alarm going off I pulled my blanket over my head hoping that the noise would just go away and let me sleep. Suddenly, I was greeted by cold air hitting my legs. Alice was already up and waiting for me.

"Come on Bella you have English for second period this morning now move your butt into that shower, the quicker you get up the quicker this will be over with."

I stumbled out of bed to have Alice shove a bag into my hands as I made my way to the bathroom.

I let the water run down over my skin awaking me to the smells of strawberry and lemons. I had decided to mix it up a little bit today as I decided to use the lemon bath wash. I hopped out of the shower grabbing my towel and wrapped it around my body as I started to brush my teeth.

Once I was dry I looked into the bag Alice gave me to be greeted by a bra set. Well more like a pile of lace set if I was honest. The set was a midnight blue with a half cup bra and black lace underwear to match. I sighed as I pulled them on, and made my way back into my room.

As soon as I entered the room Alice pulled me down on my chair and started to work away at my hair, she let my hair dry naturally and then began curling random sections of my hair to give it that messy look. I knew that Alice would keep things simple for me knowing that I couldn't handle all that fuss. My makeup was beautiful as well; she framed my eyes with big thick dark lashes and gave me a complexion of roses and cream. I have to say I didn't look plain for once.

"Bella I'm all done now, your outfit is hanging on the door I'm away to get a shower and to get dressed will you be ok to get ready on your own." she questioned.

"Yes Aly, I think I can handle it, but if I get stuck will you come and help me...oh come on give me some credit!" I huffed.

"Fine whatever Bell's just be ready to leave in 15 minutes." She said as she wondered out the door.

I pulled on the outfit she had bought and wondered over to my mirror preparing myself for the worst.

Huh, I actually don't look all that bad. I had a pair of skinny jeans on with a tight blue vest top with a pair of quilted pumps and a boyfriend blazer. I liked it, it was perfect, and it was casual yet elegant. I grabbed my bag running downstairs to be greeted by Alice ready and waiting.

"How did you get ready so quickly?" I asked.

"I guess it's a gift, now let's get your skinny ass to school, before we're late." She answered as she pushed me towards the door down the steps and into her car.

I sat through Spanish counting down the minutes. I had about seven minutes to go now, thank God, even though I was mad at him I didn't care, I could look at him. I hoped that my new look went down well with him, I mean the rest of the male population seemed to love it especially Mike Newton, god that boy is vile. I suppose that the tight vest top including the bra give me a good cleavage, even though I didn't even have much to begin with.

I tapped my pen nervously against my desk I had about two and a half minutes to go. I knew that I would have to copy Alice's notes later because I had no clue what Miss. Rogers was talking about right now.

I gathered up my things knowing that I had about a minute until the bell went. I watched the hand tick ever so slowly around the clock.

5,4,3,2,1 with that the bell rang and I sprung out of my seat.

"Have fun Bell's, and remember don't pay him any attention." She whispered to me.

Nodding, I made my way out of the language building and towards English. That's when I realized that I had left my Jane Eyre book in my locker. I ran towards the maths corridor hoping that I could cut through the corridors into the English building.

As I ran up to my locker, I realized that I had managed to bump straight into someone, knocking their papers all over the floor. I reached toward the ground as I picked up all the papers and bundled them into my arms.

"I'm so sorry, really I am, its just I'm late for class and I forgot my books." I stopped right there to be greeted by him.

"Bella?" He looked shocked. I had took off my blazer while running, revealing my tight top underneath. I watched him as his eyes made there way up and down my frame.

"Mr Cullen." I turned around opening my locker grabbing my book and walked towards English leaving him standing behind me...hopefully speechless.

I hurried into my seat, knowing that he hadn't been too far behind me.

A few seconds later he entered the classroom, but this time I was able to take in his appearance, he wasn't as neat as usual, he had a five o'clock shadow and his bronzed locks were messy and flopping down over his forehead; he looked a mess.

I could feel my heart sink as I watched him he looked torn up, sad. It was like someone had pulled him apart. Truth be told that's the way I felt right now but I know how to hide my feelings I know how to hide behind a mask.

After about five minutes he finally raised his head from his hands.

"Class please read on silently for this lesson" he mumbled. Something was definitely up he was always so confident he never mumbled never.

For the whole class I just watched him, never once raising his head from his hands.

I looked up at the clock seeing that there was only five minutes left of this class. I buried my head into my book and started to read. I heard someone come up to my desk, but I just ignored it, I knew if I even saw him like that again I would crumble.

From the corner of my eye I saw an essay sitting at the corner of my desk. Damn it I knew I should of looked up! I flipped to the back to see yet another A grade circled in red pen, with yet another note.

Bella,

Please stay after class, my behaviour was uncalled for I'm a mess without you I need to explain.

Edward.

I looked up to see him staring at me. He was heartbreaking at this moment in time .So I nodded my head in agreement. Looks like my plan is out the window.

With that the bell rang ending this class. I watched as everyone filed out of the classroom, until it was only he and I left. I saw him get up from behind his desk and go to shut the door.

I didn't move from my seat.

"Bella, please speak to me, are you ok can you ever forgive me for what I said to you?" he pleaded.

I made my way up to the front of the room to face him.

"Edward give me one good reason why I should, I gave you something that meant something to me and all you did was stamp and crushed it...crush me. I know that Jane was back .But why did you have to speak to me that way. I was hiding in your closet for the love of God. Do you know how dirty that made me feel?" I yelled.

I looked down at the ground, waiting for him to answer.

"Bella my love I'm sorry I did that and I do realize what happened between us. I knew I shouldn't have taken my anger out on you, but I did and I'm sorry for that. I'm not perfect Bella I make mistakes. I was mad at her for ruining that moment we had, but after you left I realized that I had ruined it ,and it made my crazy thinking I could ever hurt you in that way. You are so caring and sweet and now I have ruined you and for that I'm truly sorry." He said as he lifted my chin to meet his eyes.

"Edward, I just don't know if I can you really did hurt me, how can I know you won't do it again, I mean what would this be between us an affair, I can't do that I can't be the home wrecker I just can't."

I pulled myself away from him knowing that nothing could happen between us not while he was still married, not when he was still with her.

I reached for the door handle, hoping to get out before he could suck me back in, but he called my name one last time I turned around to see him standing there with agonizing eyes.

"Bella, please....I Bella I love you." he whispered.

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