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"Alex?" I barley choke out.

"Mer, I'm at dinner with Jo. I'll call you later. Okay?"

"Alex, wait." I cry out this time, barely able to hold myself together.

"Mer? Are you okay?" His voice changes to concern when he hears me crying.

"I-I.." I trail off, not even wanting to finish that sentence.

"Mer, tell me what's wrong. You are worrying me."

"Alex, I-I am having a miscarriage." Is all I can say before I completely break down in tears.

"Mer, I'm on my way." Is the last thing I hear before the line disconnects. With tears streaming down my face, I grab some clothes to change into later, put on a jacket and head down the stairs. I'm about halfway down when Alex bursts through the doors.

"Mer, let's go. I'm taking you to the hospital now!" He grabbed my purse and helped me into his car after putting a towel down. He quickly backed up out of the driveway, and started toward the hospital.

"Mer, you and Peanut are going to be fine. We caught it this time." He told my hand and gave it a light squeeze.

"No, no." I barley choked out.

"No what, Mer?" He looked between me and the road several times.

"Go to Seattle Pres." I replied sharply, as a wave of pain came over me.

"Mer, Grey-Sloan is closer." He said softly.

"I don't care! I don't want people to know my business! We all know that Grey-Sloan is a gossip mill!" I yell, becoming even more upset. Alex just glances at me, and he is also very upset. "Sorry. Can we please go Seattle Pres?"

"If that's what you want, then yes."

"Thank you." I barley whisper.

Nathan's POV

As I pulled into a parking spot at the hospital, I saw one of the two people I wanted to avoid toady. Meredith. Her and Alex were getting out of her car, at heading toward the hospital doors. I pretend not to see them as I get out, but it's obvious that she noticed me are moved faster toward the hospital, probably avoiding me. I didn't really know why she was avoiding me, but I know I was avoiding her because of the whole Megan and Teddy thing. I hadn't known they were friends, or even that they knew each other, so it was very awkward when she found out.

Once I was through the hospital doors, I saw Amelia coming my way.

"Riggs, how ya feeling?" She asked once she got closer.

"My leg is still a little sore, but I can walk on it now without crutches, if I don't do it for very long."

"No, I meant with M-"

I quickly cut her off, not wanting to talk about it. "I'm fine, really. Great even."

"Okay. Just checking."

I quickly walk away, not wanting to talk to Amelia anymore. Although at the moment, she seemed like my only friend. Owen found out about Teddy and I, and is very upset about it since she was his friend too, Meredith has been avoiding me, and Kepner and I just haven't talked much lately.

I barley step into the attending's lounge before I hear a faint sniffle. Whoever it was didn't hear me come in, and continues crying. I can't quite see who it's is because of how dark it is, but I can definitely tell it's female. I walk softly toward her before saying anything.

"Hey, are you alright?" And she immediately jumps up and spins around 'cause I startled her. That's when I realize who the half-dressed woman is. Meredith.

"I-I was just getting dressed." She reaches for her scrub top, which is laying on the couch next to where she was sitting. I can't help myself but look at her gorgeous body before she puts her shirt on. She already has her scrub pants on, and it looks like she is about to run away from me.

"I see that, but you were also crying. Are you okay?" I ask and take a step closer to her.

She takes a step back, and wipes her eyes. "I'm fine."

"Meredith-"

"You don't need to check on me okay? I am an adult. I told you I was fine. Now I have to go do a consult, so goodbye Doctor Riggs." She snapped and darted out of the attending's lounge.

That stung. She obviously wasn't fine, and I was trying to help comfort her. I try to figure out what went wrong between us. We were fine as friends until the Teddy thing, but she still seemed okay after that. Was there something else bothering her that I should know about? I doesn't matter right now away, seeing as there was a car accident and I was being paged to the pit.

I hurried down there as fast as could, which wasn't very fast since a I was crippled. I look at my pager and see that the trauma is trauma room five. I walk in to Wilson checking him out. I looked to see his stats were normal and he was intubated. I glance over the chart. I look up to and realize there is a shard of glass in his chest, possibly puncturing a lung, and also one in his lower abdomen. I listen to his breath sounds, and wonder how his stats were normal at the moment.

"There is free fluid the belly!" Wilson shouts. His stats won't stay normal for long.

"Page general, and another cardio please." didn't want to be stuck on another case with Meredith, nor did I want to be standing for hours seeing as my leg was already throbbing.

"I paged general and cardio, and there is an OR ready. They said they would meet us up there."

"Alright let's get ready to move!" I yell, getting every one's attention. Once we begin moving, they are moving too fast for me to keep up so I just hop on as they push the gurney toward the elevator. Before the elevator doors shut, Meredith slips in. She now has her hair pulled back and looks like she normally does, not like she has been crying 15 minutes earlier.

"What do we-" She stopped when she noticed the glass shards that were impaling the patient. "We aren't gonna have time to scrub."

"But you are going to have to wait on cardio." Wilson adds.

Meredith turns to look at me. "Riggs is cardio. We are not waiting."

"Well Riggs made it seem like he didn't want to scrub in." Wilson said, crossing her arms.

"Riggs is right here." I but in.

"You don't want to scrub in?" Meredith sounded offended, like she was the reason that I wasn't scrubbing in. I mean, she partly is, but I would never tell her that to her face.

"No. My leg is throbbing, so I don't want to stand for hours and make it worse."

I saw her eyes soften a little. "Oh okay. Well can you start until the other cardio gets here?"

"Of course. I just hope they don't take too long." I smile softly.

It wasn't long before the three of us were in the OR, working to save this man's life. Meredith removes the shard from the abdomen, and all hell breaks loose. Blood is spaying everywhere, and monitors are going crazy. Suddenly, his heart stops.

"Grab a crash cart!" She yells. I start compressions while she goes to the other side and gets the paddles. "Charge to 150!"

I get a few more compressions again before she yells clear. We wait a second to see if the is any change. "No change, charge again!" This goes on for several minutes before I am out of breath and realize this guy is to far gone.

"Doctor Grey, time of death."

"No, charge again!" She snaps, and I can see the tears building in her eyes. I reach across the table and grab her slim wrists.

"Meredith, this guy is already gone." I say quietly, and let go of her wrists. She puts the paddles down and storms out of the OR. "Time of death, 11:53." I say, before hobbling to the scrub room to scrub out. Meredith is already in there, and clearly very upset.

"I can tell the family if you would like." I say softly.

"No, I'll go with you." She replies, and wipes the tears from her eyes.

I just nodded in response, and followed her to the family waiting room. There was one family, a mom with her kids sleeping nearby.

We quickly told them what had happened, and that we tried to do our best to save him but he was to far gone. We decided to leave them to grieve, so Meredith and I walked down the hall. I noticed an open on call room, and put my hand on her back to lead her to it. I wanted to talk to her to make sure she was alright.

Somewhere in the middle of us getting in the on-call room and shutting the door, our lips collided. I wasn't even sure who started, but I sure wasn't going to stop it. I pushed her up against the door and cupped her cheeks with my hands. She put her hands on my chest. My tongue slid along her bottom lip, and she pushed me away.

"Nathan," She said breathlessly. "What's going on?" I wasn't sure, so I just pressed my lips against hers again. One thing I did realize when she pulled away, was how much I missed kissing her. My hands fell down to her hips, bringing them closer to mine. This time she didn't push me away, she just broke the kiss. "Nathan?" She asked.

I just looked at her beautiful features, and now swollen lips and wondered where I went wrong. "Megan and I," I paused, wanting to say the right thing. "She wants a break from me." I say, and I see Meredith eyes full of pity. I once again bring my lips to hers, being a little rougher this time. She didn't object either. I didn't want Meredith anymore. I needed her. My hands moved her hip right next to mine, once again. I deepened the kiss, surprised she actually let me. I begin to tug at the bottom of her scrub top. Once I did that, she shoved me off of her.

"I-I can't do this." She stutters, putting her hands to her lips to cover the fact that they are swollen. She quickly runs out of the on-call room, too fast for me to keep up. So, I decide just lay down in the on call room, and think about how I messed every relationship I've had up.

It wasn't until I was back in the attending's lounge did I see Meredith again. I ran right into her, knocking her purse out of her hands and everything spilling out of it. I mutter an "I'm sorry" and she just ignores it as I help her clean it up. I had her the last of what fell out, she says thank you and scurried out of the lounge. I notice another piece of paper that flew under the couch, so I pick up. I try not to be nosy, but I notice it's an ultrasound photo. That could be why she has been so upset. She probably is missing Derek like hell right now. I wouldn't blame her for reminiscing about the good ol' days before everything got crappy, and I assume her pregnancy was one of the good things. I shove the picture in my bag, a decide I will give it to her later.

Meredith's POV

"Alex, we kissed. Like kissed, kissed. We could have done things if I hadn't stopped it." I rant to Alex.

"Well why didn't you then?" He questions, even though he already knows the answer.

"Because I still haven't told him." I bite my lip. I had been meaning to tell him, but it turned into me avoiding him instead.

"Well, was the kiss any good?" He asks.

"I don't even know how to explain it. I don't even know who started the damn kiss!"

"So it was good?" He smirks.

"Shut up." I say, crossing my arms.

"You still want him." He says back.

"I know."

"So, you have to tell him." Alex insists.

"I know."

"Stop saying I know, and go do it!" Alex said sternly.

2 Days Later ...

Nathan's POV

Meredith had successfully avoided me for two days. I really didn't know what was with her. Here I was, sitting in the attending's lounge, waiting for her to come in. But she never did. I decide I will just leave the picture in her little locker thing. I grab it out of my bag, but something catches my eye. The date. It was dated for four days earlier. It took me a second to piece it together. Her moodiness, avoiding me, the throwing up for a while, were all because she is pregnant? I felt tears come to my eyes. I was going to be a father! I looked at the little picture, and how tiny the little baby was, and the fact that it didn't look like a baby at all. I also notice where she wrote on the corner "8 weeks along". Then it hits me again. The only time recently when we weren't careful. The plane. A smile came across my lips. I couldn't believe it. I was going to be a father! I just wonder when Meredith was going to tell me. Or how long has she known? I decide to have a nurse page her to the attending's lounge, but not tell her why.

A few minutes later, an out of breath Meredith comes rushing through the door. "I was paged 911-" She paused when she noticed me. "Are you alright? Did you page me?"

"Yeah, I did." I stepped closer to her, so we weren't yelling across the room.

"Um, why? Are you alright?" She questions.

"I'm fine." I try not to smile.

She stares at me for a moment. "I have patients Nathan, you can't page me for no reason."

"I know."

"So, why did you page me then?" She asks, and had finally caught her breath.

"I uh, think I should give this back to you." I held my hands behind my back, not wanting to give it to her just yet. I wanted to see if she would say the words first.

"Give me what?" She asked, and you could see the curiosity on her face.

"Something that I found under the chair two days ago, after you dropped your purse. You left so quickly or I would have given it back already."

She steps closer. "Well give it to me then."

I decide to give it to her anyways. When I pull my hand from behind my back, her eyes instantly get huge.

"N-Nathan..." She trails off before grabbing it from my hands.

"When were you going to tell me that you are pregnant?" I ask, getting serious now.

"I don't know, honestly." She says in barley a whisper.

"You are pregnant." Is all I say.

"Well not anymore..." She keeps her eyes glued to the floor.

"Not anymore? Is that what you said?" I ask, unsure if I heard her correctly.

"Y-yes." Is all she responds.

"YOU GOT RID OF IT? YOU GOT ROD OF IT WITHOUT EVEN TALKING TO ME FIRST?" I screamed, causing her to jump. My heart started to race. I was going to be a father. Going to be. Then she got rid of it. I felt tears coming to my eyes.

Meredith looked up to say something, but before she could say anything I pushed past her and went as fast I could down the hallway. I could hear her calling my name, but I just ignored it. I have never felt so betrayed by her before. That's why she took off two days of work, and avoided me for two more. Because she had an abortion and didn't tell me. I quickly made it to my car, and started driving to the nearest bar.

Ooo, Nathan assumed stuff. But hey, he did find out about the pregnancy...

I started school, so the updates are going to be slower. Sorry! :(