Chapter 10

Tris' POV

The last song, Dead Inside, ends with the crowd roaring at cheering extremely loudly. I clutch onto Tyler's hand ad we weave our way out of the stadium and back to his car.

"How'd you like it?" He asks me as I sit into the passenger seat.

"I freaking loved it! They were so good." I exclaim loudly aware of how loud the music was that caused my ears to hear everything a lot quieter than it really is.

"You don't have to yell."

"What?!" I ask.

"You don't have to-never mind." He shakes his head with a grin on his face.

"Okay." My finger entwined with his free hand while the other grips tightly around the steering wheel. He keeps his eyes focused on the road but I stare at his features.

Shaggy brown hair, turquoise eyes, cute cheek bones.

"Why are your staring at me?" He asks without looking at me.

"You're just so cute." I poke his cheek.

"Cute? I can't be cute. I'm flawless." He poses with his right hand.

I laugh. "Thank you for bringing me to this concert. I had an amazing time with you."

He smiles, a big genuine smile and my heart stings. He looks just like Tobias when he smiles...

"You okay there?"

"Yeah, fine." I smile just to reassure him.

He drops me off home when we reach my house. Ty walks me to the front door before and kisses me on the cheek once more.

"Thank you again." I say.

"It was my pleasure. I'll see you soon." My arms wrap around his torso and I bury my face in his chest. "I love you." I hear.

"You too." I pull back. "Night."

"Goodnight." I walk back to my room and crash instantly with the imagine of his smile.

His smile.

Tobias.

Three years ago...

"You shouldn't be drinking that." Tobias points to the cup of champaign in my hand.

"Eh, technically I am an "adult"." I defend.

"Just because it's your bat-mitzvah doesn't mean you should be drinking illegally." He takes the cup from my hands.

"Fine."

"Here." He takes my hand. "Come with me."

After the synagogue celebration, everyone came over to a large building for parties that my parents are renting.

Tobias leads me outside of the building and tells me to sit on the fountain side.

"What are we doing here?" I ask.

"I have a present for you." He takes an aquamarine rectangular box out of his inside suit pocket and places it on his lap. He takes out the lip and reveals and silver necklace with a crown pendant.

"Tiffany & Co? What the hell Tobias that must have been expensive. I can't take that, you didn't have to buy that for-" I ramble.

"I wanted to. Here, turn around and stop rambling." I reluctantly make and one-eighty turn with my body and face away from him while lifting up my hair.

The cool metal makes contact with my skin and I lift my arms to feel the pendant.

"It's beautiful. Thank you Tobias, really, you didn't have to." I tell him sincerely.

"It was my pleasure." He kisses my cheek and offers his hand to go back to the party. A tingle of warmth burns where he kissed me and I have to hide a blush.

Whether I like it or not. I like Tobias Eaton. I like him, a lot.

Present Day (three years later)...

"I have a major problem." I slam both my hands on the table causing Mar and Chris to jump.

"Oh dear. What kind of problem?" Christina gives me her full attention.

"Major girl issues."

"Shoot." Mar instructs.

"This has been bugging me all week. Tyler looks exactly like Tobias when he smiles." I burst.

"No he doesn't." Chis defends. "I don't know what your thinking but-"

I cut her off by screaming, "TY!"

He turns away from his friends, we're at a party at Christina's house with most of the grade. She wanted to throw a party during Christmas Eve.

He looks for where the source of his name being called and when he catches that I was the one who called him, I wave at him. Tyler smiles at me and waves back.

"Holy shit. How did we not see that before?" Chris mouth is slightly open.

"And every time I look at him, I can't help think of Tobias."

"Okay, okay don't panic." Mar tries to calm me down.

"Are you only dating him because he resembled to Tobias?" Chris asks curiously.

"What?! No! Of course not!" I defend. "I love Tyler and he loves me."

"What's his favorite color?"

"Blue."

"Video game?"

"Halo."

"Movie?"

"Toy Story."

"Wow, you really are hopeless." Mar and Chris shake their heads. "Those are all Tobias' favorite stuff."

"No they're- fuck!" I want to kill myself.

"That doesn't mean any-" I start.

"Tris." Chris says in a warning tone. Her eyes narrow into slits at me. "What happened?"

"What do you mean?"

"You had no problem dealing without Tobias for over a year and now suddenly he comes crashing back into your life." Chris says.

"Oh my god, that's so true now that I realize." Mar exclaims.

"Nothing happened." Lies.

"Tris."

"Nothing happened!" I bite my lip.

"Tris." This time it's Marlene.

"He almost kissed me." I blurt and then slap a hand over my mouth.

"What? When? How? What?"

"At the dance." I say bluntly not wanting to go to detail. "It's been on my mind since."

"Details girl!"

"He asked me to dance and then he leaned in, but I pulled back before anything could happen."

Marlene bicker to each other silently before saying something to me.

"You like him."

"No I don't."

"Tris, honey-"

"I'm happily in a relationship." I defend.

"I don't-" I stop myself from saying anything. No, no! I do not like Tobias Eaton. He's a fucking asshole that should go die in a hole. It's not my fault that he turned into a snobby fuckboy. He changed. He fucking changed and left me alone.

"I don't like him."

Stop lying to yourself, Tris.

" You miss his dark blue eyes. You missed how every times he used to smile at you you would gush over his dimples. You missed his corny jokes he would always share with you just to make you laugh." Marlene explains.

And I do.

"I'm going." I start to leave. I hate that a little part of me says they're right. They give me a knowing look.

"Oh shut up. It's complicated, okay?" I leave without a second thought.

"I thought I'd find you here." A voice says from behind me.

"Why are you here? I'm trying to have some alone time." My eyes are closed as a lean against a tree near my favorite thinking spot- the pond.

"I saw you walking out of the party looking a little...flustered."

"Tobias, why are you really here?" I turn to where he is standing.

"I wanted to talk." He plops himself next to me.

"There's not much to talk about."

"Sure there is. You know, I've been thinking about you, a lot." He tells me. "Well more than I usually do. I mean I don't always think about you. That would be a little creepy. Yeah, I don't- so I've been thinking about you a lot lately." My heart flutters a tiny bit.

"Really?" I act cool.

"Yeah. I really like you Tris." He admits. "A lot and I didn't admit it then but I'm going to admit it now. I've liked you since the eighth grade. I know I was a total douchebag and all, but I just need to get it out of the way. I know I dated Lauren freshman year but that meant nothing to me-" I almost laugh.

"You told her you loved her like a month into your relationship." I narrow my eyes. "Oh yeah you even told me that to my face while you supposedly "had feelings for me"? Tobias, I don't-"

"Please, just listen. I can't stop thinking about you. I've haven't stopped since the day I messed up. Even when I date Lauren, the only thing I looked forward to was seeing you. You, Tris. I-I love you, okay? I fucking love you."

It's my turn to be silent. "Okay." I finally say. "But I can't. I have a boyfriend. I-I- I'm sorry. I should go."

"You can't keeping running away. Can't you see it hurts every time you do?" He pleads.

"What do you want me to do, huh? Kiss you and make everything go back to normal? I'm not that type of person, Tobias! I have a boyfriend. And which ever I choose, whatever I do will end in broken hearts. I'm sorry if this isn't how you wanted this to end, but I just don't-"

"Can we at least be friends?" His voice is barely over a whisper.

Can I do that? Can I go back to being friends with someone who constantly made me feel terrible? Can I forgive him?

"I'll think about it."

The walk back to my house is quiet and calming. I got a fair amount my to time to decipher what had just happened. I really don't know what I'm going to do. I don't.

When I make my way back to my room to finally get a good nights sleep, there's a rectangular aquamarine colored box sitting in the center.

I close my eyes.

Tiffany & Co. I hold up the necklace and examine the pendant. It's has silver metal that swirls around into an oval like shape.

He's going to be the death of me, that boy.

Merry Christmas

It says.

-TE

A/N: I'm not Jewish, so if I got anything wrong, I'm so sorry. Don't kill me. Can I just say, I am super excited because I will be turning fourteen on Wednesday! *does happy dance* But is makes me really sad as well because my grandma passed away on my birthday last year, so of course we didn't celebrate my b-day, we were all mourning for her. I started summer camp on Monday at it's from 8:30 and I don't come home until around six, so I've been lacking.I got a laptop! Yay! Anyways, I hoped you guys enjoy and I will see you real soon! Make sure to comment, vote, review, whatever, I really like the nice things you say, it really makes my day. Love you! Bye!