Sorry for the no updating…writers block is the worst. Also yay for Eclare in Still fighting it :)

Clare's POV

I was sitting in the normal spot I normally eat at with Eli, he said he wanted to introduce me to someone he went to the concert with. I figured I probably already knew him/her seeing as I knew most people at Degrassi, but I agreed anyways.

I saw Eli walk over with a girlish looking boy in baggy clothes and a beanie.

"Clare this is my amazingly awesome new friend Adam and Adam this is my amazingly awesome girlfriend Clare," He says sitting down next to me.

"Hey Adam how was the Dead Hand concert?" I ask nicely to him, he seemed shy. Thought that might loosen him up a bit. I knew Sav got murdered for stealing the car, I figured Eli and Adam had something to do with that I just haven't said anything about that to them.

"It was epic!" Adam says happily, almost in the same tone Eli used. I could see why they were friends.

"The best part was Bianca getting busted for underage drinking, I thought you would enjoy that that part," Eli smiles at me. I do, I hate that girl.

"Really, wow that is amazing Eli! Did you two get in trouble? I know Sav got in huge trouble by his parents." I say kind of curious and worried.

"Naw, they let us off. We didn't steal a car or drink underage we were just there, although how do you know Sav?" I roll my eyes at Eli.

"Really? Are you that stupid, he is school president plus he is Alli's older brother. I knew you had something to do with the car stealing it was so out of character for him," I smile at my persuasive boyfriend and our new friend who I don't know well enough to accuse of anything.

"Ouch Clare how dare you accuse me of being an influence on anyone," He smirks back at me and Adam rolls his eyes at us.

"I am new I don't know how to be a bad influence on anyone," Adam says innocently.

"Don't act so innocent Adam," Eli says accidently, all three of us burst out laughing.

"What is so funny?" Alli comes sitting next to us.

"Nothing," I say as we all stop laughing, "Alli this is Adam, Adam this is Alli"

"Your Drew's step brother right?" She asks in a rude tone, I forgot that because of Eli she has been spending so much time with Drew.

"Uh, yeah," Adam says adjusting his beanie. Alli could be a little nicer to him.

"That's cool, so anyways Clare since Sav is grounded I think when we have girls days we should do them at your house, I don't want him joining in." She doesn't understand how much of a bad idea this is. Eli looks at me worried and I just look back and shake my head.

"How about we just do girls days at the mall," I do a big smile. I couldn't tell her about my home life, which seems to have gotten worse. Eli doesn't even know how bad it has gotten. My mom has taken up drinking, and bringing home different guys almost every other night. His headphones really are the most helpful things ever.

"Whatever, I just wanted to tell you that." She walks away. I twiddle my thumbs and get up. I was not in the mood to be around people whatsoever right now and I could easily just go home right now.

"Clare! Wait!" I hear Eli call for me, I ignore him. I couldn't let him see me like this again. He has seen me like this so many times, he is probably sick of me. I feel a hand touch my wrist, how the hell does he do that. I look up and pull my arm away and continue walking.

"What the hell did I do Clare?" Eli says rushing back towards me.

"Nothing, I just want to be alone." I say continuing my walk home. I really should tell him about my terrible home life. I knew him of all people would understand, I just don't want him worried about me.

"Can I at least take you home?" He asks me in a voice he knew I couldn't say no too.

"Fine," I say man, he was going to find out what was wrong. He was going to ask, I knew it. He tries to grab my hand but I resist for some weird reason and continue walking. I feel really bad for Adam; I just met him and already putting him through this relationship drama.

"Where did Adam go?" I ask changing the subject.

"Class, you see unlike us Clare, he went." He rolled his eyes at my stupid question. I didn't realize the bell rang. I got in Morty and turned up some Alexisonfire song he was listening to so that Eli wouldn't bother trying to talk to me.

Sadly he didn't get the hint and turned it down.

"Clare what the hell is wrong with you?" He asks pulling into the front of my house. I had this weird feeling he was coming in with me.

"You want to know what the hell is going on at my house? My life is fucked up Eli, my dad cheated, my mom is an alcoholic and is fucking a new guy basically every night," I say going inside my house. He follows with a worried look on his face. I have never said the word fuck before.

"Clare…" I stopped him before he could say anything more cliché. I don't care to hear his sorrys.

"What the hell is wrong with me Eli? Does god even exist?" I knew I was asking the wrong person this question. I shouldn't be asking the hearse driving goth kid if god exists.

"Do you believe he exists?" He says pulling me towards him.

"I don't even know, why is he letting all this bad stuff happening to my family?" I throw down my purity ring, fuck this. Both my parents commited adultery why should I wait till marriage.

Eli picks it up and hands it back to me and laughs.

"Is there a specific reason you threw this down?"

"I don't believe in it anymore," I say no longer crying, he wipes my remaining tears.

"Well, don't expect anything from me Ms. Edwards. I don't want to take advantage of you. I know you still believe in it, you are just in shock from everything going on with your parents. I love you Clare Edwards. I will stay with you no matter what, with or without sex." Eli says giving me my purity ring back, although I don't believe in it anymore. I would give it to Eli at anytime, or when we were ready.

"I love you too Eli." I kiss him on the lips, he kisses me back. The kissing gets more intense he puts his hands around my waist and we make our way to the couch. It ends up in a really hot make out session with him on top of me, that lasts for a pretty long time.

This great moment sadly gets interrupted by my mom coming in with one of her boyfriends, or more like a one night stand. I grab Eli and try and make our way to my room without being noticed, sadly the hearse gave us away.

"Hey you kids why don't you guys let the big kids plays now," My moms one night stand said to Eli and I. Eli was giving him the dirtiest look right now, like a mixture of a smirk and a 'I want to punch you in the face' look.

"Sure, but I will be right back, Eli stay right there." I knew he would be pissed at me for leaving him with my mom and her sex toy, I was just so pissed off right now. I snuck into the kitchen and grabbed a water bottle. I then went into my moms liquor cabinet and searched for my moms vodka. I dumped out half the water and refilled the remaining with vodka.

I put the water bottle in my purse.

"Alright Eli, I am ready to go." I grab his hand; I notice he squeezes it hard. Her sex toy must have said something to piss him off.

"That man is a complete ass hole," He says angrily.

"What did he say?" I say looking through the CDs that he has.

"First he was saying I did good by getting you, then he was asking if we fucked yet," That explains the squeezing of my hand, "Do you want to stay the night tonight? I doubt your mom will even notice." He was probably right.

"Yeah of course, let me just go get some stuff." I get out of the car that he never started, I am guessing he was planning on asking all along.