"When I was captured by Saleem the first thing they did was interrogate me, it started out like how we usually do things, but then when I didn't give them any answers they started beating me, I was bound so I had no way of defending myself. They bet me so much that first time that I fell unconcious and they left me there in the room to recover. They did that pretty much everyday for about a month, until I was able to bear it enough to fight against unconciousness. After that they went to other methods, Saleem tried his truth serium on me but I wouldn't talk and it frustrated him. Eventually Saleem headed out of the camp for a day and whilst he was gone half his men came in and raped me Tony, after that day they would come in eveyrday, even Saleem did so a couple of times. I hated him for it but I hated myself worse for not being strong enough to stop him. That was around about when I started wishing even praying for death to come and take me, I had given up any hope of anyone trying to come and save me" she said and I watched as she started shaking violently
"Zi its alright" I said pulling her in my arms and trying to soothe her, taking a deep breath she continued
"When you rescued me I was so happy to have someone come and save me, but I had no idea what to say to any of you, I didn't know how to cope with all of you after everything and if you guys still wanted me back. I went to the doctors because the pain was too unbearable and they told me that I had a couple of fractured ribs and my muscles where bruised beyond anything they had ever seen before. I also had to have my womb and all that checked out, after being kicked and trampled on they had to make sure everything was alright the results said that I -I" and she broke off sobbing uncontrollably and I pulled her into my lap just holding her and letting her now I was there for her through all of this.
"I was told that I would never be able to have children, the damage that had been done was too much and my body wouldn't be able to cope with it" she explained and I nodded taking a couple of minutes to adjust to this new information.

"Does anyone else know?" I asked after a long time of silence
"No" she said and I raised my eyebrow at her, surely she had told Ray they were in a comitted relationship for quite some time.
"I never told Ray, sure he asked and if I had accepted his proposal I probably would've told him this if he hadn't told me that the idea of having children thouroughly repulsed him. The other men that I dated I never went all the way with them or they were just stupid flings to fulfil my needs. And Adam was a stupid mistake that never should've happened" she told me and I nodded
"How about we just wait until we go to the doctors? Have everything checked out and make sure that everything is alright before we take out the possibility" I said and she nodded
"I don't now how I deserve you Tony, but I'm glad I've got you" she told me and I smiled kissing her
"I'm glad your mine Ziva, I wouldn't have it any other way. I love you" I said and she smiled
"I love you too Tony" she leant over and kissed my lips before she leant against my chest.
"Thank you Ziva for telling me the truth and not holding it back" I said and she smiled
"Your welcome Tony, besides you needed to know" she said and I smiled, moving up the bed pulling her with me so that we could get back to bed.

The following morning I woke to find our bed empty, I got up and looked in Arnika's bedroom, she was nowhere to be found so I made my way out to the kitchen and found Arnika in the lounge playing with her new dolls and Ziva in the kitchen making breakfast
"Daddy" Arnika said running toward me and I smiled, picking her up
"Morning Nik, what are you doing?" I asked and she smiled
"I playing with my dollies" she said and I smiled
"Thats good, do you like your new dolls?" I asked and she nodded her head
"I like them lots and lots daddy" she said and I smiled kissing the top of her head and placing her back on the ground. I made my way into the kitchen and hugged Ziva, who relaxed in my arms
"Morning Zi" I said and she smiled turning in my arms and kissing me.
"Mm morning Tony" she whispered against my lips and I smiled
"I was thinking that after breakfast we take Arnika to see Gibbs and then we can go to the doctors and have a check up" I suggested and she nodded her head
"Sounds good" she said smiling and I smiled too, happy that she was agreeing with me on this.

A/N: Hey my lovelies, I hope you enjoy this chapter I really enjoyed exploring this part of Ziva's life.