Hello there my darling readers! Ok so... I have lost all motivation to write this. I still have some ideas and everything but they mostly include the end. So yeah. My life has been just a shit storm of crazy, and I have no idea were to go from here. Like I have the ending all planned out and some stuff before that, but not much else. So if you guys have any ideas, or want me to put something in the story please feel free! I need the motivation... And so without further ado the next chapter!

~Amythyrst

P.S. Thank you thank you thank you to BeanieBoop For being my proofreader! I love you so much!

Chapter 11

Pain. Pain was ripping, coursing through my body and there was no stopping it. Like a tidal wave it crashed over me ripping the most bloodcurdling scream from my mouth and rendering me useless. Starting in my stomach, where the knife was buried, it had sliced through my skin, and into my uterus. And wall after wall, wave after wave, hit me, taking away my breath, making it impossible it scream again. I felt the cold metal pierce through my child and the scream that tore through me was not my own. My had child cried out through me, and then...

*GASP*

Lucy shot up from her bed holding her stomach and screaming. She just sat there in the bed breathing heavily, eyes wide with shock, slightly bent over from holding her stomach. Then she started to cry. Heavy sobs wracked through her body, and tears pour from her eyes.

Slim arms wrapped themselves around Lucy as she sobbed. Lucy jumped slightly at the contact but then went back to crying. This was common practice now for Levy and Lucy. Lucy would wake up screaming from the horrors of the past year, and Levy would come in and wrap her arms around Lucy until she felt safe again.

Levy had moved in with Lucy, putting a bed right next to hers, so there was always someone with her. When Lucy was released from the hospital the guild knew they couldn't leave Lucy alone but they were unsure were to put her. Some said she could go to Fairy Hills. Others suggested setting up a room for her in the guild. Mira advocated that Lucy go back to her apartment, to try and regain some sense or normalcy.

While Lucy was gone the guild pulled together funds to pay for her apartment and keep it for Lucy. When Lucy disappeared Makarov went to the landlady personally and explained the situation. The landlady was shocked and offered to half the rent cost. This way she could still keep afloat but the guild wouldn't have to find 70,000 jewel every month. However there was still the issue of leaving Lucy alone. When Erza came up with the idea that somebody move in with her, Levy and Natsu automatically volunteered to stay.

An argument ensued between Levy and Natsu on who would stay. Natsu knew he could take care of Lucy, and he used to sleep in her bed anyway before she was taken. He wanted to protect her, and show her that she would be safe with her. Levy however reminded him that Lucy was not the same as a year ago, and reminded him what happened in the hospital room a few weeks prior. Sulkily Natsu backed off, but demanded to be able to stand watch. Levy had started t argue with that as well but Erza stopped her.

So now after almost three months since Lucy came home, things had fallen into a sort of routine. Lucy would wake up screaming and crying, Lucy would hold her silently until she stopped. Then slowly they would get ready together, have breakfast together, and then getting cleaned up together. I Lucy felt like it they would go to the guild pool, away from all the guys. All the girls would join her and Levy, and Mira would make strawberry daiquiris for all of them. Then they would all just hangout and talk and laugh in the sun, or the shade, or they would go swimming. Whatever Lucy wanted. Lucy would laugh with them and smile even, though she never talked. She would always respond with something funny to say on her notepad that she always kept close. And those were her better days.

However there were some days that Lucy could barely make it out of bed. There were some dreams she couldn't recover from. And on those days Levy would take care of her every need. Though she was practically immobilized for depression, Levy would half carry half help her walk to the bath, and clean her, then dress her in clean pajamas. Then she would put her back in her bed and go make her some soup. She would return with the soup, and make sure she ate at least half of it. Then she would crawl into bed with her, accompanied by only a book. Every few hours Levy would make sure Lucy drank some water, or eat more soup. And when night came, levy would turn out the lights and sleep with her that night.

Today was one of those days.

Haunted once again with the death of her child, Lucy bawled and then slowly grew quiet. Finally there was no response from Lucy, and Levy went into her routine.

And everyday, whether Lucy made it out of bed or not, there was Natsu.

He guarded her place on the roof, protected her as she walked to the guild and back, even watched over her at the guild, always out of sight. But every night at around midnight, he would knock at the window, to talk to Levy, to hear how she was doing, and get anything they needed. Usually it was just money for food and rent, but sometimes Levy and Natsu would exchange information about the sleeping pill Wendy and Porlyusica were working on.

There weren't many sleep medicines, and those that did exist were not to be taken every night. They were working on a pill that could be taken every night, so Lucy wouldn't have night terrors anymore.

Natsu hopped down from his perch on the roof, lowered the hood of his cloak that he now wore and tapped on the window. He knew Levy was going to ask about the pill. She did every time Lucy didn't make it out of the house. But this time he had new news to give her.

Levy opened the window and greeted Natsu,"Hey Natsu. How is everything?"

"It's just fine Levy. You guys need anything? Food? Money? Paper and pens? Any of your books?" Natsu asked.

"We are just fine on all of that stuff, although rent is due next week." Levy answered.

"Alrighty I will tell the gang. They can go on some jobs. Make the money for you guys." Since Lucy got back a kind of makeshift team was formed. What was left of team Natsu formed up with Gajeel and Juvia, and they would go on jobs purely to support Lucy and Levy. All of the money for food and rent and any other supplies were gathered by them doing jobs. They didn't quite have the same teamwork as the original team but they were still guildes ready to help their nakama."Anything else?" Natsu knew he had to give her the opportunity to ask.

"How is the dream pill coming along? Lucy was pretty bad today."

Natsu reached into a small pouch and handed over a bag containing two small pills. Eyes going slightly wide Levy asked "Is this it?! They figured it out?!".

"They think so. This is their best one so far, or so they said. It's the first trial. I hope it works..."

Levy kicked herself internally for telling him how poorly Lucy was doing. "I'm sure it will Natsu! I will give this to her tonight!"

A short silence drew between them. Even though Lucy was back, Natsu was even more distant from his nakama then before. He was more serious, and never started or continued conversations. He stopped almost entirely going to the guild, and hadn't taken a request since Lucy was found. Happy had to practically move in with Wendy and Carla for food and jobs, because Natsu wouldn't leave Lucy.

"Okay well, I've got to get some sleep. Oh! and before I forget!" Levy ran for the kitchen quickly and grabbed a picnic basket. Dashing back to the window she handed it to Natsu. "And eat the whole thing this time! I mean it! It's bad enough you sleep out there you need to eat!" Levy reprimanded to Natsu.

Natsu just smiled sadly,"Thanks Levy... I'll try." Natsu took the basket from her and jumped back onto the roof. Levy closed the window behind him and crawled into her bed since Lucy was already asleep.

The hours lagged on and Natsu was finally settling in to rest. He had eaten only half of what was in the basket. Levy had packed it to feed an army, and if this was the old Natsu, it would have barely been enough. But this was not the same Natsu, and he did not eat as much as normal.

Just as Natsu had closed his eyes, he heard a small clicking sound. He sat up and watched a scared and wild eyed Lucy run out of her apartment and down the road. Like a cat Natsu followed her along the rooftops making sure that she didn't try and run to the canal. Lucy was barefoot and in her pajamas, huffing and puffing as she sprinted through the night lit town.

Lucy kept running through streets, turning at unpredictable corners, as if trying to lose some imaginary predator. She seemed to be stuck in a dream, in one of her nightmares. She was oblivious to everything outside her own world, and she ran past a few drunken men, making their way home from the bar. Cutting them off she ran into an alleyway, not hearing their catcalls. The alley she ran into was a dead end, however. She turned to keep running, but her path was blocked by the three men she past, and now she most certainly heard their catcalls.

"Hey baby were you going so fast?"

"Heh nowhere now!"

"Why don't you stay with us, huh babe?"

"Yeah we'll make sure you have a good time!"

"Come on babe don't be scared! We'll treat you right!"

"Yeah..."

They began to crowd around Lucy, too close. Lucy let out a volatile scream.

"LUCY KICK!" And she hooked two of the men with her signature powerful roundhouse kick. Natsu who had been on the roof ready to jump down on the three men, was just as surprised as the three men, though delightedly so. Some things never change. Natsu was now laughing silently clutching his stomach and holding a hand over his mouth so he wasn't heard.

The remaining man however was not as pleased.

"What the FUCK!?" He yelled. Lucy immediately ducked and began her mantras of "I'm sorry's"

"Why the HELL did you do that to my-"

The man never got to finish his sentence. Natsu had decided that he didn't need to. Dropping down from his perch on the roof, Natsu landed on the man's back, cloak and hood hiding his features.

"For the same reason i just kicked your ass. You didn't need to come any closer." Natsu said. He did not sound like Natsu however. At the last second Natsu decided that Lucy didn't need to know it was him. He had changed his voice slightly, so you couldn't be sure if Natsu sounded like a guy or a girl. Add the cloak and his features were completely hidden.

Lucy stared wide eyed, at the strange person before her, slowly coming out of her dream haze. She felt like she should be scared, that's what she was saying, but... She just couldn't.

"Are you ok?" the cloaked person asked, still standing on the man. Shocked Lucy simply nodded.

"You are safe now ok? Nothing is going to hurt you. I will make sure of that."

Alrighty my darlings! You know what to do! Review review review! I don't know when I will be able to update this again but the more reviews and ideas the more motivation i have! Love you dolls! Untill next chapter!

~Amythyrst