Sirius Black was not used to having such meals- and everything Remus had made was beginning to add the much needed weight back to him. It was slow going, but little by little he was able to see his eyes become less sunken, his ribs hiding in their place rather than protruding in such an obvious way. He was itching to ask about Violet, and about his son, whom he now knew as Mattox John Black. He'd been given not only his last name, but a first name that suited his family traditions. It softened his heart to think that Violet had done such when naming their boy- but his middle name and Remus' normal living situation weighed on his mind. Mattox John- so named after Remus John, his Godfather. But Sirius couldn't help the thoughts that flowed so freely through his head- That Remus had moved on to Step-Father. It wasn't so terrible to consider, really, and if it was true he at least knew they were both well taken care of. Yet deep down, he felt mostly betrayed. It had been weeks, and Remus came to his old family home where Sirius was hiding a couple times a week- bringing groceries and clothes, the occasional bottle of whiskey- and a deck of cards. They'd talked about old memories, mostly, rather than discussing Violet and Mattox.
"Moony- I need to see them. He'll go back to school soon." He said softly one day, after swallowing down his dinner. Remus sighed and nodded.
"I know, mate. She's just- she's not taking anything well." He confessed, sipping at his tea. Sirius cut his eyes at his old friend, searching him over for a sign of his suspicions. Remus, however, was not oblivious to Sirius or his look.
"Asking is always better than assuming." He said in a dull tone. Sirius shook his head.
"Did you marry my girl, Moony?" He ask, blurting the confession as if the words were poison on his tongue. Remus burst into a hearty laugh, one so full and real that a tear or two escaped.
"No!" He answered, in between the laughs. "No- No she asked me to move at the funeral." His voice was suddenly stone serious. "She wasn't ready to live alone- I couldn't handle the rent on the flat by myself. Violet sort of insisted we make it permanent situation, pending my relationship with someone. Which I've never had be a problem." He explained. Sirius breathed a sigh of relief.
"I- I'm sorry. I'd have no right to even ask- I realize. And I think part of me hoped that was true." He confessed quietly.
"We get asked a lot, really." He said. "I suppose it is odd."
"You're taking care of each other. That's good." He said, but he looked to Remus with pleading eyes. "I need to see her." Remus nodded, moving over toward the door.
"I'll see what I can do." He said, pulling his cloak on to shield himself against the storm that had come up outside. "But I only have so much say..."
Violet was pacing. Not that this was a new state of being for her- however. Remus and Mattox both knew it was something she was just prone to do. She just didn't know how to handle her turn seeing Sirius after all these years. Her mind was wheeling a mile a minute- and she knew that he was innocent, her heart still didn't feel right. Remus hadn't been wrong- she'd harbored a love for Sirius since their last happy moment together. From the very early months of their relationship forward, Violet had been sure that if soulmates existed, then Sirius Black was hers. Remus had taken Mattox over to his old family home multiple times, letting him visit with his father. Now, after several times being ask and even receiving letters begging from Sirius, it was her turn to see him.
She looked herself over in the mirror once more. She'd decided on a long, pastel yellow dress with white polka dots and had twisted her hair over one shoulder. Violet wasn't completely sure why she was putting so much work into how she looked, but she couldn't help herself. Deep down she knew all she wanted was to take his breath away. She was giving herself a final turn in the mirror when Remus knocked gently on the door. "Vi- I'm going to take Matt to the shops. You're alright?"
"I suppose." She sighed, turning to face him. "How do I look?" She ask, spinning for Remus to see. He smirked a bit as he watched her twist.
"Very lovely. But I must say- I've never seen that dress before?" He ask, looking her over. Violet shook her head.
"No- I bought it a while back on an impulse and I was sav- Or rather I just never got around to wearing it yet." She said, waving him away. "Don't let Matt fill up on sweets..." She paused for a second, but then smiled. "You can though. You could use the weight." She smiled as Remus rolled her eyes and she heard him descend the stairs and gather Mattox to leave. "Well- I guess this is it." She said, taking a few deep breaths before she too made her way down the stairs to the fireplace, taking the small blue jar from the mantle and gathering the powder from within, speaking the address to Remus' childhood slowly and closing her eyes as she stepped into the green flames.
The cottage was fairly the same as she'd remembered it when she had tagged along with Lily to visit after a summer's full moon. There was a thin layer of dust on most of the surfaces, shelves, and curtains. The roof had a few spots of water damage from lack of care- but for the most part it was a charming little place. Violet walked in slowly, the reality of the situation dawning on her. This was it- He was here. "Er- Hello?" She called, not really sure of how to go about this reunion.
"Kitchen." A voice returned. It was a vaguely familiar sound, with a bit of an added edge and roughness mixed in. As if of their own accord, her feet carried her though the old familiar path and into the bright, sundrowned room. Violet frozen in the door, seeing Sirius propped against the counter while waiting on his tea to boil. He stood equally frozen, except for his eyes, the same swirling grey orbs she remembered and often loved to lose herself into, which wandered over her- head to toe. "Hello Violet." He said, his words obviously forced, uncertain.
"S-Sirius." She sputtered in reply. He smiled at her shaking voice, almost amused at how shy she seemed. They stood like this for a long while, before Violet decided to stop staring and speak. "I er- I have no clue what we're supposed to be doing, here." She admitted, looking down. She'd been looking him over long enough to see his changes- the tole prison had taken on him. When last she'd seen him, Sirius was a very fit, muscular, young man, with a single tattoo over his heart. This man- while fairly similar, was thin; his face sunken and pale, with heavy bags below his eyes. His hair hadn't changed much at all, still falling just over his shoulders in long, lightly wavy jet-black locks. He had many more tattoos now, a few visible where he had his sleeves rolled up and the top few buttons on his shirt open. Again, he smiled and Violet immediately cursed herself when she felt her face flush.
"I don't either." He admitted, jumping slightly when the kettle whistled behind him. "Tea?" He ask, turning away. Nervously- Violet settled into a seat at the old table. He rummaged through the old cupboard and brought out two mismatched cups, settling one down before Violet before setting everything else out on the table and pouring the water into her cup for her. "I apologize I don't have more options, Remus just gets a few things in an attempt to not look suspicious."
"I know." She nodded, staring into her tea as if looking for answers.
"You're... You look..." Sirius sighed. "You look breathtaking, Vi." He said, watching over her as she sipped at her tea.
"Thank you." She replied in a small, mousey voice.
"I er- I don't really know what to do. With Moony it was easy, and then when he brought Matt he did most of the talking, so that was pretty alright too. But you- i don't know what I'm supposed to do here." He tapped his knuckles on the table.
"What do you think of him?" Violet ask, figuring that their son at least would give them something to talk about and end the awkward back and forth they had going currently.
"He's amazing, Vi. He really is. A bit eery though, I mean he's sort of looking in a mirror into the past. And he's got a good heart." Sirius said, grinning as he thought. "I really love his name, too. Th- Thank you. For naming him... For giving him my last name." He said, his voice showing a bit more emotion.
"I didn't know what else to do." She admitted. "I didn't really know much about anything when he was born. Had Remus not been there to walk me through everything, I'd hate to know where Matt and I would be."
"I er- I got a bit jealous on him when I found out about your arrangement." Sirius chuckled. "It was wrong, but I guess old habits..." Violet rolled her eyes.
"I cannot believe you'd... Yes, actually. I can." Violet replied, and Sirius was a bit drawn back by how annoyed she sounded.
"I'm sorry, I realize why that would upset you." He said, staring straight ahead.
"Yeah..." She nodded.
"But you need to realize something else, Vi. You were the best thing in my life. Especially after it all seemed to be falling apart. I had you. And rotting in that cell, having my worst memories brought forward over and over and over again. But I also had you. Just those small memories, moments that seemed to be minor at the time. Holding you and watching the tele, or the first meal we had in the house. It's all I had. So yes, maybe you're not mine to cling to anymore. But that's all I ha-" But hiss words were cut off when Violet was suddenly on him, he lips taken prisoner by her own. He could feel tears moving down her cheeks as they dripped onto his, but he didn't dare try to break this moment, even if she may regret it later.
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