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Chapter 9

Say hello to goodbye, cause' it's gone forever
No more try, you and I
Not now, not ever
And I'll get by without you
I'm not going back again
I'm not going to lie to you
Cause, that was there and only then.
-Say hello to Goodbye by Shontelle

"Where are you going?" I asked as Brady, Lucas, and Jared tip-toed to the back screen door. They were probably hoping I wouldn't look up from one of the magazines Emily gave me, and notice them.

The boys stopped dead in their tracks, and Jared straightened his back while clearing his throat, obviously caught.

"Just… out."

"Hmm?" I hummed, "Out where?"

"Uh…"

"Can I go out, too?" I asked with the same nonchalance in my voice but my voice involuntarily speed up at the end, and my insides turned over excitedly waiting to hear the outcome. I didn't go to school today under strict orders from Sam, so I've been cooped up in this house for hours. I finally knew what chickens felt like, lying in a barb-wired metal houses doing nothing but sitting in their own poop, which in my case, was my thoughts. It wouldn't be so bad if I was outside thinking. It just seemed too claustrophobic in the small cabin watching the rest of the people come and go as they pleased.

Jared looked over to Brady and something unrecognizable passed through the two boys. Brady looked over to Lucas. A few long moments passed as Brady turned to gaze directly out the door and into the forest, staring intently at the trees, inspecting them like a lion looking for prey. Finally he turned back to Jared and gave him a short, curt nod.

"Really?" I asked. With the day I was having, this was too good to be true.

"Yeah, really."

My excitement mellowed down to a small buzz as Jared said those words. He sounded tired, like he hadn't slept in a long time but what good would it do if I questioned him? He probably wouldn't tell me a thing. I was having a hard time deciding who had more secrets; me or them.

"Alright," I murmured, "Thanks."

Jared grunted and the boys with-drew to the door and sauntered into the forest.

The forest.

Everything comes back to the forest.

But now was not the time to think about that.

I slipped of the stool I was sitting on, and my feet gave a soft thud as they hit the wood floor.

Fixing my eyes on the forest I traveled out the house.

I started out in a walk, then a fast trot. I switched into a quick run, breaking out into a full on sprint until I was fully under the protection of the trees.

I slowed down a little to catch my breath and walked off the trail into uncharted territory.

I never remembered being told that Septembers in La Push were this cold. I never remembered being told how long the mountains went on, or how easy it was to make friends and loved ones—but I did remember how easy it was to have them slip through your fingers, floating somewhere between being so suffocatingly close you can almost feel them, to the point where you could barely remember their faces.

I couldn't decide which was worse.

Sarah had a whole life ahead of her. She had friends, and a loving family. But all that was gone now.

Poof.

Disappeared.

Leaving me alone, friendless and out to fend for myself again.

And what did Sarah ever do? She was a perfect friend; almost impossible to hate except for the expectation of Jennifer.

If only Brady saw her like I did. I had only one happy moment with Jennifer and that was when my fist pummeled into her head. I had yet to have a memory to top that. In fact, it was probably the happiest memory sense I came to La Push.

Before I came here, I was alright. I wasn't exactly joyous, but I wasn't that sad either. It was bearable.

But as soon as our car stopped in front of our—Ana's—new house that all changed. Like a sudden, silent switch in the atmosphere. I didn't feel it or hear it but somehow it was there because sense then everything has gone downhill.

My feet stopped in a sudden halt as the loud crack of a branch breaking pierced through the quite forest.

I sharply whipped around only to find nothing behind me but a broken stick. I veered back but all I saw was a faint blur which was followed by an immediate sickeningly sweet smell.

I whirled back around when I heard it.

Growling.

So I ran.

And ran.

Until I was safely back in the cottage with the door firmly slammed shut behind me and then I picked up a book and read. Even when everyone arrived home, I read. When they asked how my walk was I didn't tell them what happened. How could I? So instead I gave them a typical answer about how beautiful the forest is this time of year.

But I know what I saw.

They didn't tell me they had wolves.

Very big wolves.

A/N: Hey guys, so I have a lot of stuff going on right now and it will be a little while before i get the next chapter in! I'll try to get it in soon but i think maybe early september will be the earliest! Thanks for understanding :)

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