I am so sorry for the way I have been posting. Weekitty and I are almost done writing as as soon as that happens you will have the whole story with in days!
"Morning," I say hugging into Edward's back as he cooks. I feel him chuckle rubbing my hands on his stomach. I place a kiss on his back before stepping back.
"I think we should have naked breakfast Monday, every week." Edward chuckles as he turns, looking me up and down.
"You may be able to talk me into that idea," he says before crashing his lips to mine. All of a sudden I am lying on the kitchen table and Edward is kissing me all over.
"Never feels like I've had enough. I always want more," Edward mumbles out. "I need to be inside of you." I look into his eyes and nod my head.
After having some heated sex, Edward drives us to the bank. He turns and looks at me, kissing me quickly before getting out of the car. I smile happily knowing that we may be moving slow, but we are moving along.
At lunch time Edward surprises me by taking me out for lunch. We are walking back slowly and my hand is itching to hold his, but I'm scared shitless. I don't want to push him too much, because I know he will go back a few steps.
"Edward!" I turn seeing a man about Edward's age come up to us. "Rose said you were back."
"Yeah, how are you, Riley?" Edward asks.
"I'm good, working away," Riley says. "You?"
Edward clears his throat.
"Trying to set up a security business for corporate companies." I frown when Riley looks like he's turning his nose up at Edward's line of work.
"Oh, that's good, must give you some time for yourself. I know I never get a moment, there's always one of my patients giving birth. I need to be on my toes. They trusted me to bring their bundle of joy into the world. But I love it and I moved up the line real fast. I am even opening my own practice, just waiting on a few good guys to get back to me. It's a shame you dropped out to go into the Army. I think you would've enjoyed working under me." Riley adds on a little chuckle at the end.
I roll my eyes. "Hey, I'm a friend of Edward's," he says just noticing me. "You're Tanya, right?" I glare at him.
"No!" Riley looks surprised at my out burst and chuckles.
"Alec? Wow your doctor did a real great job." I move to hit the fucker. I'm not sure what I found to be the biggest insult, him thinking I was Tanya, or him thinking I was a boy. Hell, who am I kidding? Tanya wins hands down.
"No, Riley, this is Isabella. She works with me and rents a room from me, all right?" I glare at Edward and walk away. He just made me feel like I was just some girl.
"Isabella wait." I ignore Edward's call and carry on walking.
"Isabella!" Edward calls again as I walk into the bank. When I get to the staff room, Edward pulls me into the security office.
"Please, I didn't mean it the way it sounded." I shrug my shoulders trying not to look at him.
"Please, baby, I'm sorry." I feel his lips against my neck as he starts to place soft kisses there.
"Please, forgive me. Riley always had the right girl, knew what to say... I didn't know what to say to him. He thought you were my niece and nephew, it freaked me out a little." Again I shrug him off me and walk away from him. Within seconds Edward has me against the wall, towering over me caging me in. He looks down at me and I can see the passion in his eyes. Everything I see in his eyes tells me that he's trying to own me, and it makes me wet.
"Isabella, please, I-you mean so much more to me. I just never know what to say. I'm afraid, just please bear with me. I'll make this up to you tonight. I will worship your whole body. What do you say, six orgasms to make up for my rude behavior?" I swallow and look at him as his other hand travels up my leg. When I don't say anything, he keeps counting.
"Seven? Eight? Hell, let's just say ten." Before I can agree, he crash his lips on mine. His hand keeps going up my skirt and his fingers push my panties aside. He starts to rub me and my brain can't catch up. I know he is distracting me, but before I know it, I'm cumming hard.
"That's one down, nine to go," Edward say with a smile walking away from me. I take a few moments to pull myself together, before walking out after him.
That night was the first night he went down and on me. He was good at it too and I knew I wanted him to do it every day. He didn't give me ten orgasms, because when he got to number seven, I was ready to pass-out. He was like the energizer bunny!
Sex seemed to be our thing. Don't get me wrong, I loved it, but I want more than just sex with him. I know we need to talk, but I'm scared he'll run for the hills if I say too much...
~~ML~~
A few days later, Edward and I walk into work looking overly happy. He woke me up this morning with the best sex of my life. Every time with him gets better and better. I look at Edward one last time, before walking to my desk to start my day. The day seems to go so slow, most of the time I can feel Edward's eyes on me.
"Hey, babies." I look up seeing Jake standing in front of me.
"Hello, this isn't your bank," I say frowning at him.
"Yeah, I know," Jake says as he starts to fidget and move from foot to foot. "I came to take you out for lunch." My eyes go to Edward as he walks by growling at Jake.
"Sorry, I don't get off till one, but can you come back?" I ask as Jake smiles happily at me.
"Okay, I'll see you at one." Jake walks backwards giving me a wave before turning around and walking out of the bank. One o'clock seems to come even more slowly, most likely, because I am so hungry. By the time I clock out, I'm ready to eat a three course meal, twice.
"So, where are we going?"
"I thought Chinese?" Jake says as I nod. I give him a smile and he grabs my hand and leads me across the street.
"So, are you enjoying working at the bank?" he asks.
"Yeah, it's been a lot of fun." Jake chuckles and opens his mouth, but then close it again.
"So, how are things going with Mr. stuffy? I swear I really don't know how you put up with the guy." I glare at Jake.
"Hey, knock it off he's my b-" I clear my throat stopping the word boyfriend from coming out. That's something I should ask Edward before I tell my friends. "Friend." Why does that feel so wrong, dirty even, it almost breaks my heart to say it. "Don't talk shit about him," I say as Jake swallows a few time and holds his hands up.
"I forgot you stick up for the loners." I place my fork down and stand up, but Jake pulls me down again.
"I'm sorry, okay? Please don't go. I haven't seen you in ages." I sigh and sit back down.
"No, more dissing Edward," I says with a nod. "And you saw me a few days ago at my party." Jake frowns.
"Yeah, but we didn't get to spend time with you. So how about we go out tonight for dinner and a movie like the old days?" I smile at Jake remembering how the boys and I used to go out every two weeks, it was awesome and we always had a great time.
"I would love to Jake, but I really can't afford it this week." Jake looks at me biting his lip.
"I was going pay for you, please just say yes?" I sigh knowing that a night out would be good.
"Yes," I say with a smile and Jake seems to be pleased. I know deep down I will have to talk to him about this crush he has developed, but I don't want to hurt him. Unlike the rest of the guys, he doesn't do so well with girls and has been hurt a few times now.
Lunch seems to fly by, and I missed Edward a lot more than I thought I would. Jake walks me back to the bank and I turn to thanks him before I walk through the door.
"Thanks for having lunch with me," I say with a smile. I lean in to give him a hug and pull back. "I'll see you at eight for our date," Jake say with a smile. I swallow and go to tell him that it's not a date, but people talking stop me.
"Oh, young love, so sweet. I remember being that age." Jake smiles happily at the older couple and I feel my heart sink. I let out a small sigh knowing that it would be best to tell him about what I feel for him and even more so what I feel for Edward. I also know this needs to be done one on one, so it will have to wait.
"Jake, I need to go to work now," I say walking away quickly. My head starts to think of the best way to let him down gently. By the time the end of my shift comes, I feel like my head's about to burst, but I still need to attend my night class. I quickly change and go to meet Edward outside the bank. I am hoping that he could help me out with what I need to say to Jacob. I frown looking around not seeing his car.
I dig my cell out to call him, but his phone goes right to voice mail. I sigh and send him a text. After waiting for ten minutes I sigh and walk to the college arriving five minutes late, which in turn, makes the professor not allow me into his class. I rub my head and sit outside near a tree waiting for Jake to pick me up.
I look over my calendar seeing that I'm not just late for class. I take a couple of deep breaths and look again. I see that I am over a week late. Shit, please, please, god let this be stress. I mean, the wedding, moving, starting a new job, college are all meant to be highly stressfully. Stress has effected my cycle before.
"Hey, Bell's, you ready?" I turn looking at Jake and feel a pain in my chest, as he stands there with an amazing bouquet of flowers. I stand up and try to smile at him.
"Jake, they're beautiful, you really shouldn't have," I say.
Jake just bites his lip. "Can we just head to the park?" I ask and he frowns, but nods his head at me. I sit on the roundabout and Jake sit opposite me.
"I should've said this earlier, but I was afraid that I would hurt you," I chuckle looking down knowing I need to be honest. "I was afraid I would lose you. I've just lost too much already, and I don't want to lose anything more or anyone else." Jake looks at me sadly.
"You are my friend, my best friend, and I love you. You have a place in my heart..." Jake start to smile at me, but I shake my head at him.
"As my brother. I'm sorry and I really should have my head and heart examined, because you are a great guy. Any girl should want you. But I don't feel that for you, I'm really sorry," I say as Jake looks at me pleadingly.
"But everyone thinks we would be perfect together. Just try, Bella," he begs. I just shake my head at him.
"I am in love with someone. He's everything I want. I think about him all the time. I want to make him happy and I want to spend all my time wrapped in his arms." Jake shakes his head looking at me with anger.
"Edward?!" he says through gritted teeth and I nod my head.
"He's too old for you! You really think he would want you? He wants some boring woman like Mrs. Cope." I shake my head at him. "He's not right for you! He will never love you the way that I love you. I know you and what you want. Does he want Bella or Isabella?" I shrug my shoulders, because I have no idea if he wants me or someone else.
"Please, Bella, I swear I will love you till we die." I can't help chuckling.
"And they say romance is dead." Jake frowns at me and then crashes his lip on to mine.
I push him back from me, but he just holds my head not letting me go. "See, you felt something, right?" I shake my head at him and start to feel sick. I look at him, then run away to the nearby trees and start to throw up.
"Jezz, Bella, that's a bit of an overreaction, don't you think?" I turn and glare at him.
"No, I don't think it's an overreaction for someone I trusted forcing themselves on me." Jake sighs.
"You enjoyed it, I know you did," I close my eyes and take a deep breath until I feel Jake start to kiss my neck.
"What are you doing?" I ask.
"I will kiss your lips as soon as you wash mouth out or something," he says with a chuckle.
"JAKE! I don't love you and right now I'm trying to hold myself back from kicking the shit out of you. Get off me, because you will never have me as anything but a friend!" I scream out at him. I see flash of hurt in his eyes and he huffs.
"When Edward tells you that he doesn't want you, don't come crying to me!" I watch as he turns and walk away from me.
I look around and sit back down on the end of the slide. I pull my cell out trying to get hold of Edward. Again it just goes to voice mail. I close my eyes knowing that Renee and Charlie are both at work. I let out one more sigh, before walking the eight miles home.
I walk in and see that the house is completely dark. I kick my shoes off and wash up before looking at Edward's door. I decide that I really need a hug. I open the door and move to his bed.
"Hey, Edward," I say softy. He looks at me and I see that he's looking angry.
"Can I sleep in your bed? I really need to cuddle," I say slowly, worried over the fact he looks so hurt.
"I don't think that a good idea. I'm sure Jake will cuddle you if you give him a call, or was it just a quick fuck for old times sake?" I shake my head knowing we are back to him thinking I'm a whore.
I walk away knowing I'm too tired to argue with him. "Hope he was worth it, because I don't fuck girls that are getting fucked by every guy they're "friends" with." I slam his door closed, charging his bed and start hitting him.
"You are a fucking asshole! Why are we always back to you thinking that I spread my legs? Huh, what make you think I slept with him?!" I say as I hit him.
"It's almost one in the morning, Isabella!" he yells as I shake my head.
"I know! It took me almost an hour to work up enough courage to tell Jake all I saw in him was a brother. I ended up being very blunt with him, because he forced a kiss on me. Let's say he didn't take my rejection well and he left me at the park. So I spent the last two hours walking home!" Edward pales and I move away from him.
"Why did you say you would go on a date with him then?" I sigh looking at him.
"I thought it was going to be the usually gang. I didn't know he thought it was a date until he said date at the bank. Then I realized I had misunderstood him. I didn't want to have it out with him in front of people." Edward pulls his hair as he looks at me.
I walk away heading toward his door. "Come to bed, baby, you said something about needing a cuddle." I shake my head no.
"I think you're right, that's not a good idea." I open his door only for him to push it close.
"Let me make it up to you?" Edward starts to kiss me and I shake my head no again.
"This can't keep happening. You can't keep hurting me and think having sex with me will make up for it." I hear Edward sigh.
"I know, baby. I will try harder not to get so jealous." I feel myself relax in to him.
"If you call me a whore one more time, that's it, whatever's between us is done for good." I feel him nod his head. "I mean it, I am not a whore." I feel him kiss me.
"I know. I just get jealous. I hate that you have all these guys all over you and they all know you so well and it seems they all know the real you. I don't share well. I'll try harder. I'm sorry for hurting you."
~~ML~~
The next two weeks fly by. Edward and I have seemed to have moved closer. Our touches have been filled with more love. I also feel like we have been making love instead of having just sex. Jake on the other hand, I still haven't heard from him. He doesn't return my texts and strangely it's been Alec that has been listening to my concerns and guilt over what happened.
"You've still been sick, baby B?" I turn and nod my head at Alec.
"That's been almost two week now. I think you should get checked over, want me to call my papa." I chuckle and shake my head.
"Na, it's just stress. I've never been good at handling it. I was like this when my parents died."
"Well, sugar, you got me, and I will find something to help settle that little tummy for yours."
"Fucking sick of people letting fags into our colleges." I turn and glare at the fucktard.
"Well, I'm sick of assholes thinking their opinions needs to be heard." The guy who spoke rudely turns and looks me up and down.
"Well, sweetie pie, I have a cock and I will give you a good fucking. It will be better than that fucker could ever give you." I move toward the guy, but Alec pulls me out of the dining hall.
"Baby b, calm down. This is not good for your stresses levels." I look at Alec then blot down to the restroom.
"Okay, girl, your breasts have been sore, you're sick all the time... how late are you?" I look at him as I wash my mouth.
"Missed one period, but it will be two in a few days." Alec raises his eye brow at me.
"Thought so. Here you go, honey I had a feeling about this last week." I look at his hand seeing a pregnancy test.
"Get going, I want to know if I'm going to have a cousin." I shake my head and go into the stall to take the test.
I walk out to find Alec fixing his makeup. "We'll know in three minutes," I say.
"Don't worry honey pie, Edward loves you any fool can see that." I take a deep breath hoping he's right.
"Hey! This is a women's bathroom," a girl screeches.
"Yeah it is, and it takes more than a pussy and tits to make a girl," Alec snaps at her. The chick just glares at us and walks out.
"Ready for this, Baby b?" I close my eyes and nod my head.