Chapter 10 done

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December

Emily's pov

Paige you ready to go? "Just a sec Em". Today is Friday December 2nd and as promised I am getting ready to head out to a college party with Paige. To be honest when she first asked me I was a little surprised, I figured that maybe she wouldn't remember asking, that maybe I would get out of it however it turns out that she did. This was going to be one of the first parties I have attended this year, and to say the lest I am extremely Nervous. I prefer to stay away from social events like this especially with out someone like Ali by my side, but knowing that Paige had looked after me when I hurt my wrist I new I owed her one, so throwing on a red dress and some black heals, I stood waiting outside our dorm room for Paige. I had to admit when she stepped out in some tight black leather shorts, and converses with a white shirt I thought she looked good. It wasn't often that Paige got dressed up, and seeing her with her hair out made her look different, a good different.

The party started at 8, and two hours into it the both of us had consumed a few drinks. I wasn't planing on drinking but when she suggested that we just take a cab, I figured letting loss for the night couldn't hurt. Things with Ali haven't exactly been the best so I am hoping to get my mind off of things. The place we entered was crowded with lots of un familiar faces, and the smell of Alcohol was strong. The music was blasting, and the Dj was set up over in the left corner. "Em I love this song come dance", Paige dragged me by the hand and the two of us danced together having fun. At about 11 we joined in a game off pool, followed by never have I ever. When Paige began doing body shots off of some guy, I new she had probably had way to much to drink, and given it was nearing 1am, I called a cab thankful that I wasn't as drunk, and dragged her away from the guys who clearly thought that she was interested. She had her right arm around my neck and my left arm was around her back supporting her waist when I did. At first she didn't want to leave, but after a little convincing the two of us stumbled our way outside.

"Em you look hot in red" Paige mumbled and I felt myself blush, "maybe don't tell Ali I said that" she slurred as I opened the taxi door and she followed me in. As soon as we were settled Paige rested her head on my shoulder and even though it was only a five minute drive, she feel asleep. When we made it to our room, her eyes were rolling and I struggled to unlock the door, as she hugged me. I laughed before laying her down on her bed like last week, except this time I two didn't bother to change, Instead I kicked off my heals a went to sleep.

Ali's pov

I haven't spoken two Emily in two days! Two days, can u believe that, That's a total of 48 hours yet I'm sitting in the the car driving to Stanford as I speak. I keep telling myself this is a good idea, that I need to fix things, we need to fix things and the only way to do that is in person, yet I can't help but think just maybe she's actually enjoying her time away from me. This whole thing with Jordan has been blow out of proportion, and I can't wait to put it behind us and have my girl back. The last we spoke she said she was going to some college party Friday night, so being considerate I was planing to arrive at 11.

Emily's pov

On Saturday morning I woke up to the sun shining through the window of our dorm room. Reaching for the covers I pulled them over my head allowing my eyes to adjust to no light first, before pulling them back again off my face. My eyes squinted and my hands instantly went to my head, as I looked over at Paige who was out to it flat on her stomach with her hair in a total mess, figuring she would be like that for at lest another hour I rolled over and checked my phone. With no new messages from Ali I sighed, realising that the longer we don't talk the worse it was going to get. Locking my phone I sat up grabbing a towel, some clean clothes and my key, deciding that the best thing to do was to head down stairs for a shower, and grab some much needed breakfast on my way back for me and Paige. When I returned she was still asleep, so I placed the egg and bacon roll next to her bed, and sat down at my desk. I figured maybe writing a letter to Ali would be better, except as I picked up the pencil I wasn't sure what to say. The more I thought about her the more frustrated I began to get, frustrated that we are both as stubborn as each other, and frustrated that my jealousy seems to have created a un wanted tension between us. All I know is that I'm still crazy in love with her, and I really wish that whatever this is would just sort it's self out. I must have been so in thought that I didn't realise I was crying until a few tears hit the paper. It was as though my body had a mind of it's own, because as soon as I started I couldn't stop. I thought I was being some what quiet, but obviously not because Paige woke up and noticed. She immediately asked what's wrong, but I couldn't stop to tell her why I was crying, one because I was a complete mess, and two because I wasn't completely sure myself so instead she sat up, tried her best to ignore the pounding headache i was sure she had, and made her way over to the desk. I could tell she was still some what drunk, by the way she walked and as she managed to bend down and crouch on her knees, Paige tucked a loss strand of hair behind my ear. "Emily talk to me, what's got you so up set"?

I took in a deep breath and dried my eyes with the back of my hand. It's Ali, I don't know, I just... we are kind of in the middle of a fight, and were not talking, at lest I think were in a fight. Remember the guy I got jealous of that she met at u-pen? "Yeah", well I told her and she... She said she's sorry, that there is nothing to worry about and she would talk to him. I believe her I do, I just ever since then she's been distant, she's not even mentioned it since, am I supposed to just guess that she talked to him?. "I... I don't know Em". I'm... I'm so confused, I can't keep wondering every day if were okay or not. I just... I want to see her. "I'm sorry you feel that way, I'm sure you guys will be okay, your a great girl Emily, and if Alison is starting to forget that then you deserve someone one who's better". Paige pulled me into a standing position, and enveloped me in a hug which was exactly what I needed. When she pulled away she only distanced herself enough so that she could see my face. "I believe I owe you a thanks", I shook my head for what? "For taking care of me two weekends in a row". Oh that... It was nothing. "Em that was not nothing, considering I don't remember much after playing never have I ever, I'm glad that you got me back in one peace. Now please no more crying okay? or I'm going to have to tickle you.

I nodded but as I did two more tears fell and Paige laughed, when she began walking towards me I ran the short distance to my bed however there was no point as she just joined me and began to tickle. The tickling continued for at lest two minutes until it was impossible for me to lay still, and the only tears that were falling were those from laughter. When she finally stopped, I realised where she was sitting and the next 10-20 seconds happened without me having any control. Paige was straddling my lap, and had pined my hands above my head, so when her pink lips connected to mine my eyes closed out of habit. I froze at the shock of what was happening, but when I felt how soft and unsure she was, I kissed her back, before snapping out of it, and moving my hands so that I could shove her away. Paige what the hell?, I... I'm with Ali. "I know and... I'm sorry I just I couldn't help it... It didn't sound like you were with Ali a few minutes ago". When I felt as thought Paige was leaning closer to kiss me again, I blocked it sitting up and causing her to fall off the bed. When I did sit up my eyes began to scan the room unable to look at her, and as they did they fell upon the one person I was not expecting, the one person that I hoped more then ever did not just see what happen, but when I made eye contact with the beautiful sea of blue eyes I was so familiar with, they were brimming with unshed tears and I new she had seen the whole thing. When the familiar blonde began walking into the room, I thought she was about to scream at me, yet she walked straight up to Paige and slapped her. Alison didn't even bother to look at me, it was as if I wasn't there, and instead she grabbed her bag and ran out the door.

Ali's pov

Pulling up at Stanford I was extremely nervous, more so then the last time I was here, and I retrieved my bag before heading inside. Heading up two her room I fiddled with my pocket, looking for my key unsure if she was even going to be home. When I arrived at the door, I crossed my fingers hoping that she would want to see me, however as I placed my bag down on the ground I could hear to people laughing, and the sound of Emily begging tickled. I pressed my ear closer to the door, as the sound continued I new that it had to of been Paige who was doing it. I unlocked the door when the sound had stopped, not wanting to scar them, and remained quiet, as still as possible. However know one could ever have prepared me for what I was about to see. When the door opened, my eyes landed on Paige who was straddling the waist of my girlfriend and leaning into kiss her. I instantly covered my mouth with my hand in shock, and stood there unable to remove my eyes. when Emily's eyes closed, I could have walked right over there and torn them apart, but a part of me want to see what would happen, would she stop it?. The next 10 seconds was the most uncomfortable 10 seconds of my life, I watched as that bitch kissed my girl, and when Em kissed back I wanted to scream. Eventually Emily came to her seances shoving Paige away, and muttering something along the line of being with me, and a slight part of me was glad she said that, but I was to consumed with anger to really care about it. When Paige claimed that 10 minutes ago it didn't seem as though Emily and I were together, my stomach twisted at thoughts of what could have happen, did Emily cheat on me? When the bitch attempted to kiss her again, I was more then glad Emily didn't allow it as I would not have hesitated to step in myself. I could feel my eyes clouding with tears, and I had to bite the inside of my jaw to hold them in. As much as I wanted to run before she saw me, my feet were glued, and it wasn't until our eyes met that I felt my heart break. I managed a few small steps forward toward where Paige had landed, and when my hand collided with Paige's face I thought a part of me would feel better but it didn't. Unable to force myself to look at Emily, the only thing I could think of was to run, and that's exactly what I did. I grabbed my bag and ran back out into the hallway not caring in the slightest that people could see me, the tears began falling silently down my checks and when I heard footsteps close behind me I new she had followed. "ALI WAIT!, Ali please...just stop! I could tell without even turning around that she was crying too. When I reached the car I had no choice but to stop, And slamed my hands against it in frustration. As I leaned against It to catch my breath, she spoke again, "Ali, just please... Please just let me explain", And it was then that I snapped.

EXPLAIN WHAT EMILY? You want to explain fine! WHY? WHY HER? Of all people, did you pick her because you new it would hurt more? "Alison...I it was... It wasn't my fault okay, she's drunk.. I didn't". I cut her off, you didn't what Emily, I saw the whole thing I saw you kiss her back, I'm pretty sure it takes two to tango Emily. "Ali... I didn't mean to okay it just happen... I swear I... she came on to me". Emily's voice was shaking and she was using a tone of voice I had never heard before. "Ali... Please you have to believe me, I... I stopped her, I told her I'm with you". None of that even matters right now Emily, you kissed her, and you didn't even know I was there. Tell me this, would you have told me? Would you have been honest? or would you have pretended that it didn't happen? I told you from the moment I met her she was into you, and you didn't believe me. "Alison I... I don't know okay". You don't know, see that was the answer I was afraid of. "Alison I had no idea you were even coming I..." What does that even matter? you wanna know why I'm here?, I'm here because my girlfriend and I haven't spoken in over 48 hours, I didn't tell you because I wanted to fix whatever was wrong between us and celebrate your birthday, but you can forget it because any chance of that happening was just destroyed... I can't ... I can't even look at you right now. Both Emily and I was crying freely now. "Alison I'm not the only person to blame here, this whole months been crazy, It all started because of you and Jordan, i feel like he's the only person who matter to you anymore". Emily don't be ridicules, I told you that wasn't true. "yeah well I'm sorry if I find it hard to believe you when your not here". For a moment I almost forgot what I had just seen, and a feeling of guilt washed over me at the pain I had caused towards her. However it was short lived as the image of her and Paige reappeared, and I shut my eyes clenching my fists. Yeah well I'd say I'm sorry but honestly after what I just saw I don't care. Were done Emily, you can go be with Paige she obviously make you happy. I opened the drives door and hopped in turning the key. "ALI NO! don't... Please don't go, I'm sorry okay we can fix this" I shook my head. I'm done with you Emily, I'm so done with you.

Emily's pov

I stood in the freezing cold, with limited clothing on shaking as my body begins to rack with sobs, I watch helplessly as the love of my life drove away and all I could do was stand there. Moments passed, and I soon realised just how long I'd been standing starring into the distance. I forced myself to turn around, and I saw a swarm of people who had obviously just watched the whole thing. The anger that started to build up inside me, made me begin to walk faster, and when I open our dorm room in frustration, I was surprised to see Paige still in there. "Emily I'm sorry..." Don't! I step closer yelling at Paige. I never want to speak to you again, you hear me? I walked over to my side of the room emptying all of my clothes into my suit case, and I began crying as I collected the three photos of my now ex girlfriend and I, and shoved them into my bag. when my side of the room was completely empty, including everything removed from my desk I turned to face her. I hope your happy, Alison just broke up with me. I threw my key at Paige, before slamming the door a little louder then planed and hopping into the lift. Pressing number three, I closed my eyes as even more tears leaked from the corners. I pressed a faint knock to Lauren's door and when the tinny blonde opened it, her eyes were full of concern. She ignored all my bags and instead dragged me inside and it wasn't until then, when she was holding me that I let go completely, Unable to believe what had just happen. I'm unsure for how long exactly I continued to cry, but at some point I must have fallen asleep because I woke up to Lauren still holding me, except this time Morgan was also present.

"Okay so do you want to tell us what the hell happen Em? why do you have all your stuff". Morgan questioned me and I sighed. Alison and I have had a ruff last month, I got jealous of a new guy mate she has and I told her about it, she said she would take care of it and I don't even know if she did, she's been distant and we hadn't talked in 48 hour. I went to a party with Paige last night, and this morning she was still drunk. I was upset about Ali and she was comforting me, next thing I know we kissed. I kissed her back and I shouldn't have, I... I stopped it, I told her I was with Ali and she didn't even care. she's been into me since we first met, at lest that's what Ali claimed but I chose not to believe it until today. The worse part is Alison saw the whole thing "what she's here"? She was, she came to fix things and was planing on staying for my birthday, But now she's gone, she freaked out we argued and she ended it. I... I've lost her for good... And it's, it's all my fault. It hurts way to much already, and I just want her back. I took all of my things and gave Paige my key, can... Can I move in here please? "Of course you can Em, I'd love a new roomie Lauren piped up and I half smiled as they hugged me. " It will be okay Em you will see, were gonna get your girl back I promise".

Ali's pov

Arriving back at home my hands were shaking as I cut off the engine. My eyes were blood shoot from all the tears, and and my chest was tight from the amount of un even breathing. Should I have driven all this way? No, should I have pulled over? yes, but all I could think about right now was that I was home safe. Stepping out of the car, my legs felt like jelly, and my keys rattled in my un steady hand against the door, when I got inside the house was dead silent, spencer was still away and the kitchen was completely bare except for two coffee cups. I dragged my exhausted body inside, my bag trailing behind as I headed towards my room, and when I opened the door with the little amount of strength I had left I came face to face with the million and one picture of me and her. Without thinking I collected them all placing them all in the bottom draw of my desk, and pulled out my diary. Fumbling with the Pages and drying my tears, I sat on my bed and began to write.

(Dear diary,

It hurts,... God It hurts so much more then I ever thought it could, just... just tell me how to make it stop? How do I make the pain go away? They say that the first time someone break your heart it's the worst, and god I hope so because I don't ever want to feel like this again. Why? Why do bad things always happen to me? What did I do that was so wrong in this world to deserve this? Emily, she... She was different... she was the one for me, as cliché as it sounds she was it. She was the best thing in my life, and she cheated on me , some would say a kiss is just a kiss, but it's not, it's not when the person doing it knows exactly how you feel, even if just for a split second you give in, it's still a kiss. The pain in her voice when I left her was evident, the sound of her crying fills my head, but so does the sound of mine, I couldn't look at her so I left, I left her standing there as I repeated the only two words that felt right in that moment. "I'm done, I'm so done with you".)

So, i know I know, it sucks that that they broke up but stick with me, I promise that things will get better. For anyone who was wondering I picture Lauren in this story as Bailey Buntain who plays Lauren on faking it. So if you don't know who that is you should look it up, as for any other characters I will leave that for your imagination. I will be sure to update as soon as possible so until then I hope you enjoyed this.