1 Month after the BITCH took over
I'm writing it kind of like a journal, so it's short. But, easy to understand.

Disclaimer: I own nothing but my own ideas. Everything else belongs to their rightful owners.

I can't even look at him anymore. We barely talk, and when we do it takes everything I have not to cry and tell him the truth. I started blaming myself, why couldn't I get there faster? Why did I ever leave his side? That's why I started a journal/scrapbook of all OUR memories. That way when he's ready, he can know the truth, if I'm even here. Or maybe I'll just live with this lie forever. No, I can't let this bitch win. I can't give up on him, I just can't.

2 Months after the BITCH took over

Things are getting worse. He and Kit are serious. All they ever do is kiss and it's almost like she's rubbing it in my face. When they first kissed I locked myself in my room for a week before needing something to eat. After that I've just been trying to avoid them. God if he only knew the truth.

3 Months after the BITCH took over

I can't take it, I just can't. I've already gone 3 months 1/4 of a year watching them! We actually had a conversation today about what happened.
"Hey Amy,"
"Hey Ty,"
"How's Black Bird doing?"
"Not so well,"
"Hmmm... It's weird, how come you're working here?,"
"What?,"
" I know Heartland is your family's and all. But, Kits been doing most of the work,"

"Excuse me?"
"Ya, she cured Storm and Venture, when you were lost, on your stupid jumping circuit."
I started to cry.
"Wow Amy. I never knew you couldn't handle the truth."
"No, Ty. You know what I can't stand, watching you with HER!"
"You have a problem with Kit?"
"Ya, I do"
"Wow. Again Amy, I LOVE Kit, and that's just too bad if you can't handle it"
"NO YOU DON'T! You love me Ty. WE were dating before the accident. YOU LOVE ME. Or at least I thought you did." I said walking past him.
That night I packed my bag and went and spent a couple days with Soraya.

4 Months after the BITCH took over

Tonight was the worst night ever, ok maybe not ever. But, it was one of the worst. Kit actually spent the night with Ty. I doubt they did anything, but still. I also found a picture of me and Ty after he had given me the promise ring. We were laughing and Ty had his arms wrapped around me. I cried myself to sleep from that night on, until, Kit left for a weekend in Montana. That was the weekend I locked myself in my room. Why? You ask? When, Kit left Ty went with her. Ty and Kit. They, spent a weekend in Montana together, we were supposed to do that for our anniversary, because we had spent so little time traveling. With, Ty in school and me working with clients. It was suppose to be our weekend. But, now it is theirs. Good, for them, good for fricking them.

5 Months after the BITCH took over

I'm sorry, I'm so, so, so sorry. I should have been there. I should have never left your side. I keep blaming myself. I know, it's not my fault. But, I still can't help to feel responsible. Yesterday, I went to work with Black Bird and they were was talking about t – touch with Kit. Kit was doing t-touch with Black Bird. She wasn't even doing it right. "Like this?" Kit asked. Ty just smiled. "Nope, and if you keep doing it like that he'll kick you" I said grabbing Black Bird's halter and walking into his stall. "Ty, I was doing it right?" Kit asked giving him puppy – dog eyes.

"Well, kind of, you'll get it eventually"

"Ok, that means I get to spend more time with you"

"Good"

Ty kissed her. I just gagged.

"Something wrong Amy?" Kit asked.

"Nope" I said pushing her out of my way to get to Black Bird.

"Well, that was rude"

I just rolled my eyes and put Black Bird's halter on. Kit just stood in the doorway, and refused to move.

"Look, Kit, just move, okay?"

"No"

"What?"

"I said no"

I put Black Bird's lead around his neck and walked towards Kit.

"You've already stolen my boyfriend, my life and my clients. What more do you want?"

"Nothing, I'm happy, how 'bout you?"

"You bitch!" I said stepping towards her.

"Hey!" Ty yelled stepping between me and Kit."That's enough!"

Kit just took a step towards me, pushing Ty along with her. "Hey, babe, she's not worth it ok?" Ty said pulling Kit out of the stall.

"I'm not worth it?" I asked Ty.

He just rolled his eyes. "We'll talk about this later ok?" He said as he pulled Kit out of the barn.

Later

I was in the barn when Ty, wanted to talk.

"Hey, listen about what happened with Kit earlier. I'm sorry, ok, she get like that sometimes"

"S'okay, I'm not worth it?"

"That's not what I meant, okay? You are totally worth it, it's just Kit and I are, I honestly don't know."

"What? What's going on?" I said sitting down on a hay bale.

"I know I love her, but it just doesn't feel right, it feels different, maybe it's just me, but I just don't think I truly love her."

Maybe there was hope for us. Maybe, just maybe, he could handle the truth.

6 Months after the bitch took over

Well, it's been six months since Kit took the love of my life away from me. Half a year, half a fucking year I've had to watch Kit and Ty together. It has killed me. The Ty I know would never go back to Kit, ever. But, then again, the Ty I knew and loved, died as soon as Kit replaced his memories. I saw him once again; when he told me he didn't know if he really loved her. But, since then, nothing. Dates gone by, kisses had, nights spent over, and make out sessions interrupted. Every time, I would lock myself in my room and cry. For months, I would do that. But, what else can you do when someone takes the one you love?

SORRY FOR SUCH A LONG DELAY... GOT SIDE TRACKED WITH MY NEW HORSE!

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