Chapter 10, it's pretty short and nothing big really happens in it.

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Crash and Burn

Chapter 10: Forsaken Angel

Without another thought, I flew to my bathroom and immersed myself under the cooling shower.

I had all the reason to be furious at my family; they had been so easily manipulated by Diamond's lies. But I couldn't, they didn't know anything. For a reason. They were not to be drawn into this, I had lost everyone, I was not going to lose my family too. It was better that they hated me than for them to disappear or be hurt.

The only person to be angry at was myself. No matter what the guys said, I had caused this to happen. I had single handedly lost the girls, I had single handedly locked Mamoru up in that prison. I had destroyed my own life.

Somewhere in the back of my mind I was screaming at the top of my lungs, trying to break free from this hell that my life had become.
But on the outside, I was standing under the freezing water, trying to wash away all the filth that my body had accumulated, all the filth that it would keep accumulating. It wouldn't even be able to be called my own body.

I finally realized that I couldn't stay under the shower forever. I would have to go out and face Harumi and Ayame's questions, I had a feeling that they wouldn't leave me alone until they found out…everything.

I wondered how they had gotten back in here. Jay, Nick and Kevin must have helped them get up the tree and onto the roof. Though I don't get why they couldn't have kept them at their house, my house was a war zone at the moment.

"Usagi?" I heard my mom knock on the door of my room

"Be right there!" I called from the bathroom, hurrying into my clothes and slippers.

I passed Harumi and Ayame who were hastening to hide in the bathroom.

"What?" I asked as I pulled the door open

"That was very rude of you," she murmured as she came and sat down on the bed, "To leave Diamond down there with just us"

"You guys looked like you were having fun" I muttered as I combed my hair

"Why didn't you tell us the two of you were dating?"

My mind turned to mush at the words, body going rigid, "It doesn't matter" I whispered

"But what about Mamoru, he's still missing isn't he? With the girls?"

I nodded.

She got up, "I don't understand you, Usagi, moving on so fast, you seemed so in love with Mamoru. I didn't think I raised my daughter to be like this"

"Whatever" I murmured

She shook her head, "Where's my daughter? She disappeared again, just like all of last year"

I shrugged my shoulders, trying to hold back the tears.

She shook her head in disappointment and walked out. Then dad walked in.

"What, am I getting interrogated by the whole family now?" I snapped

"No, I just wanted to say that I approve of Diamond"

"Oh that's nice, approve of the fucked up one," I muttered under my breath,

On the inside I was burning with anger.

"How can you even do that? Mamoru was so much better than Diamond, and you barely liked him" I said when I finally managed to speak

"I always knew there was something wrong with that boy, Diamond just told me what I already knew" he said

I rolled my eyes, "You always jump to the worst conclusions, that stuff that Diamond said was a total lie, Mamoru is an amazing person"

"I don't have any proof of that" Dad snapped, "All I know is that your life took a horrible turn when he turned up"
"So, this is a good life? With Diamond?" I spat, "You don't even know me then"

I walked to the door, pulling it all the way open, "I'd like to get some sleep, if you don't mind"

He sighed, "I just don't know what to do with you"

I shrugged.

He walked out.

I slammed the door closed behind him, locking it.

Harumi and Ayame poked their heads outside the bathroom door, looking around wearily. I waved them out, "They're gone"

"I feel silly, hiding in a teenage girl's bedroom like a boy," Ayame said as she sat down on the bed

"Sorry" I muttered as I brushed my hair

Harumi came and took it out of my hands and led me to a chair, "Let me" she said as she sat me down and began combing.

"Are you okay?" Ayame asked, facing me

"Fine" I said as I closed my eyes, liking how Harumi was brushing my hair. It felt so soothing.

"We didn't know what to do, when he showed up at the door" Harumi muttered down to me, "Your hair is amazing by the way, so silky and long"

"Then he just grabbed you and left," Ayame said sadly, completely ignoring Harumi's comment about my hair

I shrugged.

"Usagi, we'd like to know what's happening" Harumi said as she finished brushing

I knew they were right. They had been forced into this and deserved an explanation.

"All right" I muttered wearily. I sank onto the bed beside Ayame, "I'll tell you whatever you want to know"

"We're sorry" Harumi said, sitting beside me, "We know you don't want to talk about it, but we want to understand…" I was officially trapped between the two of them.

"It's alright" I said half-heartedly, "Ask me whatever"

And they did. They asked everything- from the beginning, the meeting with Diamond, the boys…everything. My answers were long, including everything that was relevant. I had to tell the truth about Sailor Moon, the Senshi and the Shitennou, whom even they had heard of, including everything about the evil Generals, our past lives, anything that was mixed up in this.

They were both very attentive listeners, asking for details when they thought I skipped something. The question answer lasted for an hour, maybe even more, but when they'd caught onto everything; the Silver Millennium, the battle with Dark Kingdom, the girls and the guys, Diamond, the deals- they just looked at me pityingly.

"Is that all?" I asked, deciding to ignore their pity

"Oh, Usa, we're so sor-"

"Don't," I whispered, "Just don't…"

"How are you still surviving?" Ayame wondered quietly, "If I were you…I'd be long crazy"

I shrugged, "I think I'm making my way there"

"God, I feel so awful, asking these prying questions" Harumi was saying gently, "We really shouldn't have"

"It's alright" I said again

Harumi pulled me into her and wrapped me in her embrace; Ayame was smoothing my hair down quietly. I let them do it. I had no energy to do anything else. They were just trying to comfort me and it felt good. It felt good to be held, to be able to lean on someone who knew everything. All about the deals, about our powers, about the horror I was going through.

I finally pulled myself from them, not wanting to, but knowing that I needed to, "Anyway, how'd the time with the guys go?"

Ayame sighed tiredly, "It went as best it could, I suppose"
Harumi nodded, "They warmed up to us a little after- well you know, you saw it all"

"How are they taking it?"

"Not very well, I think, they didn't expect…" Ayame said softly

"All that" I said, sparing her the explanation

"…yes" Harumi murmured softly, looking slightly embarrassed

"There's nothing else, right?" I asked softly, "No other surprises that you two would know about?"

Ayame shook her head, "No, I don't think so"

I nodded, "Well, that's a relief, surprises really have their way of throwing us all off"

"What are we supposed to do now?" Harumi asked

I shrugged, "No idea, haven't you noticed that I'm only trying to get through one day at a time?"

Ayame smiled, "And you're doing it well"

I winced, "Not really"

I got up, making my way to the window, "Um, I think I'll just…"

Harumi nodded knowingly, "Tell him we said hello"

"Oh, Usa" Ayame called, I turned back to her.

"Thank you"

I nodded.

I crawled outside quickly and quietly, I could already make out Kevin's car.

Gathering whatever gravel was on the ground I threw it at the car. It didn't make it; actually it wasn't even close.

I groaned and sat down. I didn't want to climb down the tree, walk all the way over to his car and then back again.

"You beckoned?" he called as he came out of his car

I smiled as he climbed up, "Hey"

"Hello, oh nice throw by the way, I think it made it halfway to me" he said, smirking as he sat down next to me

I pouted, "Gravel is light, it doesn't travel far"

"Come on," he said, laughing, "You can come up with a better excuse, like that your arms are as weak as branches"

I stuck my tongue out at him, "I can still kick your butt in karate"

"That's because you've been training for the last two years, it's only been one for me"

I smiled, "Yup, and I'm better"

"Careful now," he said, smirking, "I could easily crush you at the moment"

I giggled, "That's because you're so big, like a gorilla"

"And you're a fly? Why yes, that's true" he said, laying down, his hands behind his head.

I joined him, staring wonderingly at the stars, "I wonder what they say" I whispered

"Nick'll probably know, he's taken to sleeping on the roof every night" Kevin murmured

I sighed, "So, how's everything going?"

"You mean, how am I taking finding out that my dead mother is not so dead anymore and that three of my best friends are directly related to me?"

I smiled, "Very…nicely put, but yes"

He sighed, "Truthfully, I think I always knew, deep inside of me, that we were related somehow, sure, I didn't expect it like this, but we were brothers long before any of this happened"

"I'm sorry that you had to find out this way"
"If we hadn't, then we would never have known," he muttered, "And honestly, I don't care that much anymore, the things you go through together makes a family, not blood"

"So, what does that make the girls and me?"

"Little sisters," he said, smiling up at the stars, "Definitely little sisters"

"Always wanted a little sister, I see?"

He smiled, looking at me, "Sort of, someone to care for, protect, it makes me feel as if I'm actually doing something worthwhile"

"I'd love to have you as a big brother" I said, cuddling up to him, "You fit the bill, all bigger and smarter, the type I would ask for help with bullies, help with life problems, same with Zach"

He laughed, "So, what use would Nick be?"

"The feelings one" I said, "Definitely the one to ask for help with guy problems"

"Do I even need to ask about Jay?"

I giggled, "The one I would ask for help for playing tricks on people, the one to cheer me up when something got me down"

"Well, then, I would go to Makoto or you for that" he murmured

"Let me guess, Ami would be the one to go to with homework questions, just like Zach would be for me"

He nodded, grinning, "Definitely, and Rei would be the feeling one, she always knows what's going on with girls, I'm totally clueless in the area"

I giggled, "I wouldn't say that, Minako warmed up to you quite fast"

He smiled, "It felt like forever to me"

"What about me? What use am I?"

He frowned, "The one who I love talking to, having fun with, just spending time with"

I smiled serenely, "Thanks"

He cradled his arms around me, smoothing my hair down, "I miss Minako" he murmured

"I know" I whispered, "I do too"

"She would know what to do, how to get back at him"

I nodded, "She would"

"I don't think she'll forgive me for letting this happen to you" he muttered softly,

I frowned, we were back at this, "She will, I know she will"

"I won't deserve her forgiveness"

"You will!" I said, looking up at him, tears in my eyes, "Please, Kevin, believe me when I say that I wouldn't even be here without the three of you. If that doesn't make up for whatever you think you need to be forgiven for, I don't know what will"
He wiped the tears that had escaped away, "Sorry for making you cry" he murmured

I smiled, "I forgive you"

He groaned, "Not the 'f' word"

I giggled, the tension vanishing, "I love you, Kevin, thank you so much for everything"

"Likewise, little sis" he murmured. I curled up next to him, the body heat dispelling the coldness in my heart, "You're an awesome big brother" I murmured as my eyes closed.

"You're a better little sister" I heard him whisper before I was whisked away.

--

I had to see them.

I couldn't remember why, but I needed to make sure they were okay.

I ran down the street, voices whispering horribly all around me. I clutched my ears, trying to expel them from my mind.

"Sick"

"Whore"

"Murderer"

"What! No!" I cried out, still trying to keep the voices out, "I'm not a murderer!"

"Killer"

I whimpered.

I ran as fast as I could away from the street. I arrived at the house.

I flew inside, screaming as the whispers grew louder.

"Zach! Kevin! Jay! Nick!" I cried, "Help!"

I was met with just more and louder whispers.

"Ami! Makoto! Minako! Rei!"

"MAMORU!"

"Sailor Moon" the whisper floated to me, coated in darkness

"Usagi"

"Who are you!?" I screamed

I walked into a room, where the TV was supposed to be was a large statue of – of me?

It raised its hand, out to me. I tried to move to get to it but I suddenly couldn't move.

She stared mournfully at me, weeping red blood. She opened her mouth, trying to say something.

"What?" I asked, she was sobbing silently. Her arm reached out to me as if in comfort. Then three of her fingers curled back; she was pointing- at me?

"…Behind you"

I whipped around, only to come face to face with Diamond Torii. His hands were dripping with blood and reaching for me. They enclosed around my wrists and fire burst from me. The fire fell onto the floor and began consuming the area around us.

We both silently turned to look at my statue. It was suddenly an ice sculpture, dripping water as it melted slowly.

"NO" I cried as I looked at it, if only it was fire resistant, the fire wouldn't be able to consume it. It screamed horrendously as it melted into a pile of water.

I tried to wrench my hands free of Diamonds, but as usual, it did nothing but tighten his grip.

He dragged me to the outside of the room, his hands smearing blood all over me as he yanked me around.

Suddenly he stopped and we stared down at a large dark hole.

"I know now," he whispered in my ear, "what I have to do"

"What!? No!" I cried, understanding easily what he meant. I couldn't go down, I didn't belong there.

"But you do" he murmured, "We both belong there, and I'm taking you with me this time"

"No! LEAVE ME ALONE!" I yelled as I thrashed around, trying to pull myself from him

"But you belong with me" he murmured, "You belong in the darkness with me"

"I won't go!"

Suddenly a large crash flew the front door open, I saw three silhouettes.

"Let her go!" cried Kevin as he came burling to us.

"She doesn't belong with you" Diamond hissed at the three of them

"Guys!" I cried, "Thank you for coming!"

They gave roars of anger and came running at us.

Suddenly they vanished with a large crack.
"What?" I asked softly, "Where did they go?"

"They're gone," he whispered, "Like they're supposed to be"

"NO!" I cried, "BRING THEM BACK!"

"I'm taking you down with me, you won't need them there"

"NO! I won't go!" I cried at the top of my lungs, still thrashing around in his hands

"Then I'll pull you down" he murmured savagely

He dropped in, dragging me with him.

At the last second possible, I grabbed onto the ledge, trying to heave myself over.

Diamond seized my ankle as he fell, trying to pull me down.

"Let me go!" I cried as I tried to kick him off. I wouldn't be able to hold on for long with all this weight.

"I'll never let you go" he spat up at me, pulling on my ankles even more.

My hands began slipping from the edge.

"Usako…" whispered through the air

"MAMORU!" I cried, the energy returning to me. That word had given me back the will to live, to fight, it was my everything. And with a forceful kick, I pushed Diamond off of me.

"NO!" he cried as he fell below me.

It was a long time before I heard the crash that signified he had reached the bottom.

He had really fallen deep.

After I finally managed to pull myself up, I looked up.

Darkness suffocated the area. As my eyes adjusted I noticed headstones surrounding me.

I looked down at myself, barely being able to see, I did manage to make out the bloodstains all over me. I was forever stained by Diamond.

I walked around, trying to discern anything familiar.

Then light flared out from the center gravestone. I crawled to it.

"NO!" I cried

The gravestone. It read…

Mamoru Chiba

"NO!"

I managed to make my way to it, digging furiously with my hands. Mamoru was down there, waiting for me to save him. He was waiting for me…

Suddenly a figure appeared next to me. The names on the other gravestones were suddenly readable.

Makoto Kino
Minako Aino
Rei Hino
Ami Mizuno
Zachary Morrison
Jason Shaw
Kevin Ford
Nicholas Parker

"Found them, have you?"

I screamed.

"You can join them soon enough" he whispered harshly in my ear as a grave suddenly appeared beneath me, I fell into it.

"USAGI!" A voice called and I screamed hysterically, trying to get out of the grave. "WAKE UP!"

I gasped as I shot up. Looking around my surroundings, I wasn't in a grave, not surrounded by gravestones.

Gentle arms were surrounding me, rubbing my back soothingly.

"It's all right" Harumi whispered

"But-"

"You're okay," she murmured

I suddenly realized how the things that I had seen, weren't possible in the real world. Statues didn't speak, they didn't cry. Holes didn't appear in the middle of a room…nor in a graveyard.

I'd been dreaming…a nightmare.

"Are you okay?" Ayame asked, staring at me concernedly from beside me

I blinked, shivering like crazy, "Huh, yeah, I…"

"You're lucky your parents left early" Ayame said softly, "Your screaming would have forced them to come barreling in"

"I…doubt that, they're used to my nightmares" I muttered as Harumi finally let me go

"What happened, it was so…unlike your last nightmare" Harumi whispered softly

"I don't know"

I got up, walking into the bathroom.

I closed it and right after, collapsed to the floor, sobbing my eyes out. I don't know how long I was lying on the cold, hard tile floor, sobbing.

"Usa?" I heard a soft voice from behind the door, "You okay?"

"Fine" I managed to gasp out, but the voice was strangled with tears.

"Let me in" Jay said softly

I shook my head wordlessly, the tears still dripping messily down my cheeks.

"Usa, please" he said, wriggling the door knob, "I can't help you from here"

"Don't," I said, "Don't help me"

He groaned, "Please, Usagi, don't go back to that" I could hear the weariness in his voice.

The exhaustion that I had instilled. That I was going to keep instilling, till they were dead.

Suddenly the lock clicked open, and Jay walked in, paperclip in hand, "I knew that would come in handy someday"

He looked down at me, the tears were still flowing. I could make out Harumi and Ayame peering in worriedly.

He lifted me up off the floor and wordlessly carried me to the bed.

"Usa," he whispered as he laid me down, "What's happening to you?"

He wiped the tears away silently, as if waiting for me to answer.

I shivered, the darkness consuming my heart.

"Oh, Usa" he sighed, "You have to stay strong, remember?"

I whimpered, covering my face with my hands.

"What happened?" he asked, turning to Harumi and Ayame

"She had a nightmare" Harumi supplied softly,

"Again" Ayame sighed

He groaned, "She always did have nightmares when it came to that bitch"

"What time is it?" I asked, when I finally gathered myself together

"Ten" Harumi said from beside me, she had been calmingly combing my hair.

Jay held me close to him, trying to stop me from shivering. It had eventually dulled.

"I'd better get to work" I murmured as I got up.

"I'll drive you" Jay whispered as he joined me, "You shouldn't drive in your condition"

I shrugged as I went to take a shower.

I was out within minutes, murmuring my goodbyes to Harumi and Ayame I followed Jay to his car.

I remembered vaguely that the first time I had seen his car I had been amazed, it felt like such a little thing now. It felt like ages ago that all that had happened.

He drove to the store silently, "I'll see you at lunch" he whispered as I got out of the car.

I worked hard, liking that the work was keeping me too busy to think too much. My mind kept wandering back to the dream though. What had it meant? Was it like…the dream I had that had predicted the destruction of the Shitennou and the Senshi?

I prayed that it wasn't.

Jay drove me home again.

"Come over when you feel like it" he said as he gave me a peck on the forehead, "We love you, and never you forget that"

I made my way inside, looking forward to curling up with a book that would shut my mind off. But of course, that didn't work out quite well.

My mom was sitting at the table, sipping some tea, staring off into space, I noticed a cup on the opposite side; someone had obviously come to visit.

"Hi" I said as I began making my way to the fridge, pouring myself some soda.

It wasn't till I was almost outside the room that she spoke, "Sit down, Usagi" it was more of an order than a request

I sighed as I did so.

"Where did I go wrong?"

"What?" I asked, "What are you talking about?"

"I always thought that I was a cool mom, you know, letting you do as you wanted, giving you your freedom. Only one thing I asked, that you keep me in the loop, that you tell me when something was wrong…but you don't talk to me, you don't tell me anything"

"Mom, what's going on?"

"Diamond visited, he was looking for you"

My blood went cold. Yea, right, he was looking for me. He was just looking for someone to turn against me. Force them to see his way, till they didn't believe me.

"Mom," I said softly, "You can't believe anything he says, he-" I stopped

She was watching me coldly, "He told me what's been going on"

I narrowed my eyes, "And what's been going on according to him?"

"I know about Mamoru. That you slept with him"

"WHAT!?" I cried, anger burning in my eyes, "I did not-"

"Don't lie to me!" she yelled, "Don't you DARE lie again"

"I'm not lying!" I cried

"Why couldn't you tell me? When did you start becoming so secretive?" she asked softly, looking away from me

"Mom," I said, "Don't jump to conclusions, I never slept with Mamoru, and he's not the monster that you think he is"

"Oh, so he didn't sneak into your room repeatedly?"

"I- he did, but we never did anything like that!"

"Do you really think I'm that stupid, Usagi?" she asked exasperated, "He didn't sneak into your room to play cards"

"We didn't!" I cried, jumping up

"I don't even know you anymore!" she cried, looking up at me, "All there is between us is secrets! I'm not mad that you had sex with this boy, it's the lying that I can't take"

"Mom, just-" I said, trying to calm her down

"No, I will not just!" she cried, standing up and facing me, "Is this Mamoru good, because it would be a waste of time if he wasn't!"

I stared at her, appalled. How DARE she say something like that?

"Oh my god!" I cried, "You're believing the warped SHIT that comes out of Diamond Torii's mouth! You don't know him either! He-" I broke off before I said something dangerous.

Mom didn't even notice, just pushed in her own words, "At least he had the decency to tell me the truth! That's more that I can say for you!"

"Hey," Shingo said, wandering in, "What's with all the shouting?"

He stared at the two of us, sizing each other up, nearly at each other's throats.

I stepped away from them.

"You've really disappointed me, Usagi" Mom sighed

"Yea, you know what, you did too" I said as I walked to the stairs.
She grabbed my arm, "Wait, Usagi…"

I wrenched my arm out of her grasp, "Don't worry, I'm only going to my room, where the rest of the boys in my class can have their fun with me" I spat angrily, "You're happy that I'm at least I'm telling you the truth, right? I'm off to be the whore that you're so convinced that I am!"

With that I stormed up to my room.

"We're going to the guys" I snapped at Harumi and Ayame who had jumped when I pushed the door open. I waited till they climbed out of the window and joined them at my car.

"Usagi, are you okay?" Harumi asked after I had sped away from the house

"Perfectly fine," I said sarcastically, "Why do you ask?"

"Usa, calm down, you're going to crash into something" Ayame said from the back

I slowed down, it wouldn't help anyone if the three of us died.

"You guys should stay here" I said when I pulled into the guys' driveway, "I think Diamond's officially done trying to get to the guys"

"But what about you?" Harumi asked as she got out of the car

"I need some time to myself" I said, "Thanks though"

The second they were both out of the car I reversed and was out of there before Jay had even pulled the door open. I heard shouts coming after me but I just ignored them.

I found my sanctuary at the beach once again and lay there watching the sun go down.

My phone vibrated, oh yay, a text message from Diamond.

"Usagi- be at my house in 10 minutes"

I growled angrily at the phone, wanting to do everything but actually do what it said.

I lay there, trying to decide if I should go. Who was I kidding? It didn't matter if I wanted it, he'd find a way to drag me there anyway.

Of course, in about twenty minutes I felt my body transport away.

I landed hard on the floor.

"Thanks for coming" Diamond said sarcastically

"No problem" I muttered as I got up, brushing the sand off of me

He seized me and pulled me to him, kissing me deeply.

I didn't respond.

"Kiss back" he groaned through my lips.

"Get the fuck off of me" I spat as I pushed him off

"Hey" Diamond whined, "What was that for?"

I glared at him disbelievingly, "Did you forget the whole fact that I don't want to be here, oh and that you turned my own parents against me!"

He chuckled, "And did you forget that it doesn't matter if you want to be here or not"

He pulled me onto the bed with him, "Plus, the parents thing was for your own good"

I struggled to push him away, "Right, for my own good, don't even act as if any of this is for me, you're just being a selfish bitch"

He smirked, "Why, thank you," pulling me towards him, he began assailing my neck.

I sighed, "I've fulfilled your goddamned deal, what more is there?"

He finally stopped, looking into my eyes, his eyes were full of fire, "What makes you think that we're ever going to stop the deal?"

I slapped him, "What the fuck is your problem!?"

He smiled, "You kiss with that mouth?"

"You fucking made the deal! I do this and you return the girls and Mamoru!"

"The thing is," he said, smiling condescendingly, "I don't need the deal to keep you in line, you know that I'll kill them in the instant that you piss me off"

"I hate you" I moaned, trying to push him off of me

"As I said before, you hate what I do, but you don't hate me"

"I don't know how you can still believe that shit," I snapped, "You killed my cats, two of my best friends, kidnapped four of them and then tried to ruin the other three's lives, and turned my parents against me,"

"I'm bringing you down with me" he murmured against my skin as he unbuttoned my blouse.

I shivered, remembering him in my dream, "What is it with you and me? Why can't you just leave me alone!?"

He frowned, "You're beautiful, an innocent angel, you somehow come back after everything I do to you,"

I closed my eyes, hating how he had said it. I was not innocent and I never would be again.

"Now, enough talking" he whispered huskily as he pulled down my pants, "Let's get to the fun part"

--

"And thus, the poor angel loses her wings" words whispered in the air as I fled from the cold house.

An angel?

I was an angel?

I took the scissors from my table.

--C&B--

Hello, hope you guys enjoyed this chapter, things get even more crazy after this chapter.
Hm, i wanted to mention that the guys' fathers are going to be a pretty big part of this story, up to a point anyway. This story has a lot to do about forgiveness, so we'll see if it works out for them.
Chapter 11 should be up very very soon, as usual, and it starts out very nicely, which is not so usual.
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