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A/N: I'm so sorry that it has taken me so long to get this chapter out. RL is beyond hectic right now. I can't even begin to tell you all how messed up things are in my life right now. I can't even tell you when to expect another update because I truly don't know when it will come or when I will be able to sit down and write again, but I will not abandon this story. I will finish it, please just be patient with me.

Sam's POV

Making love to Bella felt so amazing and so wrong at the same time. My body enjoyed the feeling of her tight heat wrapped around me, but my heart screamed at me that she wasn't the one I belonged with. As I held her in my arms and promised that I would never hurt her or take her for granted and that I would cherish and love her for the rest of our lives if she let me, my heart constricted in my chest. I couldn't understand what was going on. I knew I cared deeply for Bella, but the more I thought about it, the more I began to wonder if I truly loved her like I thought I did.

I eventually fell asleep, but the memories of Leah haunted me. I awoke with a start when the reality of what I had done hit me like a ton of bricks. I ended things with Leah because of my imprint with Emily, but Emily broke the imprint. I never stopped loving Leah and now I have really messed up with Bella. She is never going to forgive me. Fuck, I don't even know how I will ever forgive myself. I should have made sure my feelings were solid before I took things this far with her. Now, I have this beautiful angel sleeping in my arms and when I confess everything to her she is going to be so hurt and she may end up hating me.

"Sam," Bella whispered. "Are you okay?"

I sighed, "I think we need to talk."

She nodded, "I think we need to talk too."

We both sat up and turned to face each other. I reached for her hands and held them tightly in my own. I had a feeling that after I told her what I had to say she would never let me touch her again. I didn't want to lose her, but I also knew that I would never be able to love her with my whole heart. Guilt ate at me and the longer I stared into her eyes the more it twisted in my stomach.

"I'm sorry," I blurted out.

"I made a mistake," she murmured at the same time. "What?" She questioned with a furrowed brow.

I took a deep breath and braced myself for her pain that was sure to come. I should have thought things through before I acted. I just hoped she didn't think I made love to her as a vendetta against Jacob. I would never use her and I prayed she would believe that.

"Please, just promise me that you will listen to everything that I have to say," I begged.

"I promise," she vowed.

"Last night was amazing and it was a moment in my life that I will never forget," I paused and squeezed her hands. "Bella, as I held you in my arms while you slept, I had a lot of time to think. I want you to know that I do not regret last night and I never will, but I also came to a realization."

"I don't regret last night either, but like you, I realized something," she whispered.

"What did you mean when you said you made a mistake?" I knew I was stalling, but I was so afraid that she would hate me and I never wanted to hurt her.

"I'll tell you, but I have a feeling there is more you want and need to tell me first," she gave me a small smile.

"I realized that I'm still in love with Leah," I paused when she frowned and a few tears slid down her cheeks. I reached for her and pulled her into my arms and lifted her into my lap. "I'm sorry Bella. I never wanted to hurt you. I swear to you that was never my intention. I didn't know that I was still in love with her and I'm torn because you do have a piece of my heart, but I fear that it will never be enough and you deserve more than that."

I knew I was rambling, but I needed her to know what I was feeling. Bella did indeed own a piece of my heart and I am sure she always would, but this beautiful angel deserved to be loved with someone's whole heart and not a fraction of it. She deserved so much more than I was capable of and I honestly didn't know if I would ever be capable of loving her with my whole heart.

"It's okay Sam. As much as I hate to admit this, I'm still in love with Jacob, but I don't want to be with him. I do love you, but like you, I don't love you with my whole heart and I feel you deserve more than a piece of my heart. What do we do?" She sighed through the tears that I could smell.

"I don't want to lose you and I know that makes me sound selfish, but I need you in my life. We have grown so close in the little time that we have been together and I can't imagine losing that now," I cupped her cheek and lifted her face to look into her eyes.

"If that makes you selfish, then I'm selfish too because I don't want to lose you either," she confessed.

"So, we'll be selfish together," I chuckled.

She grinned, "I'd like that, but I think we should stick to being friends, at least for now. We can always try for more than friendship later if we fall out of love with Leah and Jacob."

"I'd like that and I think if we truly want to, we will fall out of love with them. Maybe we can work on that together," I smirked.

She giggled, "Are you saying we can still have sex?"

A low growl rumbled in my chest and I lowered my lips to hers. I could smell her sweet breath as it fanned across my face as I whispered against her mouth. "Friends with benefits?"

"Most definitely," she moaned before my lips attacked hers.

I licked her bottom lip and she quickly allowed me entrance. I explored her delicious mouth and her hands slipped into my hair. She pulled me closer as she turned to straddle my lap and I grunted as her warm center brushed against my hardened member. I gripped her hips and positioned my cock at her entrance. We fell asleep naked so we didn't have to worry about discarding any clothes. She sunk down onto me and my eyes rolled into the back of my head. She was so tight and wet. Our need for each other started out slow, but it quickly became frantic. We were sweating, grunting, and moaning. You could hear our skin slapping against each other as I thrust upwards on her downward thrusts. She screamed out as her walls tightened around me and I growled with my release. I had the strangest urge to bite her, but I managed to bite my lower lip instead. We collapsed on the bed in a tangle of limps, both of us panting for air.

I wiped her damp her from her forehead and she giggled. I looked over at her and she looked completed satiated. She had a beautiful smile on her face and her skin was tinged pink. She opened her eyes and looked at me.

"That was, there are no words," she panted.

"I agree. I think we should do that again and again," I waggled my brows.

"Oh, I plan to have you as many times as I can," she purred and thus started a second round of our new relationship. It was late afternoon when we finally got out of bed, both of us spent. We showered and dressed quickly, but not quick enough. As we left the motel room, Jacob was pulling up on his motorcycle with a female on the back. I scooped Bella up and ran for her truck. We drove off quickly, but I watched as he followed us and I knew that we wouldn't be able to outrun him. I had a feeling things were about to get ugly.

A/N: I hope you enjoyed the chapter. I will update again as soon as possible. I'm sure you'll have questions and I will answer them as best as I can without giving much away. So go ahead and leave me a review, I do love reading them and I reply to each one.